June 1, 2012, 12:52 p.m.
Overtures: Chapter 3
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9:54 pm
Blaine: um. hi.
Kurt: um. hi back.
Blaine: (small embarrassed font) thank you for helping me on sunday (end small embarrassed font)
Kurt: Blaine, you have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about
Please don’t be embarrassed
Blaine: ah yes. nothing at all.
not Blaine, he does it all perfectly and with such aplomb!
Kurt: Blaine you are so freaking endearing and you have no idea
Blaine: endearing hm? I think I like that
I can handle that
Kurt: good, cause you are
Blaine: I want to tell you something
and it’s kind of a big deal for me
but I was nervous to tell you before
not because I don’t trust you, but because I don’t trust myself not to fail
and I don’t trust my own follow through with these things
but I’m hoping if I tell you maybe you’ll believe that I trust you
especially if you know that this is a big deal
and the only other people who know are my mom and Matt
oh and Cooper, he knows
and I’d imagine my mom told my dad
Kurt: Blaine.
you’re rambling.
10:22 pm
Kurt: Blaine? There was something that you wanted to tell me?
like 8 minutes ago?
Blaine: sorry, I zoned out on exactly how to phrase it
Kurt: Just say it, remember?
the best and easiest way is just to say it
Blaine: I started going to speech therapy again last week
partly because I want to be able to talk to you
and other reasons too
but you’re part of it
Kurt: wow, I’m pretty flattered that you’d do that
how long has it been since you stopped going?
Blaine: about 5 or 6 years
the beginning of high school
I thought I was ok, that I could just make it by
I started cross country and that was everyday after school
I still saw Paula once a week
and I just wanted that to be enough
I guess it was enough then, I didn’t really want anything for myself
just wanted to make it through high school
Kurt: I hear that
Blaine: but now I do want stuff
I want to be a teacher and that means I have to talk a lot
I want to be less nervous
and to have more control
and to be able to talk to you
in real life, not just on the internet or texting
Kurt: remember that whole endearing thing from earlier?
you just quadrupled it.
Blaine: This is all just really big for me
really big and scary
Kurt: what “all”?
Blaine: you “all”
being around you.
um.
liking you
Kurt: oh that stuff
Blaine: wanting to impress you
and instead just making a fool out of myself all the time
Kurt: you really don’t make a fool of yourself all the time Blaine
what you think is foolish and what I think is foolish are obviously different things
you’ve done nothing that you should be ashamed of
and until you start kicking puppies for sport, i have a feeling I’ll keep feeling that way.
Blaine: if you insist
Kurt: I hope you don’t think this is condescending
but I’m kind... proud? of you right now?
I have a feeling that none of this was easy for you to say
but you said it
you told me
Blaine: I don’t think that’s condescending at all
Kurt: good, because I mean it in the best way possible
so do you want to talk about going to speech therapy?
or not?
I don’t want to be nosy, but I’m interested
Blaine: I don’t know
um. if you have questions, I could answer them
but I don’t really have to talk about it
it’s going ok. I mean I’ve only been there a couple times
but I like my SLP (speech language pathologist)
and I dunno
it’s ok
I think it’ll be ok
Kurt: What kind of stuff do you do there?
Blaine: so far, mostly talk about talking, which I hate
but we make goals, short term, long term
the point isn’t to cure my stutter, because that’s impossible
the point is to control it
I feel like it could happen though
I feel like I could get better at controlling it
Kurt: see, I think this is all really interesting
it’s interesting to see your emotions about something so... clinical
Blaine: I guess I can understand that
he gives me challenges
Kurt: like what?
Blaine: currently, my challenge is to call my mom sometime in the next two weeks.
Kurt: You don’t call your mom?
Blaine: I don’t talk on the phone
ever
I think I’ve talked on the phone like 20 times in my whole life
half of those times ended with the other person hanging up before I even spoke
thinking I was like a heavy breather or a prank caller
I was trying to call somebody about a group project once in high school
because they didn’t have a cell phone so I couldn’t text
and we really had to work something out
and their grandma answered
and she was like “Is this a sex pervert? Listen pervert, you better stop that breathing.”
I kind of didn’t know whether to laugh or cry
Kurt: probably laugh, I mean, she told you to stop breathing
she didn’t even say “heavy breathing”
she pretty much told you to die
How have you managed to only talk on the phone 20 times in your life though?
Blaine: well, give or take 20 times, I don’t know the exact number, but it’s low
the internet helps, for starters
have you heard of it? You can do almost anything there these days...
