ZombieUnicorn13
July 8, 2013, 8:19 p.m.
Loving You Isn't The Right Thing To Do: Chapter 18
K - Words: 737 - Last Updated: Jul 08, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 20/? - Created: Jun 18, 2013 - Updated: Jul 08, 2013 95 0 0 0 0
Being in love, its not always easy. Sometimes you regret your feelings that you wish you never felt. Sometimes you're so blinded that you can't understand or notice the feelings someone else has for you. Being in love doesn't really have a good side, or bad side. It should just be equal. It should be right. When you're hopelessly in love with someone but they're not in love with you back, thats hell. Its a pain you can't really describe. It makes you weak and sad. You want to be with that one person so badly, but something is stopping you from being together. And the reason is stupid to you. You know that you both are better than that and can look past the downside of actually getting together, and just be together, and love each other. Thats all I want. All I want is him. Just him.
Kurt finished writing in his journal and put it up. Letting his feelings out in a journal was all he could do now. No one else wants to listen.
Kurt felt empty. Him and Blaine haven't talked for two days.
"Is he ignoring me? Did I come on too strong? Too clingy? Too obvious?" These are the thoughts that went through Kurt's head.
Kurt hid his journal inside his top drawer of his dresser, then went downstairs for some orange juice. No one was home, Burt and Carole were working, and Finn was spending time with Rachel. Kurt was alone. He didn't mind though. It gave him time to think and have more space to himself. Kurt wanted to text Blaine, just to see if he was okay. Kurt really doesn't know what's going on with Blaine. Not talking for two days kind of makes things weird.
Kurt just decided to walk to the park, get his mind off of things. He put on his favorite coat and walked out the door. He was humming different broadway tunes the whole way to the park. This relaxed Kurt.
As Kurt was walking, he noticed two men holding hands while sitting together on a bench. The two men were about in their twenties, and they definitely looked very in love. Kurt smiled at them as he walked by. They gave Kurt a little bit of hope inside for him and Blaine.
Kurt walked and walked and walked, then he stopped. In front of him he saw Blaine walking with a guy, and laughing. Kurt walked slower, he didn't want to get too close.
"Maybe they're just friends." Kurt thought.
Kurt kept walking and staring. He saw Blaine stop and the other guy stop too. They guy Blaine was with stopped in front of Blaine and grabbed his hand. Blaine smiled at this and kissed the other guys cheek. Then, they started kissing. Kurt couldn't believe what he was seeing. He thought Blaine loved him. He thought him and Blaine finally had their shot. But no, love isn't real.
Kurt had enough, as soon as he saw Blaine pull away from the other guy, he ran towards them.
Blaine noticed Kurt. Blaine's eyes got wide.
"Kurt!" Blaine choked.
"Shut up." Kurt said standing in front of Blaine.
"What the hell are you doing? Seriously? Do you remember two days ago? We kissed, you held my hand? Dont you get that i'm in love with you, Blaine Anderson? And you pull this shit? Who the hell is this?" Kurt said in one breathe.
Blaine swallowed and looked at the guy.
"Im Jake, Hi." Jake said.
Kurt rolled his eyes. He couldn't believe this. Blaine just looked at Kurt. He knew that what he did was wrong.
"Wow, Blaine. Dont you get that i'm in love with you? Yeah, really strong thing to say but its true. I'm really in love with you. But then you do this. Why? Why would you lead me on and then just break my heart like this, Blaine?" Kurt cried. He couldn't take it anymore.
Blaine frowned. "Look Kurt, Let me explain, I'm so sor--" Blaine got cut off by Kurt.
"No, im done." Kurt said as he walked away. He slowly started to run away, not looking back. He ran faster and faster, just until he got out of the park. Out of breath, Kurt stopped running, and fell to the ground in front of a gas station. He cried and cried, sitting under a tree, hoping no one would notice him.
Kurt finished writing in his journal and put it up. Letting his feelings out in a journal was all he could do now. No one else wants to listen.
Kurt felt empty. Him and Blaine haven't talked for two days.
"Is he ignoring me? Did I come on too strong? Too clingy? Too obvious?" These are the thoughts that went through Kurt's head.
Kurt hid his journal inside his top drawer of his dresser, then went downstairs for some orange juice. No one was home, Burt and Carole were working, and Finn was spending time with Rachel. Kurt was alone. He didn't mind though. It gave him time to think and have more space to himself. Kurt wanted to text Blaine, just to see if he was okay. Kurt really doesn't know what's going on with Blaine. Not talking for two days kind of makes things weird.
Kurt just decided to walk to the park, get his mind off of things. He put on his favorite coat and walked out the door. He was humming different broadway tunes the whole way to the park. This relaxed Kurt.
As Kurt was walking, he noticed two men holding hands while sitting together on a bench. The two men were about in their twenties, and they definitely looked very in love. Kurt smiled at them as he walked by. They gave Kurt a little bit of hope inside for him and Blaine.
Kurt walked and walked and walked, then he stopped. In front of him he saw Blaine walking with a guy, and laughing. Kurt walked slower, he didn't want to get too close.
"Maybe they're just friends." Kurt thought.
Kurt kept walking and staring. He saw Blaine stop and the other guy stop too. They guy Blaine was with stopped in front of Blaine and grabbed his hand. Blaine smiled at this and kissed the other guys cheek. Then, they started kissing. Kurt couldn't believe what he was seeing. He thought Blaine loved him. He thought him and Blaine finally had their shot. But no, love isn't real.
Kurt had enough, as soon as he saw Blaine pull away from the other guy, he ran towards them.
Blaine noticed Kurt. Blaine's eyes got wide.
"Kurt!" Blaine choked.
"Shut up." Kurt said standing in front of Blaine.
"What the hell are you doing? Seriously? Do you remember two days ago? We kissed, you held my hand? Dont you get that i'm in love with you, Blaine Anderson? And you pull this shit? Who the hell is this?" Kurt said in one breathe.
Blaine swallowed and looked at the guy.
"Im Jake, Hi." Jake said.
Kurt rolled his eyes. He couldn't believe this. Blaine just looked at Kurt. He knew that what he did was wrong.
"Wow, Blaine. Dont you get that i'm in love with you? Yeah, really strong thing to say but its true. I'm really in love with you. But then you do this. Why? Why would you lead me on and then just break my heart like this, Blaine?" Kurt cried. He couldn't take it anymore.
Blaine frowned. "Look Kurt, Let me explain, I'm so sor--" Blaine got cut off by Kurt.
"No, im done." Kurt said as he walked away. He slowly started to run away, not looking back. He ran faster and faster, just until he got out of the park. Out of breath, Kurt stopped running, and fell to the ground in front of a gas station. He cried and cried, sitting under a tree, hoping no one would notice him.