Blaine sat up on his bed his heart pounding so hard he thought it might beat right out of his chest. He stared at the door that Kurt had just run through and lifted a hand to touch his still kiss tingling lips. Kurt had kissed him. He closed his eyes and shuddered out a breath. Kurt had kissed him. He fell back on the bed with a laugh. Oh god, he felt like he could fly.

He stared up at the ceiling for a long moment as other thoughts started clouding his mind. He had kissed Kurt. Kurt. His brothers Lifemate. He groaned and rolled off the bed. He went for his cell phone and held it shakily in his hand.

Cooper was in Cincinnati and wouldnt be home until tomorrow. He typed out a message.

"Cooper. Call me. We need to talk." His finger hovered over the send button.

No, he couldnt do it, what was he even going to say? "Cooper Im in love with your husband. Hopelessly, desperately in love with him."

Blaine winched. This wasnt a conversation to have over the phone. He would wait until tomorrow when Cooper was home. He erased the message. He had no idea how this was going to turn out, but he knew he couldnt keep this from his bother any longer.

Blaine couldnt believe all that had happened in one day. He knew he should feel awful about the Warblers and Sebastian and guilty over Kurt, but mostly he just felt free. Hed been holding on to this secret for so long, and maybe he hadnt told Kurt how he felt, but it was out there anyway and there was no taking it back now. He didnt want to.

He hoped Kurt wasnt freaking out too much. He wanted to go find him, but thought maybe Kurt needed a minute. Instead Blaine grabbed his gloves and went downstairs to the workout room, throwing punches at the punching bag and trying to clear his mind and come up with a plan. Because there wasnt any going back now, he couldnt pretend to just be friends, not after that kiss. Everything had changed.

He just hoped Kurt saw it that way too.

Kurt paced his bedroom torn between finding Blaine and telling him how he felt, though he was pretty sure hed said a lot with the kiss, and calling Cooper and confessing everything. He sat down on the bed feeling shaky and a little ill. He grabbed his phone and dialed, but instead of Cooper he needed to talk to his dad.

Burt answered after only one ring. "Hey bud."

"I kissed him." Kurt said without a greeting.

"Whats that?"

"Dad, I kissed him."

"Cooper?"

Kurt sighed and rubbed his forehead. "No."

“Blaine." Burt said and it wasnt a question.

Kurt could feel his chest getting tight. "I know I should regret it, but I cant." Kurt said. "And I know there is nothing that can be done about it, but… I want him dad. I want Blaine. I love Blaine."

He could hear his dad sigh on the other end before he spoke again. "Have you talked to Cooper?”

"What am I suppose to say? Sorry the Lifemate Registry gave you a husband you didnt want in the first place, and by the way I dont even love you because Im in love with your brother?"

"He didnt want a husband in the first place?" Burt asked.

Oh yeah, Kurt had purposefully not mentioned that to his dad not wanting him to worry anymore then he already did.

"That isnt the point really." Kurt said his eyes filling with tears. "I know you said it is better to have love for a little while than to not have love at all, but… I cant lose Blaine dad. So maybe… maybe we shouldnt be together. And if we arent going to be together then why tell Cooper at all?"

"Kurt." Burt said sternly. "Dont you think Cooper deserves the truth regardless?"

Kurt didnt answer; his throat was too full of tears and his mind too conflicted to come up with an answer.

His dad sighed again. "You know in the end it is up to you, its easy for me to say what to do when Im not in that situation. I trust you Kurt. Youve grown into a young man that I am very proud of. You do what it is you think you should do."

"Dad. I dont know what that is."

"Just keep one thing in mind, okay bud?"

Kurt nodded even though his dad couldnt see him.

"I dont say this to be cruel, but you said you cant lose Blaine so you shouldnt be with him? But…" Burt paused and Kurt was afraid of what he was going to say next. "You are going to lose him eventually whether or not you deny your feelings or let yourself be happy for a time."

Kurt whimpered a little knowing his dad was right. No matter what they did from here on out the day would come that someone elses name would be paired with Blaines.

"Im not much help am I?"

"Talking with you always helps." Kurt said softly. "Its just that Im not a kid anymore." He laughed a little. "I have to make up my own mind."

"Youve never had that much trouble making up our mind Kurt." His dad said with a smile in his voice.

Kurt laughed again. "I guess not."

When he got off the phone he still felt confused and torn about what the right thing to do was. He knew what his heart was telling him, but he also knew it would hurt Cooper and hurt himself down the road.

He walked back to Blaines room but he wasnt there. Kurt made his way downstairs to the workout room and found Blaine pounding mercilessly at the punching bag. His face was intent and framed with sweat, his hair had lost all of its gel and was springing out in curls, the muscles of his arms tense and  his golden eyes focused on the punching  bag. He looked gorgeous.

Blaine stopped when he caught sight of Kurt. They stood and just looked at each other for along moment, before Blaine spoke.

"Please tell me you dont regret it." Blaine said barely above a whisper.