Kurt: smartass
Blaine: I’ve found a ton of restaurants that let you order takeout online
And my mom always made phone calls about appointments
which is kind of humiliating when you’re 18, but on the other hand such a relief
and you know, unlimited texting
Kurt: huh
fascinating
not that I talk on the phone a ton
but I talk to my dad and stepmom a couple times a week
probably more than any normal college student calls home
but i like them
Blaine: see, now I find *that* endearing :)
Kurt: well obviously
Blaine: so yeah
I guess that’s about it
Kurt: I’m glad you told me
Blaine: I’m glad I told you too
I feel a little less weighed down by it
How’s Teen Vogue?
Kurt: You know, I miss working there full time
only going in a couple mornings a week makes me feel like I’m missing out on a lot
Blaine: the gossip mill turns even when the great Kurt Hummel isn’t present?!?!
Kurt: I KNOW! I was aghast
Blaine: so does that mean you’re dropping out school to start a career as a full time editorial intern, just for the sake of gossip?
Kurt: you ask this as though I haven’t already considered it
the gossip is much better than the mediocrity present in my junior seminar
these people are BOBOS
I constantly ask myself how they got into NYU
I thought we had standards
Blaine: I’m still a little sad D.Marshall isn’t in it
Kurt: you and me both
I’m still a little desperate to find out what she looks like
I tried to stalk her on facebook, but I couldn’t pinpoint her
there are a surprising number of Deirdre Marshall’s in the world
there’s a specific Blaine Anderson missing on there too
Blaine: I know!
jeez what’s up with that guy?
Kurt: how does it feel to be the only person on earth that doesn’t have Facebook?
Blaine: It feels like REBELLION
Kurt: is there a reason? or you just don’t want one?
Blaine: eh. I guess it’s because I don’t really know a lot of people
and it just …
ok fine, I hate the idea of putting myself out there like that
it’s like too much... of an exhibition for me
that by no means is a judgment on anyone who has one
but it’s just not my scene
Kurt: “your scene” what are you a hipster?
Blaine: yes, i converted
Kurt: was there a trial by fire?
something involving plastic glasses frames and threadbare flannel?
Blaine: I had to get an ironic tattoo and grow creative facial hair
to pledge my loyalty
Kurt: tell me about this tattoo
Blaine: on my left ass cheek it says “right” in sanskrit
Kurt: oh
my
god
I can’t stop laughing
why can’t I stop laughing
I’m like wheezing
Blaine: do you need me to call for help?
Kurt: Rachel actually just came to check on me
I’m fine now
Blaine: was that really even that funny?
Kurt: I don’t know, yes
yes it was
oh man
wooo
tears in my eyes.
Blaine: you ok?
Kurt: yeah, seriously
I think you’re even funnier now
because you would never in a hundred million years say that in real life
so when you come up with something like that
and I picture you trying to say it
Blaine: I think I can see it
if I turn my head and squint
Kurt: you know I’m not making fun of you right?
it’s the juxtaposition of it
Blaine: I know
it’s nice to hear though
also, excellent word Kurt
Bravo!
Kurt: thank you.
I learned it from watching you.
how are your wounds?
Blaine: The spiritual ones you just gave me?
or the physical ones that I received from the world’s tiniest tree?
Kurt: Blaine
I didn’t mean to wound your spirit
I wasn’t making fun of you
Blaine: I know :D
I just felt like being a jerk
Kurt: Oh good
yes, that’s good
now you have wounded my spirit.
Blaine: as for the bodily harm that I inflicted upon myself...
FUCKING HURTS
The skin on my knees is so tight
And Matt keeps making fun of me for the cut on my cheek
He’s insisted on calling me “Rocky” all week
Kurt: Matt’s funny
Blaine: brb
11:56 pm
Blaine: back
Kurt: i was just thinking
it’s funny/weird that I haven’t actually met Matt yet
It’s weird, because I *know* him, but I haven’t actually met him
Blaine: That is weird
but it’s kind of the same with me and Rachel
Kurt: yeah, but you’ve talked to her to order coffee or whatever
Blaine: that would be a negative
Kurt: But she’s been there, when you’ve been there
Blaine: I don’t order coffee there
because they
I guess I never mentioned this to you
it’s so stupid
but, it’s not like I have an ounce of composure left anyway
Kurt: Blaine you’re sort of rambling again
Blaine: yes, I am
I don’t order from that place because they make you say your name
well, sometimes I order from there, if I have to
but then I give a fake name
and I could never do that when Rachel’s there
because she would know I was lying
Kurt: You give fake names when you order coffee?
like, regularly?
Blaine: Yes. I can usually say other people’s names
without stuttering
can’t really say my own though
Kurt: so do you have a particular name you use or do you vary it?
Blaine: I try to keep it simple, usually a name that starts with E or A
It’s very, very, very rare I ever stutter on e’s and a’s
Usually Alex or Ed
Kurt: Can we like... create personalities for them?
