Chapter 3

The two boys arrived at the airport in the wee hours of the morning, both looking quite ragged, but feeling more hopeful than they had been for days. They were able to get on the 5:30am flight to NY, arriving around 8:15am, meaning they wouldnt arrive at Rachel and Kurts apartment until close to ten.

Finn wanted to surprise Rachel, but in order for Blaines plan to work, they had to get inside the apartment without Kurt knowing, so when to two boys arrived in the city, Finn texted Rachel. Hey, Blaine and I are in NY and headed your way. Please get Kurt out of the apartment before ten. See you soon! :)

Rachel read her text and smiled, then laughed when a second one quickly followed, Oh, and dont tell Kurt. Its a surprise.

Kurt was sitting at the table across from his roommate, frowning. How could she be so happy, when he felt like his insides were slowing getting eaten out by parasites? Must be a text from Finn. That thought made him even more depressed. He was thankful he and Finn had talked the previous evening, but he still felt a little betrayed by the way Finn defended Blaine.

Maybe Blaine wanted to date someone else. Could that be why he broke up with Kurt so easily, and tried to force him into going out with someone else? Oh God, just thinking about Blaine with someone else made his stomach churn and he quickly to up and ran into the bathroom, throwing up what little coffee he had managed to get down this morning.

Rachel was standing beside the sink with a wet washcloth when Kurt looked up for the toilet. "Thanks." He said, his voice grumbly, taking the washcloth and wiping his face with it.

"What brought that on?" She asked gently, not wanting to push.

Kurt turned and sat on the now closed toilet lid. "Im an idiot. I just lost the love of my life because I was a little lonely. I couldnt have waited two weeks, and gone home for a visit?" He put his head in his hands, his elbows resting on his knees. He was shaking, and trying not to cry again. Hes surprised there are any tears left.

"Going out with Spencer was the right thing to do. Now you know beyond the shadow of a doubt that you want Blaine and no one else." She said, always the voice of reason.

"Ive known that for a long time, I just...forgot. And now,". He paused, wiping a stray tear away, "Ive lost him."

"Oh baby, you didnt lose him. Blaine loves you so much."

"Maybe, but what if he wants..." He stopped, feeling the sudden urge to throw up again.

"What if he wants what?" Rachel encouraged him to continue.

"That too."

Rachel looks at him confused. "What too, sweetie?"

"To go out with someone else. Just the thought of him..." He leans down, putting his head between his knees, suddenly feeling dizzy at the thought.

Rachel was at his side immediately, rubbing circles on his back. "Oh, babe, is that why you got sick? Thinking if Blaine with another guy? You dont have to worry about that. I know that he loves you and doesnt want or need anyone else."

"You cant know that." His voice was soft. "And neither can I, because he wont talk to me. And Finn told me to stop calling him and to leave him alone. That Blaine just needed time." The hand rubbing his back stopped, and he chuckled darkly. "Didnt he tell you that?"

"No, I havent talked to Finn since early last night." She lied. Ok, so she was surprised that Finn would tell Kurt to back off Blaine, but she knew he must have had a good reason. None of that mattered now, though. She had less than thirty minutes to get Kurt dressed and out the door, and she had no idea how to do it.

"Come on,"she said, getting up quickly and startling Kurt. "Im taking you out for..."she paused, glancing down at the toilet her sad friend was currently perched on. "Hot tea, and we can even share one of those chocolate croissants. We both could use some air."

She saw his shoulders sag, and knew shed said the right thing. He opened his mouth to say something, but she interrupted. "And Im not waiting around for Kurt Hummels elaborate primping session." He looked up, a surprised look on his face. "You are putting a hat on and we are going."

"But,"

"No buts."

"Im not feeling hattish today."

She laughed. "First, hattish isnt a real word, and second, since when do you not feel...hattish."

"Since Im sulking." He said, sticking his bottom lip out, their teasing already making him feel a bit better.

"Ok then, you have," she looked at her watch, "ten minutes, and not a minute more. Go!" She said, using a sweeping motion of her hand as she left the bathroom, closing the door behind her. She then sent a quick text to Finn, telling him shes let him know when the coast was clear.

Nine minutes later, a slightly less rumpled version of her roommate emerged from his room. He was wearing dark blue skinny jeans and a button down navy shirt with light blue geometrical patterns covering it. His hair was fixed, and his face washed, but the puffy eyes were still evident, and Rachels heart broke a little. Sure, within an hour, Kurt would have Blaine back and be happy again, but seeing Kurt so broken was something she never wanted to see again.

The two roommates put their coats on and moved toward the door. Kurt stopped and turned around, grabbing the blue scarf off the kitchen chair where hed left it before his unexpected trip to the bathroom. He turned back toward her and slid the scarf around her neck, and she saw his eyes moist with tears. She smiled a soft, sad smile and took his arm, leading him out of the apartment.

