Sept. 12, 2012, 4:36 a.m.
Then I Found You: Bleeding Love
M - Words: 2,378 - Last Updated: Sep 12, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 32/32 - Created: Apr 27, 2012 - Updated: Sep 12, 2012 699 0 1 0 1
Kurt felt sick to his stomach. It was knotted up and felt as though he just went for ten rounds on The Witches Wheel at Cedar Point. Yesterday he and Blaine kissed for the second time. Kurt personally counted it as the first since the original one had been the result of too much alcohol. Blaine counted it, but after five minutes of arguing the two of them agreed to disagree. The entire matter annoyed Kurt but amused Blaine. Was that going to be their relationship? Apparently everything Kurt did, even the times he worried, was adorable to Blaine.
He touched his lip, the cut scabbed over and the skin around it was yellow and purple. When he walked back to his room the day before sporting his brand new split lip, Finn reacted just as Kurt imagined he would. There was a lot of screaming and storming about in the room. He threatened to beat the crap out of Sebastian for him but Kurt dismissed it. Even though a bloody nose would have suited Sebastian's smirky face well. Even Blaine who accompanied him back said it would be alright and that he would deal with Sebastian.
The conversation didn't drop after Blaine left though because Rachel had come over, seen the state of Kurt and proceeded to give him a lecture that was basically one long dramatic "I told you so." Kurt refused to tell them about the kiss. That would have made everything ten times worse. Besides, Kurt wasn't sure about the relationship between him and Blaine. It was rather ambiguous after Blaine left. They kissed but nothing else was spoken about it. Kurt was rather hoping that was the reason why Blaine wanted to meet him here in the union.
"Don't pick at it." Blaine said sneaking up on Kurt. He apparently saw Kurt poke at the scab.
Kurt jumped a little but smiled at the sight of Blaine. "Alright Mom." He replied.
Blaine just rolled his eyes. He looked over Kurt and gave a sigh. That didn't seem like a good sign. Kurt tilted his head at Blaine silently trying to figure him out. After half a minute Blaine nodded toward the coffee shop.
"Come on, let's get some coffee. We need to talk."
"Should I be scared?" Kurt asked.
Blaine scoffed but there was a tiny wince that registered on his face. "Just go sit down and I'll get your usual, and our cookie. Okay?"
Blaine's hands were now on Kurt's shoulders gently steering him toward the coffee shop. Kurt didn't put up much of a fight. Things didn't feel awkward after the last kiss. It was as though that kiss had freed the two of them.
"One grande latte mocha and a sugar cookie. Look they're black cats now." Blaine said, he sounded like an excited child.
Kurt took the coffee and opened the lid to let a quick rush of cool air in. He lifted his chin at the cookie and then looked to Blaine.
"Aren't they supposed to be bad luck?" Kurt sipped his coffee.
Swallowing his first mouthful of coffee and looking directly into Kurt's eyes he smiled, "I'm sitting across from you. How can they be bad luck?"
Kurt blushed and smiled. It was all he could do. Why did Blaine always have to say things like that? Not that Kurt would openly complain or that he was angry about the adorable compliments. It just sometimes felt weird because no one had said such things to him before.
Kurt cleared his throat. "Y-you wanted to talk?"
The dreamy look in Blaine's eyes faded. He sat up a little straighter and let go of coffee. It was a little scary at how serious he suddenly became.
"I spoke with Sebastian." Blaine said, the inflection at the end of the sentence when Blaine said that meerkat's name was confusing.
Kurt clenched his jaw, preparing to hear the worst. He sucked in his lower lip a little when Sebastian was mentioned. "Oh?"
There was a long pause, too long of a pause for Kurt's nerves. He held his breath. Blaine reached out and put his hand on Kurt's. Blaine laced his fingers through his.
"And I broke up with him." Blaine said without further explanation.
Kurt sat there his hand in Blaine's feeling like he could fly away. He hesitated to smile.
"That's it? You two dated two years and you're just going to dump him?" Kurt sounded more bitter than he intended. He couldn't help it though. While he hated Sebastian with a passion he didn't want to become a pattern in Blaine's life.
