Aug. 29, 2012, 9:02 a.m.
I Don't Want The World To See Me: Chapter 4
E - Words: 1,716 - Last Updated: Aug 29, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 5/? - Created: Aug 06, 2012 - Updated: Aug 29, 2012 257 0 1 0 0
At first it the friendship formed between Kurt and Blaine was awkward since Blaine still refused to talk or even acknowledge Kurt at school. Their conversations we purely phone based or whenever they had free time after school, which was usually only up to 30 minutes spent hanging around the outside of school, some place not many people would see them.
"Blaine, can I ask you something?" Kurt asked as he sat under the bleachers next to his new friend.
"Sure, go ahead."
"Why don't you even acknowledge my existence at school?"
Blaine sighed. "I was expecting this soon," he paused briefly. "Well, I guess I just don't want other people to think it's okay to start talking to me again."
"It's not?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"I thought you weren't going to push me to tell you anything I didn't want to?" Blaine looked over to Kurt seriously.
"Jeez sorry, didn't think there was any harm in asking." Blaine laughed at this, Kurt's sassy attitude was on of his best qualities after all. "Will you ever talk to me at school?"
"Maybe one day."
"Yeah, one day." Kurt repeated mainly to himself.
That 'one day' came a few weeks later as Kurt stood at his locker.
"Hey Kurt." Blaine called casually as he walked past.
Kurt was in too much shock to reply, or even speak for that matter. Which posed as a problem as he had three teenage girls staring at him, demanding answers with their eyes.
"Kurt?" Rachel, Tina and Mercedes said in unison.
"I uh…" Kurt looked around and realised a lot of the other students were staring at him as well, some even whispering.
"We're friends now… I guess." Kurt wasn't really sure how to explain it, Blaine and him never once discussed talking to each other at school since that day a few weeks ago and now…this.
Tina and Mercedes smiled, obviously glad that Blaine seemed to be on the mend. Rachel however, had other views as she scowled and walked off in a huff.
"What's her problem?" Kurt asked.
"She's still pissed he's apparently the reason we lost nationals, according to her if Blaine was the lead vocalist with her she wouldn't have kissed Finn and lost us the title," Tina shrugged. "So I guess she probably sees you as sleeping with the enemy or something."
Mercedes quickly chimed in. "You're not sleeping with him are you? Because I can get over you not telling us you're friends but not telling us you're boyf-"
"No! Mercedes I am not!" Kurt quickly said, not wanting any rumours to spread.
"Is Blaine even…gay?" Tina asked.
"Well he never came out or anything but, who knows?"
Kurt decided to keep quiet, Blaine had never outright told him he was gay but after the situation at his dad's shop that pretty much confirmed it in Kurt's eyes.
"So, the rumour is that you and the sudden social outcast Blaine Anderson have struck up some strange friendship, is this true?" Jacob Israel flailed the mic in Kurt's face while one of his buddies held up a camera.
"Why do you care," Kurt asked pushing the smaller boy out of the way of his locker.
"Word on the street is he said hello to you this morning."
"Is that so," Kurt continued paying little attention.
"So are you just friends or a little…more?" Jacob asked with a waggle of his eyebrows to the camera.
Kurt turned around abruptly and pointed his finger in Jacob's face. "Look I don't know who you-"
"Yes, we're friends."
Both Jacob and Kurt turned around at the same time to see none other than Blaine standing there. Kurt noticed something different though, Blaine was slouched again, like the time in the shop. He also seemed to have a whole different feeling about him, one he didn't quite catch before because he hardly knew him.
"Come on Kurt," Blaine said grabbing onto the taller boys arm and leading him past all the stares and whispers.
"Well that was…interesting." Jacob commented before speaking directly to the camera and signing off, his signature style.
"Blaine…wait you can let go of me now we're no longer near Jacob," Kurt said as he was still being dragged along and more people who had no idea what just happened were beginning to stare.
"Yeah, sorry," Blaine said letting go. "Why'd you let that guy hound you anyway?"
Blaine was even speaking in a different way, something was definitely off.
"Why are you acting differently?" Kurt asked before he could stop himself.
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know, the way you walk… speak… it seems just… different."
"I don't know what you're talking about," Blaine shrugged. "I have to go anyway, see you after school." With that he was gone, and Kurt had let him. He had far too much to think about right now without adding to it.
Blaine continued to say good morning to Kurt and hi to him between classes, both boys got bombarded with questions - Kurt more since whenever people tried to ask Blaine at first he'd just ignore them, Kurt was the only one he'd speak to. People found it weird and rumours that they were dating were spreading around fast - Kurt was quick to deny them all though. Blaine however, just ignored them as he did with everything except Kurt.
