Aug. 26, 2012, 11:27 a.m.
The Summer I Didn't Eat: Don't Be Afraid, I'll Always Love You
E - Words: 925 - Last Updated: Aug 26, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 30/30 - Created: Jul 31, 2012 - Updated: Aug 26, 2012 627 0 0 0 0
After Blaine stormed off Kurt broke down and Mercedes and Rachel tried consoling the broken boy.
Blaine hadn’t gotten far before he silently broke down too. He sat by the shore behind a few trees and listened to their conversation.
“It’s okay.” Mercedes said softly trying to comfort her friend.
“Yeah Kurt, everything’s going to be fine.” Rachel said brushing the tears of Kurt’s face.
“It’s not fine. I really really really like him, and we can’t be together. I’m not good enough for him. He’ll never love me the way I love him. I’m so stupid. I fell for yet another straight boy I’ll never have.” Kurt cried.
“Kurt, it’s okay. You’ll get through this. We’re here for you.” Mercedes said hugging a now sobbing Kurt.
“I think I’m in love with him ’Cedes.” Kurt whispered.
“Awwh baby, it’s okay.” Mercedes comforted.
“I think I’m in love with him.” Kurt repeated. “And he’ll never love me. Why would anyone every love me? How could I have been so stupid?” Kurt complained.
“Kurt you’re not stupid. Clearly he’s a jerk who was just taking advantage of you. One day you’ll find someone who loves you and treats you like you deserve to be treated. You are the most beautiful, smart, funny, loving, caring person I know. And you deserve someone better than this guy. Clearly.” Rachel said hugging Kurt.
“He’s not a jerk. And he didn’t take advantage of me.” Kurt defended him. “He treated me with respect, he comforted me, and he made sweet tender love to me and was such a gentlemen about it.” Kurt cried softly.
“If he was such a gentlemen why would he hide your relationship? Better yet why would he deny your relationship and tell us he’s not even gay? Why would he intentionally hurt you?” Mercedes asked bluntly.
“I don’t think he intentionally hurt me. Blaine’s too sweet. A little misguided, but sweet. I think there’s something deeper, a good reason that he is hiding what we have. I don’t think he’s just taking advantage of me.” Kurt sighed.
“That’s because you’re young and naïveté and you see the best in people Kurt.” Rachel responded coldly.
“I don’t know Rach. I guess I’m just not willing to accept that he could ever hurt me. I’m going to talk to him.” Kurt said getting up.
“No, don’t. Come on Kurt, let’s go to breakfast.” Rachel suggested.
“I’m not very hungry.” Kurt sighed. “Please, I’m going to go talk to him. But you cannot say anything at all about what you saw or what I told you. In fact just pretend that everything this morning didn’t happen. I’m pretty sure that’s what he’s been doing anyway.” Kurt sighed.
“Fine, but if he hurts you I’m going to destroy him.” Mercedes warned.
“Okay ‘Cedes. Thank you. Thank you both. I love you guys.” Kurt smiled giving them a hug before walking away to go find Blaine.
“Hey..” Kurt said awkwardly after approaching Blaine.
“I love you too.” Blaine said not even looking up.
“Huh? What?” Kurt asked caught of guard.
“You told Mercedes and Rachel that you love me. I love you too.” Blaine smiled softly.
“Oh Blaine. I love you so much. Why did you storm off?” Kurt asked sitting down next to Blaine.
“I was just so scared Kurt. I’m just so scared.” Blaine cried softly.
“No one knows, do they?” Kurt asked.
“I’m out to my family, and they accept that, and I’m proud of who I am. But my friends, no one at Dalton knows. You have to understand that I was forced to change schools because of how bad the bullying was. When I came to Dalton I was too afraid to tell anyone I was gay. I lied, and now I’m afraid. I’m afraid it’s too late, I’m afraid I won’t be accepted, I’m afraid if they do accept me that they’ll be mad that I lied. I’m just so scared Kurt. But then you came along, and I love you, everything feels so right with you. It makes me want to tell them, it makes me want to be able to hold your hand anytime I want, or kiss you whenever I feel like it. But then I get to thinking and I chicken out. And I’m so sorry if I hurt you because of this. I should never have let my fear hurt you. I’m sorry Kurt, I’m so sorry.” Blaine cried.
“Blaine, it’s okay. I love you. I understand what it’s like to always be living in fear. It’s okay if you’re not ready. I would never force you to do or be something that you’re not ready for. I do love you and I’ll wait as long as you want to. As long as you still want me. I’d love to still be your boyfriend. No one has to know. Just me and you, together.” Kurt smiled taking Blaine’s hands in his.
“I’d love for that. Thank you Kurt, just thank you.” Blaine smiled.
He leaned forward and kissed his boyfriend before standing up and leading them back to the mess hall.
Kurt insisted that he wasn’t hungry and afterwards they went off to do the day’s activities.
Every so often when they found themselves alone they’d share a kiss and a few caresses.
The wilderness and wildlife at camp was truly beautiful. So much nature along the trails and paths. All the beauty gave Blaine a great idea.
Blaine smiled contently as he thought over his plan.