Kurt stated flatly, staring at the tub of ice cream through red-rimmed eyes. He looked up at Rachel and shook his head, wiping away a tear.�

"There is no way I'm going to add weight gain to my already sizable list of problems."

Quinn hugged Kurt tightly and put her head on his shoulder, obviously sympathetic. Santana and Brittany were giving each other a manicure, while Tina and Mercedes were both downstairs picking out the perfect musical. Kurt connected with Rachel's pleading eyes one more time before sighing and accepting the ice cream.�
He hesitantly ate a small spoonful before Mercedes and Tina burst into Kurt's bedroom, each girl carrying several movies, from Aladdin to The Sound Of Music to Rent. Tina plopped down on the bed and grabbed Kurt's hands.�

"So what's wrong, Kurt?"

Her dark eyes searched his, looking worried.�

"You can tell us anything, you know that, right?"

Kurt nodded, more tears breaking free as Funny Girl started playing in the background and Mercedes flipped off the lights. He sniffled loudly and a sob ripped its way from his throat. Quinn looked at the other girls in alarm, knowing that it was rare for Kurt to lose his composure.�

"Kurt, "

Quinn said, knowing she was treading on thin ice,

"Is everything OK with you and David?"

Kurt shook his head violently, not noticing Santana get up and kneel in front of him until she began to speak.�

"Did he hurt you?"

She said, her voice dangerous. Kurt, startled, gave her a wide eyed look of surprise before answering, his usually high-pitched voice low and thick.�

"No, this is all my fault. I did something bad. "

Tina spoke up again, calm and reassuring.�

"Kurt, whatever you did I'm sure it wasn't that bad. Believe me, I'm sure we've done worse. "

Santana laughed, catching a piece of popcorn Brittany tossed her in her mouth.�

"She's right. I mean, I've slept with every boy at school, been a bitch to every person who I didn't like, lied to Brittany, slapped more people than I can count. I drink, I cheat, I lie, I dine and dash, and I've slept with Puck, which is practically a crime in itself. "

�She counted off on her fingers as she spoke before �holding up nine of them. Brittany hugged her close.�

"You know I love you anyways, Sanny."

They rubbed noses affectionately and Santana smiled before pressing a quick kiss to Brittany's lips.�

"You too Britt. "

Quinn turned back to Kurt.�

"Well I think you all know my many mistakes. �Besides my goth phase where I smoked cigarettes and dyed my hair, I cheated on Finn with Puck and then got pregnant. Then I cheated on Sam with Finn, and I made Finn break up with Rachel, and I always treated her like crap. "

She hesitated, turning to Rachel.

"I'm sorry about that, by the way. You didn't deserve it. "

Rachel nodded, smiling and holding up her hand with the ring on it.�

"It all turned out OK. I mean, I do have a fianc� who loves me very much! �Despite my being the definition of a self-obsessed diva. Kurt, you can't have done anything we haven't. There's no judgement here. "

Kurt looked at all of them, for once completely sincere. He took a deep shuddering breath and looked straight at Tina while he spoke.�

"I kissed Blaine. I cheated on Dave with Blaine and I feel so bad about it because he was all loopy and he asked me to kiss him and I did and I liked it so much more than with Dave but I'm with Dave not Blaine but his eyes were so gorgeous and he's so sweet I couldn't say no and I'M A TERRIBLE BOYFRIEND!"

Kurt buried his face in Tina's shirt, sobbing helplessly as he clutched at the fabric. Tina rubbed his back and talked to him as soothingly as she could. It broke everyone's heart to see Kurt, usually so confident and put together, break down like this.�

The movie was all but forgotten when Kurt finally calmed down enough to sit up. Brittany gave him a hug and a kiss on the forehead.�

"Don't cry. If you cry you'll lose all your water and dolphins need water or they'll die, Kurt!"

Kurt gave Brittany a small, timid smile, tears still streaming down his face.�

"I think I'll be alright, Britt. Thanks, though."

Brittany nodded and cuddled up next to Santana, both of whom still looked concerned. Santana reached out and place a hand on Kurt's cheek, looking deep into his eyes.�

"Kurt, if you kissed Blaine because you like him more than Karofsky, you aren't helping anyone by denying your feelings for him. You're leading Karofsky on, tearing yourself apart, hurting Blaine, and if you wait too long, Blaine will be gone. "

Kurt gave a whimper of pain. He couldn't imagine a world without Blaine. Santana grasped his hand gently, pulling him away from Tina.�

"I know you're afraid to break up with Karofsky, but just because you're with him now doesn't mean you always will or always should be. Sometimes you have to do what makes you happy. "

Santana paused, aware of the complete silence aside from the movie.�

"You need to really think about whether he makes you happy, because if he doesn't, you shouldn't stay with him. "

Kurt felt fresh tears slide down his face when Santana said that, because right now, he just felt sick. He felt tired and miserable and like screaming until he lost his voice. He suddenly understood the desire to wear sweatpants and an old t-shirt and to sit around watching movies and feeling sorry for himself.�

"What you really need to figure out, is do you love Dave,"

Santana kept her dark eyes fixed on Kurt's.�

"Or do you love Blaine?"