"I thought you'd be happy." Blaine sat back angry.
"Happy that I came between you and the boy you loved for two years?"
Blaine scoffed, "Sebastian and I had problems before all of this. He's always been a little…jealous and sometimes controlling."
Kurt pursed his lips, "And he just let you break up with him then. Simple and clean break?"
"I told him things weren't working out and he…after a bit of fighting agreed." Blaine said forcing a smile at the end.
Kurt didn't feel good about this and he hated it. He frowned and pulled his hands back and under the table. Blaine's smile faded.
"You still love him." Kurt declared.
"Kurt, I want to be with you."
"Until you find another guy to be with." Kurt said sadly. "Blaine, you broke up with a guy you dated for two years for someone who you hardly know. Why would I expect it to be different with me? I really really care about you but-"
"But you don't want to be with me?" Blaine stood up and picked up his jacket. "You know what Kurt I don't get it. I thought I made it clear yesterday who I was choosing, and I thought you felt the same way. Now you're gonna sit there and lecture me on the ethics of relationships after you came in and openly flirted with a guy you knew was taken. Don't try and act all pious. It doesn't suit you."
He pushed his chair in and walked away.
"Blaine, wait!" Kurt scrambled to follow after him almost knocking the table over.
Blaine turned momentarily walking backwards. He shrugged and gestured to the table. "I guess the black cat was unlucky."
"Blaine!" Kurt blinked, tears rolled down his cheeks.
"I screwed everything up." Kurt pushed his fingers on his temples and leaned forward on his elbows.
Rachel and Finn stared at him from across the restaurant table. Finn quietly sucked the straw of his Sierra Mist. Rachel prodded the bits of lettuce in her salad and with an air of arrogance she tilted her head back.
"Kurt, you're my friend and I love you. But, this is the part where I say I told you so. Mercedes and I warned you against going after Blaine. You promised that you wouldn't. Now look what happened." She said.
Kurt blinked and focused his gaze on Rachel. He had a mixture of boredom and irritation on his face. "Rachel, you're my friend and I love you but this is the part where I don't care what you think."
Finn coughed nearly choking on his pop. "Um, I think what Rachel means is that she's sorry for what happened between you and Blaine. She's sorry it didn't work out."
Rachel's mouth hung open like some fish gasping for air. She pushed her salad aside and leaned on the table. Her eyes narrowed on Kurt. "You were hitting on someone who had a boyfriend Kurt! You didn't stop to think how that would end?"
His brow arched and there was his copyrighted bitchface. "And what about you and Finn? He had a girlfriend the first time you tried to make a move on him."
"Why am I getting brought into this?" Finn asked. No one respond. He pulled Rachel back and looked back between the two of them. "Both of you, will you just stop? You said it yourself, you're friends. Rachel, Kurt has a point. He loves Blaine-you love Blaine right?"
Kurt half rolled his eyes but nodded. Finn continued.
"See, and you loved…love me and I'm kind of guilty in the chasing after someone with a boyfriend department."
"Jesse." Rachel said.
Finn made a face, "The name didn't need to be said but yes. Can't you just be there for Kurt right now? And Kurt, give Rachel a little slack."
Kurt sat back against the cushioned booth. He folded his arms and moved his eyes to look at the tacky art in the tiny restaurant. Rachel did the exact same. They were way too similar sometimes for their own good.
"Well?" Finn asked expectantly.
Their eyes darted at one another, looked away, and then back once more. Kurt sighed; he pinched his straw and stirred his diet coke.
"Sorry I snapped." He said.
"Me too." Rachel replied. "But, you should have told me he kissed you earlier."
Kurt didn't feel like putting forth the effort to reply to her. He just gave her a look and went onto drinking his pop.
"Has he replied to your calls or texts?" Finn asked, he was trying to be helpful.
Kurt let out a heavy sigh and glanced down at his phone on the seat next to him. The screen was black. He pressed his phone to make sure he hadn't missed anything. Still nothing.
