Finn stormed out of Glee and drove home. Who does he think he is!  Finn thinks to himself. 

He is always off doing God knows what with his brother, performing front and center in glee and has everyone eating out of the palm of his hand! it took Finn weeks to gain even a sliver of trust. He was later informed that they even had a secret meeting about kicking him out! Blaine hadnt been there more than a few days! 

He slams the door and marches upstairs. Receiving disapproving looks from Burt and Carol. 

After cooling off in the shower he flings himself into bed. Hes out within a few minutes.

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His alarm goes off loud and shrill. When he opens his eyes hes somewhere vaguely familiar. His old room.

"Mom?" He calls walking down his old hallway. Her head pokes around the corner of the kitchen.

"What!" She calls tiredly. Something was wrong. Her face looked aged and eyes dark with bags under them, sleepless nights.

"Whats going on?" He asks wearily.

"Well I have another shift from 7 to 8 so Ill be home late." She says blankly.

Finn blinks.

"Mom thats like a 13 hour shift!" He gasps. She looks at him oddly.

"Finn, Ive only been working the same shift for a month now." She says."You know the rules. No sneaking Quinn over!" She adds in after thought.

He scratches his head. Quinn? She probably means Rachel? Whatever.

"What about Burt? Or Kurt?" He asks. She blinks.

"Who?" She asks. He laughs.

"Haha, funny mom. Really though." He says.

"Honey, I have no idea who youre talking about." She says wearily.

"Your husband and step-son!" Finn shouts anxiously.

"Finn Christopher Hudson! I have no idea what youre talking about!" She exclaims throwing her hands up. Then he sees it, or doesnt. Theres no wedding ring, not even an engagement. 

"Hummel?" He treads carefully.

"Burt Hummel!?" She exclaims. Finn nearly jumps in excitement before its quickly squashed.

"The town drunk?" She adds. What!

"What?" He asks.

"We are taking about the same Burt Hummel, right? What has gotten into you?" She asks. Finn shakes his head.

"You better go, youll be late for school." She says watching him carefully.

He nods before running back to his room and changing. Something weird is going on.

--- 

He makes it to school in record time. Its different. Everyones bustling to their lockers as usual but somethings wrong. They cower away from him. Theyre afraid!

"Hudson! What the hell took you so long!?" Karofsky says clapping his shoulder. Finn shrugs him off.

"What the hell! Get away from me Karofsky!" Finn says pushing him. 

"Whats up with you?" He asks. Finn gaps at him.

"Me? How about you! Since when have we been friends!" Finn hisses. After what hes done to Kurt

"Since, like, forever." Karofsky says dumbly.

"You, me and Puckerman! Too bad hes still in Juvie..." Karofsky trails off. 

"Not after what you did to my brother!" Finn exclaims. 

"Brother? What the hell are you talking about!" Karofsky shouts gathering attention.

"Kurt!" Finn exclaims. Karofsky pales.

"Not funny man." Karofsky whispers in his ear. Finn gives him a dumb look.

"Come on." Karofsky drags him to the nearest classroom.

"Listen, I know what happened has been messing with you, hell, all of us! But its time to move on! Honestly! We didnt know it would happen!" Karofsky says.

"What would happen?" Finn asks. Karofsky continues without really hearing.

"I mean, we didnt know he- How would we know the little fag would- we didnt mean for it to happen!?" Karofsky rants. Finn chokes on air. Fag, KURT. Hes in trouble!

"What!" Finn gasps.

"Dude, are you okay?" Karofsky asks.

"Dont call me dude." Finn hisses storming out. Kurt, have to find Kurt. He runs down the hall to the choir room. Or what used to be the choir room.

"Hudson! You dont have me until 4th period!" A unrecognizable teacher exclaims. Finn was standing in a computer lab. We never had one of those!

"S-sorry." He says stumbling out.

He sighs in relief when he sees familiar faces.

"Artie! Tina! Wait up!" He runs after them. They freeze, in terror.

"Listen, I already got ramp road and slushied! Please! No more!" Artie cries.

"P-pl-ease I-I a-a-a-" Finn silenced her.

"Im not going to hurt you guys!" Finn exclaimed shocked.

"But yesterday you and the team locked me in a port-a-potty and rolled it." Artie dead-panned. Finn paled.

"I-I would never-"

"Then you and the team cornered Tina and mocked her for her stutter and dating a handicap." Artie cut him off. Finn noticed a comforting hand on Arties shoulder, Tinas hand.

"Have you seen Kurt?" He cries. They look at each other confused.

"Is this some kind of sick joke!" Artie says wheeling away. Damn! Where is he! Is he sick? Hurt!

"Rachel!" He calls after them.

"Rachel Berry! Where is she!" He asks. Artie sighs angrily.

"If I answer, will you leave!" He snaps. Finn nods.

"She transferred out after glee ended." Artie says.

"Glee! Wheres Mr. Schue?" He asks. They look at him like hes crazy.

"Th-h-e S-spa-nish tea-cher!?" Tina stutters confused. Finn runs to the Spanish room.

"Mr. Schue! I need to talk to you!" He barges in the classroom.

"Mr. Hudson? Whats wrong?" He says ushering Finn outside.

"Everything! Everyone looks at me like Im a monster! Artie and Tina act like they dont know me! Kurts missing! Glee clubs over! Whats going on?" Finn pleads. 

