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CHAPTER 24


 

A Kiss You Shouldn't Miss!

As the song goes, "reunited and it feels so good". It looks like Kurt Hummel is getting his sexy moves on and picking up the pieces he left in London, England! Photographed above is Hummel dancing with a previously unknown man who later turned out to be his ex-boyfriend, Andrew Jacobs from last spring!

Witnesses say that Kurt and co. were out to party last night to celebrate the successful three-month promotional activities for the movie "The Saltwater Room" (in the theaters near you!). However, Hummel seemed to enjoy himself a little too much and has forgotten about his Los Angeles-based current flame Blaine Anderson—ring a bell Kurt?—because he was later seen outside the bar with Jacobs, lip-locked and looking like they've reignited the flames of their relationship.

Who knew Kurt had this dangerous side in him? More soon!

-JBI Gossip


Comments:

I knew this was coming!

KURT HUMMEL'S A FUCKING CHEATER PASS IT ON

Excuse you, Kurt would never cheat on Blaine or on anyone!

I hope he says something soon, I'm so worried about my boys OMFG


"Jacob Ben Israel, how the fuck did he even get these stuff? Why is he in London?" Alex paced around, sending text messages while reading different news articles.

But Kurt wasn't listening to her or anything that she's said so far. He had already gotten a few calls himself; one from his dad who reprimanded him and asked for an explanation, telling him that this wasn't fair to Blaine and that "you matter Kurt" and another call from Rachel asking what happened and saying that he can always ask for her help since she was in L.A. and she could find Blaine for him.

But the one person he wanted to hear from hasn't called. Not once. And he wasn't answering Kurt's calls too and this scared him more than anything else.

'Hi, this is Blaine. Leave a message.'

"Have you heard from Blaine?" Kurt asked Alex as she got off the phone from their talent agency. They must be freaking out over there and he's actually very sorry.

"No, I haven't." Alex told him. "But Sam called, he was asking for an explanation and he didn't sound happy." She grimaced both at the memory of Sam calling and at the phones which were ringing non-stop as everyone in the media ached for some juicy scoop.

Of course, Blaine's friends would be ready to kill him with sniper guns once he lands on LAX but as much as he wanted to go home, he still had his photo shoot schedule that day. Oh, right.

"Is the shoot still a go? Or did they think that the Sexiest Newcomer doesn't deserve to be on their magazine already?" Kurt sighed. It was a special award after all and he was so excited about it since he'll be on the magazine but now with all this, he was worried.

"I called them earlier and they said it was all still a go. Just be professional, we don't want any other commotion happening. Okay?" Alex reminded him. Kurt nodded. "You need to get ready. We need to be there by 10. And we need to talk about you getting into interviews. God, Kurt, why did you think—"

But she just let out a frustrated sigh and glared at Kurt who just looked apologetically at her. He didn't really mean to and it wasn't even his fault entirely.

So Kurt nodded, finally getting up and momentary giving up on calling Blaine. "I guess it's time to face the music."


 

The music was far from relaxing; it was more of brain damaging. Once Kurt stepped out of the building, flashes went off and he heard a ton of questions thrown at him by reporters. He chose to ignore them all, not letting it get to him because he knew and he believed that he did not cheat on Blaine, not really. They head over to the venue and Kurt was thankful that they've evaded the paparazzi.

The photo shoot venue was a well-secluded place and he silently thanked People for picking this area. "Kurt! It's nice seeing you again." One of the staff, Caitlyn, said in her thick English accent. "I hope they didn't give you a hard time out there."

Kurt just shrugged. "Nothing I can't handle." He smiled. "It's nice to be here. When are we starting?" Kurt asked politely.

"Soon, we're just waiting for the photographer but you can head over to the wardrobe department. They're waiting for you there." Caitlyn smiled and Kurt nodded.

Alex left him to himself while she took care of some more calls. The wardrobe crew told Kurt what outfits he'd be wearing for the shoot and he became so immersed in the fashion of it all that he was surprised to hear a fuss outside the room.

He heard Alex say, "Get out of here" in a voice so threatening that he instantly knew who she was talking to. Kurt politely asked the crew to leave him for a bit just as Andrew burst into the room.

"I'm sorry Mr. Hummel, we tried to stop him." One of them said.

"No, it's okay. I'll handle this." Kurt smiled at the lady. Alex stood by the door, glaring at Andrew and not leaving them alone. "Alex."

"No, Kurt."

Kurt sighed. "Please." And after much hesitation, Alex nodded and left the room, carefully closing the door behind her. Kurt was pretty sure she was just standing outside the door, shooing everybody who dares to come close. He turned to Andrew. "What do you want? And how did you even know I was here?" Kurt started.

"Look, Kurt—"

"Have you any idea what you did? How much shit I had to deal with this morning because of you?!" Kurt snarled at him. His mind kept on going to Blaine and how he still hasn't called back and he was really thinking of how much he hates Andrew for all this.

