Blaine had a hard time concentrating in his class that evening, fortunately it was his music theory class and the professor pretty much took the entire lecture out of the text book. Blaine couldn’t believe he almost forgot how gorgeous Kurt’s eyes were but now that was pretty much all he good think about. Blaine never deluded himself into thinking he was over Kurt but he did think he was beyond mooning over him like a lovesick school boy.  But Blaine decided not to act on his feelings; he wanted to have Kurt in his life and if he was lucky he would be able to have him as a friend, he didn’t think that Kurt would ever give him a second chance at being his boyfriend and quite frankly he didn’t think he deserved a second chance.

                I think this may be the most boring class ever! –Blaine

                I thought you had a music class….-Kurt

                Yup, its music theory and it is the most boring thing I’ve ever experienced! –Blaine

                And you’re a psych major so that’s saying something. –Kurt

                I like psych! – Blaine

                Well, that’s good maybe then you can figure out what’s wrong with you. –Kurt

                I already did I have a people pleaser personality aka I have a tendency to be a doormat. –Blaine.

                I was joking. –Kurt

                I know, but it’s true. – Blaine

                So what does that mean? –Kurt

                It means I put other people’s happiness above my own and will do pretty anything to make the people around me happy. –Blaine

                Oh. –Kurt

                Shit, I think my prof has noticed me texting, gotta go. –Blaine

Blaine tried to not think about Kurt for the rest of the class and actually pay attention.  He didn’t succeed but he tried. He didn’t stop thinking about Kurt for the rest of the day, in fact the last thought he had before he fell asleep was about Kurt.

Blaine woke up the next morning painfully hard, he had dreamt about Kurt all night. He dreamt about kissing him, he dreamt about touching him, feeling Kurt’s chest against his own, he dreamt about Kurt’s perfect ass and his beautiful cock and how it felt in his hands, how it tasted. He knew he dreamt these things because Kurt had been on his mind the day before but that didn’t help alleviate any of his shame for thinking of someone he hoped to be friends with in such a filthy way. Of course said shame didn’t stop him from thinking about his dream and he took care of his not so little problem in the shower.  Once he was done the shame returned he shouldn’t think of Kurt that way, Kurt probably had a boyfriend who was incredibly hot and would never cheat on Kurt.  Someone who was way better than Blaine.