"Finn, are you on drugs? Honestly." He asks. Finn laughs hysterically.

"No!" He exclaims.

"Then youd know that the football team bullies fellow peers and Glee club has been over since the teacher was fired." He explains.

"Yea, but you take over glee club!" Finn says before adding,"I dont participate in the bullying, I try to prevent it." 

"I tried Finn, but Rachel Berry was the only one brave enough to tryout. I needed more people. So glee ended and she transferred to a school with a music program." He says.

"No! Kurt talks Mercedes into it, and Artie and Tina are dared after the "goth squad" spaghettis Kurt and Rachel!" Finn recalls. Kurt!

"Wheres Kurt!" Finn asks for the millionth time that day.

"Finn-" he says with that look Finn HATES that look.

"Wheres Blaine!" He tries instead.

"Blaine?" Mr. She asks.

"Anderson. Blaine Anderson." He says, a little bitter. Kurt would be with Blaine.

"Never heard of him." Mr. Schuester says. Finns had enough. He runs down the hall, out the door and hops in his car. He drives to the Hummeldson- now Hummel home. Kurts FATHER would know where he is!

He pulls into the once familiar driveway. Now covered by weeds and molding on the house.

He knocks.

"Mr. Hummel!" He calls. The door opens.

A still bald but scruffy man in a beer stained wife beater answers.

"What do you want kid?" Burt asks, drunk.

"Wheres your son? Kurt?" Finn asks hopeful.

The mans bottle shatters in his hand.

"Think youre funny! Think you can mock my son after what you did!" He says guesturing to the letterman jacket.

"You killed my son you piece of shit!" He says slamming the door.

Killed

"No! No, no, no!" Finn repeats over and over. Then the words all come back. How everyone paled and skirted around the topic. Finn sped home and ran to his computer.

*Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, Lima, OH*

Then he sees it, a newspaper article.

STUDENTS OF WILLIAM MCKINLEY ARE SHOCKED TO DISCOVERED A FELLOW CLASSMATE OVERDOSED IN THE BOYS RESTROOM- Finn stops. A picture of Kurt stares back at him. Stylish as ever but missing that twinkle in his eyes and perfect smile.

He cant help but read on.

KURT ELIZABETH HUMMEL, 17, COMMITTED SUICIDE MARCH 20, 2009 Finns eyes blur. *Kurt died. He killed himself, at the place he most hated, in a filthy restroom, alone.*

Finn sobbed. His heart seemed to shatter. Loving, bitchy, caring, sarcastic, sappy, snappy, amazing, Kurt, was dead. He killed himself. Himself!

"No! This isnt real! It cant be happening!" He cried out.  It wasnt March 20, 2009! It was Feruary 10, 2010! Kurt and Blaine were just in glee! singing together!

Blaine.

Finns last hope.

*Blaine Devon Anderson, Westerville, OH*

He waits anxiously. 

no match found

"Impossible!" Finn screams

If theres no Blaine....no...this is a nightmare!

Finn pulls at his hair and scrubs his face before a dawning comes over him.

"Blaine doesnt exist! That means Kurt went into depression- and-" Finn choked, tears still streaming "no Kurt means no Burt and Carol, no talking Mercedes into glee, no spaghetti at lunch with Rachel makes no Artie and Tina, no glee club! No Rachel and I making there be a Quinn and I making ME still a dumb bullying jock-" Finn breaks. Blaine was an anchor for Kurt. Kurt was an anchor for everything. If there were ever a time Finn REALLY missed his little brother, it was now.

"Im sorry! Im so sorry! So freaking sorry!" Finn cried into his pillow. He understands now. Blaine isnt a curse, hes a blessing. He keeps this from happening.

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"Finn? Baby?" He hears a soft voice. 

"Mom!" Finn cries pulling her into a hug.

"Whats wrong sweetheart?" She asks. He catches sight of the open door. Stairs, not the apartment, hes home!

"Kurt! Wheres Kurt?" Finn scrambles out of bed. 

"Making breakfast, as always." She says carefully. Finn flys down the stairs.

He skids to a stop. 

Kurts dancing around the kitchen humming under his breath. Finn runs up behind him and wraps him in a giant hug lifting him off his feet.

"Finn!" He screeches.

"Kurt! Oh my god!" He cries. Kurt manages to turn off the stove with his foot still squirming.

"Finn! Let me go!" He yells.

"No! Never! I wont let you leave me again!" Finn sobs into Kurts back. 

"Finn, whats going on?" Kurt asks as calm as he can manage. Finn lowers him, arms just loose enough for Kurt to face him.

"I-I h-had a n-nightmare a-a-nod y-y-you-" Finn couldnt take it a broke down sobbing.

"Finn! Finn! Its okay!" Kurt says wrapping his arms around his brother.

"N-no I-I-its not!" Finn gasps.

"What happened, Finn?" Kurt asks gingerly.

"You were.....g-gone." Finn whispers pained.

"Something happened to me?" Kurt asks. Finn nods vigorously before hiding his face in the crook of Kurts neck. Any other day Kurt would have laughed at how awkward it was since Finn was taller than him. Any other day.

"It was so real." He whispers sounding like a young boy.

"It was just a nightmare, Finn." Kurt reminds him holding his brother. Thats how their parents find them. Holding each other in the middle of the kitchen.