April 28, 2013, 5:22 a.m.
Until Next Time: Chapter 4
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Kurt found himself sitting in the chair with the Book open the next day; Tuesday had actually gone by very quickly. Kurt spent all of his free time at school readingAn Abundance of Katherines, ignoring the outside world. He even took it out during Chemistry, since it was the type of day where the teacher never looked away from the whiteboard, only to look at her notes. He just wanted to get to 100 pages before he got to the library, andKatherinesmade it easy because it was such a good book.
Kurt turned to BDA's personal note from before, the one that he hasn't been able to read the day before:
You're good at these games, because you're right! I guess it was pretty obvious, but whatever. I'm a sucker for Nicholas Sparks, so we're going to avoid his books: I would become comatose for a week, feeding on chocolate and crying all of the time.
Looking for Alaskawill make your cold, un-romantic heart melt, I can guarantee that (if you haven't read it before)! It's a good book, I swear!
I missed you this weekend, your teachers shouldn't be imposing that much work on you! Do they always do this to you? Ignore me, school should always preside over other activities. God, I feel like I'm talking to a little kid, I'm sorry.
I know this sounds pervy and completely off-topic, but how old are you? I'm turning 17 soon. I'm hoping that this project will help get me into college, so are you sure you really don't want to really get involved? I don't want you to miss out on a good opportunity, and it isn't that much extra work...right?
-BDA
PS Why don't people like you? You seem perfectly fine to me.
PPS I happen to know Sonnet 18 by heart, a feat that most people, especially men, can't boast about.
Kurt smiled sadly at the PS. It really was evident that BDA didn't go to McKinley, because he didn't once openly state that he was gay, or say anything about it. To BDA, talking about being a homosexual must be like saying the sky is blue and grass is green, Kurt thought, feeling envious of his correspondent. BDA probably went to a very tolerant school, which was most likely in a parallel universe.
He flipped to the next page, eager to read what BDA had written next. The review was short, considering that it only covered 100 pages. Kurt began to read the personal note:
So you do have a heart! MaybeLooking for Alaskagave you one...I must be the Wizard of Oz for giving you, the Tin Man, a beating heart full of emotions. Okay, I'll stop.
Sorry for somewhat causing you to stay for too long. I have done the same thing a multitude of times, yet I still manage to go to bed before 10. I need my beauty sleep.
I can't "be here" on Wednesday, because we have an event with my school's glee club (does your school have one? Are you in it?), so maybe we should finishKatherinesby Thursday...okay?
-BDA
Kurt could not believe his luck. BDA would also be busy on Wednesday, so there wouldn't be any complications in their arrangement. He wouldn't have to worry about BDA during his shopping trip with Rachel, thank goodness.
He felt a swooping sensation in his stomach when he read the part about the glee club. McKinley did have a glee club, New Directions, but Kurt just could not bring himself to join it. They too got slushied; they were almost as low on the social pyramid as he was. Kurt knew that if he joined, he would get slushied twice as much as usual, and the bullying would become unbearable. He wasn't even sure if the people within the glee club would accept him. Yes, it helped having Rachel in it, but she wasn't someone he could deal with every day-she was best in small doses.
Yet Kurt secretly yearned to be in the glee club. He loved singing, and he wanted to perform badly. He could take on a completely different persona, be a someone that he wasn't. It sounded like fun, but there were too many impossible obstacles he needed to get over.
BDA got over them, though, he thought, he's in the glee club. Why shouldn't you?
Again, Kurt wondered where the hell BDA went to school, but that was disclosed information. If he wasn't going to reveal much to BDA, then BDA shouldn't reveal that much to him. Kurt realized that he still didn't even know his real name.
Kurt quickly added to BDA's review, and then began to write his note.
You're in luck: I have plans on Wednesday as well. I'm going out with a girl-that sounds wrong, you know what I mean-who's in my school's glee club. I've always wanted to join, but people at school aren't so open to gays or a Capella groups. I can't imagine what it'd be like if I was both, and I don't want to.
Kurt put down his pen. Why was he writing these things to BDA? They were secrets he didn't even tell his dad. Burt didn't really know what happened to Kurt while he was at school. Kurt did his own laundry, so Burt didn't see the slushie stains on his clothes. He never saw the bruises on his son's skin, the extent of which Kurt suffered (Kurt, however, did not know that Burt had a feeling that something was very wrong).
He divulged these things to the semi-stranger because he knew BDA would keep them. Who could he tell? No one at his school would know two initials.
Anyway, Kurt couldn't help but feel like BDA was an unusual person.
If someone had written in Kurt's journal (if he had one), Kurt would never leave it in the library again: he probably would stop going there altogether. BDA's positive response to Kurt comforted him, since BDA was among the very few people who actually liked him.
Feeling a little more confident, Kurt picked up his pen again.
Still, maybe I'll ask her about it. I don't know if I'll get in though, when the only practicing I do is in the shower/in my room, singing into a hairbrush. I feel so bad for my dad's ears.
I know this is completely out of the blue, but when did you come out? I guess it's not that out of the blue, since you also asked me a random question. Anyway... I just did a few months ago. While it's been rough, I don't regret doing it, because keeping such a big secret for so long would probably make me explode. What I'm wondering is, why does it seem like it's so easy for you, being gay?
I'm turning 18 soon...just a year apart, that's not bad!
And yes, I'm sure that I want to remain anonymous. This is your project; I'm just a friend helping out! Anyway, I do get a lot of work from my teachers! It's so not fair. I have a major case of senioritis too, which does NOT help at all.
Okay, I think that's enough for today and tomorrow, so I'll "talk" to you on Thursday! Good luck at glee club!
-KH
After signing his initials, Kurt took out the book again and started to read.