Blaine’s reaction was not what Kurt had been expecting.  He thought Blaine would be happy to see him, but it didn’t seem that way.  There was something wrong and it made Kurt nervous.  He needed to find out what was going on.  They decided  to walk down to a park one street over from Blaine’s house so they would be able to talk without Blaine’s father seeing them if he went searching.

Kurt climbed onto the jungle gym normally reserved for children.  He sat down on a step next to a play steering wheel, messing with it a little bit while Blaine settled next to him.  Kurt wanted to reach out to put his arm around Blaine and pull him in closer, but he resisted.  Blaine didn’t seem to want to be touched right now anyway.

“Blaine, I want to know what is going on.  What happened?’  Kurt had a million other questions in his head, but he figured that would be good enough.

Blaine sighed and clasped his hands together.  “My dad knows about us.  I wasn’t the one who told him though.  I don’t know if it was Jessica or Luke or if he heard us when we were talking over break.  I- I just don’t know, but when he confronted me about it, I didn’t lie.  Maybe I should have...”

“No, don’t say that.  I know how much it mattered to you.  You needed to tell the truth no matter what.  That’s what you wanted.”

Blaine jumped down and kicked at the mulch covered ground.  “No.  You don’t understand.  I should have lied.  I should have lied because right now I’m losing everything that is important to me.  School.  My family.  You..”  Kurt was scared by the anger in Blaine’s voice.  He had never seen him like this before.

Kurt watched as Blaine paced on the ground.  “Blaine, you still have me.  Even if we have to be apart, I’m not going anywhere.”

Blaine scoffed.  “You don’t understand.”

“Well, make me understand then!  Why are you taking this out on me?  I didn’t do anything.  I haven’t seen or talked to you in almost four days.  I had no idea what was going on until right now!  So tell me what I don’t understand!”  Kurt’s anger took him by surprise.  Was this their first fight?

Blaine stopped in his tracks.  “I’m moving to New York.”  The news felt like a punch to the stomach.  Three hours was one thing, but Blaine was going to be in another state completely.  “My brother has an apartment in Queens and he said I could stay with him until I get things figured out.  He’s going to come pick me up this weekend.”

Kurt stared at Blaine as the tears welled in his eyes.  He quickly turned his head so he could wipe them away, hoping Blaine wouldn’t notice, but he did.  Blaine climbed back onto the step to sit next to Kurt.

“Hey, don’t cry.  Please, Kurt, I’m sorry.  I didn’t meant to take this all out on you.”  Blaine placed his hand underneath Kurt’s chin and tilted his face up to meet his.  “Please.”  Kurt finally gave in and looked at Blaine as the tears streamed down his face.

“Oh Kurt, please don’t cry.”  Blaine held Kurt’s face in his hands and leaned in to kiss him, but it only made Kurt cry more.

“I have to get away from my dad and this is the only way.  It will be a good thing for us.  I won’t be able to talk to you if I’m here.”

Blaine pulled Kurt closer, wrapping his arms around him in a tight hug.  Kurt held on tight, breathing Blaine in as he tried to control his emotions.

“I thought you would come back with me.  I was so stupid.”

Blaine moved to pull back, but Kurt refused.  “You’re not stupid.  Don’t say that.  I wish I could come back with you, but I can’t.  New York is the only place I can go right now.”

Kurt pulled away, wiping away the tears on his face, as Blaine’s hands rested on Kurt’s hips.  It felt nice to be so close to Blaine again, but the feelings were bittersweet.

“So you’ll be in New York and I’ll be here.  What does that mean for us?”

“Kurt--”

“You meant it, didn’t you?  When you said we were over.  I was convinced you didn’t, but you did.”

“No, that’s not it.  It’s not what I want.  When I called you that night I didn’t know what was going to happen or where I was going to go.  I didn’t want to just disappear and leave you holding on.  I love you, Kurt.  I want to be with you, but not like this.  I can’t be the boyfriend you need right now.”

“Well, thanks for deciding that for me.  It’s late.  I should go back.  I don’t want to miss my classes tomorrow.”  Kurt jumped down and began walking towards the direction of Blaine’s house.  It was a bullshit excuse and Kurt knew it.  He didn’t want to leave, but it hurt too much to stay.

“Kurt, wait!  Stop!”  Blaine caught up to Kurt, stopping in front of him.  “I don’t know when I’ll see you again.  I don’t want you to leave like this.”

The realization of Blaine’s words calmly settled over Kurt as he relaxed into Blaine’s arms.  

“Blaine-- I, I don’t want to leave.”

“I know.  I don’t want you to go either.  But it’s not goodbye.  Once I get to New York we will talk all the time and the first thing I’ll do is pay for your train ticket.  We’ll be okay.”

Kurt placed a kiss to Blaine’s neck before putting space between them.  “I hope so.”