LiviB
Feb. 25, 2012, 12:47 a.m.
Confession
After Schue tells everybody about his darkest time...Blaine opens up to New Directions about his
T - Words: 480 - Last Updated: Feb 25, 2012 973 0 0 2 Categories: Angst, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Tags: hurt/comfort,
Author's Notes: Warning: This might be triggering! If you're easily triggered then please don't read it! Warning: Again this might be triggering! Don't read if easily triggered.
After hearing Mr. Schuester tell everybody about his time of darkness Blaine got the courage to talk. So when the group calmed down he talked.
“Um...can I say something?” Blaine asked. Mr. Schuester, the group, and Kurt looked at him worried. Blaine cleared his throat and sighed. He'd never told anybody, even Kurt, about this.
“I was that low once. Where, ending it seemed like the easiest thing. The best way to deal with the hurt. I never hurt myself but I would push myself to my limits and it wonder if ending it was for the best,” he started. He looked around seeing shocked faces.
“For a year I struggled with that pain. I wanted it, the pain, to go away. One night I got so low I cut. I didn't know why, it just happened. It was the only thing I was concerned about at that moment,” he said. Kurt had gotten up and sat behind him putting his arms around him.
“I never did it again after that night. A few months went by and things were where they were before, but worse,” he said feeling the sting of tears.
“One day, I pulled out the bottle of sleeping pills I had and set them on my desk. Wes text me about us doing a performance. I decided why not go to one last performance. We were doing my favorite song. So I got my stuff and made my way to the senior commons,” he said now crying.
“However, something stopped me on the steps that day. I will never forget that day or what happened. I met my best friend and boyfriend. After knowing he was having problems I realized I was being stupid. He was so strong compared to me and I wanted to try, for him,” he said.
“Blaine...” Kurt said. He looked back to see Kurt crying.
“That night I put the bottle away. The only other time I pulled it out was when me and Kurt weren't happy with each other...but things settled between us and I put it away once again. When I moved my stuff out of my room I took the the bottle and flushed the pills down. I had a reason to smile and live. I have a reason still to love each and everyday,” he said looking back at Kurt.
“Blaine...why didn't you tell me or talk to me?” Kurt asked.
“I was scared. Scared you would see me as some weak person and leave me,” he replied crying still.
“I will never leave you,” Kurt said. Blaine smiled and turned to hug him.
“If you ever need anything Blaine, I'm here,” Kurt said.
“We're all here,” Tina said. Blaine pulled away from Kurt and looked at them.
“Thank you,” he said. Kurt still had his arms around him and never felt so loved in his life.
“Um...can I say something?” Blaine asked. Mr. Schuester, the group, and Kurt looked at him worried. Blaine cleared his throat and sighed. He'd never told anybody, even Kurt, about this.
“I was that low once. Where, ending it seemed like the easiest thing. The best way to deal with the hurt. I never hurt myself but I would push myself to my limits and it wonder if ending it was for the best,” he started. He looked around seeing shocked faces.
“For a year I struggled with that pain. I wanted it, the pain, to go away. One night I got so low I cut. I didn't know why, it just happened. It was the only thing I was concerned about at that moment,” he said. Kurt had gotten up and sat behind him putting his arms around him.
“I never did it again after that night. A few months went by and things were where they were before, but worse,” he said feeling the sting of tears.
“One day, I pulled out the bottle of sleeping pills I had and set them on my desk. Wes text me about us doing a performance. I decided why not go to one last performance. We were doing my favorite song. So I got my stuff and made my way to the senior commons,” he said now crying.
“However, something stopped me on the steps that day. I will never forget that day or what happened. I met my best friend and boyfriend. After knowing he was having problems I realized I was being stupid. He was so strong compared to me and I wanted to try, for him,” he said.
“Blaine...” Kurt said. He looked back to see Kurt crying.
“That night I put the bottle away. The only other time I pulled it out was when me and Kurt weren't happy with each other...but things settled between us and I put it away once again. When I moved my stuff out of my room I took the the bottle and flushed the pills down. I had a reason to smile and live. I have a reason still to love each and everyday,” he said looking back at Kurt.
“Blaine...why didn't you tell me or talk to me?” Kurt asked.
“I was scared. Scared you would see me as some weak person and leave me,” he replied crying still.
“I will never leave you,” Kurt said. Blaine smiled and turned to hug him.
“If you ever need anything Blaine, I'm here,” Kurt said.
“We're all here,” Tina said. Blaine pulled away from Kurt and looked at them.
“Thank you,” he said. Kurt still had his arms around him and never felt so loved in his life.