kittycat
June 20, 2012, 11 a.m.
Aftermath
Kurt finds out that if he would have committed suicide he would have missed the one of the best things to happen to him. Warning: Talk of self harm and suicide
T - Words: 268 - Last Updated: Jun 20, 2012 1,089 0 0 0 Categories: AU, Drama, Tragedy, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Burt Hummel, Kurt Hummel, Tags: futurefic,
Nobody loves me
One cut
The taunting will never stop
Two cuts
I hope they are happy, I’m doing as they told me to do “why don’t you just do everyone a favor and kill yourself homo”
Three cuts
Relief
Darkness
Sanctuary
~~
“He’s waking up!”
I opened my eyes then regretted it immediately. Bright lights burned my eyes. Where was I? Was this Heaven? Bright lights and annoying beeping sounds?
“Kurt can you hear me?”
I tried to speak but my throat was so dry.
I opened my eyes and saw my dad starring down at me.
“Kurt why did you do it?”
Do what? My wrists were itchy and as I went to itch them I felt gauze. Oh.
“Water.” I choked out.
Dad helped me drink. I felt so vulnerable.
“Why Kurt?”
After a moment I answered, “no one loves me, no one wants to be with me, you told me when I go to college there would be people there who have been through the same things as me and can help me. Why did you lie dad?”
A tear fell down his face, it was heartbreaking. He didn’t say anything. He stood up and left.
Why am I alive? No one will love me and I’m just causing my dad more harm than good. The world would be better off without me.
Kurt watched as his door open and a boy his age with gelled down hair and a bowtie emerged.
“I’m sorry I must have the wrong room, this hospital is so confusing.”
“What’s your name?”
“Blaine Anderson, yours?”
“Kurt Hummel.”
There was a moment of silence.
“If you don’t mind me asking Kurt, but what happened?”
“I tried to commit suicide. But now I’m kind of glad someone found me.”
One cut
The taunting will never stop
Two cuts
I hope they are happy, I’m doing as they told me to do “why don’t you just do everyone a favor and kill yourself homo”
Three cuts
Relief
Darkness
Sanctuary
~~
“He’s waking up!”
I opened my eyes then regretted it immediately. Bright lights burned my eyes. Where was I? Was this Heaven? Bright lights and annoying beeping sounds?
“Kurt can you hear me?”
I tried to speak but my throat was so dry.
I opened my eyes and saw my dad starring down at me.
“Kurt why did you do it?”
Do what? My wrists were itchy and as I went to itch them I felt gauze. Oh.
“Water.” I choked out.
Dad helped me drink. I felt so vulnerable.
“Why Kurt?”
After a moment I answered, “no one loves me, no one wants to be with me, you told me when I go to college there would be people there who have been through the same things as me and can help me. Why did you lie dad?”
A tear fell down his face, it was heartbreaking. He didn’t say anything. He stood up and left.
Why am I alive? No one will love me and I’m just causing my dad more harm than good. The world would be better off without me.
Kurt watched as his door open and a boy his age with gelled down hair and a bowtie emerged.
“I’m sorry I must have the wrong room, this hospital is so confusing.”
“What’s your name?”
“Blaine Anderson, yours?”
“Kurt Hummel.”
There was a moment of silence.
“If you don’t mind me asking Kurt, but what happened?”
“I tried to commit suicide. But now I’m kind of glad someone found me.”