November 28

8:43am

I fell.

I tried to get out of bed by myself because I had to pee, but when I stood up the pain was so bad that my legs gave out.

I banged my head on the nightstand and landed really hard on the floor.

I couldn't even reach my hands out to stop myself because of this stupid sling.

It hurt so bad.

I laid there on the floor crying like a little baby for almost 10 minutes.

I couldn't breathe and it felt like my whole body was burning from the inside out.

I tried to call out for Kurt but it was like I couldn't convince the words to come out of my mouth.

All I could do was gasp and cry and try to catch my breath.

I was so scared when I couldn't breathe.

It kinda felt like I was gonna die.

Finally I was able to reach up and find my phone on the nightstand, so I texted Kurt but he didn't reply.

I wasn't even sure if I would even be able to speak because everything hurt so bad, but I tried to call him too... several times.

He didn't answer.

That made me cry even more.

He said that he would always come if I needed him.

But he didn't.

The worst part was that I was almost happy before all of this.

Yeah - Happy.

When I woke up this morning I found a note from Kurt saying he was in the kitchen.

I wasn't even scared because I knew he wouldn't leave me alone.

Or, at least, I thought he wouldn't.

Now I'm not so sure.

For once I was feeling so happy that I almost forgot about everything for a second, until it all came crashing back down.

Literally.