I woke up the next morning and for a few minutes laid in bed and hoped it was all a dream but the pounding in my head and the tenderness of my ass told me otherwise. I pulled on a pair of boxers and headed for the shower unfortunately I got to the bathroom just as Blaine was leaving it meaning we almost crashed into each other.

"Morning." I mumbled not knowing what to say to someone who you made a semi-drunken mistake with.

He nodded curtly and brushed past me.

"So what? Now you got what you wanted you aren't going to talk to me?"

He turned and glared at me. "This is not what I wanted."

"Oh please you have been trying to get me into bed with you since the second you moved in."

"Ok first of all last night was your idea not mine and second of all....what was it you said to me....oh yeah you don't know my life don't pretend you do." He snapped.

"Please tell me that you were telling me the truth when you said you were clean. I really don't need to catch a disease from you."

"Go fuck yourself Kurt."

"Why don't you go find another random to fuck Blaine?"

"Now I know why Adam never spent the night with you, you turn into a real bitch afterwards."

"Fuck you Blaine."

"Fuck you, oh wait I already did."

I slammed the bathroom door and took a really long hot shower trying to get Blaine off of me. When I finally came out I was feeling really shitty, I didn't bother trying to pick something stylish to wear I just threw on my sweats. When I came back out Blaine was gone, probably to find a guy to fuck.

He wasn't home by the time Rachel got home from her rehearsal.

"Aw Kurt didn't going out with boys cheer you up any?" she asked taking in my disheveled state.

I shook my head, deciding it was best to let her think I was upset about my break up with Adam rather than telling her the truth.

"Do you want some ice cream?"

"Yes please but none of that low fat vegan shit I need the good stuff."

"Ok, now do you need a chick flick, horror movie or a comedy?"

"Horror but no vampires."

"I know."

We curled up together on the couch and before I even touched the ice cream or she could press play I found myself bursting into tears. She held me as I cried, I cried for my stupid mistake, I cried because I had thrown my virginity away, I cried because I knew if my dad found out he'd be so disappointed in me, and I cried because I knew that Blaine hated me now.

"Kurt what happened? You weren't this upset about the break up yesterday."

"I made a really stupid mistake Rachel."

"Breaking up with Adam? Maybe he'll take you back."

"No after that."

"After that? When you went out with Blaine and his friend?"

I nodded.

"What did you do?"

"Something I'm really not proud of." I told her not hearing Blaine walk into the apartment until he closed the front door.

He heard what I said; I could tell that he did by the look on his face. He went to his room without saying a word to us slamming his door closed.

"What's his problem?" Rachel asked.

"Me."

"Oh Kurt, you didn't."

I nodded.

"Tell me everything." She instructed.

So I did, well not the details about the sex but everything else including our fight afterwards.

"Oh Kurt you broke that poor boy's heart!"

"Excuse me?"

"Blaine is in love with you; don't tell me you don't see it."

"You are insane Rachel. He was only interested into getting me into bed and now that he has done that I'm not worth his precious time."

"That's not true." She told me.

"You're on his side? You are supposed to be my best friend! How about a little support here?" I glared at her before storming to my room.

Today is officially the worst day of my life. I just want to curl up in bed and sleep for a week.

"Kurt?" Rachel knocked on my door. "I'm not on his side, I'm not on anybody's side I was just pointing out the facts."

"You have the facts wrong Rachel."

"I don't think I do."

"Probably because you haven't been around much lately. Why can't you see my side of it?"

"I do see your side Kurt, I know that's not how you wanted your first time to go but from what you told me you weren't really all that drunk, you knew what you were doing."

"That doesn't mean it wasn't a mistake."

"True but you need to stop acting like it was all Blaine's fault. It takes two to tango or in this case fuck."

"Rachel Berry I think that's the first time I ever heard you swear!"

"It happens sometimes." She shrugged.

"I know it's not all his fault. I'm not even sure it's the sex I'm mad about."

"What are you mad about then?"

"It's complicated."

"You don't have to tell me Kurt but you do have to talk to Blaine."

"I don't have the strength for that today."