They walked the two blocks to the coffee shop in silence, arm in arm, just taking in the sights and sounds of the city. After ordering, Rachel went to find a table, while Kurt waited for their order. Rachel quickly sent a text letting Finn know they were out if the apartment. She received one back just as quickly that said thanks. Now she just had to keep him out until she heard back from Finn.

The two roommates sat sipping their drinks and enjoyed each others company. They hadnt done this as much lately as they used to. Their schedules were so different that there were some days they didnt see each other at all. They had taken to leaving post it notes around the apartment for each other. It was their way of staying in touch with their crazy schedules, and they both loved it, but missed this together time.

During a lull in the conversation, Kurt reached over and placed his hand over Rachels, and she looked up. "Thank you, Rachel." He said, his voice suddenly shaky. "I wouldnt have made it though these last few days without you."

She turned her hand in his, squeezing it. "Awe sweetie, Im always going to be here for you. Its you and me against the world, right? And Im just returning the favor. How many times did we do movie nights and facials when Finn and I broke up? You were my rock and now, Im yours. But, Im pretty sure your happy ending is going to come sooner than mine did."

Tears were already escaping his eyes when he said, "I hope so."

Rachel was about to reply, when she felt her phone vibrate. She tried to hold back a smile. Letting to of Kurts hand, she retrieved her phone from her bag and read the text. It was from Finn. Good to go. Send Kurt back alone and Ill meet you at the entrance to the park in ten. Love you!

After reading that, she couldnt contain her smile, and felt bad when she saw Kurts hurt expression. "Is that Finn?"

"What, oh no. It was a text from my vocal teacher. She wants me to pick up some sheet music for class. Sorry."

"No need to be sorry. Its just thats the smile you get when you hear from Finn, so I figured.."

She felt bad again, but then remembered that Kurt was just minutes away from his happy ending, and she smiled, lying smoothly, "She picked a Barbara song this time, and Im just excited. But, I really should get it while Im out, so wed better go."

"Want me to come with you?" He asked. "I could use the distraction."

"No, no, thats ok. You know how I get in those places. I could be there for hours. You go on back to the apartment. Im sure you have some homework to do," he gave her a look that clearly said she was insane, and she laughed. "Ok, then, I know you have some musicals to watch, right? Ill pick up some more ice cream on the way back and we can have junk food for dinner. Sound good?" It was scary how well she could lie.

He gave her a tight smile and nodded. "Dont forget the popcorn. I think were out."

"Ok,". She said, leaning up to kiss him on the cheek. "And dont worry. Everything is going to work out. Im sure of it." He nodded again, not trusting himself to speak.

The walk back to the apartment was not long, but Kurt tool his time, enjoying the brisk air. The closer he got the the apartment, the heavier his heart felt. He really needed to talk to Blaine, and it was killing him. By the time he reached their apartment, he had decided to call Finn again, and pulled the door back with determination.

What he saw nearly stopped his heart. "Blaine?" He whispered, tears already forming in his eyes. He stood there speechless, staring at the person who had invaded his every thought for the past few days. There was Blaine, sitting behind a keyboard (where did that come from) in the middle of his living room.

"Kurt, I know we need to talk, and we will, but can you please come in and sit down for a minute? You know Im much better at expressing myself through song, so I wrote this for you, on the plane ride here. Please listen closely, ok?" Kurt nodded, still in shock, and moved to sit on the couch, across from the keyboard.

Blaines fingers floated across the keyboard, emitting a hauntingly beautiful melody. Kurt watched, wringing his hands together and trying, unsuccessfully, to hold back his tears. When Blaine opened his mouth to sing, he locked his gaze with Kurts and held on.

Ive been alone

Surrounded by darkness

Ive seen how heartless

The world can be

Ive seen you crying

You felt like its hopeless

Ill always do my best

To make you see

Baby, youre not alone

Cause youre here with me

And nothings ever gonna bring us down

Cause nothing can keep me from lovin you

And you know its true

It dont matter whatll come to be

Our love is all we need to make it through...

Now I know it aint easy

But it aint hard trying

Everytime I see you smiling

And I feel you so close to me...

And you tell me:

Baby, youre not alone

Cause youre here with me

And nothings ever gonna bring us down

Cause nothing can keep me from lovin you

And you know its true

It dont matter whatll come to be

Our love is all we need to make it through...

I still have trouble

I trip and stumble

Trying to make sense of things sometimes...

I look for reasons

But I dont need em

All I need is to look in your eyes

And I realize...

Baby, Im not alone

Cause youre here with me

And nothings ever gonna take us down

Cause nothing can keep me from lovin you

And you know its true

It dont matter whatll come to be

Our love is all we need to make it through...

Oh, cause youre here with me

And nothings ever gonna bring us down

Cause nothing, nothing, nothing

Can keep me from lovin you

And you know its true

It dont matter whatll come to be

You know our love is all we need

Our love is all we need

To make it through...

Throughout the song, their gazes never faltered. Kurt could see all Blaines hurt and sadness, and also his undying love and devotion. He wanted to go to Blaine, but was frozen with fear. Blaine saw Kurts internal struggle, so he slowly got up, never losing eye contact, and moved to sit next to Kurt on the couch.