"I'm sorry about what I did last night. I wasn't thinking straight and I didn't mean to—"

"No. Save it. I don't care what you meant; I don't care about you because I hate you." Kurt spat out.

"Kurt, please." Andrew pleaded but Kurt was having none of it.

"You're going to clean up this mess and tell everyone what you did. I don't care if this ruins your career and your image of being that angelic boy who's perfect and loved by everyone. I DON'T CARE." Kurt continued, "This will be the end Andrew, I don't want to see your face ever again." He ended, shaking with rage because Andrew may have just ruined everything that Kurt loves.

But the other man wasn't persuaded; instead, he took a step towards Kurt and hugged him tightly. Kurt fisted his hands, ready to punch Andrew's gut out of him if he didn't take a step back.

"Let go of me." Kurt protested, trying and thinking that maybe he can avoid starting a commotion if he reasoned out to him instead.

"No! I won't! I let you go once, I will not let it happen again. You changed me Kurt so I can't! I lo—"

"Get away from him."

With Andrew distracted by the voice that Kurt knew by heart, he managed to push him away, thankful that he didn't end up punching the poor guy because with his rage right now, he was pretty sure he could pop open a few internal organs. Kurt looked up and a mixture of relief and worry filled him.

"Blaine." Kurt managed to breathe out.

Indeed, Blaine was there looking tired as hell but no worse for wear. It seemed that no one existed in the world as Kurt focused only on Blaine, thinking that Blaine's here and he still loves me, failing to see that he was there with someone.

"You're missing out on all the fun, B."

Kurt finally realized that Blaine wasn't alone; standing next to him with his smirky, meerkat face was Sebastian Smythe, looking proud but also careful as he was not attempting to touch any part of Blaine. Kurt could feel it too from where he was standing; Blaine's anger.

To an outsider's point of view, this situation may seem normal but for Kurt, it was super weird. Kurt was standing next to his ex-boyfriend while in front of his current boyfriend who, in turn, came with his own ex-boyfriend in tow. It was very confusing.

"Shut up Seb." Blaine shut him up, using a nickname that Kurt hadn't heard before. He felt a twinge of jealousy in his stomach as he saw Sebastian raising his hands in surrender.

"Is this him?" Andrew scoffed, checking Blaine out from head to toe. "Kurt, he's not even your type." Kurt shot him a glare but not before seeing Sebastian shake his head at Andrew too.

"Don't tell me how I should live my lif—"

But before he could finish his sentence, Andrew was sent to his ass on the floor as Blaine successfully threw a punch at Andrew's face.

"Shit." Sebastian cursed under his breath, knowing full well what Blaine is capable of doing. He hasn't experienced it first-hand but he's seen it quite a few times.

"Blaine!" Kurt shrieked, trying to stop Blaine from doing something he'll regret.

Blaine grabbed Andrew by the collar, his eyes dark and angry and he would've delivered a concussive punch that will probably have a permanent damage to Andrew's face if Sebastian and Kurt hadn't stopped him from doing so.

Blaine stood up, panting. "Kurt is my boyfriend and I don't care how famous you are. Get away from him." Blaine firmly said.

Sebastian helped Andrew up, "Get out of here Jacobs, if you know what's good for you." He told him. "Go around the back, no one will see you that way." Sebastian said.

Andrew glared at all of them before conceding and finally leaving. It seems that he's never been in that kind of situation before. They all just hoped that this will be the end of him.

The three of them stood in awkward silence, the door still closed behind them and Kurt was sure that Alex heard everything through that door. But he was also sure that she didn't allow anyone to come too close to avoid more gossip spreading around.

But Kurt forgot all about that as he stared at Blaine who refused to look at him. Kurt could see Blaine shaking and all he wanted was to hug him and tell him how sorry he is.

"Blaine, I—" Kurt started.

"So, shall we get started?" Sebastian interjected before they could talk. Kurt blinked at him, finally realizing that there must be a reason why Sebastian was here. "I'm your photographer Hummel, like it or not."

"But I can't stand you."

"I can't stand you either but we have to stay professional. Let's go. We're wasting time." Sebastian said in a bored tone, walking out the door and finally acknowledging the rest of the crew.

Alex came in, looking around, surprised to see that Andrew was gone. "Where is he?"

"He left and went around the back." Kurt explained, not taking his eyes off of Blaine. "I'm just going to do the shoot and we'll leave together, okay?" Kurt cautiously told Blaine and Blaine just nodded.

Alex glanced at them both and he could feel the tension in the air. "Come on, everyone's waiting for you. I need you to stay focused." She reminded him and Kurt nodded. He had some many questions but those will have to wait.


 

Kurt put on a façade and plastered an easygoing smile on his face as he got through the photo shoot that day, a fake mask that he always wore when necessary that only a few people can see through. Sure there were whispers around him about what may have occurred inside that room but everyone was considerate enough not to ask aloud. Finally, the shoot was over and he could get down to business with Sebastian.

