Dec. 9, 2012, 1:28 p.m.
Bringing Something We Must Learn: As Long As You're Mine
E - Words: 6,263 - Last Updated: Dec 09, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 16/? - Created: Mar 01, 2012 - Updated: Dec 09, 2012 430 0 2 0 0
Omg it's doneee! The chapter I've been wanting to do is done!
I reeeeeeeeeeeally hope it's good enough.
And with this update being really quick? This is my actual posting speed. This is how quickly I can update when I have motivation, and I actually focus haha. But I'm a super procrastinator, and I get distracted really easily, which is why I like.. take a few weeks, haha.
It turns out that telling Kurt before Cooper's dead line was proving more impossible than Blaine originally thought. At first, he only thought it would be a matter of him not being able to muster up the courage to speak to Kurt about it, but it was difficult just to even talk to Kurt. Because of his father, Kurt and Finn were hardly ever inside the house, as they were visiting the hospital for most of the day. Whenever they came back, it was usually really late, and Kurt would always just head straight up to bed. Blaine was kind of starting to doubt that Kurt was actually tired. Though, he could understand why Kurt always returned to his room when he came back from the hospital. If anything like what happened to Mr. Hummel had happened to Cooper, Blaine would probably spend most of his time alone and away from everyone else.
Blaine did however, manage to speak to Kurt for a few nights, though the conversations were usually cut short, and Blaine never found an opportunity to tell him his feelings. There was one night, though, when Blaine spoke to Kurt for a good few minutes, and he nearly had the chance to tell him. But just as he was about to say it, Cooper appeared seemingly out of nowhere and dangled a sprig of mistletoe above them, and declaring that they should "get into the Christmas spirit". Blaine didn't know if this was Cooper being a nuisance and deliberately trying to ruin what Blaine was trying to do, or maybe he was doing his strange Cooper way of actually trying to help him. Whatever it was, it didn't work in Blaine's favour at all. As soon as Kurt looked up when Cooper suddenly showed up, he became incredibly flustered, and shoved Cooper out of the way before dashing upstairs. After that, Blaine never got the chance to speak to Kurt after he came back from the hospital.
It didn't really matter a lot to Blaine though. Well, it did. He cared a great deal that he couldn't speak to Kurt, to even just cheer him up about everything that was going on. But the fact that Kurt ran off when Cooper was holding up that sprig of mistletoe really set Blaine's confidence back. If that was how Kurt reacted to maybe having to kiss him, then Blaine wasn't wanting to know how Kurt would react if he confessed his feelings. Maybe it might have had something to do with that night in the Room of Requirement, but that was a while ago, and Sebastian had nothing to do with Kurt any more. But maybe it was just bringing back unpleasant memories. It was what made Sebastian flip out and had him start to hate Kurt. Or, perhaps it was just Kurt thought Cooper was trying to kiss him, rather than Cooper trying to make Kurt kiss Blaine instead. Kurt probably still didn't trust Cooper fully. That, and they barely even knew each other. If Cooper trying to kiss him was the reason, then it was no surprise that Kurt freaked out. Blaine really hoped that was the reason, or that it was because of the last time they kissed. He really didn't know what he'd do if it was because Kurt was just so against kissing him as a whole.
Blaine was just going to let Cooper tell Kurt. He wasn't going to get a chance considering Kurt wasn't spending any time downstairs when he was in the house, along with Blaine's confidence being shot. There was no way he could muster up the courage now. And maybe having Cooper tell him wasn't so bad after all.
Yeahh.. No. There was no way having Cooper say Blaine's feelings was a good thing. Surely Cooper would just make anything that he said about how he felt sound either stupid, creepy, or just plain wrong. But there wasn't anything Blaine could do about it. All Blaine could do was hope that Kurt wouldn't think less of him for what Cooper was going to tell him.
However on the 23rd, Blaine felt a lot more relieved when Kurt came back from the hospital that night.
Blaine wasn't expecting Kurt to come into the living room after his hospital visit. Though, standing in the doorway was a lot more accurate.
"Kurt?" Blaine says, sitting up after realizing that he was slumped in the couch "Aren't you going to bed?"
