Author's Notes: Kurt looked at himself in the mirror, closing his eyes "this is not happening." Kurt thought to himself before opening his eyes looking over his appearance, A black suit clinging to his body.


Blaine was getting Mason dressed for the funeral, Finn's funeral. Everything still seemed so surreal "Things like this don’t happen to good guys." Blaine thought a he placed Mason on his hip and walked into Kurt’s old bedroom, as they were staying with Burt and Carole. The house had been chaos these past few days leading up to the funeral.


"Ready?" Blaine asked Kurt who was still staring at himself in the mirror. Kurt was still yet to cry and Rachel hadn't stopped crying.


"Ready." Kurt breathed, sighing walking over to Blaine and entwining their hands.


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The funeral was held in hall, rather than a church as nor Burt or Carole were religious they opted for a large hall to accommodate all of Finns closest friends and family. The hall had either a black or white balloon tied to each chair and black ribbon hung along the walls.


The family sat at the front, Rachel, Maria, Burt, Carole, Kurt, Blaine, Mason and Rachel’s fathers.


"Today we are here to remember and say good bye to Finn Hudson." said the lady conducting the service "From what I have heard, Finn was a loving, caring and compassionate young man who would do anything for anyone and always went above and beyond all expectations." a few of the guests nodded their agreement eyes already beginning to glisten with tears " Today we shall recognise all of Finns achievements and all of our memories with him. To start I would like to invite Carole share her memories with Finn."


Sarah, The lady taking the service, took a seat and allowed Carole to take centre stage.


"When Finn was five," Carole begun “He always knew he wanted to help people, he wanted to be that person that everyone came to for advice." Carole smiled fondly at the memory “He would always tell me about his teddies problems." The audience laughed as Carole continued “As he got older Finn always wanted to be surrounded by friends and family." Carole said, tears streaming down her face "He got what he wanted by being kind and compassionate, and if he could see all of us sitting here today, he would be so happy." Carole ended her speech, taking her seat next to Burt again.


Puck got up next walking to the front of the hall "Finn and I have been friends for as long as I can remember, He was always the sensible one, and I was always the ‘do now think later type’," Puck chuckled to himself "He taught me to think of others before I act. He's gone now, but he's taught me a lesson that will stick with me for a life time." Puck nodded solemnly before taking his seat, everyone clapped.


Sarah stood at the front of the hall again. "We all have beautiful memories with Finn but none more so than, Maria, who has asked to talk." Sarah said before sitting again.


Maria got up walking to the front of the hall, everyone was silent.


"Daddy would always tell me stories before bed, and check for monsters under my bed, he even used to watch Disney movies with me, and I don't know what I am going to do without him." Maria said, playing with the hem of her skirt, her untarnished innocence and strong bond with her dad, making Carole and Rachel cry harder. Maria turned around to look at the open coffin "I'm going to miss you daddy. I love you, don't forget that, K?" Maria said as tears began to prick at her eyes before walking off and over to her mother.


Kurt got up.


"Many of you who knew me during high school would know I used to have a huge crush on Finn." Everyone laughed "In fact, the only reason I introduced Carole to my dad is so I could get closer to him." Kurt smiled at the memory "But after I realised that we were never going to end up together, we were able to gain a brother like bond and if I could have done anything to stop us all being here today, I would have, because I love him and that is what brothers do. I don't believe in god but if there is a heaven where good people go after death I know he will be up there watching over us." Kurt finished before taking Maria off of Rachel so that she could talk.


"I have a song; I'd like to sing, by one of Finn's favourite bands." Rachel said briefly.


Here's a song you can sing along to
For when I've gone away (for when I've gone away)
It's a silly tune I wrote for you (for you)
You can sing it every day (you can sing it every day)


I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you tonight
I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you behind
I don't want to leave you tonight


Rachel closed her eyes as she sung, imagining her and Finn and all their happy memories together.


So if you're down and I'm not around
And the days seem far too long (the days seem far too long)
Well I'll be there if you're ever scared (ever scared)
You can hear me sing along (you can hear me sing along)


I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you tonight
I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you behind
I don't want to leave you tonight


The guests were all quiet as they listened to Rachel sing, allowing themselves to remember all their own memories that they shared with Finn.


