Tobias started frantically tidying the apartment. He cooked Blaine he favourite meal, got his favourite wine and bought him some beautiful Long-Stemmed Red Roses. He showered for the first time in two days and got dressed. He wore a lilac button down and some black skinny jeans, styled his hair, just the way Blaine liked.

"What's going on?" said Kelsey when she came home from work.

"Blaine's coming home... I need to make everything nice for him." He replied as he frantically tidied the room.

"He is?"

"Yeah... he called and said he's coming home... I'm going to make it special so I can apologise"

"Right... okay..."

"I have to show him how sorry I am about this." said Tobias. "He needs to know it'll never ever happen again"

"I still don't know what it is..."she said. "You won't tell me, he hasn't told me... Kurt won't say anything nor will Nick and Jeff but I swear to god if I find out you-"

"It doesn't matter, because he's coming home!" Tobias interrupted.

Kelsey gave him a disapproving glare, She didn't like that he practically lived here especially after whatever it was he did to Blaine, she didn't like the way that he called Blaine, Darren and her apartment 'Home'. She knew he must have done something awful to have Blaine storm out like that. She was worried about Blaine, but work had kept her so busy she hadn't been able to go visit. Kelsey went to start getting dressed for her date with Darren. She was waiting for Darren to finish when Blaine arrived in the apartment; he put his keys on the console table and hung his coat up. He walked down the corridor in to the main sitting area where Tobias and Kelsey were sitting.

"Blaine!" Tobias exclaimed, and ran towards him.

Blaine flinched backwards out of instinct. "Let's just sit down... we need to talk."

"Blaine! What happened to your face?" Kelsey exclaimed.

"Y-yeah okay" said Tobias nervously as he went to sit on the couch

"Kels, dare... Could we have a little privacy? I'll explain later promise" Blaine said "I just need to talk to T. first"

"Yeah okay we were going out in a minute anyway... Darebear, honey we need to go... Talk to you later peanut" she hugged Blaine and kissed on the top of his head before she and Darren left.

"Okay... So what did you want to talk about?" Tobias asked.

"Right... Yes... Okay..." Said Blaine.

Blaine had had it all planned out... But now he was stood in front of Tobias he couldn't remember to say. He'd forgotten how green his eyes were, how deep they were and how they could draw him in. He shook himself and focused on what he needed to say, even though he knew that it would break his own heart let alone Tobias'. He had to do it... he deserved better.

"You're adorable when you're flustered" Tobias said, slightly offhand.

"Yeah...right...okay... so" Blaine took a deep breath "the other night, you hit me..." Blaine said Tobias looked down at his lap "and ... Well that wasn't good... And honestly I'm terrified of you right now, you scare me... you remind me of my father a little, he used to be nice and kind and gentle and then he would snap and hurt me. You hurt me... Kurt, Ryan, Nick and Jeff are all telling me I should get out and I know they are right" Tobias' face contorted, he felt like his heart was being ripped out of his chest, he hadn't been expecting this, he'd thought and hoped that maybe Blaine would forgive him...

"But I have a problem..." Blaine continued "I love you...but I can't stay.... For two reasons one you hurt me... And that is not okay. And two you were right; I mean, I'm not cheating you I would never do that, not again. But I do still have feelings for Kurt and I think always will, and I can't be with anyone really until I'm over them. I'm sorry." Blaine finished, tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Right... um, okay" said Tobias not really know what to say, his world was just crumbling around him, there was nothing he could do to stop it... and it was all his fault. "Can't we try to save this?"

"No... We can't. You hurt me."

"I won't ever hurt you again..." said Tobias, in tears "Can I promise you that?"

"T... it doesn't mean anything... if you've done it once, you'll do it again" Blaine said, sniffling.

"Please... Please give me a chance to save us? You're one of the best things to ever happen to me"

"I'm sorry if that's true, because I'm truly a terrible person"

"Not, not to me... never to me... I see you and you're this beautiful, funny, adorable, sexy, amazing, talented man. Your past is none of my business... your future is my privilege. I don't want us to be over. I love the man I see before me, I love everything about you"

"I love you too. But-"

"Then why are you ending this?" Tobias interjected, confused, his voice strained.

"Because I have to... I have to get out... I can't stay in a relationship where I get hurt... I can't keep doing that to myself, I deserve better than that" said Blaine "You helped me a lot after the assault, you understood... but you don't understand what I went through before I met you... before I even met Kurt... I've been falling closer and closer to the edge and I just... I don't want to go back and I can feel myself slipping in that direction..."

