July 31, 2012, 9:34 a.m.
Baby You're Not Alone: Chapter 15
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After glee club I went to football practice. You know for people who say they’re really accepting they weren’t. Even Finn of all people. They were all so awkward changing around me.
It’s like now that they knew they were uncomfortable. Well that was rude.
Okay Sam just tried to put his uniform pants on over top of his jeans.
“Why are you all being so weird?” I asked a little hurt, because I knew why.
“Dude, its weird changing in front of you.” Puck replied.
“Wow.” I laughed.
“You just make us a little uncomfortable.” Sam added.
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Yesterday we stole all of Sam’s clothes and he walked out onto the field in the nude, he didn’t have a problem with people looking then.
“I can’t believe you guys of all people are saying this to me. It’s incredibly rude. Do you treat Kurt like this?” I asked completely heartbroken.
“Kurt’s not allowed in here either.” Sam spoke up.
“What do you mean not allowed? You can’t ban someone from the locker room because they’re gay.” I said a little louder than necessary because I was getting mad.
“Anderson’s gay? Figures. Spends so much time with that fag Hummel, it was bound to rub off on him.” Karofsky laughed.
Shit, the one person in the world I didn’t want to know, now does.
“This is the boy’s locker room, fairy. And we don’t want you in here sneaking peeks.” Karofsky said pushing me into a row of lockers.
He shoved me again and it hurt like a bitch. The lock had just slammed into my back, and I just know there will be a bruise there tomorrow. How did Kurt deal with this on a daily basis? Two shoves and I’m about to lose it.
“So why don’t you just get out of here fag.” Karofsky said pushing me yet again.
“Karofsky, just leave him alone.” Finn said tiredly.
Sure, now try and defend me.
“Whatever.” Karofsky grunted and walked away.
“Thanks for having my back.” I said sarcastically grabbing my things and storming off to the field.
“No problem!” He responded happily as I stormed away.
I couldn’t help but laugh, he really thought he was defending me. After all the hurt their words had caused Karofsky’s shoves meant nothing. I considered them friends. Ha! Some friends. Who kicks someone out of the locker room? Oh well like I’d want to be in there with them anyway.
Jerks.
After a brutal football practice, where I was tackled more times than necessary by Karofsky, I walked home.
I got back to our neighborhood and saw Kurt and Finn yelling at each other in the driveway.
“What do you mean you guys told him he wasn’t welcome in the locker room?” Kurt yelled.
“I mean we told him how changing in front of him was awkward.” Finn sighed.
“Finn! You’ve got to be fucking kidding me! Why would you do that?” Kurt yelled.
“Because he’s, well you know” Finn started.
“Gay? Yeah he’s gay! Big deal! He’s still a great player and he was one of your friends, how could you do this to him? Do you know how hurt that must make him feel?” Kurt yelled defensively.
“I don’t know! Then Karofsky called him a fag and pushed him but I told Karofsky not to push him. I think we’re okay.” Finn explained.
“Great now Karofsky knows!” Kurt yelled. “You may not realize this but saying those things to him is bullying, I thought you were better than Karofsky.” Kurt sighed. “Ugghh you stress me out, I’m going for a run.” Kurt said annoyed.
“Hey Blaine” Kurt smiled at me as I stood in front of my house watching the spectacle that had just unfolded. I smiled and he continued to run down the street. I watched him until I could no longer see him and then I turned back to Finn.
Finn gave me a sad smile and I just walked into my house.
Not dealing with that tonight.
I ate dinner with my family and told them all the details of how I came out to the glee club and how Kurt sang to me. But I left out the locker room incident. I didn’t want to talk about it.
After dinner I help my mom with dishes and made my way up to my room.
I really just wanted some time alone to think.
Yeah, what the guys said really upset me. I mean I guess I can see where they’re coming from, but then again not really. I hate homophobes. I really do.
I thought they were nice guys, but honestly who says that? Like really? Really?
I was pacing around my bedroom ranting to myself when I heard a light tap on my window.
Tap.
Tap.
And another.
I looked out and saw Kurt standing outside with a rock in his hand.
I opened the window and looked down at him. “Whatcha doing?” I asked.
“I wanted to talk.” He smiled.
Oh my God, Kurt was too perfect. Sure texting me to come outside, or even picking up the phone and calling would have done the job, but this was just adorable.
“So can you come outside?” He asked.
“Sure, be right down.” I smiled.
I walked out front and joined him where he was sitting on the sidewalk.
“Hi” He smiled as I sat down.
“Hey babe, what’s up?” I asked tentatively.
“I’m sorry about what Finn and the guys said. And sorry you had to watch that fight earlier. They’re sweet guys, really, but there just a little dumb. And well they can say things that really hurt, and not even notice that what they’re saying is offensive. Finn tried his best to justify what they were saying, but either way it still sounds really awful. So I’m sorry for them.” Kurt said sadly.
