"It's my fault. If I had just stopped, if I had just…just..." Blaine said no more, because he didn't have the words, and if he kept talking about it, it would feel like someone ripping his heart out all over again. He had tried to shut out the pain, tried to forget what happened, but he couldn't, it would always be there. He pretended he was okay, because maybe, just maybe, one day it would be okay. He tried to end his life because to him, losing Sebastian meant to him, he could never be happy again. He could be with Sebastian again, he was going to be with Sebastian, but Coop stopped him, Cooper saved him.

"Blaine, what…why would you say that?" Kurt asked with a shaky voice. Kurt might not know this broken man in front of him but Kurt knew, anyone would know whatever happened that it wasn't Blaine's fault.

"I…I didn't see it. I…we were…I didn't mean to." Blaine's breathing got heavier and the tears wouldn't stop. He just started down at the piano keys in a daze. "He didn't heard what I…I told him…he didn't…"

"Blaine, Blaine…" Kurt sat beside Blaine taking one of his hands in his and put his fingers under Blaine's chin and titled up his head for him to look at Kurt. Blaine didn't look, he just shut his eyes tight, trying to shut out the pain, and it wasn't working.

"Sebastian." Blaine said, barely a whisper.

"It's Kurt, Blaine, its Kurt." Kurt said, trying to hold his voice together, this broke his heart to pieces.

"I…I want Sebastian." Blaine choked out before pulling his hand from under Kurt's and getting up and running away from Kurt.

Kurt just sat there, not knowing what to do. Blaine was gone. Where did he go? Kurt's first though was to go and fine him but he might make things worse.

Cooper.

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Cooper ran down the hallway of the hotel as quick as he could. Once Kurt had said what had happened Cooper had ran out the door, down the hallway and now pushing through the hotel doors. Coop has searched for Blaine until he finally found him, down at the bottom the road leading up to the hotel. He sat against the wall looking at his phone, sobbing and sobbing with his knees up to his chest. Cooper slowly made his way over to Blaine. He had lost count the amount of times he had seen Blaine like this. Everything got worse, not better and he remembered that day, that day he nearly lost his brother.

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Cooper didn't hear anymore crying. It had stopped half an hour ago. Maybe he was asleep, Coop thought. But then why did he feel like he should go up and check on Blaine.

He couldn't shake the thought out his head, so he went to check on Blaine.

When Cooper got to the door he knocked gently. No answer. He knocked again. No answer. Coop put his hand on the handle and pushed the door open slowly. There was silent, just silent in the room, and there he was.

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Cooper stopped at his brother and sat down beside him, leaning his back and head against the wall.

"Blaine, buddy, you have got to stop blaming yourself because this is killing you."

"I wish it would." Blaine said without thinking of the words he just said. At that moment Cooper didn't know what to say. What are you supposed to say to your brother who actually meant that?

"I'm sorry for bringing you to the wedding. I shouldn't have. But honestly, I guess I just want you to see that…to…I don't know, to show you even though you lost him, there is still happiness in the world for you."

"A wedding won't change that, Coop, nothing will." Blaine said, saying it like he really was so close to giving up. That make that he wears around people, is slowly beginning to fade, beginning to show how he really feels.

"Kurt was really worried about you." Blaine leaned up from the wall and meet Cooper's eyes.

"Kurt. I forgot…I never…"

"He headed home with Finn. But he wants to know how you are." Coop put his hand into his pocket and pulled out a folded little sheet of paper. He handed it to the Blaine, who took it and looked at Coop clueless.

"It's Kurt's phone number. He gave it to me to tell him how you were."

"Then why are you giving it to me?"

"Because am not the one that has that little bit of hope in my eyes when I see him." Coop shrugged before getting off the ground. Blaine looked down at the piece of paper he held in his hands. "Am going say goodbye to Liam and April and then head to the car. I will wait for you there when you're ready." With a smile, Coop was gone.

Blaine's head was a mess right now. He didn't know what he wanted. But right now, he wanted sleep, to escape his life for a few hours.

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Blaine! Oh my god, Blaine!" Cooper shouted as he ran over to Blaine on the floor.

Blaine lay on the floor with the bottle of empty pills lying beside him head. Cooper tried so hard not to panic and to just do something, but that was hard to do when his brother could be dead right now.

"Blaine, wake up, wake up!" Cooper put his arms under Blaine's back as fast as he could and carried him into the bathroom and into the shower. Cooper switched on the shower and the water came flying out hitting of both of them. Cooper dragged Blaine under the shower more, his head under it and put his finger's down Blaine's throat..

"Come on Blaine, come on!" Cooper cried out trying to save his brother. Seconds went by and there was nothing, until Blaine started choking, started to choke up the pills. Cooper moved Blaine's head downwards as Blaine throw up the pills.

"That's it Blaine, come on, until…until there all up." He did it. He got the entire table's up, he hadn't taken enough so it would have been too late to save Blaine.

"Coop…Coop…Cooper." Blaine whispered as he fell backwards and Cooper held him, wrapping his arms around him, holding him close. Cooper's tears mixed in the water falling down on top of them. Blaine's eyes slowly shut and he fell even more into Cooper's arms, he didn't have the strength for anything. Cooper knew this would be a hard road with Blaine, but Blaine was his little brother and he would save him every time.

When Cooper has got Blaine seen to by a doctor on call, changed his clothes, and put him in bed, he stood looking at his little brother asleep, dreaming in bed. Blaine was peaceful, he didn't move and a little smile appeared on his face as he spoke the name that always used to light up his world.

"Sebastian." It barely came out in a whisper but Blaine heard it. The only happiness Blaine had right now was in his dreams because there, there was Sebastian. Blaine drams used to be his real life and now, now it was only dreams. Wasn't it supposed to be dreams turn into reality? Not the other way around.