Blaine sat next to Kurt, waiting. Kurt just stared at the key in the box, not moving, not speaking and Blaine felt like his heart was going to beat out of his chest. What if he was moving too fast? Hed thought the key had been a good idea, but now he was having second thoughts. What if he scared Kurt away.

Oh God.

He didnt realize his breathing had picked up until he felt a warmth around him and a soothing hand rubbing up and down his back.

"Breathe Blaine. Come on baby, deep breaths. Thats it." Kurt was whispering gently in his ear. Shit, he was having another panic attack. He hated these stupid attacks. They always made him feel so weak, and Kurt had already seen him like this too many times. He didnt need some wimpy boy who had a panic attack every time something didnt go his way.

Embarrassed, he tried to pull away but Kurt was just held him tighter. Once he was able to get his breathing under control he turned his head slightly and buried his nose in Kurts neck, breathing in his scent. Kurts hand moved up from its place on his back to cup the back of his neck, gently pulling Blaine back, but not allowing him to move away.

Kurts thumb rubbed back and forth across his throat softly. "Better?" Kurt asked quietly, trying to catch Blaines eye.

Blaine just nodded, not trusting himself to speak. He kept his eyes downcast, not wanting Kurt to see how vulnerable he was feeling at that moment, but Kurt was having none of it, using the hand behind his neck to move his head, forcing their eyes to connect.

"Im sorry," Kurt said softly. Blaines face fell and Kurt quickly continued. "Im not saying no to the key. Oh God, no. Quite the opposite. I was so stunned and blown away by your words that I was literally speechless. Im so sorry you took my silence as negative. I didnt mean to worry you."

"I..." Blaine had to clear his throat before speaking, and even then, his voice was thick from the deep breathing. "Im sorry Im so weak."

Kurt pulled him into another hug to reassure him. "Blaine, you are not weak. You are one of the strongest people I know." He pulled back to look at Blaine again, wanting him to see the seriousness in his eyes. "After everything youve had to go through with your family through the years, and then those idiots you thought were your friends..." Kurt stopped there and placed a small kiss on Blaines lips. "You walked away from them...for me, for us. That tells me a lot about your character."

"Yeah, it only took me two years of torturing the most amazing person Ive ever met, then almost losing him for me to figure things out, though. Real smart and so brave." Blaines voice was self-deprecating.

"Hey, you listen to me. What you did, have done, is in the past. Im over it, and you should be too. The only Blaine I care about now is the one that has been present since I sang that song at the bar that night. Thats our clean slate. Remember?" Kurt pulled back farther and picked up the box that he had tossed on the bed when Blaine began to hyperventilate, and took out the key, holding it in front of Blaine. "This is the best Christmas present Ive ever gotten. It is thoughtful and wonderful. Just like you."

Blaine blushed and Kurt smiled, but he wasnt finished. It was time. He knew he had to tell Blaine how he felt. They both needed this. He leaned in again and placed another soft kiss to Blaines lips, but before he could pull back, Blaine had a death grip on his neck, bringing their lips together with such force hed wouldnt be surprised if he tasted blood.

But Kurt couldnt care less, because Blaine was currently sucking on Kurts tongue and all he could do was moan at the sensation. Suddenly he swung his leg over Blaines and was straddling the smaller boys lap. The change in angle allowed Blaine the perfect access to Kurts long and slender neck, so he tore his lips away from Kurts with a loud pop and began licking and sucking his way down Kurts neck. When he found Kurts spot behind the ear, he groaned and bucked his hips forward, bringing their obvious arousals together, causing both boys to moan and rock together again.

He was worried they were moving too fast, but it just felt so good to have Kurt on top of him, holding him, kissing him, that he never wanted to stop. He tightened his hold on Kurts waist, bringing their hips closer together, never loosing contact with his lips.

Kurts body was on fire. He had no experience with boys or sex. He came from Lima, Ohio for Gods sake. Sure, hed moved to New York, a place not only accepting to gays, but a veritable smorgasbord of possibilities. But Kurt had always been into romance. Hell, he hadnt even jerked off until his senior year, but the older he got, the more he thought about and wanted sex.

Unfortunately, after Kurt met Blaine his freshman year, there was no one else good enough. Hed been hit on by some guys at random bars (he was so not looking for a hook up), and had even gone out for coffee with a few guys from his classes, but he always found himself comparing them to Blaine. And once they kissed, last New Years Eve, he knew there would be no one else. It was like a fire that started in their lips but ended up in his heart.

Whenever he had "those" dreams, the star was always Blaine, and most mornings he would wake up wet and sticky, but very satisfied. But now, sitting in Blaines lap (how did that happen), feeling Blaines warm lips travel from his neck back to his lips, his tongue mapping out his mouth, and their arousals rubbing together, he feels like nothing else exists but the warmth of Blaine. The tingles coursing through his body, along with the fire racing through his veins makes him want. He wants Blaine, and he wants him now.

