Kurt blinked a few times and opened his mouth to speak but no words came out.

"Kurt it's fine you don't have to say it back if you don't feel the same way," Blaine babbled, feeling hurt but relieved to have finally said 'I love you'. Even if Kurt didn't say it back, it was worth getting it out there, he finally pushed passed that obstacle and opened himself up fully, he trusted Kurt.

"No I…" Kurt couldn't think of the right words. He didn't know what he could say.

"So you do feel the same way?" Blaine asked with hope in his eyes. Kurt would have gave in right then to the look in Blaine's eyes, but he couldn't. He couldn't do that.

"I can't," Kurt stood up quickly preparing to walk away but his feet stayed rooted to the ground. Blaine stood up as well, with a hurt and confused look on his face.

"You can't what hurt?" Blaine said, somewhat angrily. His wall slowly coming back.

"We can't do this anymore." Kurt's eyes started to water, he couldn't believe he was actually doing this. Blaine was going to hate him, but it was necessary to stop them both getting even more hurt in the long run, before they fell too hard.

"You're… you're breaking up with me?" Blaine's voice broke on the last words and Kurt flinched at the pain in his voice.

"It's better for both of us this way," Kurt stated, although he didn't really believe it himself.

"Is this because I said I loved you? Because I'll take it back! We can just pretend it never happened," Blaine was almost begging now and it killed Kurt to see him like this, he finally found someone who wouldn't leave him and what was he doing? He was standing there leaving him.

"It's because I love you too, only I was lying to myself till now trying to pretend I didn't, trying to pretend everything is okay but it's not" Kurt said tears flowing freely now. "And I can't let myself do that, I can't let myself fall too hard for you because I know we can never properly be together. Our parents are married, they are happy together and while it might not be illegal or anything but I can't do that to my dad, it might ruin his relationship with Angela and I've never seen him so happy, not since my Mom was alive. I should never have let this happen, I didn't know we'd fall this hard. I'm so sorry Blaine."

"Kurt you can't do this…" Blaine was also crying at this point. "You said you'd never leave me." He looked up at Kurt with so much hurt in his eyes that Kurt wanted to reach out and hug him and tell him he didn't mean it and he loved him too and they could be together for ever, but he didn't.

"I'm not leaving you Blaine I'm still here," Kurt lightly touched Blaine's face and Blaine quickly moved back, like the touch burnt him.

"No," Blaine's voice started rising, "No! you're a fucking liar Kurt! You're just like the rest of them, leaving me when it no longer suits you!" Blaine spat, pushing his hands in his hair roughly while his whole body wracked with sobs, Kurt couldn't be doing this to him he just couldn't. Blaine had finally opened him self up to someone and let himself feel again and it all got thrown back in his face.

"Blaine…" Kurt reached out again, wanting to calm him down but also to show him he was still there, even if it's not in a romantic way Kurt would never leave Blaine, he meant that.

"Don't touch me," Blaine looked at Kurt with empty eyes, his wall back up but this time it wasn't some cocky perverted guy that Blaine pretended to be so people didn't see how hurt he was it was a lost boy devoid of emotion, because that's how he felt and Blaine had no problem showing it anymore. Maybe people would leave him alone now and not set him up for heartbreak. Kurt had hurt him more than anyone else ever had and he promised he wouldn't, he trusted him and he broke that trust. "Just stay the fuck away from me." Blaine spat and then he ran, he ran to his room and locked the door like he had so many times growing up, keeping people out was what Blaine did best. Kurt collapsed on the floor sobbing uncontrollably, watching all the happy couples on TV celebrating the New Year together like Kurt and Blaine almost did.