“Kurt, its fine.” I sighed. “I don’t really care; I expected being treated differently, just not by them. I thought they were accepting people, guess not.” I frowned.
“They are, or at least they try to be. If it makes you feel any better I’m not wanted in the boy’s locker room either.” Kurt sighed.
“We should go in there and just despite them like make out or something to rub our gay in their face.” I joked.
“Yeah, no. We’d be like murdered.” Kurt laughed.
“You’re just embarrassed to be with me.” I teased.
“Yup, super embarrassed.” Kurt laughed and gave me a quick kiss on the lips.
He looked up at me and smiled and then proceeded to kiss me this time his lips lingering on my and his tongue running along my bottom lip asking permission for entrance. Of course I granted it entrance and we kissed passionately our tongues dancing in each others’ mouths.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer as I tangled my hands in his hair.
Surprisingly enough we stayed like that for the rest of the night, lying on the sidewalk kissing until the early hours of the mourning.
To be honest I could have stayed there for the rest of my life.
I love him, I really do.
And you know what; I don’t even care about facing homophobes at school.
I have Kurt, and that’s all I care about.
Comments
ughh a week! ITS OK! :)))your still freakin amazing!WOW! I JUST WANNA KICK EVERYONES ASS THAT MADE BLAINE FEEL BAD :(YA KNOW!i can relate to blaine. im scared to come out because people will treat me differently!i love how much i relate to both blaine and kurt in this story@!keep writing :) love you
Thank you, I'm really glad you like the story :) People really suck, but that shouldn't stop you from being who you are. Don't ever change for anyone. And most of all, you shouldn't have to hide who you are from the world. I don't even know you but I'm sure you're an amazing person. This world really isn't fair, people shouldn't treat others differently just because they're attracted to the same sex. It shouldn't even matter. Love is love.Hell I've questioned my sexuality so many times, all I know is that no matter who I'm physically attracted to or who I fall in love with, they're still a person. To me sex doesn't matter. People can be just awful and I wish we didn't have to deal with them. I know what it's like to be scared of how you might be treated. When I really really struggled with not eating, I knew I had a problem and when my friends began to notice I felt paranioid. How would they treat me if they knew I starved myself to impress people? And when I cut I feel so strong, but then everything just breaks. I freak out because what if someone see's them, what if someone notices the old scars or the angry new ones? How would some one treat me if they knew how depressed I always am? I'm am always so afraid of what people think of me. Even the little stuff, my friends hardly even know that I like glee yet alone I spend all day reading or writing Klaine fanfiction on here.There is just so much hate in this world that I want to hide, I want to be normal. But then again, I wouldn't want to be what society deems as normal, because that's not me. I have a hard time seeing that because I'm so lost in body image and all that shit, but I know that hiding is wrong. Please know that you should never have to hide who you really are just because your worried about what others might think. Totally come out when you are comfortable and ready. But just know that you shouldn't be afraid. People are complete jerks and can be stubborn and stuck in their ways. But their is absolutely nothing wrong with you, you're a lovely person. And I'm sure that people who are truely your friends will accept you, I know I do. If you ever, ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you love. Okay? Because I know what it's like to be afraid. I myself have not come to terms with my sexuality, I don't really know what's going on. But you, you seem confident and strong, and I respect you. It takes a lot of courage to do what you just did, even though it was only coming out to a stranger over the internet it's still more than I can say I would do. I'm proud of you. And I want you to know that I'll be here for you. People really suck, but I'm sure no matter what you'll be just fine. And if anyone treats you differently then fuck them because that's just messed up. If anyone ever tries to mess with you I got your back :D! You are beautiful and strong and amazing and I love you! If you ever need to talk feel free to email me at: woah_oh_kelsey@live.com
I just want to smack the football boys and yell "just because he is gay doesn't mean he is checking you out! Get over yourself". I feel so badly for Blaine. Its like he lost his friends because now he sees how they truly are. Finn just gets my blood boiling. At least Blaine has Kurt. Though it pains me every time Kurt goes running because its just making his health situation worse. Have fun on vaca! We await your wonderful return with lots of updates!!!
Thanks for reading and commenting :) Yeah I know they're jerks, but Blaine will always have Kurt so thats that. But anyway vacation was great and now I'm back. A bunch of chapters should be posted tonight so stay tuned. Thanks again for reading.
Lol dont they have school... Oh well I guess making out with your boyfriend is more important than sleep!!! Thats so true...
Hahaha yeah totally more important :)
Please smack them all! Thanks for reading!
Awws... That's just evil. Evil glee pricks!!! >< *Smacks them all*
Ughh the glee boys are really pissing me off and Karofsky is an asshole
Truth!