Oct. 13, 2015, 7 p.m.
Don't Wanna Be Your Dirty Little Secret: Chapter 8
E - Words: 1,647 - Last Updated: Oct 13, 2015 Story: Closed - Chapters: 19/? - Created: Mar 29, 2015 - Updated: Mar 29, 2015 154 0 0 0 0
Song:
4 Minutes - Madonna & Justin Timberlake (in the style of Glee)
If Kurt had to be honest he was getting seriously confused by all of Blaines actions recently. One minute he wanted to be close and the next he was almost pushing Kurt away. It was starting to get a little upsetting. Kurt wasnt quite sure when he was standing with Blaine.
He wondered if he admitted to Blaine how he felt then Blaine wouldnt be so backwards and forwards all the time. Kurt kept wanting to put himself on the line. He thought he had seen something in Blaine that made what Santana had said seem very true. Every time that Kurt hung out at the bar with Blaine and his friends and Santana, she would report on all the things that Blaine did that made it look like maybe Blaine did like Kurt.
He was getting his hopes up, he knew that.
Sam had been watching Kurt and Blaine interact with each other and he had seen how weird Blaine was acting, something which was very unlike him. He worried for his best friend and his other friend. He knew that Kurt wasnt as tough as he thought he was and that the boy was still trying to get the hang of this busy city and the people in it. Sure it was much better than in the first few weeks that he had been here but he was still silently struggling when he thought that no one was looking.
He was honestly worried about this whole thing with Blaine. It was clear, at least for Sam to see, that Kurt was head over heels for Blaine. The boy lit up like a Christmas tree around Blaine and the constant blush was another huge giveaway. Sam wondered how other people didnt see how crazy about Blaine Kurt was. He knew that Santana probably knew if the looks she was giving the pair was anything to go by and that was probably because Kurt had confided in her.
Everyone else, though, they all seemed oblivious to it.
"Hey Kurt, how are you at the faster songs? So far in karaoke youve sung slower songs." Mercedes questioned.
"I can sing faster songs." Kurt laughed lightly. "I just think the slower songs have suited my mood recently." He admitted.
"How would you like to sing a faster song with me as a duet tonight? Its open mic tonight so anyone can do whatever they want and I thought of a song which I think will compliment both of our voice." Mercedes smiled at Kurt urging him on.
"Sure. Id love to sing with you." Kurt said, a big smile on his face. He was glad that he was fitting in with Blaines other friends.
Mercedes pulled him up and out of his seat and they went up towards the stage. The group that were sat on the sofas watched as Mercedes whispered in Kurts ear and they saw him grin and nod at Mercedes.
The music started and instantly the group acknowledged what the song was.
"Hey, uh,
Come on,
Kurt Hummel!"
Mercedes sang and Kurt did a little dance in front of her as she introduced him.
"Come on, girl,
Ive been waiting for somebody to pick up my stroll,
Uh!"
Kurt dropped down and touched the floor before snapping back up as he sang the last bit and sent a wink out into the crowd making Santana whistle at him.
Blaine felt something taking interest in the sound that Kurt had just made and he willed himself to calm down and not think with his dick. This was Kurt his best friend whom he was trying to avoid doing anything with.
Together they sang though the lyrics of the song, dancing together across the stage and clearly having a good time. When they finished they were both heaving for breath but had the biggest smiles on their faces.
Mercedes turned and hugged Kurt before they both got off of the stage and went back to the group who all congratulated them on an awesome duet.
"Looking fine Hummel! Who knew you could move your hips so well." Santana smirked at Kurt, wiggling her eyebrows.
Kurt blushed and brushed aside her comment. "I had so much fun with that."
"It looked like it. You guys were awesome." Sam grinned and gave Mercedes a kiss on the cheek.
"Yeah, we were." Mercedes said, laughing, not afraid to admit that she thought they were great.
Kurt looked over to Blaine and saw that he looked very uncomfortable and was avoiding Kurts gaze. It hurt that Blaine was doing that. Everyone else had seemed to really enjoy the performance. Did that mean that he didnt? Had Kurt made him uncomfortable during the song?
He kept feeling paranoid. The way that Blaine kept behaving was throwing Kurt off and making him doubtful. It was completely confusing and it was making Kurt upset and frustrated and he didnt know how much longer he could put up with it.
The night started to draw to a close and Blaine hadnt really said much to Kurt. Everyone in the group could feel how awkward it was between the two boys and they had no idea what was going on. Santana watched as Kurt got more and more upset. She had wanted to talk to Blaine and ask him what the hell was going on. She didnt like that Kurt was upset because he was her friend and she couldnt cheer him up until Blaine got his act together with whatever was going on with him.
Everyone started going their separate ways until it was only Blaine and Kurt heading towards the halls. They walked in silence with a gap between them and to Kurt it felt much wider than it actually was. He could feel himself getting emotional and the last thing that he wanted to do was to act like a complete and utter weirdo in front of Blaine. He didnt want to embarrass himself that much even though he knew that Blaine probably wouldnt belittle him. At least he hoped not.
They were almost back to the halls and Blaine still hadnt said a word to Kurt. They were walking side by side so it was clear that they were walking in each others company but nothing was said between them. The only sound was the sound of the city which as had been said, never slept. Kurt couldnt take the silence anymore so he turned to Blaine, standing a little bit in front of him so it would stop him from walking any further.
"Blaine, whats going on?" Kurt rushed out in one breath and then carried on calmer. "Youve not said anything to me all night and you look at me like Im some kind of problem. I dont know whats going on."
"Theres nothing going on Kurt." Blaine said tiredly, hoping that Kurt wouldnt press him anymore.
"I dont believe that. Is it because of me, because of the way that I feel?" Kurt wanted Blaine to clarify it. He couldnt help but think that Blaine knew how he felt about him even though he had never told him anything.
"It doesnt matter Kurt, just leave it alone." Blaine tried to move around Kurt but was blocked off again.
"I cant leave it alone. I am falling for you." Kurt admitted with a shout, tears coming to his eyes. "If that is a problem for you then please tell me now because I can go away. If that makes you uncomfortable then I promise I will leave you alone for good. I cant carry on like this, never knowing what youre thinking."
Blaines eyes widened at Kurts admission and he felt his heart leap. This was the best news, Kurt felt the same way about him as he did for Kurt. The reality which sent Blaines hope crashing to the ground was very different though. He thought for a moment that he might be selfish and not tell Kurt about Amy and be with him but he knew that he couldnt lie to Kurt like that. He had to tell Kurt about Amy, even if it meant risking everything with him.
"I have a girlfriend." Blaine whispered.
He watched as Kurts face crumpled and tears started leaking out of his eyes as he tried desperately to blink them away.
"You never said anything." Kurt stated, his voice hoarse with emotion.
"I didnt know how to." Blaine admitted.
Kurt started to back away from Blaine, seeing a completely different person than he had before. He had lied to Kurt from the very start. Not so much lied but he had never said anything about his relationship status. If they were such good friends shouldnt this have been something that Kurt knew about?
Once again Kurt had fallen for the straight guy and once again Kurt felt like his heart was going to be in tatters. It already was. He had to get away from Blaine before he did anything more to humiliate himself.
He didnt see the hurt on Blaines face as he turned away and started to run back to his room. He didnt see the tears in Blaines eyes that had started to form as he watched someone that he had come to love potentially walk out of his life forever. Kurt also didnt see that Blaine had started to run after him and it wasnt until Blaine had grabbed a hold of Kurts shoulder, spinning him around, their lips meeting, that Kurt realised that nothing was quite as simple as he thought it was.