"I am..," Kurt says biting his lip slightly, "But I just thought that I should let you know that I'm not going to the hospital tomorrow. It's going to be really crowded, so I'll only be able to go for about half an hour on Christmas."
Blaine tried to get too excited. He still had time to tell Kurt "So, you're going to be free tomorrow?"
"Well, not completely," Kurt shrugs a little "I'm going to be in all day, but I'm going to be unpacking. I've not really had the time ever since we came here," Kurt says, sighing a little.
"Oh, okay," Blaine says, sounding a little dejected "Don't over-do it, okay? Just take time to relax,"
"I'll be fine, Blaine," Kurt says with a soft laugh, "But.. thank you,"
"Don't worry about it," Blaine shakes his head "I'm just worrying about you."
Kurt looks as though he was about to say something, though he stops himself. "Thank you," He says again, nodding.
Blaine did consider asking Kurt what was it that he was going to say before he stopped himself, but it was probably just something along the lines of "you don't need to worry about me," or whatever. And Blaine didn't want to push for questions in case it was something Kurt didn't want to talk about.
"Anyway," Blaine says, clearing his throat. "We should probably both go to bed soon.. It's getting late...And y'know.. Cooper. He'll freak."
"I suppose you're right," Kurt says chuckling. "Well, good night." Kurt smiles at him slightly, before he heads upstairs. Blaine decides to wait a few moments before going up himself. Kurt might be spending most of the day alone, but Blaine was still going to try and get him alone at some point tomorrow.
Blaine woke up a lot earlier than usual the next morning. His stomach was twisting painfully with nerves. Letting out a low groan, Blaine has to force himself out of bed. When he got onto his feet, Blaine was actually surprised that his feet were actually supporting him, but his legs did feel incredibly wobbly. He really hoped that his legs wouldn't buckle when he was heading downstairs. He'd end up breaking a few bones in the process, and that way, Cooper was almost certainly going to tell Kurt.
Blaine looks through his closet and picks out a fairly smart shirt and a pair of jeans. He wanted to look smart enough for whenever he got Kurt alone, but he didn't want to make it obvious that he was dressing like that on purpose. Once his outfit was chosen, Blaine heads across the hall into the bathroom.
When he got closer, Blaine nearly fell backwards when he felt himself colliding with someone's chest.
"Oh, hey! Sorry!" Finn says as he looks down at Blaine sheepishly.
"Nah, it's totally fine," Blaine says smiling at him.
"Yeah.. I'm really sorry, dude," Finn laughs "I don't really notice things in the mornings... Kurt says I'm like a zombie."
"That would be pretty accurate," Blaine says smirking.
"Blaine Anderson, I never knew that you could be so cruel," Finn says, failing horrifically at pretending to be offended, as he burst into laughter shortly afterwards.
"What can I say?" Blaine says shrugging, "Quinn and Rachel are horrible influences on me."
"You got that right," Finn snickers slightly, "Seriously, those girls really can just be wicked.."
"Do you know if they're coming down at all during the holidays?" Blaine asks.
"I dunno.." Finn frowns a little "Quinn.. she'll either not come down to make sure her dad won't be attacked. Then again, she might. She'll probably want to see if Kurt's okay. As for Rachel," Finn shrugs "I really don't have a clue dude. Sorry."
"Don't worry about it . She'll probably let us know if she is coming," Blaine says shaking his head "I'll try and get a hold of Quinn sometime during the week."
"Okay, awesome," Finn grins brightly before he starts to head downstairs.
"Hey, Finn!" Blaine shouts after him.
"Huh? What is it?" Finn asks, furrowing his brow.
"How's your dad doing? Is he okay?" Blaine asks as he bites his lip in concern.
Finn's face twists in slight discomfort before sighing "He's.. stable. Critical, but stable. That's what the doctor said."
"Oh, right" Blaine says, feeling incredibly guilty about asking in the first place, "Is.. is he awake?"
"No..," Finn says sighing "And we don't know when he will be. I mean.. they know he will wake up at some point... but they can't say when."
Blaine stays silent for a few moments before smiling reassuringly at Finn "Well, I hope he's conscious soon. I'm sure he'll be fine."
