Kurt decided it was best to let the situation pass, which was hard since Blaine spent the next couple of days cautiously talking to Kurt and constantly following him making sure he was okay.

“Enough!” Kurt closed his locker.

It was before school and Blaine had shown up to school with what looked like a giant donut to sit on. Kurt took it and threw it in the garbage can. Blaine stared at him with wide eyes.

“Blaine.” Kurt put his hand on Blaine’s shoulder. “I love you okay but you are driving me crazy. I am fine. Let’s just forget about that night and move one.”

“Move on?! Kurt I hurt…”

“Blaine! I swear to you I am fine! Now let’s drop it before I lose my mind.”  Kurt laughed.

Blaine partially smiled, “As long as you promise your fine, okay I’ll drop it.”

“Promise.” Kurt led the way to class.

The day went by fast with nothing important happening. After the last glee practice of the day after school Kurt followed Blaine to his locker.

“My dad’s gone today, do you want to come over?” Blaine looked through his locker for his books to take home.

Kurt glanced up from his phone, “Are you asking me to spend the night?” He teased.

Blaine turned to him, “My house gets lonely when no one’s home sometimes but you can leave when it gets dark if you want.”

Kurt playfully hit him, “Of course I’ll spend the night silly. My dad’s gone to Washington for the weekend so my question was going to be your house or mine.”

Blaine smiled, “Mine.” He closed the locker, “See you in about an hour?”

“Course.”

Kurt gave him a hand squeeze and pulled away toward the other parking lot to get a ride from Finn home.

After about an hour Blaine’s doorbell rang, Kurt stepped in and locked his car from the driveway. “I brought movies and organic popcorn!”

“Organic?”

“Blaine I’m getting fat, I can’t afford empty calories! I’m on a diet!”

“You’re not fat. But I guess there goes the ice cream then…” Blaine opened the freezer showing Kurt a giant tub of ice cream.

“Ice cream.?” Kurt followed it with his eyes. He snatched it out of Blaine’s hand. “Diet starts tomorrow.”

Blaine laughed and walked into the living room putting on one of the movies. Kurt walked in with two bowls of ice cream and took a seat on the long couch. He grabbed a blanket and draped it over them.

After finishing ice cream and watching the movie for a little Kurt started to get bored. He had picked a musical for himself, and a science fiction for Blaine. Of course Blaine had chosen the science fiction which always bored Kurt to death. He snuggled closer to Blaine under the blanket, He placed his hand on Blaine’s knee. Blaine was still absorbed in the movie. Kurt sighed. He sighed louder. Blaine still focused on the movie.

Kurt reached up and kissed at Blaine neck. Working his way up between his collarbone and his earlobe.

Blaine squirmed, “Kurt…mhmm. The movie…”

Kurt bit gently on his ear and whispered, “Forget it.”

“It’s almost over then we can go…mmmh...we can go upstairs.”

Kurt slumped back against the couch, “Ughhh. It’s so boring Blaine.”

The movie ended about twenty minutes later and Blaine looked at Kurt who was falling asleep.

“Time for bed?” He whispered in his ear.

“No! I’m awake.” Kurt sat up and straightened  himself. “Been watching the movie the whole time.”

“Okay what happened to the hero at the end?” Blaine teased.

“He uhh died?” Kurt blinked at him.

“Wrong.”

“Let’s go upstairs.” Kurt helped him gather the dishes and load them into the dishwasher.

Blaine shut his door and changed into his bed clothes, Kurt did the same getting in the bed.

Blaine raised his eyebrows at him, “Skipping you nightly routine? What’s the occasion?”

Kurt patted Blaine’s side, Blaine turned out the light and got in the bed. Kurt wrapped his arm around his hip and pulled him closer.

“I know that last time was really bad, but I’ve been thinking and I want to try bottom again.”

Blaine’s stomach fell and he was instantly overcome with guilt. “Kurt…the last time…”

“I know but I love you. We’re going to make mistakes we’re young. I want to try again.”

Blaine nodded and swallowed loudly.

Kurt kissed him lightly and put his hand on Blaine’s chin, pulling him closer. He breathed deeply into Blaine’s mouth and parted his lips searching for Blaine’s tongue. Kurt fiddled with the hem of Blaine’s shirt and Blaine lifted himself up to pull it over his head. Kurt did the same and pressed his chest against Blaine’s. Blaine put his hands on Kurt’s hips and kissed at Kurt’s neck. Kurt moaned softly and let Blaine kiss down his body. Kurt lifted his leg and  draped it over Blaine’s. His now growing erection pressed directly against Blaine’s nonexistent one.

Kurt pressed his hips against Blaine’s rubbing back and forth adding friction. Blaine found his lips and kissed Kurt feverishly. Kurt pulled at Blaine’s waistband of his pajama pants and slid them down. After no real reaction from Blaine he pulled his own down as well. Blaine kissed his neck and under his jaw, Kurt moaned louder and drove his hips into Blaine’s again.