He whimpers when Blaine pulls back resting his forehead against Kurts and breathing heavily. His eyes are dark and Kurt knows his must look the same. Blaine rocks his hips up slightly and whispers, "Ive never..."

He doesnt finish his thought, and doesnt need to. Kurt knows. "Me either."

"Can we just..." Again, Blaine rock his hips up, this time with more intent.

Kurt moaned and pushed back, growling "Keep going." He meant it to sound like a question, but it came out more like an order.

"Yes, God yes." Blaine breathed out before attacking Kurts mouth again, tightening his hold on Kurts hips to keep him still as he bucked up into him with much more force than before.

Kurt wasnt going to let Blaine do all the work, though, as he rolled his hips and pushed down, earning a deep moan from Blaine that reverberated through their attached mouths, and straight into Kurts soul. He never wanted to let this man go. As a matter of fact, he decided that he didnt ever need to eat or sleep again. All he needed was Blaine under him, around him, and oh God, someday inside of him, forever.

Their movements became erratic and their breathing sounded more like panting by this point. They were not so much kissing now as they were just breathing in each others mouths.

Suddenly Kurt moaned, "Blaine, Blaine, oh, oh..." His movements picked up to a frantic pace and he threw his head back, feeling his orgasm crash over him harder than it ever had.

At the same time, Blaine lifted his hips up roughly and shouted "Kurt..."

The only sounds in the room were their heavy breathing, and Kurt dropped his head to Blaines shoulder and waited for his brain to come back.

Blaine felt boneless. Sure, hed gotten himself off. He was a young gay man after all, but hed never done anything with a guy before. Hed only ever kissed one guy before Kurt, and that was back in his old prep school on a dare.

He knew he was gay and acted like he was proud of it, but in reality, he was a little ashamed. His family and friends were always so down on the idea of him not being "normal" that he never felt comfortable being with another guy, so afraid they could find out.

But hed always felt himself with Kurt. He felt like he didnt have to hide who he really was, and the moment he kissed Kurt, he knew. He knows that was part of the reason he pushed Kurt away. He knew he could fall in love with him and that scared the hell out of him, so it was easier to flirt and have fun with him, then push him away whenever he needed to step back. He hadnt realized how much that had hurt Kurt.

Kurt was the first to move, raising his head to look at Blaine, and what he saw had him catching his breath. Blaine looked so gorgeous debauched. His red swollen lips, cheeks pink from the exertion, beads of sweat on his forehead, eyes still blown out with lust, but also holding something more. Something that Kurt was sure his eyes mirrored...adoration.

"Wow," He breathed, then smiled.

"Wow indeed," Blaine answered, still a little breathless.

"Look, I know this might not be the right time, I mean seriously, we are sitting in wet sticky pants, but I just feel like I need to tell you, but its not easy and..."

His tangent was cut off by Blaines lips. This kiss wasnt urgent or needy, like the previous ones had been, but sweet and gentle. He pulled back and chuckled, happy that he seemed to quiet Kurt for a moment. "Ok now?" Kurt nodded. "Good, then breathe, and continue."

Kurt heeded his advice and took a deep, cleansing breath. "Im not saying this because of what we just did, which was fantastic, by the way, but I do need you to know and I hope its not too soon or too late but...Oh God, why is this so hard?" He rolled his eyes toward the ceiling, chastising himself. Bringing his face back down, he cupped Blaines cheek gently and looked into his eyes. "I am so in love with you Blaine. I know weve been through a lot these past two years, and even more in these last two weeks and I just want you to know that I am more than ready to move on. I want a relationship with you. I cant forget everything that has happened, because it has shaped me as a person, and I know it has changed you too. You are an amazing person. I saw that from the moment we met. And through the years, I have seen the good and the bad. I have been impressed by you and disappointed by you, but through it all, I have loved you."

Throughout Kurts speech, Blaine sat frozen. The most amazing boy, whom hed hurt over and over and who had almost said goodbye to him two weeks ago, had not only just given him the most mind blowing orgasm of his life, but he followed it up with the three greatest words in the universe...I love you.

Kurt was still cupping Blaines cheek and felt wetness, as tears began streaming out of his eyes. Kurt wasnt worried, though, because he could see the emotion in Blaines eyes, and it wasnt sadness, oh no, it was compete and utter happiness, which was exactly what Kurt was feeling at that moment.