"Thanks, dude," Finn grins up at Blaine "Anyway, I'm going out. I can't just stay in all day. I'll go crazy otherwise."
"Alright," Blaine nods "I'll see you later, then."
"Bye," Finn waves quickly at Blaine before quickly heading downstairs.
After watching Finn walk away, Blaine takes a breath before heading into the bathroom. He sets the shower to a high setting, and quickly gets undressed before stepping in. Even though he could see the steam coming from the water, Blaine couldn't actually feel just how warm the shower actually was. He didn't know if that was a good thing, but it was helping to wash his nerves away. So instead of his usual in and out, Blaine spent time massaging the shampoo and conditioner into his hair, and slowly washed the shower gel from his body after concentrating on scrubbing himself completely down. Once he'd finished completely washing himself, Blaine knew that there was no way he could put off leaving the shower any longer.. But it was so comforting. Ugh, he was just going to have to go. Cooper would probably start yelling at him for staying in for so long, and he was starting to prune up.
When he steps out, Blaine grabs the towel from the rack and dries himself, rubbing at his hair until it was almost completely dry. After taking a few extra minutes to finish up washing himself in the bathroom, Blaine quickly gets dressed, thankfully, not needing to smooth his clothes down too much.
Blaine swallows back when he looks over at the door to Kurt's room. Was he in there, or did he go downstairs while he was in the shower and Blaine just didn't notice? Or did he leave with Finn?
"Well, standing around isn't going to do anything" Blaine thinks, before he walks over to Kurt's door. Blaine flexes out his fingers a few times, taking shaky breaths, before he knocks on Kurt's door. "Kurt?" He calls out, "You in there?"
"Just a second!" Kurt shouts out after a few seconds. Blaine raises an eyebrow, before laughing softly when he hears Kurt moving around frantically for a couple of moments, before he opens the door. "Yes..?"
The second Kurt opens the door, Blaine felt his throat running incredibly dry. Blaine hadn't seen Kurt out of their school's uniform, or wear his normal clothes without some large jacket or his robes over it. But right now, Kurt didn't even look like he was even associated with the Wizarding World. He just looked.. normal. He was wearing a slim-fitting blue button up shirt with jeans that might as well have been painted on. And why the hell was Blaine even noticing that? After forcing his gaze to turn upwards, Blaine starts smirking at just how elaborately Kurt had styled his hair. If it was even possible, it looked even more complicated than it usually did.
Blaine was only just aware that he was staring when he heard Kurt speaking "I... I look awful, don't I?" Kurt stutters, shifting uncomfortably. "I'll..I'll go change!"
Just as Kurt was about to turn to go back into his room, Blaine holds onto Kurt's hand and pulls him a little closer. "No, don't," He says, sighing a little dreamily "You.. you look great."
Kurt's cheeks quickly turn a deep pink, as he turns and looks at Blaine "Oh.. Thank you," He says with a soft smile. "So..did you need something?"
"Yeah, well, not really" Blaine says, "I don't actually need you.. Well, I do. But – no.. -"
"Blaine," Kurt cuts him off, "You're rambling."
"Oh..," Blaine says, frowning "Sorry.."
"Anyway," Kurt says, clearly amused by how Blaine was acting right now "What did you not actually need me for, but you actually do then?"
"Well, basically.." Blaine says slowly, clearing his throat "I was wondering if maybe you want to go out today..? With me?"
Kurt looks at him, blinking a few times "With you?" He says.
"Yeah." Blaine says biting his lip, before speaking rapidly and not taking any breaths "I understand if you don't want to though. I mean, you said you wanted to unpack, and you're probably needing some time alone, and -"
"Blaine, Blaine. Stop," Kurt says, bringing a hand up to his shoulder "You're rambling again."
"Sorry.." Blaine mutters, not looking up at Kurt.
"And.. sure."
"Wha?" Blaine looks up at him.
"I don't mind going out," Kurt says , smiling a little. "Packing took a lot less time than I thought.. And it's boring to go out alone."
Blaine's face lights up when Kurt says yes "Oh god, really!" He says, his eyes wide and round "G-great! Um.. So, do you want to leave just now? Or would you rather wait?"