Blaine reached under the covers and lightly touched Kurt’s erection. Kurt bit his lip and moaned, kissing Blaine. Blaine pumped his hand back and forth for a few moments, Kurt swatted it away gently and reached out grabbing Blaine’s very flaccid penis. He saw Blaine furrow his eyebrows together and kissed Kurt harder. He seemed to be concentrating in the kiss rather than truly enjoying it. Kurt worked his hand faster with no improvement. Kurt pushed himself against Blaine again trying to create friction. He kissed under Blaine’s chin and neck and took a firmer hold on his penis, which still wasn’t hard.

Frustrated Blaine scooted away and sat up angrily.

Kurt sat back on his elbows, “It’s fine, we can just try something else…”

“This can’t be happening.” Blaine said clenching his jaw.

“It’s normal Blaine. Later we can…”

“Don’t you get it Kurt, I’m a seventeen year old boy and I can’t even get it up with my own boyfriend.”

“It doesn’t matter…” Kurt leaned up to touch Blaine’s shoulder, but Blaine shrugged it off angrily.

“Stop. Stop babying me okay.”

“What? Blaine I haven’t…”

“Yes you do Kurt! All he time. It’s like because you’re a grade older you act like sometimes you know so much more than me. It’s annoying and I hate the fact that you try to spare my feelings all the time.”

Kurt was silent.

“Like when you bottomed for the first time, you didn’t want to hurt my feelings so that I wouldn’t feel guilty. I know I messed up Kurt, why couldn’t you just tell me that! Stop treating me like I can’t handle stuff.”

“Fine. You went way too fast, and it hurt Blaine, it hurt A LOT! Bur I knew you were enjoying it so I let it go. It was one of the worst nights of my life and I didn’t want you to touch me at all afterwards. I went in the shower and tried to scrub away every teeny particle of disappointment on my body, I cried myself to sleep and I felt horrible. So I hope you r happy now.” Tears streamed down Kurt’s face. “I did want to move past all of this and you’re ruining everything.” Kurt turned on his side and faced the wall.

Blaine gulped, “I went too fast?”

Kurt didn’t say anything but Blaine could tell he was crying.

“Kurt I had no idea. Why didn’t you say something during it?”

“Because I thought it would go away, I thought that because you enjoyed it so much that it would get better. I just…I don’t want you to get bored.”

“Bored?”

Kurt sat up, “I’m not hot like other guys Blaine. You could have any guy you want and sometimes I wonder why you chose me. I found a chartroom online and some guy said they got tired of their boyfriends because of lack of. Well experience.”

“Kurt, I chose you because I love you! You are kind and charismatic. YOU make me want to be a better version of myself. I don’t ever want you to think that I want any other guy. You’re my first boyfriend too remember, I don’t know half the stuff we’re supposed to do, all I know is that I love you.” He placed his hand on Kurt’s back.

Kurt sniffed, “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you it hurt.” He turned to Blaine. “Don’t be mad at me but I really do want to try it again.”

Blaine looked at his hands, “I’m scared.”

Kurt looked at him, “I SWEAR I’ll tell you if it hurts…”

“No, no. I mean of you leaving.” Tears fell slowly as Blaine still looked at his hands. “Kurt, I had no idea that almost two years ago I would fall in love with someone like this. I can barely go hours without thinking about you and that scares me. Like how did I fall so hard for someone, I feel like I can’t breathe when I’m not with you. I know we talked about it earlier but I…I’m the one who feels like you can have any other guy. You’re hot Kurt and as much as hate to believe it, other guys DO check you out. New York is so big and full of new things, you belong there. In Lima we are together almost every day. I just don’t know how to not see you, how to not hold your hand, how to not hug or kiss you every day. I know you said I’m not going to lose you but I can’t help but feel like…feel like you’re going to go out there and forget about me. I love you so much and I hate the fact that you’re leaving, I hate the fact that…I won’t get to see you and talk to you. I’m being selfish I know, I’m sorry.”

Kurt kissed Blaine tears ran down both their faces. He pulled Blaine down on top of him and looked up into his eyes. “Make love to me.”

Blaine nodded and leaned down to kiss Kurt dipped his tongue into his mouth and massaged Kurt’s tongue. They followed a rhythm each time Kurt’s chest heaving up and down. Blaine kissed Kurt’s neck and moved his hips against Kurt’s. This time Blaine could feel his erection growing. After a few more minutes he pulled away, “Are you sure?”

Kurt placed his hand on the back of his neck, pulling him back into a kiss. He looked up at Blaine, “Yes.” He whispered.

Blaine leaned over to his bedside table and took out lube and a condom. He unwrapped the foil.