"Sebastian." Kurt called out to him while the man was fixing his things. Sebastian looked up from where he was working. "Be sure to pick the good shots." He said.

"I won't. I hate you, remember?" Sebastian played but Kurt knew better. The man was getting paid for this job so Kurt knew he could be trusted. As much as Kurt hates the man, he knew Sebastian was a great photographer.

"Why were you with Blaine?" Kurt finally asked, not beating around the bush.

"Saw him at the airport, reading news. I think he just read it once he landed." Sebastian shrugged. "He told me he wanted to surprise you but had no idea where you were so I told him I was your photographer for People. It was the most tension filled situation I've ever been in with him since a few years ago." He told Kurt and Kurt knew just what Sebastian was talking about.

Kurt stayed quiet. Blaine wanted to surprise him and this is what he sees, of course he'll get angry. The Blaine he saw earlier was far from the Blaine he knew; the Blaine Anderson he knew was sweet, loving, understanding and caring but what he saw earlier was pure anger. He didn't quite know how to deal with that.

Sebastian just saw right through him. "You're probably scared of him right now. Hell, I am too. I know what he's capable of doing, I've seen it. He's not usually like this but things get to him sometimes, you know?" Sebastian continued. "Here's an advice even though I don't like you and your gay face," He said, rolling his eyes. "He's mad at you, for sure, but he's probably angrier at himself right now for losing control like that in front of you. He was trying so hard to stay calm."

"How do you know?"

"We may not be in good terms but I was still his best friend for god knows how long. I know the guy. And you saw him shaking, that's how angry he was at that douche of an ex-boyfriend of yours. I'm surprised the man didn't receive a harder punch." Sebastian said. "Let him calm down a bit and don't let him withdraw and close in on himself at any costs. I don't know if you've—"

"I have." Kurt replied because he's seen Blaine withdraw from him that time when they had dinner with Simon and it was the most unsettling feeling. He remembered telling himself that Blaine needed to know he was there. "Why are you helping me though?"

"Don't flatter yourself Hummel." Sebastian narrowed his eyes at him. "I'm helping him. I saw him get hurt a lot of times being one of those who has hurt him but I've never seen him like this." Sebastian honestly said. "Fix it." He added before finally making his leave.

Sometimes Kurt just doesn't get people but he's grateful that Sebastian was there at that moment. When it was finally time to go, Kurt was the one who called Blaine out of the room where he's been in for the past couple of hours and they walked outside together.

Once they were outside, camera flashes immediately started going off and questions flew everywhere. He knew that the news articles about Blaine flying to London will be on the internet soon enough. But he didn't care about that, what he did care about was that Blaine's small touches were gone.

He couldn't help but notice that Blaine wasn't leading him to the car. The hand on the small of his back, the touch on his elbow, the little smiles that they shared when they're out together; those were gone and Blaine was just following behind him. He was acting so distant and cold that Kurt didn't know what to do.


 

The ride back to the hotel was quiet and awkward as they were with Alex and Alex wanted to get out as soon as she can. And she did. Once she had dropped them off to Kurt's room, Alex saluted to them and smiled.

"Talk it out, okay? You'll be fine." Alex smiled, patting Kurt on the shoulder before leaving the two of them alone in the living room.

Kurt took a deep breath before walking over to Blaine and giving him a hug, wanting nothing else but to touch him and just apologize until everything was alright.

"I missed you." Kurt quietly said, his voice already cracking from emotion because he knew just how angry Blaine was. He was aware that Blaine wasn't hugging him back.

He pulled away, looking deep into Blaine's eyes that were looking back at him. He still hadn't uttered a single word. "Blaine, talk to me, please."

Blaine let out a small smile, cupping Kurt's cheek, bringing their face closer to each other. Kurt immediately closed his eyes as he anticipated the kiss, he felt Blaine's breath over his lips but it never happened.

"I said it was a way of pouring my unsaid feelings to the most important person in my life." Blaine whispered over Kurt's lips and Kurt opened his eyes only to see Blaine looking down at his lips. "But I guess it doesn't really matter as much when you're an actor huh."

And Blaine pulled away, pursing his lips. Kurt could feel his heart sink because he remembered those words; he remembered how Blaine gave importance to a kiss and he just—oh god I just…

"Blaine, you have to listen to me, I didn't want any of this." Kurt explained as Blaine just stood there, staring at him. "He came onto me and I swear I pushed him away and—"

"I booked a flight here a few weeks ago, you know, when you told me that you had a photo shoot for People. I wanted to celebrate it with you and I wanted to celebrate your movie's success and I just missed you so much Kurt so I worked my ass off." Blaine started. "But then I land on Heathrow and I see things like you reigniting the flames with your ex-boyfriend, Legolas." Blaine continued, not hearing Kurt. "Who was it who told me to not hook up with people while you were away? I didn't know that rule only applied to me."

Kurt swears he was so close to crying with Blaine being like this with him.

