"As long as I have Blaine and our kids then yes, I always will, because that word and Blaine is what got me here today." Kurt let a smile appear on his face as he looked to Clay who nodded slowly.

"I hate feeling this emptiness and it's going to always be there but I know I will be okay."

"I am glad to hear that. I wish I could tell you there was a cure to make this pain go away for good, a way were your dad could come back, but there's not and your accepting that no matter how hard it is. There is one thing I can tell you, Kurt, when you have people who love you, that's how you get out of this depressing, with them helping you every step of the way. You're going to wake up and maybe that day will be the day, were you feel a little better than the day before."

One week later

Blaine was out getting some shopping while Kurt was heading down the hallway to wake up the kids. Kurt went into Lily's room and she was still sound asleep.

"Morning princess," Kurt said softly as he sat on the end of Lily's bed. She rubbed her eyes as she saw her daddy looking down on her with a big smile.

"How's my little girl?"

"Tired." She said sleepy as her eyes started to close again.

"I hope not because I thought we could go to the central park today and have a picnic." Kurt said knowing Lily would jump at the chance. Lily shot up to sit on the bed looking so excited.

"Really?"

"Yes. But first we are going to have to wake your brother up and I have to make up some food."

"I will wake Jack up." Lily said as she hoped out of bed and ran into Jack's room to wake him up. Kurt laughed when she heard Lily shouting at Jack to get up.

It was one of those days were Kurt knew it was going to be better than yesterday.

"What's all this?" Blaine asked amused as Kurt and the kids were in the kitchen with a load of food over the counters.

"Dad, we are going on a picnic." Jack said as he was about to put a chocolate bar in his mouth. Kurt took it away from him chuckling.

"Jack, I told you not until we get there. Go and eat some fruit if you're hungry."

"Yuck!"

"So, we are going on a picnic?" Blaine asked as he put the shopping bags on the counter and walked over to Kurt and put his arms around his waist.

"Yeah, we haven't done anything together in what feels like forever."

"Sounds perfect Hun." Blaine leaned in and kissed Kurt softly both of them smiling against their lips.

"Ewwwww!" Jack and Lily shouted and giggled.

"Wait till you two fall in love and then you won't be saying…" Blaine said as Kurt and Blaine turned to face them to say "…Ewwwww!" the four of them laughed.

"I can't wait to have a boyfriend." Lily grinned.

"Not till you're eighteen." Kurt and Blaine both said being serious.

"What age were you two before you became boyfriends?" Jack asked curious. Kurt and Blaine looked to each other with the look in their eyes that said we are not telling them.

Sixteen they both thought and looked back to their kids. "That's not important, what's important is you two can't have a boyfriend or girlfriend till you are eighteen."

"But dad I thought you said you and daddy were sixteen when…"

"Okay let's head to the park now!" Blaine announced trying to change the conversation. The kids ran to their rooms to put on their shoes.

"Do we have a right to say that? After all we were 16 and before we were eighteen we had sex, so…"

"Yeah, but they don't know that and just think back to that time when we were that age, we were teenage boys and we couldn't stay away from each other. Lily and Jack are going to have someone in their lives to that can't stay away from them."

"Um Blaine, I still can't stay away from you." They both chuckled. "And hey, I love you and am going to get fully back to myself soon."

"I know. I love you to. I just can't imagine what would of happened if I had stopped at the petrol station. Another few seconds longer and you could have been…" Blaine stopped and Kurt put his hands either side of Blaine's cheeks.

"Then don't Blaine. You don't have to imagine it because am here and I swear to you I am not going anywhere, you saved me again, just imagine the rest of our lives together, okay?" Blaine nodded his head with tears in his eyes as Kurt pulled him in for a hug.

"You think you will ever stop saving me?" Kurt whispered into Blaine's ear.

"Never!"

