“Because, Kurt, I don’t want to lose you.” said Blaine

Kurt’s expression hardened lose him, Blaine couldn’t lose him for two reasons, the first one being he was never Blaine’s, and the second… he felt sure he’d always be Blaine’s no matter what especially after HIM, Kurt’s ex (if he could be called that), Morgan.

“You’re the best thing that’s happened to me in weeks.” Blaine continued, when Kurt didn’t reply.

“Well you should have thought about that!” said Kurt a bit more forcibly than he’d intended “before you flirted all last week. Shouldn’t you?”

It was at that point when Rachel Nick and Jeff arrived at the Lima Bean. They slipped in quickly a joined Jaime in the kitchens.

“What’s happened Jaime?” asked Rachel, pointing out to the coffee shop.

“They were just talking and Kurt started yelling.”

“Oh Dear my best gay”

“What could have Blaine said” asked Jeff.

When they returned to the main area of the coffee shop Kurt had left and Blaine was sat staring at his coffee cup.

“You girls go find Kurt.” Nick said with authority “we’ll go talk to Blaine.”

Nick took Jeff’s hand and they walked over to the table where Blaine sat.

“What do you guys want?” Blaine said moodily, he didn’t feel like talking to anyone, not right now. He just felt like going back to his dorm and, providing Logan wasn’t there with or without Julian, and turning on sad music and crying, he didn’t want to have to do this to Kurt he didn’t .

“Well hello to you too Blaine.” said Jeff sarcastically.

“What’s up Blaine, Jaime said you were talking and then Kurt started yelling.” said Nick sounding concerned.

“Guys, I don’t want to talk about it.”

“Blaine was it about, well, him?” Jeff said softly

Blaine knew full well which him Jeff was talking about, and yes it was about him, but it was about Blaine too. Blaine was broken and it was that him’s fault and now Blaine can’t let himself be vulnerable no matter how deeply he cared about, maybe even loved, Kurt. He couldn’t let himself get hurt like Logan hurt him again.

“Partly, but I don’t want to talk about it right now. I don’t want Kurt to hate me. Does he hate me?”

“It sounds like it.” joked Jeff; he received a sharp jab in the ribs from his boyfriend.

“I think what Jeff means is, it’s possible he does," said Nick soothingly “Why was he so angry? Blaine what did you say”

“You’re not going to stop until I tell you, are you?” Nick and Jeff shook their heads “Okay. Fine, well…”

When Jaime and Rachel arrived at Kurt’s navigator, he was playing ‘Falling for you’ very loudly and singing along. The tears he refused to let fall in the Lima bean streaming

“Mind if we join you honey?” asked Rachel as she turned the song off “this bad huh?”

“Of course not” Kurt replied “and obviously Rach, why would else would I listen to that bloody song”

“So what caused all that?” Jaime said worried

“Oh, yeah, that well.” Kurt began. “Remember last week when he was flirting and everything”

“Yeah and he was all adorable. Go on” said Jaime and Rachel together

“Well he kind of told me he didn’t want a relationship and I don’t know why he flirted, if that wasn’t where all this was heading”

“Awww honey, I’m sorry.” Rachel cooed

“Want to come back in and at least finish your sandwich” Jaime said all motherly

“I don’t know Jaime…”

“Come on honey, you don’t have to talk to him just at least come back to hang out with me and Jaime” said Rachel rubbing his upper arm.

“Okay, let me just fix my hair” said Kurt flashing a smile that didn’t reach his eyes.

When Kurt returned, Blaine looked hopeful. He was really hoping Kurt wasn’t too mad at him, or at least he wouldn’t stay mad at him.

“Hey, Nick, Jeff” said Kurt purposely avoiding Blaine’s eyes. “How are you guys?”

Kurt finished his Cucumber sandwich, and spent the rest of the afternoon avoiding Blaine’s gaze, they basically talked about who inspires them the most and what music they were into. Both Blaine and Kurt were relatively silent throughout the discussion.

When Blaine got in to the car he plugged in his iPod, turned the volume up and hit play. As he left the car lot, his favourite song from Hercules sounded over the speakers.

Blaine began to sing along.

Tears started forming in his eyes, but he refused to let them fall.

The next verse caused Blaine’s reserve to break and the tears began to fall uncontrollably. So much so he was forced to pull over.

Why, Why did Logan hurt him, things were going so well, and then Logan had broken him..

Now he couldn’t let in another boy, the boy who he cared about after only meeting trice… Blaine was really broken, beyond repair, he thought.

Blaine whispered the last verse through the sea of tears.

“I’m in love with Kurt Elizabeth Hummel” Blaine whispered to himself.

Maybe, Hopefully, Kurt Hummel wouldn’t stay mad at Blaine forever, maybe he could stay friends with Kurt, maybe he could learn to trust again and maybe just maybe, eventually he could trust Kurt with his heart.