“I want to do it.” Kurt said placing his hands over Blaine’s. He put it on properly and Blaine leaned down and kissed him.

Kurt spread his legs like he had the last time; his stomach was full of nerves. “Just go slow okay?” He said softly.

He waited counting the seconds. After a few he lifted his head up and looked at Blaine’s face, which looked just as nervous as he felt.  Blaine had hesitated and seemed almost frozen. Just the fact that his boyfriend was more scared in that moment than he had ever seen him eased his nerves.

“Hey?”

Blaine looked up at him, his eyes wide with fear.

Kurt laced his fingers through Blaine’s free hand. “It’s going to be okay.”

Blaine took a deep breath and nodded. He lined himself up against Kurt.

“Slow.” Blaine seemed to say to himself. “Okay...Okay.”

Kurt waited patiently.

“You’re going to tell me if it hurts right!?” Blaine said looking at him again. “You promise?”

Kurt smiled softly at him, “I promise.”

Blaine lightly pushed the tip into Kurt. “It’s okay?”

Kurt nodded. “You can do more.”

Blaine pushed slowly a little more in. Kurt gasped, it didn’t hurt, and it just felt full.

Blaine’s head snapped up and with worry in his voice said, “I’ll take it out. I’m taking it out.”

“No, it’s fine! It doesn’t hurt. It just feels…feels full. Try more.”

Blaine pushed a little more in, “That’s almost all of it.”

Kurt nodded. It still didn’t hurt, but the fact that his boyfriend was IN him, made him aroused. He felt blood rush to now growing erection. It had lost some of its stature due to the nervousness of the situation

“I know that you’re trying to control yourself.” Kurt said without looking at Blaine. He knew all the times he topped; it was one of the hardest things to not just burry himself into Blaine. “I want to try something.” Kurt jestingly pushed back.

“It…it feels so good Kurt.” Blaine moaned above him. “So, so good.”

“Can you put the rest in? The rest in and move?” Slowly though.”  Kurt continued.

“I’ll try.” Blaine’s voice quivered above him.

Blaine pushed the rest of himself into Kurt. Kurt felt a sharp pain, but before he could protest. He felt a sudden flood of pleasure flow through his whole body. It was like everything they had ever done, intensified. He arched his back which caused Blaine to slip out a little.

“Again! Oh my god Blaine. Go there again.” Kurt said in a harsh whisper.

Blaine nodded and pushed himself in again. “Ohh! Kurt! Feels so good…” Blaine reached out and grabbed Kurt’s now firm erection.

Kurt felt Blaine, hit that spot again. “Again. Oh god again.”

Blaine drew himself about a little bit farther than before and pushed himself in again.

They repeated the motioned a few more times, Blaine drawing himself in and out.

“Kurt. I’m going to come.” Blaine said.

Kurt pulled Blaine down and kissed him feverishly. A moan escaped from Blaine’s lips. In time with his orgasm, Blaine kept rubbing Kurt’s erection and about a half of second later Blaine’s hand was filled with “Kurt”. They went through their orgasms together. Chests heaving back and forth, finally Blaine sat up slowly.

“I’m going to pull out, okay?”

Kurt nodded and Blaine slowly pulled himself out. He threw away the condom and rolled onto his back next to Kurt under the blanket.

The haze of sleep washed over both of them. Kurt snuggled up to Blaine’s chest. “Did you like it?”

Blaine kissed his forehead, “Can I be honest?”

“Of course.”

“I like bottoming better. I just love the fact that you’re in me.”

Kurt blushed deep red.

“Too graphic?” Blaine laughed.

“No,” Kurt yawned. “Don’t get me wrong I liked it A LOT!”

“I could tell.” Blaine chuckled.

“I’m not saying you were bad, because you weren’t at all! And I would be open to switching every once in awhile, you know me bottoming you topping but sometimes you wouldn’t hit my prostate and it just felt full and weird kind of. But then you would hit my prostate and it would feel amazing. It’s stupid…Sorry…”

“Kurt, its good we talk about what we like and don’t like, that’s the key to well…good sex.”

“So I’m more of top and you’re more of  bottom. Go figure.”

“Why? Blaine said genuinely interested.

“Well if most people look at us, without knowing us they would see I’m the more…feminine one.” Kurt cringed at the statement. “Narrow-minded people that is, well they would expect me to bottom and you to top. That’s stupid because it doesn’t matter what we look like, it has nothing to do with that. I’d like to think I’m just as manly as you!”

“Well I like a man in the streets and a freak in the sheets.” Blaine said.

“Okay!” Kurt turned scarlet red and pulled the blanket over his head laughing “Let’s sleep now!”

Blaine kissed him on the forehead through the blanket. “I love you.”

Kurt came out from under the blanket, “I love you too.”

Getting closer to one and other they drifted off to sleep.