"No, I just need to get my jacket.. My shoes are at the door, so I'll get them when we were leaving," Kurt opens the door a little further, before he walks over and takes a grey peacoat out from the wardrobe. "So," he says, walking back over to the door "So, is that why you're all dressed up then?" Kurt asks with a smirk.
Blaine feels his face burning up, desperately trying to think of a cover story "I just.. Cooper might have something planned for tonight. Y'know.. because it's Christmas Eve? I just thought it would be best for me to look presentable." He sighs a little, looking down at the floor.
"It's fine Blaine," Kurt says smiling "I was kidding. You just look a lot more formal than usual, that's all." Kurt starts walking out the room before turning back to Blaine "So, are you coming?"
"Yeah, just let me get my jacket first," Blaine says, dashing into his room quickly. Blaine takes a few breaths to calm himself. Wow. This was actually happening, wasn't it? He was going to go on a day out with Kurt Hummel. It was so hard not to appear as happy, excited, and as nervous as he really was. Realizing that he was probably taking a bit too long to just get a jacket, Blaine grabs the first jacket he could find, hoping to god that it would match, and grabs his wand off the bedside table and slides it in the inside pocket of his jacket. Just in case he needed it.
When he comes back out, he feels his body grow lighter as Kurt beams right at him "You have no idea how glad I am that you know how to dress yourself" He says walking over to Blaine "There are times when I can't let Finn leave the house. I mean, I usually don't mind, but I seriously think he picks his clothes by turning the light off, closing his eyes, and picking up the first thing he reaches."
"Well, I'm glad I have your approval," Blaine winks at Kurt, before gesturing for him to go down the stairs before him. As Kurt starts walking downstairs, Blaine quickly follows him, making sure not to get too far away from him. He didn't know why, but Blaine felt the need to stay close to Kurt. After they get their shoes from the cupboard near the front door, they finally head outside.
"Shall we?" Blaine smiles at Kurt, and holds his hand out for him to hold.
Kurt looks at Blaine's hand for a few seconds, before gripping onto it a little tighter than Blaine had expected.
"We shall," Kurt says as he smiles up at Blaine.
The day out with Kurt was less eventful than Blaine thought it would be in terms of getting closer to Kurt, but nevertheless, it was definitely something that he was going to remember for a long time. And he really hoped that Kurt would as well. If Blaine was honest, he was more concerned about how Kurt felt about today than he did. Surprisingly, even though Kurt had been living in London since he was eight, he actually hadn't seen very much of London, or he couldn't really remember it. Kurt told Blaine that it cost his father, and Carole, his step-mother, a lot to move down to London, so they didn't often have enough money to go into the main city. As soon as Kurt mentioned that, an idea struck Blaine, and he decided to take a little detour to the Leaky Cauldron. He dismisses Kurt's protests about being here, and ignores whatever the customers were saying to him about the Daily Prophet. Eventually, Blaine and Kurt arrive at the entrance to Diagon Alley. Blaine takes a few moments to think about the order Hagrid showed him when he first arrived here, before taking his wand out of his jacket pocket, and tapped the bricks in the order, grinning as the path to Diagon Alley opens.
Looking back, Blaine holds onto Kurt's hand again, and drags him in the direction of Gringotts. Once inside, Blaine turns to Kurt.
"Wait just there. I'll be back in a minute."
"Okay, but we aren't going to spend the whole day in Diagon Alley, are we?" Kurt asks raising an eyebrow.
"No, I'm just fixing something," Blaine says shaking his head. "Unless you want to..?"
"Nah, I don't" Kurt says, "As much as I love it here, I just.. want to get away from it all for a while.."
Blaine nods in understanding, before walking over to the main desk "I won't be long." He says before he reaches the desk.
Kurt watches as he talks to one of the goblins, and is led into a door near where the vaults were. Kurt furrows his brow in confusion. That was where his father usually went when they were exchanging money so he could actually pay for his school things. What was Blaine doing in there?
Just under half an hour later, Blaine returns with an overly happy grin on his face. "Sorry about that, but we're all ready now."
"It's fine," Kurt says, walking closer to him "What were you getting."
