December 1

7:34am

'When You're Gone' by Avril Lavigne

I don't even feel like talking or writing or anything at all right now.

Today started out so good, but then I remembered that he's leaving soon.

I'm just so scared.

I can't even breathe.

Kurt hasn't said much to me this morning.

He just went downstairs to get ready for school and I haven't seen him since.

It's like... he can't even wait to get out of here.

I just feel like in a few minutes he's going to be gone, with his own life and his own friends and his own... everything, and I'm going to be right here.

By myself.

It's true.

I have been... distant.

And I'm sorry.

I'm just... trying to practice what life is going to be like without Kurt.