morethanonepercent
Oct. 5, 2012, 1:07 p.m.
If
Kurt's honest confession to himself after Blaine left and Rachel went back to Ohio.
K - Words: 415 - Last Updated: Oct 05, 2012 732 0 2 0 Categories: Angst, General, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Tags: hurt/comfort,
Author's Notes: A/N: Okay, this is a ficlet I've wrote in 20 minutes time and I know it's messy because I was rushing to finish this before I went for class. Basically, the first of my everyday Klaine project until they make up (if they never did, I'm going to do this as long as I still love them). I believe in happy endings, because of them. They're the only thing I believe in besides God.
Kurt had stopped crying shortly after Rachel left for this airport, he's reduced to sobs and hiccups at this point. It wasn't bright yet. He glances at the clock, 4:30AM.
I'm not going to get any sleep tonight, am I?
Usually, when he had insomnia, he would have no problem finding something to do.
But now, he realizes how he can hear the sound of silence.
He's completely alone.
He misses Blaine. He misses the way Blaine laughs, misses the way Blaine nuzzles his nose with his, misses the way Blaine buries his face in his neck, misses the way Blaine inhales his scent like it was his oxygen.
And he misses someone he can talk to and would hold him whenever he was sad.
Kurt needed Blaine.
Kurt doesn't understand why he was so angry, he just... was.
He loves Blaine, but he can't forgive what Blaine did. He almost broke up with me for texting with Chandler, how can he do this to me? What did he meant by doing this?
Blaine was lonely, and confused, Kurt can completely understand. But why cheating?
He probably was just angry with Blaine's stupidity and decisions, he thought as he stuffed the used tissues into the empty Kleenex box.
When he turned around, he saw the flowers that sat on the coffee table. Silently sighed as he turned his back to it again.
He couldn't bring himself to throw away those flowers.
Because to some extend, he was angry with himself as well. For not being able to forgive Blaine, for being so self-centered for the past few weeks, fro choosing gossips over Blaine the day before. He was sorry for all of those, and wished he hadn't.
If I would've picked up one of those calls, Blaine wouldn't have done that. If I just talked to him before I go to bed. If.
Kurt let out a bitter chuckle, and chucked the box into the bin.
The night has passed on. New York was waking up from it's short slumber.
Kurt stared out of the window, and broke down.
Why can't things be right for me?
He mumbled this question over and over again, between the gasps as he hitches his breathe for air.
He's hurting, so much.
And what hurt him most is, he doesn't want things to be over with Blaine. He still loves him the way they first shared their first kiss in the Dalton common room.
And at the end, he knew he wasn't upset with Blaine.
Because Kurt knows, Blaine was hurting, too.
(end)
End Notes:
Anyone is worried about Blaine's mental health and wants him to see a psychiatrist? I'm pretty sure he hasn't really be himself for the past years after the Sadie Hawkins, I keep having this feeling that the Blaine we saw was this suppressed version of him that he wants to keep up, so everyone will like him. I'm probably going to end up writing a fic like that.
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That was sweet and thank you for noticing things most others haven't in their reaction fics. If only... I still don't believe Blaine really cheated. Blaine's definition of 'hooked up' could just mean that he met with that guy or even texted him (because he did tell Kurt texting Chandler was cheating). What a mess the glee writers made!
Thank you for your kind words!I'm actually going to write another response fic about the definition of 'with someone' in Blaine's mind.