Blaine: I can already tell you that Alex is a journalism major
and as a kid he was an extra in Toys R Us commercials
Kurt: fascinating
Blaine: I know, he is also a notorious womanizer and the ladies really fall for it
he’s always winking at baristas
Kurt: NO! do you really wink at baristas!?!?
Blaine: blushing font
sometimes, yes.
It’s like I started to really pretend I was this guy
I mean, not all the time, I didn’t have a psychotic break or anything
but I just sort of … entertain myself with it
I don’t say much, because I don’t want to stutter, but it’s fun
it makes me laugh. It makes Matt piss himself every time I do it.
it was Matt’s idea actually, he’s sort of brilliant every once in a while.
Kurt: OMG. I want to watch sometime
Blaine: I don’t know if it would work in front of you
Kurt: maybe if I pretended I wasn’t watching???
Blaine: maybe, we could try it
Kurt: ha! This is awesome
I love that
what about Ed?
Blaine: unfortunately, Ed is just Blaine I think
he doesn’t say much, usually just his order and his name
Ed is for when I just want to get the hell out of dodge
Kurt: This is all sort of fascinating Blaine
you and your multiple personalities
one of which is a “notorious womanizer”
Blaine: LOL, I know
it’s weird
Kurt: it’s not weird. It’s quirky, it’s cute.
I like that you make the best of a shitty situation
and not just the best, but you make it hilarious
I don’t know many people who could do that
laugh at themselves, even when something makes them feel shitty
Blaine: I never considered it that way
I just... it’s more reflexive
just a bandaid for a bad situation
or at least that’s what Chad (my SLP) would say
(I, on the other hand, would say “it’s a sterilized dressing for a tough situation.” Fucking b-words, foiling me around every turn.)
Kurt: what’s he like?
(I don’t think I’ve mentioned enough how very endearing I find you this evening)
Blaine: Chad? He’s young, like way young. maybe only 25 or 26
he kind of reminds me of a blonder version of my brother
he’s funny
he’s kind of a hardass about stuff, but I need that
if I’m really going to do this right
Kurt: sounds like a good fit then
Blaine: oh and he stutters
but he’s got really good control over it
he used to stutter as bad as I do
but you hardly even notice it anymore
Kurt: that’s good, that’s amazing really
Blaine: it is!
Kurt: It’s interesting to me that you didn’t lead with the fact that he stutters
it doesn’t define him
Blaine: it doesn’t
i kinda want to be just like him someday
Kurt: blergh. endearing.
Blaine: if I’m just consistently endearing then you probably don’t have to comment on it each time
Kurt: endearing and humble
shaking my head
you’re just making it worse
you’re not going to be able to say anything right now
without me being like “aw, so cute!”
Blaine: that’s fucking bullshit man
Kurt: aw, so cute, look at how cute you are when you’re angry and sweary!
Blaine: I’m going to go kick some puppies
Kurt: aw, puppies are so cute! and you’re going to look so cute kicking them!
Blaine: You are ruining my street cred.
Kurt: you don’t have street cred
Blaine: how do you know?
maybe I like … live alone on the mean streets of Southie
and I do construction work
and I hang out with my friends
and get drunk
and into fights with smart dudes
Kurt: and Robin Williams is your shrink? and you’re a mathematics prodigy?
Blaine: damn you, you weren’t supposed to realize that it was the plot of Good Will Hunting
Kurt: seriously? That’s the best you could do?
it’s just so darn CUTE!
Blaine: since you think I’m so cute
I think I’ll take advantage of this moment
to say that you know the only reason I can’t be normal around you in real life is because I like you, right?
Kurt: yeah, I think I’m starting to understand
I could try to be less likeable?
Blaine: I don’t think that’s going to help at this point :)
Kurt: how long did it take you to be comfortable around Matt?
Blaine: well, it’s different
because I really didn’t know him at all when I met him and I kind of already know you
so that helps
but I also was never... um … attracted to him
and I’m attracted to you
so there’s that
Kurt: would it be entirely redundant to call you endearing again?
Blaine: it *should* be, but somehow it isn’t
Kurt: you’re also really kind and smart and talented and you have cute hair
Blaine: oh, pshaw
insert blushing font
Kurt: just accept the compliments Blaine
Blaine: thank you for the compliments Kurt
Kurt: good boy
insert me patting your head font
Blaine: I think you’re all those things too
minus the cute hair part, your hair is WAY more than cute
your hair is freaking awesome
Kurt: do we have a font for preening?
because I’m currently preening
Blaine: holy shit! How did it get to be 1:30 in the morning?
Kurt: I have no freaking clue
I hope you didn’t have anywhere you were supposed to be tonight
Blaine: no, but I’ve been half-assedly writing a paper this whole time
and reading it over just now, it TOTALLY SUCKS.
somehow I integrated like 98% of our conversation into it and didn’t notice
Kurt: we’re witty, I’m sure your professor will appreciate it
Blaine: perhaps...
