Kurt was on his way to pick Blaine up from the coffee shop when he noticed he was a little early, he could try to drive a little slower or drive around for a little longer but he decided to wait in the parking lot. After ten minutes he saw Blaine and Seblegstian, okay okay Sebastian (ugh) walking out of the coffee shop, both laughing. Kurt sighed Blaine was so adorable, but when he looked over at Sebastian he wasn't too pleased with the look on his face,
guessing he was probably thinking the same thing. (but probably somewhat, more.. well Sebastian-ish)

Suddenly something happened what Kurt didn't expect, well not entirely. Blaine and Sebastian were standing in front of Sebastian's car, Blaine leaned against the car laughing about something Sebastian said. When suddenly Sebastian leaned Blaine's way and kissed him, not even trying to be careful but immediately pressing his whole body against Blaine's and he draped his arms around Blaine. Kurt was about to walk out of the car to yell at Sebastian for doing that to Blaine, his boyfriend. But he couldn't, his whole body felt numb, because Blaine wasn't stopping him. Kurt thought he was going to be sick,
he felt his stomach twist in an unhealthy, sickening way. Tears were stinging in his eyes, he hadn't felt this much pain since his mother died when he was 8.

He didn't know how he did it but he managed to drive away and park his car somewhere near to coffee shop, but out of sight of.. those two.
He didn't start crying, much to his own surprise. He thought Blaine would never hurt him like this! Blaine had told him he would never cheat on him and that Sebastian didn't mean anything to him! He felt so much anger towards Sebastian, but then again of course his life couldn't be perfect for once! It had been to perfect, hadn't it? And of course the universe couldn't let that happen. He almost drove home immediately but something inside him told him he should let Blaine explain, even though he really didn't want to hear how much Blaine had enjoyed kissing Sebastian.

He tried to look a little less pained and drove back to the parking lot, he made sure Blaine saw him. For some reason Sebastian had already left, Kurt didn't really care, the damage had been done anyway.

Blaine walked up to the car and got in. "Hey you", he smiled. Kurt almost lost his self control, Blaine wasn't even looking like he did something wrong!
"Hi" he tried to smile, but he didn't look at Blaine. Kurt decided to just bring Blaine home and go back home, or somewhere else. It didn't really matter as long as he wasn't in the same space as Blaine or Sebastian.

Blaine carefully studied Kurt, he didn't look very well. "You don't look like you're feeling well.." he tried not offend Kurt, he knew better than to make it sound like he was offending Kurt's appereance.

"I don't feel good". Kurt said bluntly, still trying not to look at Blaine, who apparently still wasn't trying to desperately find a way to apologise.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Do you want to go home?" Blaine asked, a little worried.

"Yes". His voice almost cracked, but luckily he had stopped after yes.

"Do you want me to come with you?" Blaine asked sweetly, ugh.

"No". Kurt didn't even try to sound nice anymore.

Blaine looked a little confused at Kurt's short answer, probably because he was really feeling ill. "Seriously, if you are so sick I don't want you to be alone".

Kurt was sort of losing his patience, "I said No, Blaine!".

"Okay, okay. You don't have to yell at me".

"Oh really? because I kind of feel like I should!" Okay, screw it! If Blaine wasn't going to apologise he wasn't going to pretend anymore.

"Oh, and why would that be?" Blaine was kind of losing his patience.

"I think you can figure that one out on your own!" Kurt yelled, pulling the car over at a gass station.

"No, I can't! So please, do tell me!".

Kurt finally looked at Blaine, his eyes pierced into Blaine's who was sure he had never seen Kurt so angry or hurt.

"Well maybe it has to do with the fact that you were shoving your tongue down Sebastians throat and don't even think about apologising or at least explaining!". Kurt sort of exploded, tears finally streaming down his face.

Blaine went white and looked he had just been kicked in the guts. "Kurt.." he tried to touch Kurt's hand, but he flinched away.

"Dont.. touch me" It was barely audible.

"I.. I don't.." Blaine suddenly felt like he couldn't speak properly. He looked at Kurt who was still crying, he looked so hurt, and Blaine had caused it..

"Just say it Blaine!" It came out in an angry sob.

"I.. I'm sorry.." Blaine knew it wasn't enough, he knew he shouldn't have gone on that coffee date with Sebastian!

"That's.. not what I mean". Kurt had to try his best not to break down completely, well at least not yet, not with Blaine next to him.