"Oh... I guess I don't... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you... or- or make things worse for you... but I still love you... I want to be able to work at this... I'll never hurt you again... I'll never do anything like it"

"We can't try again, because you will, you will do it again."

"I won't. I promise... I'd never do it again... please?" he begged, tears in his eyes, he was desperate he couldn't lose Blaine, his voice cracked. "Please let us try it again"

"No, we can't. There's no way to fix this. I really am sorry you'll find someone amazing, someone who deserves you but that's not me I am really sorry"

"I should um go now; um I cooked lasagne and got your favourite wine... and some roses... but um yeah... I just need to go"

"Yeah...okay good bye" said Blaine, looking down slightly his eyes pooling with tears.

"Bye, Blaine, I love you..."said Tobias as he turned to leave "I'll be by to collect my stuff tomorrow"

With that he turned and left, Blaine collapsed to his knees, in tears. He thought maybe once admitted his feelings out loud he'd feel better but he didn't, if anything he felt worse... After about an hour or so he decided to go for a walk didn't know where... He just needed out of the apartment. It was so full of him, of memories. He needed to clear his head so he left the apartment and went for a walk in Central Park in the rain... he didn't care he needed the air.

~~~

Darren and Kelsey came home from their date, and they were sat chilling on the couch. They popped singing in the rain on and curled up together; Kelsey put her feet up in Darren's lap and rested her head in the crook of his neck.

Darren loved spending time with Kelsey like this, just sitting around just him and her. Since Blaine had started dating Tobias, they had a lot of alone time in the apartment. He watched her watch the movie; it was one of her favourites. Darren enjoyed seeing her lit up like this. He took one of her feet and slowly began to massage it.

Kelsey lay there watching the TV, Darren's sweet musky scent filling her nostrils. She snuggled closer ensconcing her senses. Everything was Darren she could feel the heat of his skin against hers, hear his heart beat in his chest. She could almost taste his lips as they kissed her slow and soft but with so much passion behind it.

They'd been together nearly three years now, they'd had their ups and their downs but they were the epitome of the perfect couple. They were happy together, but Kelsey couldn't help but think to herself 'when the heck is he gonna marry me'. He was giving her a puzzling look she flashed him her brightest smile and went back to the movie.

"Whatcha thinkin'?" he asked, pausing the movie.

"About how we can sit here in silence for hours speaks volumes about our relationship..." She half lied, she had indeed been thinking of that but also about how she and Blaine would plan the most beautiful wedding.

"I know when you lie my love... Tell me the whole truth"

"You'll think im crazy..."

"I won't... Cause I already know it" he nuzzled into her neck kissing her causing her to squeal and giggle

"Hey!" She giggled

They were so wrapped up in their little world they didn't notice a small curly haired man walk into the apartment. He took one look at how happy they were, choosing not to disturb them and headed straight to his room.

"Okay, okay... Don't get mad okay?" she said when she caught her breath. She sat up and knelt on the couch facing him.

"Okay..." said Darren warily.

"I was just thinking... We've been together 3 years now right"

"3 years 4 months and 22 days" said Darren with a smile.

"Yeah... Wow that long huh?" Darren nodded "anyway back to my point we've been together ages... We live together... We're happy. I mean you are happy aren't you? I know I am"

"Of course I am, love. I love you" he kissed her cheek.

"I love you too, more than anything. So I've been wondering... Are you ever going to ask me to marry you?" She looked down at her lap

Darren smiled slightly laughing a little to himself. He looked at her, and she looked up feeling his eyes on her.

"What!?" She said "what's so funny?"

Darren pulled a small Tiffany box out of his pants pocket.

"I was waiting for the perfect time to ask... I had it all planned"

"You were?" Said Kelsey, feeling a little guilty about pushing Darren.

"Yeah I had it all planned out, I was going to take you to the restaurant we had our first date, get you the most expensive bottle of champagne... after we had eaten at the restaurant, I was going to take you for a walk in Central Park and on the bridge where we shared our first kiss I was going to propose... the rain kinda ruined that "

"Oh... Do that, try again. Surprise me catch me off guard that sounds perfect. You're perfect" she said, as she lent in and kissed him softly.

Darren pulled out of the kiss, he got off the sofa and down on one knee. He looked at her his eyes sparkling, as he held out the ring. Kelsey looked back down at him her brown eyes sparkling.

"Buuuut... there's no time like the present... Kelsey, you are my everything, you're my world. I've known you for almost eight years now we were friends at first but part of me always knew that we were meant be something more. With you, I feel connected and safe and happy. You can make me smile even if I am about to cry. You brighten my day, I love every single part of you, and I promise that I'll always love you no matter what. You are funny and cute and beautiful and so smart. The way you care for your friends is admirable. You're so perfectly imperfect I want to be with you for the rest of my life so Kelsey, my one and only love, I have only one question; will you marry me?"

"Yes... Yes I will" she said holding out her hand shaking and tears rolling down her cheeks.

"Aw man... I said to myself I wouldn't cry" Darren said with a laugh, tears in his eyes, as He placed the ring on her finger.

She hugged him tightly and kissed him passionately throwing her arms around his shoulders. He picked her up and spun her around and carried her off to the bedroom.