Kurt and Blaine would hang out a lot, they'd go see movies, get ice cream, coffee and even just find somewhere quite a spend hours talking. Kurt at one point wanted to ask if they were dating, but didn't really want to ruin anything. After all, he was just beginning to find out more and more about Blaine. He found out more about his home life, he didn't get on with his parents and his brother was never around. Everyone just gave each other money every now and again and that's really how the Anderson's communicated, it was their way of showing 'affection'. Blaine was astounded by the idea of 'Friday night dinners', one night a week that was just for them, no other plans were allowed to over take it.
"I couldn't imagine me and my family ever doing that." Blaine laughed. "I mean, I'm pretty sure even talking about money has a limit; they don't really care about how my day went either so that's out of the equation."
If they didn't spend time talking they spent time singing. Kurt discovered Blaine had a beautiful voice; he knew he must have since he was the lead in Glee but Kurt never really expected it.
"It feels good to be able to sing again, in front of an audience anyway." Blaine smiled, looking over at Kurt from one of their usual quiet spots - a nice little spot next to a river.
"You should join Glee again." Kurt offered, tilting his head back and enjoying the cool air.
"Not yet." Blaine looked down at his shoes.
"Not yet? But you will soon?" Kurt raised his eyebrows.
"I'm not so sure about soon but, I didn't think I'd be making any new friends either."
"And here I am." Kurt laughed.
"And there you are." Blaine smiled, looking away.
And then it started raining.
"Oh shoot, we didn't even get to try any of my sandwiches!" Kurt whined, trying to protect his hair and food from the onslaught of rain coming down fast.
"There's always next time, or we could eat them in your car." Blaine shrugged carrying the picnic box to Kurt's car.
"Or you could come to my house," Kurt said quickly, half hoping Blaine wouldn't hear.
"Wouldn't your dad be a bit offended if I didn't speak to him?"
Kurt wanted to jump for joy, Blaine was actually considering it! "Oh well, yeah but he's not going to be there. He's on some camping trip with a few work buddies."
"Oh okay, cool. Yours it is then."
Kurt tried to keep the excitement out of his voice, "excellent!"
Kurt didn't know why he was so overjoyed - maybe having a gorgeous boy over had something do with it. Or maybe the fact it was Blaine.
Kurt didn't know if his decision was the best, as he sat awkwardly next to Blaine on his bedroom floor, just finishing up the sandwiches. Kurt didn't know why he felt so awkward, he and Blaine had been alone before after all, but only ever in public. This was different, they were alone in a house in Kurt's bedroom. Kurt tried not to freak out the more he thought about it.
"You okay there?" Blaine asked, tilting his head in the cutest way possible.
"I uh- yeah I'm fine," Kurt answered, voice a little shaky.
"Here, you have a little sandwich on your face."
Blaine moved closer to Kurt to remove the offending piece of food, as he did Kurt felt like his heart had stopped for a moment, Blaine's face was incredibly close. It was different than the time in the shop, this seemed more intimate. Kurt looked up to see Blaine's eyes on him and tentatively moved forward slightly, intent on closing the gap between them.
"Wait, no," Blaine said moving quickly back.
"W-what?" Kurt asked quickly, confused and upset that he just got rejected for his first kiss.
"Kurt I'm sorry but I'm not… I'm not g-gay."
Not gay? Was I assuming the whole time? He never actually told me he was…
"Then how do you explain hitting on me?!" Kurt shouted, feeling slightly used. If Blaine really wasn't gay then he must have been using Kurt as an 'experiment' that time.
"Hit on you? I never hit on you!" Blaine shot back standing up now, a look of utter confusion on his face.
Kurt followed suit and made a noise in disbelief. "What? So that time you walked into my dad's shop and starting flirtatious complimenting me and putting your hands all over me, that wasn't hitting on me?"
The look of confusion on Blaine's face was replaced by one of utter horror, Blaine quickly ran into Kurt's bathroom and locked the door.
Kurt made a frustrated growl and threw himself on the bed. "Will the boy ever give me a straight answer?!" He angrily mumbled into his pillow. Kurt laughed at the irony of what he just said. "Well yeah Kurt, he kind of just did give you a straight answer."
Twenty minutes passed and still no sign on Blaine. Kurt grew more angry now and stomped to the bathroom door, banging it furiously. "Really Blaine? You're going to lock yourself in my bathroom?!"
The door instantly swung open and Blaine was standing there, his hair wet and unruly and a slouch in his stance.
"Blaine?"
"Not quite baby doll, I think it's about time I introduced myself. My name is Danny."
A/N - What you were expecting or not quite? hahaha... I really hope you understand now... well obviously you wont understand why because that's another big reveal for later chapters.
You'll find out in future chapters everything okay so don't worry! I just wanted to leave you on this cliff hanger because I'm lovely :D
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huh? im supppppppperrrrrrrrr confused.................. ? explain????????