Kurt shook his head and walked forward his hands in his pockets and a little smile on his face. "I dont regret it."

Blaines shoulders slumped with relief and he let out a sigh like the weight of the world was lifted off of him. "I was scared you were going to come in here and tell me it was a mistake."

"No." Kurt said, he was standing next to Blaine now and reached out for his hand before he stopped, looking down to see the big red boxing glove on Blaine was wearing.

"Oh." Blaine said and started pulling them off.

"Let me help." Kurt took his hands and gently and slowly removed the gloves setting them aside until they stood together hand in hand, Blaines long callused fingers hanging tightly onto Kurt. "Blaine I dont regret kissing you. Ive wanted to do it for so long now."

Blaine smiled his eyes sparkling. "I think Ive wanted to kiss you since I saw you at the Lifemate Center."

Kurt laughed and stepped even closer. "Im crazy about you Blaine."

Blaine closed his eyes a breathed in like Kurts words were something he was thirsty for. He opened his eyes again and looked directly at Kurt, his face serious. "Im in love with you Kurt."

Kurt could feel his breathing speed up. He was in love with Blaine but he couldnt make himself say it, not yet. He lifted his arms and wrapped them around Blaines shoulders, not caring how sweaty he was. Blaine closed his eyes and leaned forward as if to kiss Kurt again. It hurt him to do it, but Kurt pulled his face back a little "No Blaine. We cant"

Blaines eyes opened again and there was a tinge of fear behind them. "Kurt... please, dont say we cant. I wont be able to bare it."

"What about Cooper? Hes your brother. Your family. How can we do this to him?"

Blaines face crumpled, he looked like he was in pain. "This isnt fair."

"No… no it isnt." Kurt answered voice scratchy.

Blaines hands had found their way to Kurts hips but they fell away and he stepped back. Kurt wanted to shout that he changed his mind and kiss Blaine senseless right then and there. But he didnt say anything at all; he let his arms fall from Blaines shoulders as the space between them widened.

Blaine ran his hand through his hair and nodded. "Okay. Okay." He said and looked around the room seeming lost. He finally met Kurts eyes again. "What now?"Blaine said putting his hands on his hips.

"I could start dinner while you wash up and then we could watch the new episode of Dancing with the Stars." Kurt said smiling even has his chest started to feel hollow.

Blaine was breathing heavily and he just stood and blinked at Kurt for a long moment. "Right." He looked down at the ground. "Just go back to normal."

Kurt couldnt speak. Noting was going to be the normal again, but he couldnt do anything, not yet at least.

Blaine seemed to be getting control of his emotions before he looked back up. "Im going to go shower." He didnt say it angrily, he just sounded hurt, and that was so much worse.

Blaine walked past Kurt and hurried upstairs to shower and change. He felt queasy and lost. He wanted to disagree with Kurt, to rant and argue and convince him that they should be together, but he couldnt not when he knew Kurt was right... Blaine loved his brother, he wouldnt do anything to hurt him, but that didnt mean he was giving up.

Cooper would be home tomorrow evening and Blaine was going to tell him how he felt. He knew Cooper wasnt in love with Kurt, he cared about him, but he wasnt in love. Blaine just hoped that was enough. Because he didnt want to fight or betray his brother, but he was not going to give up on Kurt so easily, not now that he knew Kurt had feelings for him too. He couldnt.

Blaine took a long cool shower and then changed into a comfortable pair of jeans and a soft v-neck t-shirt, He went downstairs to find that Kurt had changed in to comfortable clothes too, sweatpants with an oversized shit that slid of his shoulder. It was only the fact that he knew Kurt would never be purposefully mean that Blaine was able to convince himself Kurt wasnt wearing that to drive him insane.

He helped with dinner without either of them saying much until Kurt spun on his heels to face Blaine.

"Oh my gosh!"

"What? What is it?" Blaine asked startled.

"Ive been meaning to tell you. Cooper said I could be the one to let you know, were moving to New York!"

"Youre… moving to New York?"

Kurt bounced on his toes and clasped his hands excitedly. "Cooper said hed still have to spend a lot of time in L.A. but he could have his permanent address in New York since thats what I wanted and since you were going to be there!"

Blaine wanted to just drop to the floor and laugh he was so relived. Kurt was going to be in New York with him. He had even more reason to try to make this work between them.

"I told you! He said grinning wildly. "I told you that it was meant to be."

Kurt laughed. "You did."

And just like that they were back to being best friends, even if they both knew there was more to it than that now. They took their food to the living room and talked about living in New York and about the Warblers and how Blaine was going to give them one more chance before he spoke to the administration. He didnt want his friends to get in trouble. Then they settled down to watch some of their favorite shows.

The evening was much like any evening Blaine and Kurt had spent together countless times. Except this time when they finished eating Kurt curled up on the couch and leaned against Blaine. Neither of them said anything about it, Blaine just wrapped his arm around Kurt, his nearness giving Blaine hope.