"I didn't believe it because I trust you but then I see you hugging him when I arrived at the shoot venue and I just lost it." Blaine hid his face behind his hands. "You saw me lose it and I hate that." He said in a low voice, slumping down on the sofa.

Kurt carefully sat next to him, letting him get it all out because he knew Blaine and Blaine needed to let stuff out when he's angry. He needed someone to listen and Kurt has to be that person.

"I lost it because I was worried that you really were forgetting about me because you do that Kurt, you forget about me a lot." Blaine continued to say, surprising Kurt at this confession.

"When did I even—?"

"You do! Don't tell me you don't know!" Blaine accused him, standing up again, away from Kurt. It seems like all his pent up emotions from the past few months finally exploded. "Every time, every time, you leave for work: New York, the World, you seem to forget. You'd go a few weeks not talking to me and I'd see you on Twitter but you're never talking to me, Kurt. You're just rarely there."

Kurt stared at him dumbfounded, he didn't know what to say.

"And sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who loves you like this, Kurt. You call me at any convenient hour for you and I answer, no matter what time it is, no matter what I'm doing. Tell me to do this or that and I'll do it for you. I always think about you when I don't even know if you still remember who I am because you're 'going places'!"

"I keep thinking that I understand and that it's for work and that I shouldn't be such a drama queen but sometimes I lose it because I've been there before Kurt, I've been forgotten many times. I'll list it down for you in case you also forgot about it: Simon, Cooper, Sebastian. It all happened to me already." Blaine let out, pouring his thoughts into one conversation. "And I'm so tired of it."

Kurt stood up, he's got a ton of things to counter what Blaine had said about him because none of that were true, at least in his point of view. "Blaine, I've never once forgotten about you. I was just really busy, I thought you genuinely understood!" He said, "But I'm sorry. I didn't know. You never really said anything and that—"

"How would you know when you're too busy with your being a celebrity?" Blaine let out a small, sarcastic laugh. "I guess this is really why I didn't want to associate myself with famous personalities. Because I knew this would happen eventually, it always does in this industry, doesn't it?" He smiled sadly, tears brimming in his eyes. "There's always some cheating going on or falling apart because of mismatched schedules and stuff like that. I guess it's all true, I thought the media just makes it all up."

"Blaine, please, don't say that." Kurt said, a lump forming in his throat. This can't be happening. "I didn't cheat on you, I swear. I was drunk, yes, but I didn't want that to happen. Andrew's a stupid asshole and I punched him in the gut that night. The media's just getting to you, please, don't be like this. I'll do better with the schedule thing, I promise. Please." He knew he was pleading but who cares?

There were a few moments of utter silence with Blaine just analyzing Kurt. Blaine sighed; he wasn't really surprised that he found himself believing that Kurt was telling the truth, that he didn't cheat and that it was an unwanted kiss. But all the things that had piled up in him made it hard to stop being mad at Kurt at that moment. He walked over to Kurt and cupped his cheek again, Kurt leaned into his touch.

"I'm sorry for everything I didn't know I was doing. I'm sorry for last night. I'm so sorry." Kurt sniffed, tears now freely falling from his eyes. "Blaine." He repeated his name, holding Blaine's hand.

"I know. I know you are." Blaine's voice was back to its old tone, soothing and understanding and that made Kurt cry of all things because Blaine was so different. So very different. "But I've never realized how tired I am Kurt, not until now. I'm not tired of youno, I'm just tired." Blaine sighed. "I'm tired of trying to keep up with you."

"Keeping up with—?"

"I tried, Kurt." Blaine confessed. "I tried keeping up with you because I wanted to be someone who deserves to be with you because you're Kurt Hummel. I kick-started my music career and even let the media know about my dad because I wanted people to see that I can be with you." He said. "I had no idea how exhausting it was going to be."

"You don't have to. Blaine, please. Don't do this. I don't want to—" Kurt sobbed, holding onto Blaine's hand tighter.

"Kurt." Blaine cut him off. "Maybe we need it. Maybe I need it."

"You told me you're never going to leave me, no matter what. You told me!" Kurt reminded him and it was that moment that Kurt realized just how much he's been holding onto that small promise.

"I don't want to say anymore hurtful things to you Kurt. Please." Blaine said, looking apologetic with tears in his eyes as well. "Just a little time off, okay?"

"I can't. Blaine," Kurt sobbed. "I love you." He said softly through his tears and he has never meant it more.

Blaine planted a kiss on his forehead, pulled away and looked lovingly at him. "We need this, some time to think." He said. Kurt held onto his hand tightly because he knew that once he let him go, Blaine would go off somewhere he didn't know. But Blaine was slowly pulling away and Kurt knew he wouldn't be able to change his mind. Once Blaine had got out of Kurt's grasp, he gave him a sad smile. "Take care of yourself, okay?"

"But where will you go?" Kurt asked, tears forming in his eyes again but Blaine just shrugged in reply before turning to walk away, leaving Kurt alone in the hotel room.