"Not yet. And why would he? I put my feelings out there for him to see. He broke up with his boyfriend after kissing me…twice and then I scold him for everything. I'm the biggest hypocrite alive." said Kurt.
"That's just the guilt you have for ruining his relationship with the boy he loved." Rachel tried to sound nonchalant about it. She came off caddy. Kurt glared at her calling Rachel a few choice names in his head.
"Rachel!" Finn scolded.
"No." Kurt held his hands up. "As much as I hate to admit it, Rachel's right. I screwed up his life because I let my feelings get in the way and I was selfish. I wanted him and now I can't have him because I screwed up."
Rachel frowned. She took Finn's hand under the table. "Kurt," she began gently. "I really am sorry. I don't want to see you like this. Maybe we can fix this somehow."
Kurt felt tears pushing on the back of his eyes. "How?"
Rachel was quiet. She had no idea and neither did Finn. In that moment Kurt's phone lit up beside him. Wide-eyed his looked down. A new text.
Meet me in the union tomorrow after biology. -B
Kurt's brow furrowed.
You playing hookie again?
Send.
Just meet me in the union, by the coffee shop. Wait for me? -B
Kurt took a deep breath. He showed Rachel and Finn the messages. There was hardly any debate from them. Rachel jumped excitedly at the opportunity and almost hit Finn in the face with her flailing hands.
Alright.
Send.
Blaine wouldn't respond to anymore texts or calls from Kurt so he had to guess the approximate location of the meeting place. He felt like a terrible person for going off on Blaine. Kurt spent the majority of his night and time during Biology trying to figure out what he was going to say to Blaine as an apology. Nothing he came up with felt like it would even come close to fixing things.
Kurt checked his watch after fifteen minutes of waiting. He took out his phone. He brought up Blaine's number and hit call. It rang a few times but something else caught his attention. Music started to fill the union. Other students lifted their heads trying to figure out where it was coming from. Kurt knew the tune to be "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis. It was slightly altered and coming from an acoustic guitar.
His head turned when he heard singing. Blaine was walking toward him, guitar strapped around his shoulders and a grin on his face. Kurt's mouth dropped open and his hand fell to his side.
"Oh my-"
"But something happened for the very first time with you. My heart melted to the ground found something true. And everyone's looking around thinking I'm going crazy."
Kurt felt his heart skip many beats as Blaine was only a few feet from him now. Everyone was staring at him and while Kurt flushed the deepest shade of red he couldn't help but think this was the most romantic, and yet insanely foolish, thing anyone had every done for him. Blaine took a breath and winked at Kurt.
"But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth. My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. You cut me open and I, I keep bleeding. I keep keep bleeding love…"
Tears filled Kurt's eyes as the whole union was quiet and watching Blaine's display of affection. Kurt's lips spread wide into a smile that was beyond happy. Blaine's eyes were locked on Kurt. He wanted to cry, this time not out of frustration or guilt but because Blaine was singing him a freaking love song. He began to hyperventilate inside his head.
"But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace, and in this world of loneliness I see your face. Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe."
Blaine was smiling now through the words and Kurt could see the slightest hint of tears in the corner of his eyes.
"I keep keep bleeding love…"
He finished the song and took a deep breath. Everyone around clapped and cheered. They didn't matter to Kurt. Blaine took the guitar off and set it on the table.
"I know you said no yesterday, about being with me but I'm hoping today you'll say yes. Because if you don't I hope you're prepared for a little show like this one everyday of your life until you do." Blaine's smile wavered. He was trying not to show how sad the thought of Kurt declining him was.
Kurt gaped at Blaine. He glanced over to the guitar. "Would you promise me a song everyday even if I said yes?"
It took Blaine a moment to realize what Kurt was a saying. He laughed and nodded in excitement. "Even if you said yes."
Kurt exhaled letting out a small soft burst of laughter. "How could I refuse that?"
Blaine's arm flew around him. Kurt nearly toppled over but kept his balance and hugged his new boyfriend in return. Boyfriend. That was an excellent title and proud to associate it with Blaine.
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