"I know I shouldn't have done that.. look I He was interupted by Kurt.

"No I mean just say you want to be with, just tell me! Tell me how he is everything I'm not! He was right.. I am not good enough for you.. But at least you could have broken up with me first.. why couldn't you just.. why Blaine? I thought you'd never lie to me! I trusted you.." And then he broke down completely. He wrapped his arms around himself and started sobbing really loud, making sure to move away as much from Blaine as he could.

Blaine had no idea what to do or say. He sat there completely frozen. Kurt had no idea how wrong he was, Blaine loved Kurt and he would never kiss Sebastian!
well not on purpose! It sort of happened, and before he realised it was Sebastian Kurt had probably already looked away.. because Blaine did most certainly break the kiss and after that he had yelled at Sebastian. He had decided not to tell Kurt because he knew how insecure he would react..

"Kurt, please don't say that.. You are the most beautiful person I've ever, ever seen" Blaine knew this was going to be really hard.

Kurt was still crying and it only got worse when Blaine said that. "Could you please stop lying!"

Blaine felt so hopeless. "Kurt I'm not lying! You are! And if it makes you feel better.. I broke the kiss and then yelled at him.."

Kurt flinched at the word 'kiss', "Is that what you tell everyone you cheat on?"

"Kurt, please... believe me.."

"Blaine, I trusted you.. I thought you'd never hurt me! I knew it was too perfect, just.. please don't try to make me believe I actually mean something to you".

At this point Blaine had no idea how to make Kurt believe him. "Kurt, I know you're upset but please listen to me.."

Kurt didn't say anything but Blaine just took that as a yes.

"Kurt.. You are the most wonderful miracle in my life, I'm pretty sure that if I wouldn't have met you I would be rotting away somewhere now!"

Kurt flinched at his last words, but still didn't say anything.

"Kurt, you are so strong, so beautiful, so lovely and the most amazing and inspiring person I've ever met. And I.. I love you. I really, really do Kurt. I knew I screwed up today, but it really didn't mean anything! I had no idea what he was going to do! I know you're mad at me, and you probably will be for.. I don't know how long. But I hope you can forgive me, you know.. eventually. Because I love YOU Kurt, not him, not anyone else. I love you!

Finally Kurt looked up, his eyes still watery. "I wish I could believe you.."

Suddenly Blaine's eyes were stinging with tears too, "I wish you could too.."

Kurt tried to swallow away the lump in his throat, "But everything, all my life.. things end up like this and I end up hurt. How is that fair Blaine? please tell me.."

Blaine wanted to hug Kurt so bad, he had never regretted anything this much in his life! He hated Sebastian!

"It isn't.. you deserve so much more Kurt! You deserve everything that makes you happy! And.." he really didn't want to say it, but he had to. "And if that doesn't include me, I totally understand". He bit down on his tongue to prevent himself from crying.

"I thought you did, well you did. But how can I trust you after this?" Kurt's voice was still broken and sounded really hurt.

"If you give me one more chance, I will prove that I won't ever hurt you again, I promise. Kurt, I care about you more than I care about myself. I don't care if that's weird or stupid, I do." Blaine tried to look into Kurt's eyes with as much 'sorry' as he could.

Kurt looked at Blaine, he knew he still loved him and probably nothing would ever stop him.

"You really hurt me Blaine.."

"I know.. You have no idea how sorry I am.. But I guess this is it then.." Now Blaine was sure he had never felt this much pain either, he felt like his whole inside was riped out, especially his heart.

"But I do love you, and even though I'm not happy with what you did.. I just can't leave you.. yet." Kurt finished.

Blaine looked up, eyes filled with tears. "R-really?"

"Yes, but do know that you'll really lose me if this happens again, I just.. I can't do this again" Kurt was still looking at Blaine.

"It won't, I will never hurt you like that again. I promise, it was so stupid of me! I should have seen it coming, I-"

"Blaine, it's okay. I forgive you, now stop beating yourself up. Maybe I will have trouble trusting you as much as I did, but if you really mean what you said.. you just have to win my trust back.

Blaine smiled, it wasn't really a big smile but he was so relieved Kurt didn't hate him! And he would do everything to win Kurt's trust back, everything!

Kurt smiled back, "Are you okay with watching a movie at my house? I don't really feel like going out".

"That would be lovely".

Kurt started the car again and they went to Kurt's house. Blaine knew Kurt didn't fully trust him, but they were okay. And what he did know, he was never talking to Sebastian again!