March 15, 2015, 7 p.m.
Say Something: The Reason is You
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The title for this chapter is a quote from the song The Reason by Hoobastank. Its such an amazing song and I think its perfect for boys in this situation.
He woke up early the next morning and fixed breakfast with Carole again before joining his dad at the shop for a few hours. Hed actually missed helping his dad out. Of course, he didnt miss the overalls, but being here and smelling the grease and oil, listening to the noises of the drills and the clanking of tools made him relax and remember the good times he spent here with his father.
Time got away from Kurt as he dove right into helping, and if his dad hadnt reminded him that he was supposed to meet Rachel, hed have worked through lunch. He actually considered calling and canceling, but shed seemed so excited last night, he just couldnt do that to her, so he rushed home and took a quick shower. He wasnt able to spend as much time on his hair as he liked, but was able to pick out a killer outfit.
He wore his favorite black skinny jeans, a white button down long sleeved shirt with a black vest. He added a red and white scarf for color and holiday spirit, of course.
He arrived exactly five minutes late, and found Rachel out front, eyes wide and darting around searching for him. When she spotted him he could visibly see her shoulders drop in relief and she pulled him into a quick hug.
"I was afraid you werent coming." She said, breathless even though shed been standing still.
"I almost called to cancel, actually." He saw her eyes widen at his comment, and he continued on. "I went to the shop with my dad this morning and just lost track of time. I was afraid I wouldnt have time to get ready, but I didnt want to stand you up. Youre right, we dont get to spend enough time together as we used to." He smiled then and pulled the door open, motioning for her to enter.
"Such a gentleman." She breathed, as she walked through the open door. He followed her to a table in the front and she took a seat facing the kitchen, leaving him to face the windows. He looked at her with a confused look, because she knew he liked to face the restaurant, so she could scan the crowd and see who was there. It was a habit carried over from high school. If she noticed his look, she chose to ignore it.
Before they could begin a conversation, the waitress was there, taking their order. No need for her to come back twice, they always got the same thing, so as soon as she left, they began talking. They were never at a loss when it came to conversation, and were so engrossed in said conversation, Kurt didnt notice when someone took the tiny stage by the window, until he heard a familiar voice.
He froze and gasped, afraid to look up. When he did, his eyes met the golden hazel gaze of the boy who had been on his mind everyday for the last two years. He sat on a small stool quietly strumming a guitar before addressing the crowd.
"Hi everyone, my name is Blaine. Im not from around here, but I have a really good friend who is. Im not really good at telling people how I feel, but I am good at singing, so Id like to sing him a song right now. Kurt, please listen, because I mean every word."
When he began singing, everything around Kurt disappeared. All he could see or hear was Blaine. His voice was so soothing and fucking amazing, but it was the words that made their way straight to Kurts heart.
Im not a perfect person
Theres many things I wish I didnt do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
Ive found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
Im sorry that I hurt you
Its something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear
Ive found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You
Im not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
Ive found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
Ive found a reason to show
A side of me you didnt know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
By the end of the song, Kurt had tears streaming down his face. Their eyes never lost contact, and Kurt could see the sincerity in his eyes, and had heard it in his voice. Sure, Blaine had hurt him in the past, but the boy on that stage just poured his heart out to Kurt, and he never felt closer to anyone than he did to Blaine in that moment.
Neither boy heard the applause, both too focused on the other as they made their way to each other, meeting in the middle. They both stood there awkward for a moment, before Kurt launched himself into Blaines arms, burying his face in Blaines neck. Oh God, had he always smelled this good?
Although they were both reluctant to pull away, they did, remembering they were standing in the middle of a restaurant holding each other. Kurt was still crying as he grabbed Blaines hand and pulled him out of the restaurant, throwing Rachel a look that said thanks, Ill call you later, and she just smiled and gave him a thumbs up.
Kurt opened the door to his Navigator and practically pushed Blaine in before running around to the drivers side and getting in. The ride to Kurts house was silent, neither boy sure what the other was thinking, but knowing the car was not the place to have this conversation.
Kurt was suddenly nervous that his family was not at home, because he was afraid he was going to attack Blaine after that performance. It was taking every ounce of willpower to not pull the car over and take him right here in the car on the side of the road. He could feel the worry rolling off Blaine and he wanted to reach over and take his hand, but he knew if he touched him right now, it would be all over, so he kept both hands on the wheel, knuckles white from his tight grip.
The arrived at the Hudmel household minutes later and Kurt got out and started toward the house, waiting for Blaine to follow. Once the shorter boy realized what was expected, he got out and headed toward the house, where Kurt stood holding the front door open, waiting.
The moment Blaine stepped over the threshold he felt a heat behind him and before he could even react, Kurt had closed the door, grabbed Blaine by the hips and pushed him back against the door crashing their lips together.