"I..." Blaine tried to speak, but his voice cracked, so he cleared his throat and started again. "Oh my God. I-I so dont deserve you." Kurt opened his mouth to reply, but Blaine leaned over and placed a brief kiss on Kurts open mouth, effectively stopping him. "Look, we both know Ive been an asshole, but I swear with everything I have and everything that I am that I have changed. You are the best thing thats ever happened to me, and I cant apologize enough for all the shit Ive put you through in the last two years, but I can promise to spend the rest of my life showing you how much I regret it. God, I love you so much."

Before he could continue, Kurt leaned forward and captured his lips in a bruising kiss. Actually hearing those words come out of Blaines mouth send shivers up and down his spine, and he couldnt hold back, attacking Blaines mouth like it was his lifeline. Blaine reciprocated immediately and the two lost themselves in the kiss.

Kurt felt himself getting hard again and thats when he realized how sticky and uncomfortable his nether region was, and he was positive Blaine was feeling the same, so he reluctantly pulled back, eliciting a whine from the beautiful boy under him.

"As ready as I am to go again," Kurt said, explaining his reasoning for halting their heated make out session, "I think we need to get out of these sticky pants before we hurt ourselves."

"Yeah, right, ok." Blaines voice was husky and low, and oh God, the things it did to Kurt.

Spurred on my hormones, Kurt was just as surprised as Blaine at what came out of his mouth next. "Lets go grab a shower." He drew in a deep breath, worried at what Blaines reaction would be, but it his worry went out the window when he saw Blaines face. His mouth was open slightly in surprise, but it was his eyes that told the real story. His normally bright hazel eyes were now a deep dark brown and blown wide in arousal.

This got Kurt moving, sliding quickly off Blaines lap, trying not to cringe at the mess in his pants, as he grabbed Blaines hand and led him to the adjoining bathroom. Once inside, he pulled the door closed as he let go of Blaines hand, then he went to the shower and turned on the water to adjust the temperature. While he moved around the small room, he felt Blaines gaze on him, burning, wanting.

He turned around to speak and froze. Blaine had taken his shirt off and was in the process of ridding himself of his jeans, as well. Kurt couldnt move or breathe, so he just watched. Blaine didnt seem to mind, as he leaned down to pull his sock off, after removing his jeans. Kurts eyes swept over Blaines olive skinned chest and down his chiseled abs, and finally resting on his black boxer brief, that were sporting an impressive erection, surrounded by an equally impressive wet spot.

Blaine straightened then, catching Kurts gaze when he started forward, closing the distance between the two. Kurt breathed out then, suddenly realizing he had been holding his breath, as Blaine began undoing Kurts buttons one by one. The only sounds that could be heard were the boys quick breathing and the ping of the empty shower.

Blaine pushed Kurts shirt off his shoulders, running his hands back up his biceps and mapping out Kurts porcelain chest.

"Beautiful," Blaine breathed, before popping the button on Kurts jeans and helping him shimmy out of them.

Before long, both boys stood in the steam filled room clad in just their underwear, staring. What they had done in the bedroom had been amazing, but this, this was on a whole different level. They were baring themselves to each other. It should have been scary, but it was anything but. They had already bared their souls to each other, and this was easy after that, right?

Blaine was the first to make a move, reaching down and quickly divesting himself of his boxers, and he heard Kurts sharp intake of breath, following his eyes as they skimmed across his body, ending up at his obvious arousal. Kurt just stood and stared, until Blaine whispered, "Your turn."

Shaking his head to clear away the fog, Kurt slid his thumbs into his own underwear and pushed them down. Blaine stopped breathing for a second before saying, "You are perfect, Kurt."

Kurt blushed and dropped his eyes to the floor before reaching out and grabbing Blaines hand and pulling him into the shower. The warm water immediately relaxed Kurt, who closed his eyes and let out a moan at the wonderful sensation. In an instant Blaine had attached his lips to Kurts. Kurt gasped at the surprise attack, causing his mouth to open, which Blaine used to his advantage, immediately shoving his tongue in Kurts mouth, demanding attention.

His tongue, it turns out, wasnt the only thing demanding attention. While their mouths were attached, their bodies gravitated toward each other without the boys realizing it, until Kurt felt Blaines hardness rub against his, causing yet another moan, this time coming from both boys.

Kurt had no idea what he was doing, but he knew one thing, he needed to touch Blaine...now. He pulled back from the kiss, letting Blaine continue to rain kisses down his neck and chest, while he focused his efforts downward, reaching out and running his fingers across Blaines cock.

"Fuck." Blaine yelped, pulling back and looking at Kurt, whos gaze was still focused on Blaines hardness. He felt Blaines stare and looked up, still lightly brushing his fingers back and forth across Blaines cock.

"This ok?" Kurt asked in a small voice.

"So ok." Blaine breathed. "God Kurt. C-can I touch you?"

