"Kurt, is everything alright?" Blaine asked, surprised to see Kurt at his door, and even more surprised at his disheveled state.

"No." He said, grabbing Blaines shoulders and pushing him inside. "Look Blaine, I know things between us have been really crazy these last few months, and Im so sorry about that. Im really happy that you were able to let me back into your life after..."

He was speaking so fast he had to stop and let his mind catch up with his mouth. "I know how hard everything has been for you, and believe me when I say that I am so grateful that youve let me back in and allowed me to be your friend again. But, I think we both know that we can never be just friends."

Blaine was still standing where Kurt had pushed him eyes open in surprise and confusion, his back to the open door, though neither realized that fact. Kurt dropped his hands from Blaines shoulders and looked deep into Blaines eyes.

"Being in therapy has made me realize a lot of things about myself, but the most important thing is I have this issue with love. I dont let a lot of people in. Other than my dad, you are the person I have loved and trusted the most in my life, and I think what happened is that I just got so scared. The closer we got to making that commitment the more scared I got and I didnt know how to tell you. Then it just got to the point that I figured itd be better for me to break your heart before you broke mine." He let out a little sob then, thinking back to their breakup in the restaurant and how hed realized then how badly hed screwed up.

Blaine just stood there and looked at him, eyes wide and wet with tears of his own, listening as Kurt continued to talk.

"I-I dont know whats going on right now with you and your situation with D-Dave, but I do know that for me, Walter has only ever been a friend. Hes never meant anything more to me. The only person who has ever meant anything to me is you...always. And Im sick of sitting back and watching from the sidelines. Im ready to step up and lay it all on the line." Kurt took a tentative step toward Blaine then, bringing them close enough to feel the warmth coming off of each other.

"I just, I love you so much, and every time I think of my life, of my future, youre there with me. And Im so, so sorry for all the hurt I put you though...all the pain Ive put us through the last couple of months. Seeing you with someone else..." He paused and took a deep breath while a lone tear slid down he cheek. "It killed me." He breathed, almost whispering. "And now Im here, and Im just going to take the chance, because youre worth it. Were worth it. So, not only did I come here to ask you to be my date to the wedding, but I also wanted to ask you if youd be my date to our wedding too. Because I cant imagine spending another day without you."

Kurt got down on one knee and Blaine gasped. Kurt looked up at his soulmate through wet lashes and took his hand, while he reached into his pants pocket and pulled out a black velvet box.

"Blaine Anderson, I know weve been through a lot over the years, and its been both good and bad. But the one thing that survived through it all has been our love. We have great memories, and even though weve hurt each other, weve healed and come out as better people because of it. And I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I want to spend the rest of my life with you." He opened the box then, holding it up to Blaine, just as Blaine had done to him a year ago. "Will you marry me?"

Blaine just stared down at Kurt for a moment, totally in shock. His heart was racing and he almost pinched himself to make sure he wasnt dreaming. Kurt was there, on his knees before him and Blaine could see all the love he felt for Kurt reflected back in his eyes.

"Kurt," Blaines voice shook as he tried to hold in a sob. "Of course. Of course I will. Its only ever been you for me too. I love you so much." Before Blaine could even finish, Kurt was up on his feet pulling Blaine into a passionate kiss. The moment their lips touched, both boys breathed out a happy sigh, as if theyd been holding their breath for months.

Blaines mouth opened automatically, allowing Kurts tongue in and he moaned the second their tongues touched. It felt like coming home. Kurt took control of the kiss, showing Blaine how serious he was through his mouth and body. His arms, that had been holding Blaines face slid around his shoulders and he pulled Blaine even closer, not wanting even an inch of space between the two.

After what could have been a few seconds or a few minutes, they both pulled back from the kiss breathing hard, and rested their foreheads together.

"I love you so much." Kurt said quietly against Blaines lips. "And I am so sorry for everything Ive put you through these last couple months."

"Put us through." Blaine countered, and Kurt nodded slightly against Blaines forehead.

"Yes, put us through." Kurt agreed. "Blaine.."

"Kurt, its ok." Blaine interrupted finally taking his time to speak. "Yes, its been horrible...these last few months. Its been awful, but..." Blaine paused for a moment, trying to gather his thoughts, needing Kurt to understand what he was saying. "Look, I hate to say it, but I think it might have been what we both needed."

Blaine felt Kurts eyebrows raise in question and he hurried to explain. "We needed to know for sure. Because you were right, we were too young."

"No, not too young, just not ready." Kurt corrected.

Blaine smiled and pulled back from Kurt nodding in agreement. "Come on." He said, taking Kurts hand to lead him to the couch when he noticed the door was still open. He chuckled and nudged Kurt toward the couch as he went to close the front door. After closing and locking it, he joined Kurt on the couch, turning toward him and pulling his knee up.

