"I don't see how anyone can feel that way," Mercedes said.

"I did." Blaine said staring at the floor. Kurt looked up at him they discussed it before but Kurt completely forgot about it until now. He stared at Blaine and cocked his head to the side, was Blaine going to share the story with everyone. Kurt already knew what was coming, his eyes swelled up in tears. Dave, Blaine, he never realized how unhappy his friends were, and if he was even doing enough for them. Sadly, he thought about Sebastian, did Sebastian ever feel the pains that his bully-er and his boyfriend felt. Is that why he is that way?

"Really Blaine." Rachel said with wide eyes. Blaine nodded as the auditorium when deaf quiet. Quinn's eyes filled with tears, why is it she is just now finding out about this. It doesn’t make sense, why would anyone thing the world is so bad that death is the only solution.

"Yeah it was right after I got out of the hospital from the Sadie Hawkins dance. I was put on bed rest for week before I could go back to school. I didn't really want to go back to school anyway. But neither of my parents bothered to talk to me. My mom would just cry anytime she looked at me. And my dad well he hasn't been the same since. So I spent my days at home alone my mom coming in my room to make sure I took my medicine. But she didn't talk to me. I felt like a disappointment to my family. I'd hear my parents fighting every night and all I thought about was how it was all my fault." Blaine paused as sniffles echoed around the room.

"I was right at that tipping I had a bottle of aspirin and a letter saying how sorry I was for everything. But the door bell rung, I had to know who it was before I left the world. I hoped it was one of my moms work partners so she could be busy the whole time but instead it was my brother. Cooper heard about the accident and got here as soon as he got the time off work. I'm glad he came when he did. And more I'm glad he brought his fianc�e they showed me that it gets better. And it did a lot better. I transferred to Dalton. Then met Kurt. And I think back to that day and realize how awful I was to even think that way and that even at my lowest there was still hope." Blaine concluded his story.

"I'm sorry Blaine." Quinn said letting her tears roll down her cheek. Blaine was her friend, she saw how much love mattered to him every day when she say him do something sweet to Kurt, or help Rory out with his school work. she stuttered back her tears and swallowed hard. Blaine didn’t want to do it to hurt others, he want to do it so he wouldn’t have to disappoint others. She has seen the look on his face when he gets a low grade. It made sense now.

"It was really brave of you to tell us that, Blaine." Mr. Schuester said. "There is always something to look forward too, something in the future that we cant wait to happen."

Sam looked at his feet for a moment, remembering how he felt at his lowest point, when he was living out of a motel just hoping that his fathers job would come back and his little brother and sister wouldn’t have to sleep like this. "Someday I want to earn enough money to buy my folks a new place," Sam looked up, "So they don't ever have to go through losing their home again. "

Mercedes smiled and looked at Rachel, from one diva to another, " I'm most looking forward to meeting Rachel Berry's children." and thought she didn’t want to say it aloud, she couldn’t wait to see them achieve what their mother couldn’t.

Artie looked at his own legs and thought for a moment it was going to be a great day when he gets married. He would find a woman who loves him for everything he is. He mostly couldn’t wait to have kids, "I want to be there to see my kid's first steps. "

Sugar thought about how her father gives her everything she could ever want or look forward too, but he couldn’t giver her all things, " I want to be there to see Sex & The City Part 3. "

Puck gave it a moment, thinking to how he mostly wants to become a good father but he would have to fix his life now if he wanted to be a good anything later. "I'm sort of embarrassed to admit it, but I really do want to graduate high school. "

Finn had the love of his life ready to marry him any day, he knew it would be a while till he had kids, but then he was worried about the kind of father he would be. He didn't want to be like his father, though there was no reason to not like his father. Burt and Blaine are always talking about politics, he thought for a moment and realized what he wanted to do in the future. "I'm going to petition the Army to change my dad's dishonorable discharge status to an honorable one."

Quinn thought to the time she was at her happiest, it was when she was on top. Head Cheerio dating the Captain of the Football team, shoe in for home coming queen. She knew petty high school things were just about over, but she would like to be on the top again. " I'm looking forward to graduating from Yale at the top of my class. "

Santana was content with her life choices, loving Brittany was her best choice but she wished she could share that with some one she loved and aspired to be like. "I'm looking forward to the day when my grandmother loves me again. "

Brittany thought about her conversation with a very high Lord Tubbington this morning, if he wasn’t smoking he was on drugs. Brittany loved her cat so much, she need him to live for her children's first words at the very least. " I want Lord Tubbington to kick his ecstasy addiction. "

Blaine looked up at Kurt and thought about that day when Cooper brought Alison home to meet Blaine and his family and how happy Cooper was since he was getting married. "I'm looking forward to marriage equality in all fifty states. "

Mike thought about how amazing it felt to preform his first time, after never even dancing out of his own bedroom to in front of a crowd of 100s with Brittany for Valerie. Then again preforming this year for the West Side Story, he couldn’t wait to have that standing ovation again. " I'm looking forward to the first time I dance at Carnegie Hall. "

Tina smiled to herself. She had an amazing boyfriend wonderful friends, She remembered a moment when all she would do was stutter her way through school, so no one would ask her questions or talk to her. Now, she wasn’t even shy anymore. " I just want a song. "

Kurt looked at Blaine and smiled. It was going to be a wonderful day when they could get married, with his dad in congress, that day could come faster." I'm looking forward to watching my dad make a difference in Congress. "

Rachel looked at Quinn. She remembered a moment when no one in this circle loved her. When they all thought she was selfish and obnoxious and were intimidated by her talent. Now, they love her, need her even, and support her in all her dreams. She couldn’t wait for her first show, and the entire front row is filled with the New Direction's and their significant others cheering her on. " I'm looking forward to being friends with all of you for the rest of my life. "

Rory didn’t quite understand how their dreams were so big. Being in America taught him so many new things and he if this was what peanut butter tasted like he was dying to try Nutella. Even with everyone else big dreams, he would really like to win something. " I know this sounds silly but the peanut butter really is amazing, Mr. Schue. Do you know what I'm looking forward to? Winning at Regionals. "