It had been two months since Blaine and I broke up. I was devastated at first but eventually I realised this was all my fault. I knew he wasn't my soul mate but I let myself fall in love with him anyway. The thing I should tell you is that I had lied to Blaine, I never contacted Mark and we never went out that night. I was so certain that Blaine was the one for me and I knew he wouldn't let up on me going out with Mark so I decided to lie. I figured I would just spend the night at home alone and then tell him the next day that I chose him, it was a simple enough plan but then it all came crashing down when he told me he cheated on me.

I still don't know what I did wrong. I guess it was just the fates way of making sure that things turned out the way they wanted them to. Last month, a month after the break-up I ran into Mark at the mall. He was in town visiting some friends and I figured I had nothing to lose so I told him my name this time. We went out to dinner that night and have been together ever since. It isn't the same as it was with Blaine. Mark isn't as...dapper. But he's nice enough and the fates want us to be together so I suppose at some point I'll get that feeling that everyone always talks about, the need to always be near their soul mate, the need to touch them.

It's just....I felt all those things with Blaine, didn't I? I couldn't have though; he's not my soul mate Mark is. Mark is the one I'm going to spend my life with, he's the one I'll raise children with not Blaine. I wish Mark would bring me flowers or do something to make me feel special but that will probably come later on, right? I mean just because Blaine did that sort of thing from the start...NO! Stop comparing Mark to Blaine it isn't right!

Mark doesn't love musicals but he agreed to watch some with me on Sunday. I had a hard time picking which one to put on but in the end I went with Moulin Rouge since it has some songs that I was pretty sure he liked. Mark and I didn't wear our cuffs around each other, which is pretty common for soul mates, of course they usually wait until they have been together for a while before stopping wearing their cuffs but Mark liked seeing his name on my wrist so I agreed to take my cuff off. I sat up a bit when Come What May started up, it is one of my favorite songs. I always wanted to find my soul mate so I could relate to the song, so I could have someone who made me feel the way they feel. Halfway through the song it hit me I can relate to the song, I have had all those feelings but not about Mark the song describes how I felt about Blaine.

I blinked a few times and then turned my wrist to look at Mark's name, to remind myself who I was destined to be with but it no longer said Mark Davis it now read Blaine Anderson.

I needed to see him.