Kurt smiled as Blaine rolled them over, Kurt was on top now and it made him shiver a little in anticipation. He leaned down to kiss Blaine, but was stopped with a hand slid around the back of his neck gently. 

“I love you Kurt. I trust you.” 

Kurt was breathless then, because He knew what Blaine wanted and he wanted it too. “I love you, Blaine…” He watched as Blaine’s arm reached over to his bedside table, pulling open the drawer and feeling around until he had a condom and a little tube of lubricant. Kurt blushed, but he took the items from his boyfriend. And then the layers had to come off, it took forever, but every moment was worth it. Because every button, zipper, article that came off... Meant they could share another long slow kiss that made their stomachs flip and their heads spin, and they fell more and more in love than they could have ever in doing anything else. 

Kurt smiled when they were finally free of the confines of clothing, except for his socks. Blaine had laughed for only a second before kissing him and saying in a very lightly teasing manner “leave those on, I don’t want you to get cold feet.” And So Kurt’s socks stayed.

Kurt loved Blaine, and he told him, over and over again. Kurt loved Blaine so much so that he didn’t want to hurt him, not one bit. So he probably used too much lube, and maybe four fingers was a little too over cautious, but he really wanted to make tonight all about their love, and pleasure, but mostly their love. 

When he finally pulled his fingers out, grabbing the condom from where he’d set it on the pillow next to Blaine’s head the other stopped him. Blaine’s eyes were wide and dark, and something that Kurt’d rarely seen in them before was there. Something he’d never been able to name before now. He realized with a little gasp that it was lust, pure animalistic lust. Blaine carefully maneuvered the condom from between Kurt’s fingers. He tore it open as if he’d done the action a thousand times, and smirked slightly when Kurt realized his intentions. 

“You’ve been practicing that.” it wasn’t an accusation, but more of a realization as Blaine rolled the condom down over Kurt’s length. He only nodded and pulled his boyfriend down for a kiss. 

“I did. Yes.”

Kurt smiled and kissed Blaine for a long moment, before steeling himself for what was to come. “I love you Blaine.”

“I love you Kurt.”

And then he was carefully sliding inside, going so slow it was almost painful. He watched Blaine’s face the entire time, and when Blaine had gasped, Kurt gasped. He could feel every little movement of the other. 

When Blaine had finally told him to move he nodded, terrified, not of what they were doing but that he was going to hurt Blaine, his boyfriend, his lover.

Then when Blaine told him to move a little faster, Kurt did. He was focused completely on Blaine and what Blaine wanted. When Blaine asked him to go a little harder, Kurt thought that maybe Blaine was only doing what he thought he should, but Kurt caught his eye and he saw that Blaine was really, really enjoying himself. And after that Kurt let go a little and stopped worrying so much about hurting Blaine, and worrying more about making Blaine feel good.

Kurt came first. He made an embarrassingly high-pitched noise that to himself, sounded like a mix of baby elephant and a penguin squawking. After that he had to pull out, cause he could stiff feel every little movement Blaine was making and it was just too much. 

Blaine made a whimpering sound and pouted at Kurt. And Kurt smiled softly and kissed him and together they stroked Blaine through the last few moments of pleasure.

So when Blaine came, shaking and moaning Kurt’s name. All Kurt could do was whisper “I love you, I love you.” like a mantra over and over again until Blaine opened his eyes and kissed him, long and hot and with more passion than any of their kisses before this one. 

Kurt got up when Blaine gave a big yawn, and he got a washcloth to wipe them clean. Then got some sweats from the dresser and carefully dressed Blaine, because he knew Blaine would hurt. Kissing him and getting back into the bed after he dressed himself. He tucked Blaine in, and crawled under the covers with him. Kurt turned off all the lights with a clap of his hands, and they fell asleep.

The next morning was full of as much love and caring as they could express to each other. After they showered together Kurt went home. He changed his clothes and started on his homework. 

And at dinner that night, if Kurt just couldn’t seem to sit as still as he normally did, well, thankfully, his family didn’t say anything.