CHAPTER 24


 

A Kiss You Shouldn't Miss!

As the song goes, "reunited and it feels so good". It looks like Kurt Hummel is getting his sexy moves on and picking up the pieces he left in London, England! Photographed above is Hummel dancing with a previously unknown man who later turned out to be his ex-boyfriend, Andrew Jacobs from last spring!

Witnesses say that Kurt and co. were out to party last night to celebrate the successful three-month promotional activities for the movie "The Saltwater Room" (in the theaters near you!). However, Hummel seemed to enjoy himself a little too much and has forgotten about his Los Angeles-based current flame Blaine Anderson—ring a bell Kurt?—because he was later seen outside the bar with Jacobs, lip-locked and looking like they've reignited the flames of their relationship.

Who knew Kurt had this dangerous side in him? More soon!

-JBI Gossip


Comments:

I knew this was coming!

KURT HUMMEL'S A FUCKING CHEATER PASS IT ON

Excuse you, Kurt would never cheat on Blaine or on anyone!

I hope he says something soon, I'm so worried about my boys OMFG


"Jacob Ben Israel, how the fuck did he even get these stuff? Why is he in London?" Alex paced around, sending text messages while reading different news articles.

But Kurt wasn't listening to her or anything that she's said so far. He had already gotten a few calls himself; one from his dad who reprimanded him and asked for an explanation, telling him that this wasn't fair to Blaine and that "you matter Kurt" and another call from Rachel asking what happened and saying that he can always ask for her help since she was in L.A. and she could find Blaine for him.

But the one person he wanted to hear from hasn't called. Not once. And he wasn't answering Kurt's calls too and this scared him more than anything else.

'Hi, this is Blaine. Leave a message.'

"Have you heard from Blaine?" Kurt asked Alex as she got off the phone from their talent agency. They must be freaking out over there and he's actually very sorry.

"No, I haven't." Alex told him. "But Sam called, he was asking for an explanation and he didn't sound happy." She grimaced both at the memory of Sam calling and at the phones which were ringing non-stop as everyone in the media ached for some juicy scoop.

Of course, Blaine's friends would be ready to kill him with sniper guns once he lands on LAX but as much as he wanted to go home, he still had his photo shoot schedule that day. Oh, right.

"Is the shoot still a go? Or did they think that the Sexiest Newcomer doesn't deserve to be on their magazine already?" Kurt sighed. It was a special award after all and he was so excited about it since he'll be on the magazine but now with all this, he was worried.

"I called them earlier and they said it was all still a go. Just be professional, we don't want any other commotion happening. Okay?" Alex reminded him. Kurt nodded. "You need to get ready. We need to be there by 10. And we need to talk about you getting into interviews. God, Kurt, why did you think—"

But she just let out a frustrated sigh and glared at Kurt who just looked apologetically at her. He didn't really mean to and it wasn't even his fault entirely.

So Kurt nodded, finally getting up and momentary giving up on calling Blaine. "I guess it's time to face the music."


 

The music was far from relaxing; it was more of brain damaging. Once Kurt stepped out of the building, flashes went off and he heard a ton of questions thrown at him by reporters. He chose to ignore them all, not letting it get to him because he knew and he believed that he did not cheat on Blaine, not really. They head over to the venue and Kurt was thankful that they've evaded the paparazzi.

The photo shoot venue was a well-secluded place and he silently thanked People for picking this area. "Kurt! It's nice seeing you again." One of the staff, Caitlyn, said in her thick English accent. "I hope they didn't give you a hard time out there."

Kurt just shrugged. "Nothing I can't handle." He smiled. "It's nice to be here. When are we starting?" Kurt asked politely.

"Soon, we're just waiting for the photographer but you can head over to the wardrobe department. They're waiting for you there." Caitlyn smiled and Kurt nodded.

Alex left him to himself while she took care of some more calls. The wardrobe crew told Kurt what outfits he'd be wearing for the shoot and he became so immersed in the fashion of it all that he was surprised to hear a fuss outside the room.

He heard Alex say, "Get out of here" in a voice so threatening that he instantly knew who she was talking to. Kurt politely asked the crew to leave him for a bit just as Andrew burst into the room.

"I'm sorry Mr. Hummel, we tried to stop him." One of them said.

"No, it's okay. I'll handle this." Kurt smiled at the lady. Alex stood by the door, glaring at Andrew and not leaving them alone. "Alex."

"No, Kurt."

Kurt sighed. "Please." And after much hesitation, Alex nodded and left the room, carefully closing the door behind her. Kurt was pretty sure she was just standing outside the door, shooing everybody who dares to come close. He turned to Andrew. "What do you want? And how did you even know I was here?" Kurt started.

"Look, Kurt—"

"Have you any idea what you did? How much shit I had to deal with this morning because of you?!" Kurt snarled at him. His mind kept on going to Blaine and how he still hasn't called back and he was really thinking of how much he hates Andrew for all this.