Kurt: I’ll let you go fix that up
Blaine: yes. I should do that
Kurt: I’ll see you in the piano room tomorrow?
Blaine: that would be excellent
would you like Alex to pick you up a coffee?
Kurt: if Alex doesn’t mind, I’d love a nonfat mocha
Blaine: I think that can be arranged.
Kurt: see you tomorrow!
Blaine: Kurt, tomorrow when I’m shy, just remember that it’s not because I don’t want to be there. It’s just the way I am.
Kurt: I know you’re supposed to be going to finish your paper
but I have to admit that it totally intrigues that you can say stuff like that online
that you can separate yourself from it like that
Blaine: I totally can delineate
sometimes I feel like two completely different people
even in the moment, i’m thinking
“come on Blaine! you can do this! Stop being socially awkward!”
Kurt: really?
that’s like really really amazing
Blaine: I mean, it doesn’t actually do anything
but yeah, I can separate the halves
Kurt: fascinating
now go fix your paper
Blaine: Bye ;)
(the winky face was from Alex)
Comments
Aw, I love Blaine's wit too. It's great that he has an outlet now with Kurt. Somewhere he can be himself. Thanks for reading!
Gosh, this story is so...endearing, I don't know how else to address it. Blaine's wit is hilarious, I'd like to meet someone who'd keep up this kind of conversation with me too! I'm so jealous of Kurt and Blaine, because, one way or another, they always find themselves, even if it's soon, even if it's through a computerphone screen. Thank you for writing this, hoping to see Blaine improving and Kurt understanding fully the way he can support this shy boy even without trying.See you sooon!!
Thank you for that chapter. I laughed so much. :D I guess my roommates think I am crazy...xD
YES! I love making people laugh so loud that they appear crazy. :) Thanks for reading!
heheeh! I have a feeling I'm going to get a lot of comments just being like "KISS! KISS!" until they actually, finally kiss. It's coming, but the boys are taking their time. Well, Kurt is giving Blaine time. But it'll happen, I swear.
I love this text convo between them! I soooo cannot wait for them to be in person again - perhaps a first kiss?? Fireworks??? No need for talking while kissing...hmmmmmm
Thank you!
If this gets any better I will explode from all the cuteness and potential
I kind of just want to curl up with this comment and give it a big hug. You actually brought tears to my eyes at the end because I too have a lot of feelings. I wildly appreciate your insights and I would have had NO idea that English isn't your first language because this is a really lovely comment. Thanks for taking the time to write it. And I agree, there's despondency, in a good way somehow. Thank you so much for reading my fic and for making me smile!
I was just so proud of Blainey Boy for not having a facebook profile (yeah, I'm pretty much the president of The Proudly Facebookless Association), but then I realized that it's a reflection of his social ineptitude, and not a chosen life style, and it got me feeling even worse for him. I love this story because while it is really adorkable, time you can feel a underlying tone of despondency - in a ... good way? I think it's quite an experience for the reader to see how one factor, a speech disorder in this case, can make a huge impact in one's life. Blaine's differatiating trait is very obvious but can't be said about everyone's. In short, I think this verse captures the "differences acceptation" concept in Glee better than Glee itself. I find your approach less loud, and much more allegorical. So, brava! Oh, and I had to stop reading this chapter many times to hug my kindle's screen, so please aceept all my hugs in form of gratitude for your writing :) P.S.: I'm sorry for the long, caotic message, but English is (definitely) not my first language and I just have a lot of feelings.
Yeah, it's those im chapters. Don't worry, the next chapter is a bit longer and you'll be able to sink your teeth into it.
this story just goes way too fast ;)
This is continuing to be amazing! I am more impressed with your writing with every chapter... I do love this story and love Kurt & Blaine here. Thanks for writing and please continue!
Of course I'll continue! I love these boys too much to abandon them just as it's about to get good! Thanks for reading!
Thank you for saying you love the slow progression. I think it would be unrealistic if things were just immediately sunshine and rainbows for these boys. I think it would be too much for Blaine to handle. He needs to take his time and ease into the idea of Kurt and what Kurt means. Thanks for reading!
Oh that was such a sweet chapter, it put a big smile on my face :) Loving the slow progression, it feels really genuine. Also just loving their interactions in generaly, Kurt is so understanding and awesome, and Blaine is trying so hard - love them!
Hehe! I giggle while I write it. Unless it's sad or whatever. Then I don't giggle. It would be bad if I giggled at sadness. Thanks for reading!
I just giggle while I read this because it makes me that happy.
Thank you
Phhtsskkuh.... Adorable :3
KISS!! KISS!!! KISS!! KISS!. That is all.
THISS!!
Endearing just about sums up this entire chapter.
i love the conforsations between the two
I loved it! that's pretty much what ima say in every review ;)