~~~
Kurt was cooking dinner for him and Ryan, his favourite meal, chicken risotto. He was dancing around the kitchen, singing. He always used to cook like this with Blaine, they would cook together belting out their favourite songs, and Kurt missed that.

"Honey, I'm home" Ryan said as he entered the apartment.

"I'm in the kitchen darling"

"You feeling any better, my love?"

"A Little" said Kurt "Lotti came round and we had a little pampering sesh and she helped me finish singing off The Book"

Ryan walked in to the kitchen a big bunch of roses in his right, and a bottle of Kurt's favourite Champagne in the left. Kurt turned and saw Ryan stood in the door and smiled. He would never have expected this of Ryan, which made it all the more special.

"Hey beautiful," he said "Let's have a nice night in, we can snuggle on the couch and watch 'West Side Story' because I know how much you love that movie"

"Um, yeah, that sounds perfect" said Kurt; he was completely caught off guard "Are you sure? I mean I know you're not a big fan of musicals."

"I know I'm not... but you are," said Ryan softly "and I feel like spoiling my fiancé... only four more weeks until I won't be calling you that anymore. You'll be my husband, my beautiful, sexy husband... Mr Kurt Taylor-Hummel"

"And you'll be Mine... Mr Ryan Taylor-Hummel"

"Oooh... I like that" said Ryan, setting the wine and roses on that side, walking over to Kurt and wrapping his arms around his waist "Say it again?"

"Mr Ryan Taylor- Hummel, My husband"

He suddenly dipped Kurt and kissed him softly, but passionately Kurt threw his arms around his neck, and grinned widely, when they parted. He loved all this romance.

"What's gotten in to you lately? Don't get me wrong I love it, but I'm just not used to it"

"I just thought I'd start treating you like the prince you clearly are. You deserve romance and surprises. You deserve to be shown how much you mean to me"

"I know how much I mean to you, darling. When we cuddle on the couch or fall asleep together at night. But I do love this side of you..." Kurt said with a smile as Ryan stood him back upright.

"I love all of you"

"I love all of you too" Kurt grinned, nuzzling his nose against Ryan's

"I love you more"

"I love you most"

"I love you moster than toast" said Ryan, a big goofy grin on his face.

"Oh dear god you're a goof... you're lucky I love you"

Ryan grinned. Kurt smiled back; he'd made his choice...

~~~

Blaine was curled up in his bed hugging his pillow. He grabbed his journal and began to write. He needed to get his thoughts straight.

Dear Journal

I haven't written here in ages. Sorry. I broke up with him today; I know it was right thing to do... But I still miss him. I needed to get out and I did, I just wish I didn't still love him.

I just can't get the way he looked out of my head, when I broke his heart. I think he hates me now even though he doesn't really have a right to... But does he I mean I'm kinda in love with another man when I was dating him... He should hate me... He does. You should have seen his face when he left the apartment earlier. I did that to him. You know maybe I should start working out again... I mean, I've been kind of busy with wedding planning and a boyfriend.

But what do I do about still loving Kurt. I mean, he is taken... he's getting engaged actually. He's my best friend, I can't begrudge him happiness. Especially not after what I've done to him... they deserve each other. Ryan is a good man, he's kind and considerate... he is a really good friend... I don't think I could hurt either one of them.

I think I might sleep on the couch... His pillow still smells like him... plus, this bed feels empty... I wonder if Darren has proposed... I know he has bought the ring... he was telling me his plans the other day. The ring is beautiful... He really loves her, he loves her so much. It's so cute; he's like a puppy... I hope has, they deserve happiness after looking after silly old me...