"Ok, I was saying before..." Blaine started, but was quickly cut off by Kurt.

"Wait, before we talk anymore, I want you to have this, I need you to have this." He gestured toward the box he still held firmly in his hand. Blaine smiled and looked at Kurt, fresh tears, happy this time, spilling over his eyes, as he held his left hand out to Kurt. Kurt opened the box that must have shut while they were exploring each others mouths earlier, and pulled the ring out, sliding it on Blaines finger, then reaching down to kiss it gently.

Blaine squeezed Kurts hand and looked down in wonder. "Wow." He breathed.

"Looks perfect." Kurt said in response.

Blaine knew there was more that needed to be said, but he kept ahold of Kurts hand to keep him grounded and took a deep breath.

"Kurt, I want you to know that its been awful, without you, and trying to move on." A look of pain crossed Kurts face then. It was a look Blaine had seen many times since Kurt had come back to Lima and found out Blaine was dating Dave. "I cant imagine what it felt like, to see me, with him." Blaine knew it hurt Kurt, no matter how much he denied it, and it made Blaine sick knowing that he had hurt Kurt like that.

Kurt cringed and tried to pull his hand away, but Blaine wouldnt let him.

"No..." Kurt said then, trying to deny it, but knew that he needed to be completely honest if they were going to be able to move forward. "Yeah, yeah, ok. It was awful...it was hell, actually. The one person who hurt me the most in my life was suddenly with the one person I loved the most, and God, it hurt."

"Im so sorry Kurt." Blaine said, the pain evident in his voice.

"No, no you have nothing to be sorry about. I hurt you. I broke up with you and told you to move on. But seeing it, you, with him, killed me."

Blaine reached out with his other hand and brushed a tear from Kurts cheek. "I know and Im sorry. We were both hurt, and maybe there was a part of me that was a little bit glad that you saw me with someone else. To see that I could try to move on."

Kurt dropped his eyes because deep down, he knew. And it had been his own doing. Blaine lifted his chin, not allowing Kurt to hide.

"But God, Im so sorry. It was so wrong of me. I tried to be happy, but every time I saw your face when we were together, I just hated myself even more."

"No, Blaine, no. You have no right to hate yourself. You should have hated me. I was the one that broke you, broke us. I told you it was over and to move on and Im so sorry for all the pain Ive caused us both. But I think you were right, about it maybe being for the best. Ive learned a lot about myself. Seeing a therapist has helped me open up and learn about my feelings. You and I, we used to communicate all the time, but once you moved back into the loft, we stopped. Thats when I started getting scared, and pushing you away. And I cant tell you how sorry I am for that, and how sorry I am that Ive put us both through this hell these last few months. But it really has shown me that you are it. Now, forever, always, its you. Only you." He squeezed Blaines hand again, before continuing. "And when I came back here, thats what I wanted to tell you, and then..."

"You saw me with Dave." Blaine said softly, feeling like the worst person in the world.

"Yeah." Kurt replied. "And then we tried to be friends." He let out a dry chuckle. "I mean, we started out as friends, and we have really always been friends, and in this case, I think its definitely what we needed. Jumping back in, after all the hurt wed both been through would not have been the right thing to do."

"No, no it wouldnt have." Blaine agreed. "But that didnt make it hurt any less."

"No, it didnt." Kurt said. "So, where do we go from here?"

"Forward." Blaine said, leaning in to place a gentle kiss on Kurts lips. "We go forward. We go to the wedding, we watch our friends get married, we smile and be happy for them. And then we go on another date, and another one. We just take things slow." Blaine said, scooting in closer to Kurt, while simultaneously pulling him forward, needing to touch him and hold him.

But Kurt pulled back, out of Blaines grasp and shook his head. "No, no."

Blaine looked at Kurt in confusion and his eyes showing pain and a little fear. "N-No?" Blaine said shakily.

"No," Kurt said more forcefully. "We are not going slow. I know that I love you. I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I know that Im not going back to New York without you. I want to get married now. No more waiting. Lets just elope. Well go to Vegas or the closest justice of the peace. I really dont care. I just want to be your husband...NOW. I dont want to wait anymore for something that I know is so right."

Blaine sat there frozen and Kurt began to fidget, worried about Blaines reaction. But then Blaines face broke into the biggest smile hed ever seen, and Kurt smiled back.

"Does that mean..." Kurt started, but Blaine didnt let him finish as he leaned in and kissed Kurt again, pulling him onto his lap while sliding his arms around him and laying back, so that Kurt was on top of him, never losing contact with his lips. Feeling Kurts body on his again felt so right, so safe. This...this is where he belonged, he thought, as his lips met his fiancees over and over again.