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Kurt and Blaine lay on a blanket covering a part of the grass of central park. Every time they came here they always came to the spot they had gotten married. They lay under a massive tree covering them a little from the sun. The kids were further up on the grass playing football, but were still close enough to still see them in the distance. It was starting to get cold a few minutes ago and Kurt had cuddled up to Blaine's side and rested his head on Blaine's chest. Blaine had throwing his jacket over their upper body to keep them a little bit warmer. Blaine had his arms wrapped around Kurt and pulled him in closer and ran his fingers through Kurt's hair.

"Remember in high school I would have killed someone if they had touched my hair, even you at times." They both laughed.

"Oh, yeah, how could I forget? And do you remember that time you let me borrow your red skinny jeans and I ended up ripping them and you didn't talk to me for two days?"

"Please don't remind me of that, I felt so bad for not talking to you over something so stupid. I was such a drama queen."

"Um, well nothing's changed there then." Blaine joked earning himself a playful hit in the arm with Kurt laughing. "The making up was great though."

"Um tell me about it."

"Well, we had sex and I swear it was…"

"Blaine!" Kurt chuckled as he rested his chin on Blaine's chest and met Blaine's eyes.

"You know what else hasn't changed? You bring Mr amazing, being the cheesy guy."

"Speaking of cheesy, I brought something with me." Blaine reached into his bag pocket trying to get out a piece of paper.

"Are you feeling your ass? Because you know I can always do that for you." Kurt smirked as he sat up and Blaine did to pulling out the paper.

"Keep that in mind for later." Blaine winked as he unfolded the paper. "These are my wedding vows to you and I just want you to remember them, to know what I said that day, I will always mean it because Kurt, you are the first and only love of my life, high school sweethearts." Kurt's smile grew even bigger as he remembered one of the best days of his life.

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Kurt and Blaine stood in front of each other in front of their friends and family in central park. The sun was shining down so bright onto them and onto the lake in front of them. They had only wanted less than thirty of friends and family, a small wedding in central park, with Puck playing the guitar for them. Simple, but beautiful.

They both couldn't stop looking and grinning at each other. They both looked amazing. Kurt wore a grey suit and Blaine wore a black suit with a waist coat over the shirt and the long jacket over it. Kurt's hair as always was perfect and Blaine had only put the tiniest bit of hair gel in his hair to control some of the curls.

They held both of each other's hands as they gazed into each other's eyes.

"Today we are here to see two young boys become one. They stand up here in front of you all to show you how much they love each other and there is no better way for them to show it by standing up here and listening to them explain why they love each other so much. Blaine, if you may." The man said as Blaine nodded his head and started to speak.

"Kurt, if someone had told me that I would be marrying the love of my life at nineteen I would have said I know because you were that someone telling me every day since last December that we were getting married." Kurt including everyone else laughed. "We joke saying that the way we met on the staircase of Dalton is like in the end of the titanic were Jack waits for Rose, but the sad thing was that was only in her mind and sometimes I still think that this is all in my mind that I met you that day, that since then we have become inseparable, even when we were just friends, we were still inseparable. All the pain I went through before I met you I would do in again in a heartbeat because that's how I found you, that is why I am standing up here today. You are my best friend, my lover, my soul mate, my fianc�, my soon to be husband and so much more and I didn't think it was possible to fall so in love with someone like I have with you and I am still falling in love with you every day and I am never going to stop, your everything to me, Kurt. You tell me that I saved you but really, we saved each other and I will love you till the end if ever there comes an end." Kurt held Blaine's hand's tighter as a tear fell down his face as he looked into Blaine's eyes seeing his eyes shining with tears.