"I'm sorry about what I did last night. I wasn't thinking straight and I didn't mean to—"

"No. Save it. I don't care what you meant; I don't care about you because I hate you." Kurt spat out.

"Kurt, please." Andrew pleaded but Kurt was having none of it.

"You're going to clean up this mess and tell everyone what you did. I don't care if this ruins your career and your image of being that angelic boy who's perfect and loved by everyone. I DON'T CARE." Kurt continued, "This will be the end Andrew, I don't want to see your face ever again." He ended, shaking with rage because Andrew may have just ruined everything that Kurt loves.

But the other man wasn't persuaded; instead, he took a step towards Kurt and hugged him tightly. Kurt fisted his hands, ready to punch Andrew's gut out of him if he didn't take a step back.

"Let go of me." Kurt protested, trying and thinking that maybe he can avoid starting a commotion if he reasoned out to him instead.

"No! I won't! I let you go once, I will not let it happen again. You changed me Kurt so I can't! I lo—"

"Get away from him."

With Andrew distracted by the voice that Kurt knew by heart, he managed to push him away, thankful that he didn't end up punching the poor guy because with his rage right now, he was pretty sure he could pop open a few internal organs. Kurt looked up and a mixture of relief and worry filled him.

"Blaine." Kurt managed to breathe out.

Indeed, Blaine was there looking tired as hell but no worse for wear. It seemed that no one existed in the world as Kurt focused only on Blaine, thinking that Blaine's here and he still loves me, failing to see that he was there with someone.

"You're missing out on all the fun, B."

Kurt finally realized that Blaine wasn't alone; standing next to him with his smirky, meerkat face was Sebastian Smythe, looking proud but also careful as he was not attempting to touch any part of Blaine. Kurt could feel it too from where he was standing; Blaine's anger.

To an outsider's point of view, this situation may seem normal but for Kurt, it was super weird. Kurt was standing next to his ex-boyfriend while in front of his current boyfriend who, in turn, came with his own ex-boyfriend in tow. It was very confusing.

"Shut up Seb." Blaine shut him up, using a nickname that Kurt hadn't heard before. He felt a twinge of jealousy in his stomach as he saw Sebastian raising his hands in surrender.

"Is this him?" Andrew scoffed, checking Blaine out from head to toe. "Kurt, he's not even your type." Kurt shot him a glare but not before seeing Sebastian shake his head at Andrew too.

"Don't tell me how I should live my lif—"

But before he could finish his sentence, Andrew was sent to his ass on the floor as Blaine successfully threw a punch at Andrew's face.

"Shit." Sebastian cursed under his breath, knowing full well what Blaine is capable of doing. He hasn't experienced it first-hand but he's seen it quite a few times.

"Blaine!" Kurt shrieked, trying to stop Blaine from doing something he'll regret.

Blaine grabbed Andrew by the collar, his eyes dark and angry and he would've delivered a concussive punch that will probably have a permanent damage to Andrew's face if Sebastian and Kurt hadn't stopped him from doing so.

Blaine stood up, panting. "Kurt is my boyfriend and I don't care how famous you are. Get away from him." Blaine firmly said.

Sebastian helped Andrew up, "Get out of here Jacobs, if you know what's good for you." He told him. "Go around the back, no one will see you that way." Sebastian said.

Andrew glared at all of them before conceding and finally leaving. It seems that he's never been in that kind of situation before. They all just hoped that this will be the end of him.

The three of them stood in awkward silence, the door still closed behind them and Kurt was sure that Alex heard everything through that door. But he was also sure that she didn't allow anyone to come too close to avoid more gossip spreading around.

But Kurt forgot all about that as he stared at Blaine who refused to look at him. Kurt could see Blaine shaking and all he wanted was to hug him and tell him how sorry he is.

"Blaine, I—" Kurt started.

"So, shall we get started?" Sebastian interjected before they could talk. Kurt blinked at him, finally realizing that there must be a reason why Sebastian was here. "I'm your photographer Hummel, like it or not."

"But I can't stand you."

"I can't stand you either but we have to stay professional. Let's go. We're wasting time." Sebastian said in a bored tone, walking out the door and finally acknowledging the rest of the crew.

Alex came in, looking around, surprised to see that Andrew was gone. "Where is he?"

"He left and went around the back." Kurt explained, not taking his eyes off of Blaine. "I'm just going to do the shoot and we'll leave together, okay?" Kurt cautiously told Blaine and Blaine just nodded.

Alex glanced at them both and he could feel the tension in the air. "Come on, everyone's waiting for you. I need you to stay focused." She reminded him and Kurt nodded. He had some many questions but those will have to wait.


 

Kurt put on a façade and plastered an easygoing smile on his face as he got through the photo shoot that day, a fake mask that he always wore when necessary that only a few people can see through. Sure there were whispers around him about what may have occurred inside that room but everyone was considerate enough not to ask aloud. Finally, the shoot was over and he could get down to business with Sebastian.