"You'll find out," Blaine smirks as he holds onto Kurt's hand, and half runs out of the bank, dragging the taller boy along with him. "C'mon, it's Christmas Eve. The shops aren't going to be open forever!"
When they left the Leaky Cauldron, they take a bus to the city centre. On the bus journey there, Blaine says that they were going to look around the shops and once they were done there, go for a walk around Hyde Park until it started to get dark before they returned home. Kurt didn't really have any objections to it, and just smiled and nodded.
Though, when they got off the bus and headed to the shopping centre, Blaine reveals that he went to Gringotts to transfer the money in his vault to pounds so that he could buy Kurt whatever he wanted. Kurt wasn't really sure what to think about that, when he found out that Blaine had taken out well over £300. At this, Kurt instantly protests, and refused outright to let Blaine buy anything for him, and that they were only going to window shop. It had taken some convincing, but eventually, Kurt had given in, and a few hours later they left the shopping centre with what seemed like over a million bags.
Though, when they got outside, the sky was starting to turn a dark blue, and the street lights were now lit.
"It's already dark..," Kurt looks up, pouting a little.
"Yeah..we took a little longer than we thought, huh?" Blaine says with a slight chuckle.
"I guess we're just going to have to skip the walk then, huh?" Kurt sighs as he turns to look at Blaine. Even though he hadn't been to Hyde Park before, Kurt knew that wandering around there wouldn't be a smart idea when it was starting to get dark. No doubt by the time they got there, it would be almost pitch black out.
"Probably," Blaine nods, before smiling over at Kurt "We can come back some time later on in the week if you want?"
"Sure," Kurt says, thankfully cheering up a little. "Are we just going to go back to your house now?"
"Nope," Blaine says shaking his head, chuckling a little "We should go and get dinner, and some coffee?"
"Coffee?" Kurt repeats, raising an eyebrow slightly.
"Well, I.. I suppose that we could forego the coffee," Blaine says meekly "But we should probably go for dinner. I don't really want to subject you to Cooper's cooking."
"No, it's fine." Kurt smiles and shakes his head "I love coffee... But doesn't he have elves? Why doesn't he get them to cook?"
"He doesn't trust the one that cooks," Blaine explains "It was the one you met when we arrived."
"Oh," Kurt nods slowly "So, where are we going for dinner then?"
"Maybe just look around and stop in somewhere?" Blaine suggests with a shrug.
"Sure," Kurt smiles "Well, lead the way, then."
After a few minutes, they find a restaurant near a coffee shop, and the train station. They decided to just go all out with dinner, and have a three course meal. It had been a while since Blaine had actually been to a proper restaurant, so he ended up just ordering the same as Kurt. When desert came along, Blaine was sorely tempted to just order strawberries and cream, but in the end, he just went for a small cheesecake between the two of them. Another argument about payment broke out between the two of them about who should pay, and before Kurt could argue further, Blaine just placed the money for the food on the table. Though, as they were about to leave from the corner of his eye, he saw Kurt placing for his own food on the table.
They leave the restaurant not long after paying for dinner, and decide to just go into the coffee shop before taking the train home, and took a seat right at the back of the shop. When inside, Blaine learnt a few things about Kurt. Like his usual coffee order (a grande nonfat mocha), where he lived before his family had moved to London (St. Andrews), when his birthday was (the 27th of May), or what he would've done after school if he didn't go to Hogwarts (musical theatre.) Blaine couldn't really think of anything to tell Kurt, considering that a lot of details about his life were either released through interviews or in more modern books. But he figured that Kurt could learn the same things that he learnt about Kurt (a medium drip with cinnamon for flavour, and usually with biscotti; Manchester; the 5th of February; and song-writing). Kurt actually didn't know any of this, and at the mention of song-writing, Kurt's eyes lit up. They spoke about both of their passions for music until both of them had drained their cups of coffee. Not wanting Kurt to start another argument, Blaine just let the other boy pay for his own drink.
By the time they stepped outside, if it wasn't for the street and Chrismas lights, it would've been completely pitch black outside, and the pavement was quickly being covered in a thick sheet of white.
"Oh, my God, it's snowing!" Blaine says, laughing as he runs forward out into the middle of the pavement, a little slow due to the amount of heavy bags he was carrying.
