December 8

4:47pm

'Safe' by Westlife

My shoulder didn't hurt!

I took my sling off for a little bit today and Carole helped me move it around a little bit to test it out. There was no pain, which was super awesome, but I can't believe how weak it feels. It's like that time my dad pushed me and I broke my ankle when I was little. After being on crutches for so long my ankle got really weak. My shoulder feels just like that. Hopefully it will get stronger as time passes. I really want to try playing the piano.

Carole asked me something today. It kind of... freaked me out, but I think I managed to keep my cool about it so she didn't notice.

She asked me if I would consider going to physiotherapy to help with my shoulder. She said it wasn't like... the mental kind of therapy... I wouldn't have to talk about what happened, but just work to strengthen my shoulder.

I kind of just shrugged. I didn't know what to think. I really really really don't want to go back to the hospital. I know it won't hurt as much to ride in the car now, so it's not that I'm worried about the pain... I just... I feel safe here in the house. I don't want to leave.

Oh... also...

Since I couldn't make myself actually TALK to Kurt, I tried texting him to see if he was okay. He still just brushed it off and pretended that he's fine.

I know he's not fine.