“Um what, whats on my arms, nothing, um nothing. Um um um.” Kurt began freaking out as he hid his arms behind his back.

Shit, everyone saw his cuts when he lifted his arms in his song, shit shit shit. Big mistake.

He backed up into the stage and everyone was slowly walked towards him asking him questions.

A few tears fell from Blaine’s eye as he grabbed Kurt’s hand and turned his wrist so he could see the underside of his arms.

“Fuck.” Kurt breathed out as everyone began examining his wrists.

“DAMN IT KURT!” Finn yelled. “I SAW YOU TAKE THAT KNIFE OUT OF THE KITCHEN LAST NIGHT. And I asked you about it. And you lied to me. Why did you do this?” Finn had stopped yelling, now shaking in sobs.

Kurt remained silent as everyone accusingly questioned him and told him how stupid he was for doing such a thing.

“You don’t understand.” Kurt said coldly turning away because he could no longer look this people in the eyes.

“Why would you try to kill yourself Kurt?” Rachel asked actually sounding concerned for someone else.

 “I didn’t Rach. It’s not like that. I didn’t want to completely end it all. I just I just. It felt good. I was able to take out some of the anger I have bottled inside me, and it made me feel relieved, doing this made things feel better. I’m sorry.” Kurt said crying at this point.

“Oh Kurt, baby.” Mercedes said pulling him into her arms. “This morning, when you were in such a good mood?”

She didn’t even have to explain more than that, Kurt just shook his head sadly.

“Kurt, I knew you were depressed, I told you that you could come talk to me if you needed to.” Blaine said sadly to holding onto Kurt’s arms. Now rubbing soothing circles over the fresh cuts.

“Blaine, I’ve already involved you too much.” Kurt said.

“That’s right, I’m involved, which means you should have come to me. I could have helped you.” Blaine said sadly.

“I’m confused what are you involved in?” Mr. Schue asked.

“Kurt, just tell him.” Finn said angrily.

“Kurt, what’s going on? You can talk to me, I’m a teacher. If you want you can even go talk to Emma. Oh God, you were standing outside her office waiting, and I pulled you away. Oh God, Kurt I’m so sorry.”

“Dude, just tell him what’s going on.” Finn said again and Blaine nodded.

“Okay.” Kurt said after a while gesturing for everyone to sit down with him.

“So, this all began in the beginning of the year. When Karofsky’s bullying really started taking a toll on me. I couldn’t tell if it was getting worse or I was just getting weaker. I’d come home each day with bruises and I have yet to get my broken ribs checked out. And I would cover up the marks on my face or around my neck. Some days it wasn’t so bad, others I was beaten senseless and I was left in the parking lot to bleed for hours until the football team finished up practice and came back for a round two. It was getting really bad.” Kurt began.

Everyone listened. “We-we noticed you stop being yourself, Kurt.” Tina said sadly. “We noticed little things about how you stopped eating, and you lost so much weight, and you stopped singing in glee club, barely ever arguing for a solo, but we-we didn’t do anything about it. I’m so sorry Kurt, we could have helped.” Tina said sobbing.

“Tina, that’s not even the bad part.” Kurt said coldly before continuing.

“When we were doing the girls vs. boys assignment and Puck sent me to guy spy on Dalton, where I met Blaine-” He said fondly as Blaine wiped the tear away from his eye and kissed his cheek. “-Blaine told me to have courage and confront Karofsky.” He continued.

“Stupidest advice I have ever given.” Blaine said sadly.

“Well I did just that, I followed him into the locker room and I confronted him, I yelled at him and told him he can’t treat me like this just because I’m gay. And then it happened. He-he kissed me-”

The room was filled with an outbreak of eww’s and what’s.

“He kissed me, and I pushed him away and I ran. He then told me if I tell anyone about what happen he’d kill me. With the exception of Blaine and Finn I have kept his secret. When I left here I didn’t even tell Figgins or any of the teachers, I just told them he threatened me, nothing more nothing less.” Kurt said sadly.

“Kurt, you could have come to me. I could have helped you more.” Mr. Schue said his eyes water he’s mouth in a straight line, a look of worry and guilt spread across his face, even though he didn’t do anything wrong.

“I went to Dalton, where I was safe, where I had Blaine, where things were better. But tuition was simply too much and I had to return here. And the bullying started again. This time much worse. Against better judgment I was really letting it get to me. I mean how couldn’t I? But still I starting taking things out on myself. Telling myself it was all my fault. I couldn’t stand myself. It made me sick to look at myself in the mirror, I was so weak, I let him do these things to me.” Kurt said tearing up.

“It wasn’t your fault Kurt.” Blaine said reassuringly.

“I stopped eating, I was always to depressed to eat.” He said.

“Dude, I eat dinner with you every night.” Finn said confused.

“And each night you watch me push my food around my plate until all of you get up and leave and I throw away my food and wash the dishes, every single night.” Kurt said sadly.

“How could I have not noticed?” Finn asked feeling guilty.

“I noticed.” Quinn said dryly. “I noticed how he didn’t eat at lunch, I thought he was just on a diet or something, but I noticed. I’m so sorry Kurt.” She said as a tear fell down her cheek.

“It’s fine, I tried my best to hide these things. So anyway the bullying continued on for awhile and for some reason of another this week has been the absolute worst. Monday he beat me, then he had the nerve to call up my house and ask me out on a date. So then jealous boyfriend over here-” Kurt says pointing at Blaine “-decides to mark his territory or some shit and leaves my neck littered with hickeys.” Kurt says sighing.

“Sorry.” Blaine says sadly.

“So then Santana calls me out on my hickeys which then leads to angry Karofsky trying to strangle me, then kiss me, then pushes me down the stair and this time he threatens to kill both me and Blaine. So bullying continues, days grow worse, blah blah blah. Then after another not so good day I’m preparing dinner with Blaine in the kitchen and I accidently cut my finger with the knife and that’s when I got some ideas. Needless to say I followed out the ideas. I was almost stopped by Finn but I got away with it anyway.” Kurt said shakily

“I’m so stupid, I saw you with the knife, and my last words were do you want an Oreo.” Finn sighed as Kurt laughed.

“So I do this.” He said extending his arms, “and I was immediately ashamed of what I did, but it just felt so so so so good. So I wore a long sleeved shirt to cover things up, but I was slushied and ended up changing. I was almost caught by a teacher and told to see Ms. Pillsbury during lunch, but before that I was confronted again.” Kurt said sadly.

“But I stepped in and saved him.” Finn said proudly.

“Oh right so then Finn, my lovely step-brother/protector, decides he should threaten Karofsky for threatening us. ” Kurt said laughing at little at Finn.

“Are you stupid?” Rachel asked.

“Dude, what did you say to him?” Blaine asked concerned, he hadn’t heard this story yet.

“He threatened to out him to the entire school.” Kurt said in a fit of laughter.

“Well anyone that’s pretty much all that’s happened. But you cannot tell a soul. I know Karofsky will keep up his word, and we can’t have that. So please don’t say anything.” Kurt pleaded already feeling sick for telling people, putting himself on the line.

They all understood and shook their heads.

“Now let’s talk about you.” Mr. Schue said staring at Kurt.

“Let’s talk about this.” He added, grabbing Kurt’s arm.

“I think you might need to talk to someone, and maybe even get something to help. It sounds to me that this has caused you some serious internal pain and put you into a spiraling depression.” Mr. Schue said calmly.

“Okay, I guess I’ll talk to someone.” Kurt said shakily.