"Sebastian." Kurt called out to him while the man was fixing his things. Sebastian looked up from where he was working. "Be sure to pick the good shots." He said.

"I won't. I hate you, remember?" Sebastian played but Kurt knew better. The man was getting paid for this job so Kurt knew he could be trusted. As much as Kurt hates the man, he knew Sebastian was a great photographer.

"Why were you with Blaine?" Kurt finally asked, not beating around the bush.

"Saw him at the airport, reading news. I think he just read it once he landed." Sebastian shrugged. "He told me he wanted to surprise you but had no idea where you were so I told him I was your photographer for People. It was the most tension filled situation I've ever been in with him since a few years ago." He told Kurt and Kurt knew just what Sebastian was talking about.

Kurt stayed quiet. Blaine wanted to surprise him and this is what he sees, of course he'll get angry. The Blaine he saw earlier was far from the Blaine he knew; the Blaine Anderson he knew was sweet, loving, understanding and caring but what he saw earlier was pure anger. He didn't quite know how to deal with that.

Sebastian just saw right through him. "You're probably scared of him right now. Hell, I am too. I know what he's capable of doing, I've seen it. He's not usually like this but things get to him sometimes, you know?" Sebastian continued. "Here's an advice even though I don't like you and your gay face," He said, rolling his eyes. "He's mad at you, for sure, but he's probably angrier at himself right now for losing control like that in front of you. He was trying so hard to stay calm."

"How do you know?"

"We may not be in good terms but I was still his best friend for god knows how long. I know the guy. And you saw him shaking, that's how angry he was at that douche of an ex-boyfriend of yours. I'm surprised the man didn't receive a harder punch." Sebastian said. "Let him calm down a bit and don't let him withdraw and close in on himself at any costs. I don't know if you've—"

"I have." Kurt replied because he's seen Blaine withdraw from him that time when they had dinner with Simon and it was the most unsettling feeling. He remembered telling himself that Blaine needed to know he was there. "Why are you helping me though?"

"Don't flatter yourself Hummel." Sebastian narrowed his eyes at him. "I'm helping him. I saw him get hurt a lot of times being one of those who has hurt him but I've never seen him like this." Sebastian honestly said. "Fix it." He added before finally making his leave.

Sometimes Kurt just doesn't get people but he's grateful that Sebastian was there at that moment. When it was finally time to go, Kurt was the one who called Blaine out of the room where he's been in for the past couple of hours and they walked outside together.

Once they were outside, camera flashes immediately started going off and questions flew everywhere. He knew that the news articles about Blaine flying to London will be on the internet soon enough. But he didn't care about that, what he did care about was that Blaine's small touches were gone.

He couldn't help but notice that Blaine wasn't leading him to the car. The hand on the small of his back, the touch on his elbow, the little smiles that they shared when they're out together; those were gone and Blaine was just following behind him. He was acting so distant and cold that Kurt didn't know what to do.


 

The ride back to the hotel was quiet and awkward as they were with Alex and Alex wanted to get out as soon as she can. And she did. Once she had dropped them off to Kurt's room, Alex saluted to them and smiled.

"Talk it out, okay? You'll be fine." Alex smiled, patting Kurt on the shoulder before leaving the two of them alone in the living room.

Kurt took a deep breath before walking over to Blaine and giving him a hug, wanting nothing else but to touch him and just apologize until everything was alright.

"I missed you." Kurt quietly said, his voice already cracking from emotion because he knew just how angry Blaine was. He was aware that Blaine wasn't hugging him back.

He pulled away, looking deep into Blaine's eyes that were looking back at him. He still hadn't uttered a single word. "Blaine, talk to me, please."

Blaine let out a small smile, cupping Kurt's cheek, bringing their face closer to each other. Kurt immediately closed his eyes as he anticipated the kiss, he felt Blaine's breath over his lips but it never happened.

"I said it was a way of pouring my unsaid feelings to the most important person in my life." Blaine whispered over Kurt's lips and Kurt opened his eyes only to see Blaine looking down at his lips. "But I guess it doesn't really matter as much when you're an actor huh."

And Blaine pulled away, pursing his lips. Kurt could feel his heart sink because he remembered those words; he remembered how Blaine gave importance to a kiss and he just—oh god I just…

"Blaine, you have to listen to me, I didn't want any of this." Kurt explained as Blaine just stood there, staring at him. "He came onto me and I swear I pushed him away and—"

"I booked a flight here a few weeks ago, you know, when you told me that you had a photo shoot for People. I wanted to celebrate it with you and I wanted to celebrate your movie's success and I just missed you so much Kurt so I worked my ass off." Blaine started. "But then I land on Heathrow and I see things like you reigniting the flames with your ex-boyfriend, Legolas." Blaine continued, not hearing Kurt. "Who was it who told me to not hook up with people while you were away? I didn't know that rule only applied to me."

Kurt swears he was so close to crying with Blaine being like this with him.