"See you were always the best out of us with words and there's always going to be one word you said that I will never forget, courage. It was like I had never heard that word before because you were saying it and that word has helped us true a hell of a lot of things together. I remember thinking I am never going to find someone who loves me just for me but…then you came along, became my best friend that I found really hot…" everyone laughed as Kurt went on "…here was this amazing, gorgeous, smart boy that I thought I didn't have a hope in hell of you becoming my boyfriend but, you did and I felt like the luckiest guy in the world. The more I got to know you I was falling faster in love and I am always going to be falling in love with you and that won't stop. The word hasn't even been invented yet to say how much you have helped me and loved me. I want to do everything with you Blaine, I want you by my side if something new happens to me, even if it's just something silly like eating something new or buying new clothes, I want you to be there because everything is better when your there, it always has been since I met you and always will be. I used to dream about being this lucky and then my perfect dreams stopped because I didn't need to dream any more, my dreams came true, I am living them right now. I have you, we are in New York and in college doing what we love and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life will you. We could be poor and living on the streets of New York and as long as you were with me I wouldn't care because you are everything I need. I love you so much Blaine." at this stage a lot of people were in tears and the same went for Blaine and Kurt but, they were happy tears.

Blaine was the first to put on Kurt's ring and he did it slowly to remember this perfect moment in his mind forever. Kurt did it next and did the same thing, remembering this moment. When they both had their rings on they looked back up to each other with so much love and happiness. As the final words were said "I now pronounce you Mr and Mr Anderson Hummel. You may now kiss…" Kurt and Blaine had already collided their lips together before the man got to finished and the noise of talking and cheers around then faded as they both fell into their first kiss of being husbands. Kurt let his arms fall over Blaine's shoulders and Blaine rested his hands on either side of Kurt's waist. When they finally pulled away just a little bit to see each other's smiles they had the biggest smiles on their faces.

"You're really my husband." Kurt said trying to believe it and Blaine just nodded slowly.

"Now you can remind me every day that we are married."

"Oh believe me, I will, Blaine Anderson-Hummel.

"That's really good to know, Kurt Anderson-Hummel. I love saying that!" Blaine chuckled as he kissed Kurt again as they both couldn't help but smile against their lips that was making it hard to kiss. They turned to face everyone else who were all up on their feet clapping with tears in their eyes and big massive smiles on their faces.

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"You have to remember Kurt that we are always going to get through the hardiest things together. I-I know losing your dad was the toughest thing and I am so sorry that I let you go into this dark side, I should of got you help sooner because if I had of then-then…" they were both sitting up and had tears falling down their eyes. Kurt put his finger under Blaine's chin so he could look at Kurt, Kurt had to tell him, make Blaine see this wasn't his fault.

"Don't you dare blame yourself, Blaine? Look at me, sweetheart." Blaine moved his eyes away from the ground to met Kurt's. He loved when Kurt called him sweetheart.

"Why are you blaming yourself? I know you are and you are not being fair to yourself. All you have ever done is to try and help me and trust me, you are doing it. That night I just…I couldn't take it anymore because I thought dad was really there, I didn't want to believe it was just me seeing him because I wanted to see him so badly, that it actually happened. I wanted to feel something by being under water, and I did, I wanted to live. And I am…I am so sorry you had to go through that…but you saved me. I promise I will be fine, I am getting better every day." Kurt held both of Blaine's hands in his and the vows sat beside them. Blaine let out sobs as he remembered that moment he thought he had lost Kurt.

"I thought I-I lost you. What if I was just a few seconds late and I hadn't saved you. Kurt, I can't live without you, I just can't." Blaine choked out as Kurt just leaned in and kissed Blaine's lips softly. It was slow, sweet, loving and they both fell into the kiss. Kurt brought one of his hands to lie on the back of Blaine's neck pulling him into the kiss more. Seconds passed before Kurt rested his forehead on Blaine's.

"Am here, Blaine, I am not going anywhere, you have to know that. I promise if I ever get to feeling so depressed again I will tell you, I promise. Running out of breath made me want to live and I am never going to take life for granted again. I have too much in my life to throw it all away. I might not be okay yet but I promise I will be, it will just take more time, but you and the kids are the reason I want to get better." Kurt was trying to hold back the rest of his tears as he gave a watery smile to Blaine.

"It might have all been in my head but when I saw my dad he said he will get you through it he is you Blaine and you are getting me through this, you have never stopped making me happy and I know you would always fight for me. Don't think I don't know that because I do, I always have known I just forgot that for a while." Kurt said the last bit sadly as Blaine nodded his head and the tears weren't running down his face as fast. He met Kurt's eyes and he knew Kurt meant it.