Both boys gasped at the sudden contact, and Kurt pulled back slightly before claiming his lips again, this time sucking Blaines bottom lip into his mouth. Blaine moaned deep in this throat, and that just spurred Kurt on. His hand that had been palms flat against the door on either side of Blaines head were now buried in the dark haired boys curls, while Blaines arms snaked around Kurts hips, pulling him so their bodies were flush.
After he let go of Blaines bottom lip, he slid his tongue into the warm cavern that was Blaines mouth, and it was heaven. How the hell did he ever go without kissing him after last time? God, he could just do this forever. And apparently Blaine felt the same way, because his tongue found its way into Kurts mouth and was mapping out the area behind his teeth, making Kurt groan and pushed their bodies even closer together.
Kurt was lost in sensation as he continued his assault on Blaines mouth. More, more, more, was the only thing running through his mind as they made out against his front door.
Seconds later, both boys were pushed from a pressure from the other side of the door, causing their lips to separate, but not their bodies. They stumbled, and when they regained their balance, they just stared at each other, breathing heavy, lips red and swollen.
"Dude, whats blocking the...oh, hey Kurt. What..." Finn came back from the shop to grab lunch for Burt and himself and was surprised that the door seemed stuck, so he pushed really hard and it finally gave away. He knew Kurt was home because he saw his car in the driveway, but was at a loss for words when he came in the door and saw what had been blocking his way.
Standing in the entryway stood Kurt, with his arms around another boy. Wait, wasnt that Blaine, the boy Kurt was always talking about? What were they doing, and why were they blocking the door? Finn was confused, but quickly realized that Kurt was not paying attention to him at all. His gaze was literally locked to Blaines. It was only when he looked closer at Kurts face did he realize why their arms were wrapped around each other. Holy shit, theyd been making out against the door. Finn shivered.
Its not that he had a problem with Kurt being gay, not anymore, but he really didnt want to think about what he could have walked in on. Ugh. He decided to just go on with his business and leave the two boys alone, so he headed toward the kitchen and began making sandwiches.
Even though Kurt and Blaine had been knocked away from the door, they were still both under each others spell. It was only when he heard noise coming from the kitchen that Kurt seemed to realize they werent alone anymore. He pulled back out of the comfort of Blaines arms causing Blaine to whine, but reached down to take his hand, leading him through the hallway.
As they passed by the kitchen, Kurt finally addressed his brother. "We are going to my room. See you later at the party." He didnt wait for a response, leading Blaine behind him up the stairs and into his room where he shut and locked the door. Blaine still hadnt said a word, but watched Kurt with an intensity that caused shivers down his spine.
Kurt led him to the edge of the bed and pulled him to sit down beside him, never letting go of his hand. Blaine finally found his voice, albeit a little shaky, and said, "So, I take it you liked the song."
Kurt threw his head back and laughed. Hearing the melodic laughter, Blaine relaxed and let himself laugh with him. The sexual tension that had been crackling around them broke and they were just Kurt and Blaine again.
Once Kurt got himself back under control, he turned to the shorter boy purposely catching his eye. "It was perfect." He whispered.
Blaines eyes sparkled. "I really meant it."
"I know." The sincerity in those words went straight to Blaines heart. They just sat there for a moment, taking in the seriousness of the moment. Kurt didnt want to ruin it, but he had to ask. "What are you doing here?" Blaines eyes clouded over and Kurt quickly added, "Believe me, Im glad, but I thought you had family time to deal with."
"I did, but I lied and told my parents I had to get back to school to finish a project that was due after the break." He watched Kurts eyes widen in surprise and almost laughed at the sight, but instead he sighed. "This trip has just been so emotionally exhausting and I couldnt deal with my familys bullshit anymore." Kurt looked like he wanted to interrupt. Blaine could see the guilt in his eyes knowing their situation had been partly to blame. Before Kurt could speak, Blaine continued. "After our middle of the night conversation I just felt so happy, but all day long, my family kept dragging me down again. I knew what you and I were working towards was so much more important than anything else, so I formulated a plan."
Realization set in and Kurt smiled. "You called Rachel, last night."
Blaine nodded. "I needed to see you, but I also wanted to show you how serious I am about this...about us."
"Well, you certainly outdid yourself." Kurt said, giving Blaine a soft smile.
"Im not finished, though."
"What?"
Blaine pulled a flat box out of the pocket of his cardigan and handed it to Kurt who opened the box with shaky hands. All he saw was a key. He looked up at Blaine, confused. Blaines smile was wide, but Kurt could see a hint of uncertainty in his eyes.
"Now, before you freak out, Im not doing something crazy and asking you to move in with me yet. This is just my way of showing you that I am not going to walk away. I am giving you a key to my apartment so you can come over anytime, and you know that I always want you there. Im so happy that you agreed to give me another chance, and this way you can know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I will not disappear from your life again."
Oh God.
Kurt was shaking.
He opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Not only was that the most amazing, heartfelt speech hed ever heard, but Blaine had said YET. He wasnt asking him to move in YET! That meant...
Wow.