Kurt had tried to get over Blaine after their talk in the bar after New Years and his breakdown in Central Park, but wasnt as successful as he had hoped. Sure, hed been able to avoid him, but it hadnt been easy. They did go to the same school, and there had been a few close calls, where Kurt found himself ducking behind walls, around corners, and into bathrooms to avoid being seen.

For the first few months, it had been fairly easy, trying to push those feelings aside, but seeing glimpses of him would bring back all the feelings he was trying hard to suppress. So, he figured the summer would be easier. He was right, but oh so wrong.

Being away from school and New York made it easier because he knew not everything would remind him of Blaine, so he let his guard down and hopefully allow his heart to heal.

Rachel and his step-brother Finn had this on again, off again relationship since high school, and when they were home for the summer, it was usually on. Even though Kurt was reluctant to share what had happened between him and Blaine, she finally convinced him, and was devastated for her best friend. She supported him the best she could at school, but now they were home for the summer, she was determined to help him be happy again.

So, she set him up on a blind date. Her dads had some friends whos son was gay, and had just come out. She met him when her dads invited his dads over for dinner one night. He was also home for the summer from college, and he and Rachel hit it off right away. It wasnt until the evening was almost over that she realized how she could help Kurt and her new friend Matt.

They had been in her room and she was, of course, talking about herself and how their glee club had won Nationals their senior year, and she was showing Matt her photo album of pictures from that win. In the back of the album, there was a picture of she and Kurt they had taken after singing on the Wicked stage. She saw Matts face change suddenly, and she grinned.

"Hes cute, huh?" She asked.

"Uh, um," he stuttered, and she saved him from his embarrassment.

"Hes gay too, and totally available. I can set you up on a date, if you want." She said, already planning everything in her head.

"I dont know," He hesitated.

"Ill tell you what, well double. Hes my roommate and best friend, and Im also sort of dating his step-brother." He looked at her confused. "Ill explain it all later. So, you in?"

And that is how Kurt found himself on a double date with step-brother, his best friend, and Matt. Kurt was furious with Rachel at first. How dare she set him up on a blind date! What was she thinking? She told him she knew he had to get his mind off Blaine, and this was the perfect way. According to Rachel, Matt was a little shy, hence the double date, and very cute, so Kurt caved.

The three of them told Matt theyd meet him at Breadsticks at 7:00. Kurt was a nervous wreck, trying to find the perfect outfit. He didnt want to seem like he was trying too hard, but he still wanted to look nice. Finn actually helped him decide on a pair of dark skinny jeans and a blue button down shirt with a vest.

Dinner went by quickly, the four kids laughing and talking. Kurts initial reluctance faded moments after meeting Matt. He was sweet and intelligent, not to mention good looking. Conversation between the two of them flowed easily, and the four of them decided to move the party back to the Hudson-Hummel residence for a movie night.

When the evening came to a close, Kurt was a little sad. Hed really had a great time, and had enjoyed Matts company, which came as a complete surprise. He walked Matt out to his car to say goodnight, and when Matt asked if they could get together again, Kurt agreed whole-heartily. Matt gave him a hug and the two agreed to have coffee the next day.

Kurt was actually happy. Hed had a great night, hanging out with great friends, and was pleasantly surprised at how well he and Matt had gotten along. Back inside the house, he said a quick goodnight to Rachel and Finn and headed to his room.

He changed into his pajamas and lay back on his bed, replaying the evening in his mind, when his phone suddenly buzzed. He smiled, thinking it was Matt. The two had exchanged numbers and Matt had told him hed text Kurt what time the two could meet for coffee the next day.

Unfortunately, his smile was wiped off his face the moment he saw the text, and the happy feeling that hed had was gone in an instant. He hadnt seen Blaine in months, and although Blaine had tried to text and call Kurt a few times, it seemed as though he had given up. Or not.

Kurt debated on deleting the text without reading it, but knew he wouldnt be able to do so. Even though he was avoiding Blaine, he was still in love with the stupid, frustrating boy, so he opened the text. All it said was, this is how I feel... followed by a link. He knew he shouldnt have, but he clicked on the link, and his room was filled with Blaines voice, singing. His heart jumped at the sound, and he lay back on his bed and listened to the song. The song was sung much slower than normal and the only instrument accompanying Blaines voice was a piano.

Oh yeah

Oh yeah

So scared of breaking it

That you wont let it bend

And I wrote two hundred letters

I will never send

Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem

Youd rather cover up

Id rather let them bleed

So let me be

And Ill set you free (Oh yeah)

I am in misery

There aint nobody who can comfort me (Oh yeah)

Why wont you answer me?

The silence is slowly killing me (Oh yeah)

Boy, you really got me bad

You really got me bad

Im gonna get you back

Im gonna get you back

Your salty skin and how

It mixes in with mine

The way it feels to be

Completely intertwined

Not that I didnt care

Its that I didnt know

Its not what I didnt feel,

Its what I didnt show

So let me be

And Ill set you free

I am in misery

And there aint nobody who can comfort me (Oh yeah)

Why wont you answer me?

The silence is slowly killing me (Oh yeah)

Boy, you really got me bad

You really got me bad

Im gonna get you back

Im gonna get you back

You say your faith is shaken

And you may be mistaken

To keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun

Im desperate and confused

So far away from you

Im getting there, I dont care where I have to run

Why do you do what you do to me, yeah?

Why wont you answer me, answer me, yeah?

Why do you do what you do to me, yeah?

Why wont you answer me, answer me, yeah?

I am in misery

There aint nobody who can comfort me (Oh yeah)

Why wont you answer me?

The silence is slowly killing me (Oh yeah)

Boy, you really got me bad

You really got me bad

Im gonna get you back

Im gonna get you back

By the end of the song, Kurt was sobbing into his pillow, hot angry tears hed tried so desperately to hold back, falling once again. Why? He was so stupid for listening to that song. He should have just deleted the text right away. Just when he was beginning to allow himself to be happy, Blaine had to go and do this.

Kurt was torn, though, because as much as it hurt to hear Blaines voice again, he couldnt help but wonder about this song choice. He listened to the song over and over, noticing each and every tremor in Blaines voice when he said misery. A part of Kurt thought that Blaine might actually have feelings for him, and when he did things like this, (and his previous summers drunk dials), it just cemented those thoughts for Kurt.

He wanted to hate Blaine, he really did, but he couldnt. So, he laid there, listening to Blaine sing to him all night long. He didnt respond, he couldnt, but he allowed himself to hope just a little, in the night, knowing that in the light of day, hed go back to pretending Blaine didnt exist.

The rest of the summer went by fast. Kurt spent quite a bit of time with Matt, but they both realized fairly quickly that neither one of them had feelings deeper than friendship, but agreed to keep in touch after returning to school.

Kurt didnt tell anyone about his text from Blaine that night. Hed gotten others since then, which he deleted after reading, but couldnt bring himself to delete that song. He listened to it every night. Yes, he knew it was pathetic. During the day, he acted as if everything was right with the world, but at night, alone in the dark, he allowed himself to cling to the hope that one day, Blaine might come around.