"Yeah, it's beautiful.." Kurt says as he takes a few steps forward "But I think we should probably go home now.. There probably isn't going to be much more trains going back tonight."
"Oh right!" Blaine says, before jogging in the direction of the train station. "C'mon, Kurt!" He shouts over his shoulder.
Rolling his eyes a little, Kurt walks quicker to catch up with Blaine, eventually reaching his side.
Fortunately, they managed to catch the last train in the direction of Cooper's house, though it was slightly delayed due to the snow, and the snow was getting knee deep on Blaine by the time they arrived back at the house.
When they came back home, Blaine takes most of the bags Kurt was carrying, and took them up to his room. They then spend about half an hour packing away all the new clothes Kurt had bought. Kurt tells Blaine that he doesn't need to help any more once they got to the last bag. Knowing that Kurt would probably know how to fit it into the cupboards better, Blaine smiles and nods before standing up and walking over to the window. The large garden was actually surprisingly beautiful. None of the plants had died, and all of the trees and grass were cut evenly. There were a few arches that were intertwined with ivy. With the snow, it looked as though it was taken directly out of some kind of story book. Blaine lets out a small sigh of relief that Cooper had bothered to keep it like this. Though, if he couldn't leave the house, then Blaine doubted that he could do that much.
Cooper.. Oh, god, he was going to tell Kurt everything tonight!
While Blaine was indifferent with Cooper telling his feelings this morning, today had went so well. Cooper couldn't tell Kurt now. Not when Blaine had done so much. Blaine looks over at the clock, and swallows back. It was quarter to eleven. He had just over an hour to tell Kurt.
And Blaine had a good place where he could tell Kurt.
"Hey, Kurt. Do you want to go out for a walk in the garden?" He asks, suddenly.
"Now?" Kurt asks raising an eyebrow at Blaine.
"Yeah," Blaine smiles "We didn't get to do the planned walk earlier on, and well... the garden's large enough to actually have a proper walk."
"But it's really cold!" Kurt says as he stands up "And Professor Schuester forgot to put my scarves in the bag he brought over."
"I'll make us some hot chocolate, and you can borrow my house scarf. I've got two because I thought I lost the first one." Blaine says chuckling.
Kurt pouts slightly, before he groans and falls back on the bed "But it's cold, Blaine." He moans "Like, really, really cold."
"Kuuuuuuurt!" Blaine mimics Kurt's pout as he starts poking him in the side "C'mon! It's not even going to be that long."
"S-stop, get off!" Kurt says, starting to giggle as he swats Blaine's hand away, wriggling slightly as Blaine continues to keep poking him. "You're tickling me!"
Blaine smirks widely, and starts poking him more firmly in the side "Well, come out into the garden then."
"Argh – Blaine!" Kurt scowls slightly, and sits up, pushing Blaine's hands away as he starts laughing. "Fine! Go make the hot chocolate then."
Blaine smirks triumphantly when Kurt agrees. "I'll be right back!" He says, leaving the room before returning later, and throws one of the Gryffindor scarves at him, before he leaves the room again to run down into the kitchen.
Kurt looks at the scarf for a few moments with a slight scowl, not really sure if he should actually be wearing it... It was a Gryffindor scarf. He wouldn't be caught dead wearing anything from that house. Then Kurt mentally slaps himself.
It doesn't matter any more. Houses aren't important. He thinks, before smiling at the scarf instead. Besides. It's Blaine's.
Realizing that the scarf however, didn't go with what he was wearing at all, Kurt decides to take the time that Blaine was downstairs to change, and walks over to his wardrobe and takes out a dark red shirt. He quickly changes shirt, before he hears Blaine walking back upstairs. Figuring that the jeans he was wearing didn't look too bad with what he was wearing, Kurt shrugs, and just puts his jacket back on along with the scarf.
"Kurt, can you open the door?" Blaine's voice calls out from the other end of the door "My hands are kind of full."
Kurt smooths his jacket down as he walks over to the door. "You should've brought a tray, it would've made things a lot easier for you," he says, smiling softly over at Blaine.