"I-I love you always, Kurt." were the only words Blaine managed to get out.

"I love you to, sweetheart, I always will, no matter what." Blaine met Kurt's lips again bringing his arms to wrap around Kurt's waist. The kiss was full of love like always. Each kiss they have had since the first one was always full of so much love and they always would be till their last one. Blaine pulled Kurt closer in to him as Kurt rested his right hand on the side of Blaine's neck. Their teeth hit gently against each other as Blaine let them open so Blaine could let Kurt's tongue enter his mouth as Blaine did the same. Kurt moaned into the kiss as Blaine couldn't help but let a smile appear on his face by that.

"God, I have…missed kissing you…like this…so much." Kurt mumbled through kisses as Blaine just hummed in response. Kurt pushed Blaine down gently onto the grass as Blaine's back was fully against the ground and Kurt was half on and half of off Blaine's body. They never broke the kiss as they lay down.

"Only you could make me feel so turned on right now after crying so much." Blaine joked as Kurt pulled his lips away from Blaine for a second gazing into his eyes.

"And only you can save me from everything." Kurt whispered softly as he rested both his hands under Blaine's head as he went back into the kiss. "And yeah…you are also turned on." Kurt chuckled.

"Wait, where are the kids?" Blaine said about to panic.

"Their away over on the other side, they will be a while, now back to kissing me, Blaine." Their lips joined again as Kurt let one hand trail over Blaine's chest and down to his waist and let his hand go under Blaine's shirt and back up his chest. Kurt let his lips fall onto Blaine's neck and kiss down his neck until he stopped at the bit he always did and sucked down on it.

"Babe, oh god, Kurt, not here…you know how I…how I will, Jesus." Blaine whispered as low as he could into Kurt's ear. Kurt lifted up his head and smirked at Blaine.

"Okay, but am still kissing you." Kurt whispered back in a low voice.

"Daddies are you both hugging?" came the sweet voice stood behind them. Kurt and Blaine both pulled away from each other and sat up seeing Lily looking at them curious.

"Yes! We were hugging, yes!" Blaine blurred out and Kurt tried not to laugh.

"Okay. Can me and Jack go and get ice-cream? It's right beside us." Lily said thinking about how much she wanted ice-cream.

"Course you both can." Kurt pulled out some money from his pocket and handed it to Lily who said thank you and ran back to Jack to go and get ice-cream.

Kurt and Blaine both looked at each other for a second before bursting out laughing.

"If we get a phone call from the school or from anyone saying that's the way Lily was hugging her friend, you are responsible." Kurt said still laughing as Blaine just had a huge grin on his face.

"I didn't know what else to say." Blaine said as he pulled out his phone and started texting. Kurt looked over and saw Lily and Jack ordering their Ice cream. They turned around and looked towards Kurt and waved happily. Kurt waved back and said to Blaine.

"Is Cooper busy tonight? We could ask if he wanted to mind Jack and Lily."

"Already on it." Blaine said as he sent the text and put down the phone beside him. "Busy or not he's minding them, I have a date in the bedroom with my husband tonight." Blaine smirked.

"I better not get in you and your husband's way then." Kurt chuckled as Blaine just shook his head and put his head on Kurt's shoulder as Kurt turned his head to face Blaine, who was making his puppy dog eyes.

"What?" Kurt asked raising his eyebrows at the adorable look Blaine was giving him.

"I really want an ice-cream, like badly." They both laughed as Kurt nodded his head and kissed Blaine on the forehead.

"Come on then, I'll buy you the usually. A honey cone flavour with chocolate syrup and sprinkles, marshmallows-the coloured ones- a flake and a strawberry on the top. "

"You just get me." Blaine laughed as they got up from the blanket and Blaine folded it as Kurt picked up the picnic basket.

I have since the day I met you." They both smiled and headed over to the kids.