"I didn't believe it because I trust you but then I see you hugging him when I arrived at the shoot venue and I just lost it." Blaine hid his face behind his hands. "You saw me lose it and I hate that." He said in a low voice, slumping down on the sofa.

Kurt carefully sat next to him, letting him get it all out because he knew Blaine and Blaine needed to let stuff out when he's angry. He needed someone to listen and Kurt has to be that person.

"I lost it because I was worried that you really were forgetting about me because you do that Kurt, you forget about me a lot." Blaine continued to say, surprising Kurt at this confession.

"When did I even—?"

"You do! Don't tell me you don't know!" Blaine accused him, standing up again, away from Kurt. It seems like all his pent up emotions from the past few months finally exploded. "Every time, every time, you leave for work: New York, the World, you seem to forget. You'd go a few weeks not talking to me and I'd see you on Twitter but you're never talking to me, Kurt. You're just rarely there."

Kurt stared at him dumbfounded, he didn't know what to say.

"And sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who loves you like this, Kurt. You call me at any convenient hour for you and I answer, no matter what time it is, no matter what I'm doing. Tell me to do this or that and I'll do it for you. I always think about you when I don't even know if you still remember who I am because you're 'going places'!"

"I keep thinking that I understand and that it's for work and that I shouldn't be such a drama queen but sometimes I lose it because I've been there before Kurt, I've been forgotten many times. I'll list it down for you in case you also forgot about it: Simon, Cooper, Sebastian. It all happened to me already." Blaine let out, pouring his thoughts into one conversation. "And I'm so tired of it."

Kurt stood up, he's got a ton of things to counter what Blaine had said about him because none of that were true, at least in his point of view. "Blaine, I've never once forgotten about you. I was just really busy, I thought you genuinely understood!" He said, "But I'm sorry. I didn't know. You never really said anything and that—"

"How would you know when you're too busy with your being a celebrity?" Blaine let out a small, sarcastic laugh. "I guess this is really why I didn't want to associate myself with famous personalities. Because I knew this would happen eventually, it always does in this industry, doesn't it?" He smiled sadly, tears brimming in his eyes. "There's always some cheating going on or falling apart because of mismatched schedules and stuff like that. I guess it's all true, I thought the media just makes it all up."

"Blaine, please, don't say that." Kurt said, a lump forming in his throat. This can't be happening. "I didn't cheat on you, I swear. I was drunk, yes, but I didn't want that to happen. Andrew's a stupid asshole and I punched him in the gut that night. The media's just getting to you, please, don't be like this. I'll do better with the schedule thing, I promise. Please." He knew he was pleading but who cares?

There were a few moments of utter silence with Blaine just analyzing Kurt. Blaine sighed; he wasn't really surprised that he found himself believing that Kurt was telling the truth, that he didn't cheat and that it was an unwanted kiss. But all the things that had piled up in him made it hard to stop being mad at Kurt at that moment. He walked over to Kurt and cupped his cheek again, Kurt leaned into his touch.

"I'm sorry for everything I didn't know I was doing. I'm sorry for last night. I'm so sorry." Kurt sniffed, tears now freely falling from his eyes. "Blaine." He repeated his name, holding Blaine's hand.

"I know. I know you are." Blaine's voice was back to its old tone, soothing and understanding and that made Kurt cry of all things because Blaine was so different. So very different. "But I've never realized how tired I am Kurt, not until now. I'm not tired of youno, I'm just tired." Blaine sighed. "I'm tired of trying to keep up with you."

"Keeping up with—?"

"I tried, Kurt." Blaine confessed. "I tried keeping up with you because I wanted to be someone who deserves to be with you because you're Kurt Hummel. I kick-started my music career and even let the media know about my dad because I wanted people to see that I can be with you." He said. "I had no idea how exhausting it was going to be."

"You don't have to. Blaine, please. Don't do this. I don't want to—" Kurt sobbed, holding onto Blaine's hand tighter.

"Kurt." Blaine cut him off. "Maybe we need it. Maybe I need it."

"You told me you're never going to leave me, no matter what. You told me!" Kurt reminded him and it was that moment that Kurt realized just how much he's been holding onto that small promise.

"I don't want to say anymore hurtful things to you Kurt. Please." Blaine said, looking apologetic with tears in his eyes as well. "Just a little time off, okay?"

"I can't. Blaine," Kurt sobbed. "I love you." He said softly through his tears and he has never meant it more.

Blaine planted a kiss on his forehead, pulled away and looked lovingly at him. "We need this, some time to think." He said. Kurt held onto his hand tightly because he knew that once he let him go, Blaine would go off somewhere he didn't know. But Blaine was slowly pulling away and Kurt knew he wouldn't be able to change his mind. Once Blaine had got out of Kurt's grasp, he gave him a sad smile. "Take care of yourself, okay?"

"But where will you go?" Kurt asked, tears forming in his eyes again but Blaine just shrugged in reply before turning to walk away, leaving Kurt alone in the hotel room.


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