"Yeah, that didn't occur to me," Blaine says laughing as walks in the room "It's got the whole cream and marshmallow thing, is that okay?" He asks as he places the mugs on the table.
"It's totally fine," Kurt smiles "You can't actually have hot chocolate without the cream and marshmallows after all."
"True that," Blaine laughs, and leans against the table before taking a sip from one of the mugs. Kurt takes a few steps towards him and slaps him on the upper arm.
"I thought you were the one who desperately wanted to go outside," Kurt teases "Go and get ready, we can drink these outside."
"You can be so cruel, Mr. Hummel," Blaine pouts as he walks out of the room with his mug, and comes back a few minutes later with his jacket. "I forgot.. My other scarf is still at Hogwarts," He says laughing.
Immediately, Kurt starts tugging at the scarf around his neck. "Then you should have this. It is yours, after all."
"No, don't," Blaine smiles. "I'll just turn up my collar if I get too cold. It looks better on you, anyway. And you're a guest here. You should be treated like one."
"Do you know what? I am actually starting to think you were born wearing a full suit, with a top hat, cane, and a bowtie," Kurt shakes his head "You're so dapper, it actually hurts."
"Shush you.." Blaine says, blushing slightly, before holding onto his hand "Now grab your hot chocolate and let's go."
Kurt and Blaine didn't really speak to each other as they walked around the garden. It wasn't an awkward silence or anything. Instead it was relaxing. There was just something about the crunching of the snow, the occasional sip from the mugs, and the closeness that made Blaine feel at ease, and safe with Kurt.
The further they got into the garden, the more Blaine could hear the choir singing from the church a street or two away. It did sound a little loud to Blaine, but it was definitely a good thing to Blaine. That way, the bells would clearly tell when it was midnight. Speaking of which.. Blaine felt like it would be soon. He looks at his watch and sighs shakily. It was five minutes to midnight. He looks around for any sign of Cooper, and lets out a breath of relief when his brother is nowhere in sight. Blaine quickly drains off his hot chocolate, and walks under one of the arches which had roses intertwined with the ivy, and places the mug he was holding on the floor.
I'm actually going to do this. He thinks as he stands slightly to the side of the arch.
Blaine lets out an audible shaky breath, his breathing hitching instantly when Kurt looks over at him.
"Blaine?" Kurt says, frowning slightly "Are you okay?"
Oh god, get it together, Anderson! Blaine thinks, cursing himself internally.
"Y-yeah.. I'm fine." Blaine says, trying to calm his breathing "Can you come over here, Kurt? There's something I need to tell you."
"What is it?" Kurt asks with a soft smile, standing in front of Blaine, and under the arch.
Kurt's closeness was no longer relaxing Blaine. It was making his heart pound loudly in his chest, and made him feel even more light-headed than he felt when he was with Kurt before they started speaking to each other.
"Uhm, well..." Blaine starts, biting his lip firmly "This is something.. I should've told you a long time ago. Like, years ago."
"Oh, God," Kurt says with wide eyes "How big is it?"
"Huge," Blaine says, laughing nervously.
"Right," Kurt smiles a little so what is -"
Meowwww.
They both jump at just how loud and unexpected the noise was. Hearing it come from above, Blaine looks up, and frowns at the smug looking brown cat that was sitting on top of the arch, before jumping on top of Blaine's shoulder.
"Argh, Cooper!" Blaine shouts, picking him up and gently tossing him to the side. "Bugger off, I'm in the middle of something!"
Cooper hisses at him, before sulking off to some other part of the garden.
"Sorry about him.." Blaine smiles wryly, running a hand through his hair.
"It's okay," Kurt says, offering him a small smile, after taking a small sip from his mug. "So, what was it that you wanted to tell me?"
Blaine says nothing for a few seconds, just taking slow, heavy breaths through his nose, his heart beating erratically. There wasn't any turning back now.
