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If I wanted to leave I would have left by now.'

There wasn't much that either of them knew how to say, but he was sure they'd be okay.'4x04 Reaction fic.


K - Words: 784 - Last Updated: Oct 07, 2012
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Categories: Angst, Songfics,
Tags: established relationship, OMG CREYS, hurt/comfort,

Author's Notes: The song is "Better than I know myself" by Adam Lambert.

Kurt mentally kicked himself as the sobs racked through his body. He'd realized that even if what Blaine had done was wrong, he was the one who ignored him.  And now he was here. Lying in bed next to the boy he loved more than anything in the world. Wondering if they were still even together. 

 

He started to catch his breath to stop crying before he heard Blaine start to cry on the other side of him. The sobs returned, only this time louder and more forceful. 

 

"Kurt i'm so-" Blaine begged barely above a whisper. His entire body shaking like a leaf.

 

"Please stop."  Kurt replied, louder and a bit harsher than he'd wanted. He heard another muffled sob from Blaine. 

 

The next morning came faster than either of them would have ever wanted. At seven the next morning a still crying Blaine walked into the kitchen to find Kurt standing infront of the window looking out at the skyline of the city that he thought would make all of his dreams come true, but had so far only broken his heart.  

 

The younger boy opened his mouth to say something and stopped himself. He just stared at the gorgeous boy he'd hurt so much. He walked towards the door, suitcase in hand and opened it. 

 

"I still love you." He said loud enough for the brunette to hear him. He stood hoping for some sort of reply. But was only answered by a small sob from himself. He quietly closed the door behind him and walked out of the apartment bulding. 

 

The next week was the worst of Kurt's life. He continued to go to his job that he'd grown to absolutely love, but now he hated. Nothing seemed like it mattered anymore anyway. And the night Rachel walked into his room announcing she was flying back to Ohio to deal with some 'Un-Finished business' he had to choke back the tears that he knew were coming. But when she offered for him to come with her, he couldn't say no. 

 

He needed to fix things. Even if Blaine cheated, he ignored him. And he knew that if the roles were reversed he would want some sort of closure or something of the sort. 

 

So now, eight hours after the initial questioning of whether or not he was going to go back to Ohio for a few days, he was there, standing on the stage he was all too familiar with. Knowing what he wanted to do next. He'd heard the door open, only choosing to ignore it. He began to quietly sing a familiar song. 


Cold as ice

And more bitter than a december

Winter night

That's how I treated you

And I know that I

I sometimes tend to lose my temper

And I cross the line

Yeah that's the truth

 

Blaine stood at the top of the auditorium, unable to move his feel. Listening to the beatiful boy who'd gotten his heart broken. 

 

I know it gets hard sometimes

But I could never

Leave your side

No matter what I say

 

Kurt felt the tears coming to his eyes. He was almost positive Blaine was the one standing there. He couldn't even count the things he wanted him to know. 

 

 Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,

But I really need you near me to

Keep my mind off the edge

If I wanted to leave I would have left by now

But you're the only one that knows me

Better than I know myself

 

Blaine gave up the fight with himself on trying to keep his tears contained. They were like small waterfalls on his olive colored skin. 


I get kind of dark

Let it go too far

I can be obnoxious at times

But try and see my heart

Cause I need you now

So don't let me down

You're the only thing in this world

I would die without

 

Kurt's voice faltered and Blaine felt his heart break in two. He couldn't believe what he'd done. 

 

Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,

But I really need you near me to

Keep my mind off the edge

If I wanted to leave I would have left by now

But you're the only one that knows me

Better than I know myself

 

Kurt stopped singing and Blaine was quickly down the stairs and in his arms. 

 

"Oh god Kurt. I'm so so sorry.." He sobbed. Kurt held him closer. 

 

"I feel so stupid."

 

"Please don't feel stupid." The curly haired boy begged. "I shouldn't have cheated, this is all my fault. " 

 

"Maybe if I would have ever talked to you, you wouldn't have felt so alone." He said simply into Blaine's shoulder.  He stood sobbing into the senior's shoulder hoping they could just stand there forever. There wasn't much that either of them knew how to say, but he was sure they'd be okay. 

End Notes: Okay, let's all be honest for a second. You all wish something along the lines of this would have happened during the break up. That was literally the SADDEST thing i've ever seen. But, if this makes anything seem better I heard that there's going to be a moulin rouge episode! So I mean doesn't that put us just a little bit closer to a Kurt and Blaine cover of "come what may"?! Just a little optimisim. Rates and Reviews are appriciated(:

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very cute. =) I'm sure they'll get together again or officially not break up XD