Kurt started shaking when he saw Blaine move toward him. He loved Blaine so much, but he had no idea how to make it better. When Blaine took his hand, the flood gates opened, and he gushed, "Oh my God, Blaine, I am so sorry. Please believe me, I love you so much, and I dont want anyone else, I swear. I have been so stupid. Please say you forgive me."

Blaine squeezed Kurts hand and moved a finger up to place over his lips, effectively shutting Kurt up. "Were you listening to the song?" He asked, keeping his finger on Kurts lips, forcing him to nod instead of answer. "Then you know that I still love you, that Ill always love you." He paused. "Weve both been pretty stupid. All those times we skyped, we talked about everything and nothing. But neither one of us admitted just how damn hard this separation was on us. I knew I missed you so much it hurt, but I never realized you missed me just as much."

"Bl..." He tried to say, but Blaine refused to remove his finger, shaking his head.

"Let me finish, then you can talk, ok." Another nod.

Blaine then removed the finger to instead cup Kurts smooth cheek, brushing his thumb gently over his lips. Kurt shuddered, and Blaine moved closer, their thighs touching. A warmth spread quickly through Kurts body. No matter what was happening emotionally, physically, his body couldnt help but respond to Blaines sudden closeness.

"I understand everything now. Its a long story, and I promise to explain it all in detail later, but for right now Ill just tell you that I heard everything you said to Finn."

"You were listening?" He hissed, suddenly feeling sick.

"What? No. Listen, I said Id explain everything, but the important part is that I heard everything you said. Im so sorry for jumping to conclusions and not realizing that you were hurting too. I was trying to be the strong one by letting you go, but I didnt bother to ask if thats what you wanted. And just the thought of you going out with someone else," he paused, taking a shaky breath, before continuing. "I think it was exactly what both of us needed to realize how important we are to each other. God, Kurt, I love you so much it hurts. You are a part of me, and I dont feel whole unless Im with you. These past few months have been hell, and weve just tried to pretend that everything was fine, when it wasnt. But Im done lying to myself and to you. I love you now and until the day I die. I know we belong together, and as long as we start being honest about our feeling, I know well be able to make it though the next few months apart. After graduation, I plan to move here, and never leave your side again."

When he finished speaking, his shoulders physically relaxed, as if a weight had been removed.

"Are you finished?" Kurt asked. This time it was Blaine who nodded. "While I still expect to hear exactly how you heard our conversation, Ill move on for now. You are right. We werent being honest with each other at all. Blaine, it was so hard, knowing you were back home with all our old friends, doing all the same things, without me. I was so lonely, and I missed you so bad." He stopped to catch his breath, a tear escaping his eye and dropping down on Blaines hand. "And while it was nice to have the attention of someone," he felt the hand on his face tighten slightly, and brought his own hand up to cover Blaines, stroking it gently with his thumb. "Everything felt so wrong. With you..." He paused, catching Blaines gaze, making sure he understood. "I feel complete. You are my soulmate. I see that now, and Im so sorry I had to hurt you to figure that out." He let out a sob, thinking about how Blaine must have felt these last few days.

Just the thought of Blaine going out with someone had literally made him sick. He couldnt imagine the pain he had caused Blaine by actually going out.

"Hey, none of that now," Blaine said gently. "The time for sadness is over. Im here, were here, together."

Kurt launched himself into Blaines arms then and buried his face in his boyfriends neck, trying to hold back his tears, but failing. "Im so sorry for hurting you." He murmured, holding on for dear life. "I love you so much, and I dont want to be with anyone else, ever. Its you and only you."

Blaine pulled away from Kurts death grip and took his face in both hands, before replying, "youre the only one for me too, baby. I love you." He leaned in then and finally brought their lips together. He had meant it to be a soft, gentle, reassuring kiss, but Kurt was having none of that, pulling Blaine toward him with force, crashing their lips together roughly. Once their lips met, they were one big ball of passion, tongues and teeth mashing together, hands pulling and tugging at whatever they could find.

Kurt leaned back, pulling Blaine with him, situating him on top and between his legs, to get as close to him as possible. God, hed missed this. His body was on fire, and hed never felt so alive. Blaine pulled his mouth away from Kurts and began to trail hot, open mouthed kisses down is neck, stopping occasionally to suck hard on particular area.

Kurt was a moaning, withering mess, but he wasnt a passive partner, bringing his hands up underneath Blaines shirt, needing to feel skin. The moment Kurt touched his bare back, Blaine spurred into action, jumping up and grabbing Kurt, dragging him back to Kurts bedroom, the two losing clothes along the way.

Once inside, Blaine pushed Kurt into the bed, and looked down at him, smirking. "I hope you dont have any plans for the next twenty four hours, because we are not leaving this room."

"Oh Blaine, dont worry. Im yours...now, tonight, and forever. Now get over here. We have some important make up sex to get to."