"Kurt..," Blaine says, reaching over to take Kurt's free hand before holding his gaze "Ever since.. Ever since I first saw you on the train, I felt like I had to know you. There was just something about you that just... attracted to me, and I was even going to endure being around Sebastian," He laughs weakly "From the moment he opened his mouth, I pretty much hated him. But you.." Blaine sighs a little dreamily and brings up Kurt's hand that he was holding before he brings his other hand up to hold onto the hand Kurt was using to grip his mug "Like I said.. I was drawn to you. I couldn't get a chance to speak to you at all during first year, because Sebastian wouldn't let me talk to you before we could even consider becoming friends. But," Blaine lets an embarrassed laugh as he ducks his head "Now, don't think I'm weird or anything okay? Or that I'm a creepy.. But he never stopped me from watching. And the more I saw of you, the more I became more and more drawn to you."
Blaine swallows back, hoping to God that he wasn't rambling or that Kurt was feeling uncomfortable. He couldn't read the other boy's face, but his eyes were wider, and his lips seem to be twitching. Blaine could only hope that wasn't a bad twitch. Blaine slowly brings his hands up, carefully brushing back a loose strand from Kurt's hair back, and curls it around his finger slightly. When Kurt didn't flinch or push his hands away, Blaine felt his heart soar. He knew how much Kurt hated having his hair touch, and the fact that Kurt was just letting him touch his hair like this? It was just indescribable.
"Over time, you became more than just someone that was interesting to me, and someone that I wanted to know." Blaine continues, dropping his hands to rest on Kurt's cheekbones, slowly rubbing his thumbs over them as he continues to hold Kurt's gaze "You became someone that Ihad to know. Someone who is just so completely flawless in every way. Someone who is beautiful, and smart, and amazing, and loving,... just unbelievable.." Blaine stops speaking for a few moments to gauge Kurt's reaction, and hearing just how shaky Kurt's breathing had become, and how firmly he was biting his lip. Great.. He freaked Kurt out. He might as well just get this over and done with. "And I know I'm rambling, but I had to tell you this.. And basically what I'm trying to say is.." He closes his eyes over tightly before moving slightly closer to Kurt.
"I.. I love you, Kurt." He says, his voice barely a whisper "And I know it may seem like I'm confused, but I really do. I have for as long as I can remember. When I was still just Blaine Anderson, the Boy Who Lived, or the Walking Bush, or the Gryffindor Seeker.. Or when I was just a name to you, but.." Blaine opens his eyes, and lets his hands drop from Kurt's cheeks. "But it's how I feel. And I know you don't feel the same way... You probably won't ever feel the same way, but I thought it was better to let you know, rather than -"
Blaine couldn't finish his sentence. Before he got into full on ramble mode, Blaine felt Kurt's arms wrapping around his waist, and the taller boy pressing a firm kiss to his lips. Well.. That wasn't at all what Blaine had expected, but there was in no way in hell that he was complaining. Sighing into the kiss, Blaine brings his arms up again, and drapes them around Kurt's neck, and returns the kiss, angling his head to the side as he slowly builds up the passion. Gradually, the kiss was getting more and more passionate, but it remained slow. And as much as Blaine loved the kiss in the Room of Requirement? He wished that this was his first kiss with Kurt. This this was just the first time he'd ever been kissed.
Only when the bells of the church start ringing, does Kurt pull away, breathing heavily as he rests his forehead against Blaine's.
"Merry Christmas, Blaine," Kurt whispers breathlessly, a wide smile forming clearly on his lips.
Blaine swallows back, and presses a slow, short kiss back onto Kurt's lips. After pulling back, he rests his head back against Kurt's "Merry Christmas, Kurt.."
Kurt lets out a gentle laugh, before holding onto Blaine's hand, and leads Blaine back into the house, both of them completely unaware of the sprig of mistletoe that was above them the whole time.
ASDFGHJKL; okay, I really hope that this was good enough! Because I was dying to write this chapter since the start. I apologize for any mistakes, especially towards the end xD It was really late when I finished this off.
So, I think this will be updated either this time next week, or in two weeks time. I'm really going to start making my fics my main priority over the summer. Because of school, I won't have as much time, unfortunately.
I'll be gone for most of the weekend, but I might get a little bit of fic writing time. It'll probably be the vampire!Au fic that'll be updated, unless the characters here start bugging me.
Reviews always are, and always will be welcome~
Comments
That. Was. AWESOME! I absolutely loved it!!!<3
Ah, omg thank you :33 I'm glad you liked it!!