Blaine took in a harsh breath. He looked down at Kurt who was looking up at him with those light blue eyes. Eyes that were full of authenticity and trust. He wasn’t lying. Blaine knew it. No self respecting teenage boy would lie about being gay. Blaine’s heart was twisting inside his chest. He desperately wanted to weep tears of joy. Joy over finding someone who was fighting at least one of the same battles, joy over having someone on his side, joy over finally having a friend. But Blaine knew deep down that it didn’t matter if Kurt was gay, because Blaine couldn’t let history repeat itself. He couldn’t let Kurt be his friend, because being Blaine’s friend always ended in pain. Blaine looked straight into Kurt’s eyes and resolved not to let this beautiful boy into his life.

“Well good for you Kurt. But it really doesn’t mean shit! What do you think just cuz your gay means that we are going to be instant friends?! Well, guess what Kurt, its not’s that fucking easy.” Blaine said with a sneer. “And who says I even want to be your friend Kurt? Do you think I’m that desperate?”

Kurt reeled back. He had to admit that he hoped his confession would bring Blaine around a bit. Kurt chewed his lip, unsure of how to respond to Blaine.

“I am sorry Blaine. I shouldn’t assume that you want to be my friend.”

“Well when you assume you only make an ass out of you and me.” Blaine replied.

Kurt held back a laugh, “Alright then, we don’t have to be friends but like it or not I am still your peer tutor Blaine.”

“Oh my god, Kurt! Can’t you take a hint? Why are you so hell bent on tutoring me! I am sure you could use something else to get your fucking credits for college or whatever the fuck you are doing.” Blaine yelled, throwing up his hands.

Kurt stayed sitting on the bed and just looked up at Blaine. “Don’t you want to graduate Blaine? Get out of Ohio. Get out of this place and start fresh. Don’t you have a dream that you want to pursue?”

Blaine stepped back. Of course he had dreams. Blaine desperately wanted to get away from this small town life that he had grown up in. Blaine slowly eyed the guitar and music stand that were in the corner of his room, hidden halfway behind his wardrobe. Blaine loved music. It was the one place where he felt safe, where he felt right, where he felt normal. He always wanted to pursue music but ever since his diagnosis he felt his chance at getting out of Ohio to do so vanished. But now with the help from Kurt there was a small glimmer of hope that ignited in Blaine’s heart. If he could get his grades up in school he could graduate. He could move to New York or Chicago. He could leave this hell hole and live his own life.

“It would be nice to get away from my parents instead of being stuck here for the rest of my life.” Blaine said, unwilling to divulge anything more to Kurt.

“Ok, its settled then. We will have a strictly platonic and business like relationship. No friendship just peers.”

“Fine.” Blaine said quietly.

“Good.” Kurt said with a smile as he stood up from the bed. “I will see you tomorrow at school Blaine.” Kurt headed towards the door and left without another word.

As soon as the door closed behind him Blaine sunk back into his bed. “What have I gotten myself into.” He thought as he drifted back to sleep.