"Please." Came the broken response. Blaine didnt waste another minute, reaching out and grabbing Kurt tightly in his fist. "Jesus." Kurt moaned and momentarily halted his gentle touching, before looking up and meeting Blaines gaze. What he saw nearly knocked the wind out of him.

Blaine usually kept his emotions well in hand, but right then, under the warm spray of water, Kurt felt as though he could see into Blaines soul. Sure, there was obvious arousal, but underneath, thats what got to Kurt. He saw love and adoration and amazement and acceptance, and it was all because of him. Emotions unlike hed ever experience washed over Kurt and he just leaned forward and pulled Blaine into a hug. He just needed to be close to him, feel him, show him that he knew, he understood, he felt the same.

"I love you so much." Kurt whispered into Blaines ear as he held on for dear life.

Blaine did understand, and he released his hold on Kurts cock to allow himself to hug back. "I love you too. More than you can ever imagine."

He looked up at Kurt then and suddenly they were kissing again. The kisses started off slow and sensual, but eventually became dirty and messy. Hands began to roam and the room was filled with moans and kisses and eventually orgasms.

Only when the boys finished showering and were back in the room and dressed, did Kurt remember Finn. "Oh shit." He said, putting his head in his hands.

"What?" Blaine said, his voice filled with worry.

"Finn." Was all he said. Blaines face paled.

"Y-you dont think..." Blaine couldnt finish that sentence.

"I dont think hell tell my dad, but I wouldnt be surprised if he doesnt tell Rachel. Oh man, all of New Directions is going to know by the end of the party."

"Im sorry. I can just go. I dont need to stay for the party." Blaine said, his voice sounding guilty as he moved toward the door.

Kurt stood up quickly and moved to stop him. "What, no. God, no, Blaine. Im not, I dont want...Shit. Im just embarrassed, ok."

Blaine paled again and looked down at the floor, his eyes tearing up. What the fuck? When did he become a fucking teenage girl, getting all weepy? "I-Im sorry. I know they all hate me, so..."

Kurt looked at Blaine then and realized what he thought, and he walked over to him, cupping his cheek and forcing their gazes together. "Im not embarrassed by you. I promise. Im embarrassed because I was so distracted by you and your amazing voice and incredible kisses that I totally forgot he was even here in the house and who knows what he heard. Hes my step-brother and the last thing I want to think about is him hearing me lose control like that. But you just..."

Blaine smiled then, understanding. "I just what?" He asked, teasing.

"Youre just so..."

"So?" Blaine smirked, and the look he was giving Kurt nearly undid him.

"God, you are just so amazing. I literally just want to look at you all day long. Your soft, curly hair," While he was talking, he was also touching, running his fingers through Blaines hair. "You have to most beautiful eyes. I could get lost in them for hours. And your lips, God, you have the most amazing lips." He brushed his thumb gently against Blaines bottom lip as he spoke. "So soft, yet strong and possessive. After you kissed me the first time, I knew no one else would ever make me feel that way." Blaine sucked in a breath, but Kurt just kept going. "Your body...you are so hot. You have such strong arms and such a solid body. When you kissed me at the welcome back party and pushed me up against the wall...shit, I almost came right then and there. Feeling your warmth pressed up against me. God, Blaine."

He couldnt hold off any longer, leaning in and kissing Blaine hard, immediately sucking his bottom lip, making him moan and open his mouth, so Kurt could plunge his tongue in and taste him. Blaine fought back, their tongues dueling, as he brought his hands around Kurts back, pulling him closer pressing their bodies together again.

Kurt pulled back and began licking and sucking up and down Blaines neck, and he spoke again, in between kisses. "And now, that Ive touched you, felt you, watched you come, I dont think Ill be able to ever stop touching you."

"Oh God, Kurt." Blaine moaned, sliding his hands down to cup Kurts ass and pull their groins together. They were both hard again and even with the previous two orgasms, both felt amazingly close already. "I need you, fuck, how can I be this close already? What are you doing to me?" Blaines rambling was cut off by Kurts mouth on his.

The kisses were messy and amazing and Kurt, not wanting to take yet another shower, reached down and quickly undid Blaines pants and his own, pushing them down past their thighs and lifting both their shirt up. He reached down and grabbed both of their cocks in his hand and began moving up and down quickly. When Blaines brain caught up to what was happening, he brought his hand down as well, linking his fingers with Kurts as they wrapped around both their cocks, creating a rhythm together.

They stopped kissing, resting their foreheads together, both sets of eyes watching their hands move together. It only took a few moments, despite the previous orgasms, before they both were coming again, all over each others hands and stomachs. When their breathing finally slowed down, they came together in another mind blowing kiss before pulling back to clean up.