And I know it's hard but life's a bit like that
When it pulls you down and stabs you in the back
And I know it's hard, we'll get through this I know
I didn't know you'd been gone for so long (for so long)
I didn't know you'd been gone for so long (for so long)
I didn't know you'd been gone for so long (for so long)
I didn't know you'd been gone for so long (for so long)


I don't want to leave you
I don't want to leave you tonight
I don't want to leave you
I don't want to leave you tonight
I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you behind
I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you tonight
I don't want to leave you (I don't want to leave you)
I don't want to leave you behind
I don't want to leave you tonight


The guests clapped as Rachel took her seat


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The ceremony continued everyone sharing their memories and funny stories about their time that they were able to share with Finn before walking out of the hall and into the courtyard followed by the coffin as everyone stood around the hole dug to place the coffin into, Kurt was still holding Maria and Carole and Rachel tried to console each other, Maria was carrying the balloon that was tied to her chair.


They began to lower the coffin into the grave as Sarah spoke.


"Everyone here today has a memory with Finn, a memory that should be shared with the world so that we can keep Finn alive in our memories and in our hearts." Sarah concluded inviting Burt, Carole, and Rachel to throw the white roses onto the coffin which would soon be followed by soil.


"Uncle Kurt." Maria said playing with the ribbon that held the helium balloon down between her fingers.


"Yes sweetheart?" Kurt asked, lifting his head off of Blaine’s shoulder.


"Where is heaven?" Maria asked, holding her balloon.


"Up there." Kurt said pointing above his and her head to the blue sky covered in fluffy white clouds.


"Oh. Do you have a marker pen?" Maria asked.


"I think Blaine has one in his pocket still from letting Mason colour on the way up here. Why?" Kurt asked his niece.


"'Cause if heaven is up there" Maria said pointing to the sky “And I write a message to daddy on my balloon and let go of it, that mean he will get it, right?" Kurt couldn’t help but finally allow the tears to run down his face, at last, as he nodded.


"Yeah, I suppose he would." Kurt smiled through his tears, placing Maria down momentarily to go and get a marker from Blaine.


"Blaine."


Blaine turned to look at Kurt noticing he was finally crying "Yeah babe?"


"Do you still have a marker on you from when Mason was colouring earlier?" Kurt asked, trying to wipe his tears away.


"Yeah...Why?" Blaine asked, getting out the marker pen regardless.


"I'll explain later." Kurt said taking the marker pen back to Maria.


Kurt returned crouching down to Maria's height passing her the pen, Maria passed Kurt the balloon for him to hold while she wrote on it.


The message on the balloon was badly written but that didn't matter, as far as Kurt and Maria was concerned, this was a direct message going straight to Finn.


Kurt and Maria released the balloon, after Kurt took a picture.


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The funeral was over and Kurt, Burt, Carole and Blaine as well as Mason all headed back to Burt's house.


"So what was with the marker earlier?" Blaine asked, putting Mason to bed.


"Maria wanted to write a message on her balloon to Finn, so that he could read it in heaven" Kurt smiled.


"Is that why you were crying?" Kurt nodded climbing onto his old bed, waiting for Blaine.


"I suppose her wanting to write to her Finn, just, got to me." Kurt shrugged automatically cuddling up to Blaine once he got in the bed.


"Yeah, I think we forget how optimistic kids are," Blaine chuckled while Kurt nodded "What'd she write." Blaine asked.


"I got a picture." Kurt said, reaching for his phone landing on the picture of Maria's message.


The message read:
Daddy,
Its Maria, mummy told me that the angels had called for you so you had to go. I wish you didn't, but I know you have to.
I just wanted to let you know that I miss you already, I don't think I will ever stop missing you, But I love you and always will. Mummy misses you too, she keeps crying. Don't forget me, because I don’t think I will ever forget you.


"Wow." Was all Blaine could say.


"She is so mature for her age." Kurt gushed.


"That she is." Blaine said before turning off the lights in the room, knowing that they all needed their sleep from the emotionally draining day and for their flight back in the morning.