For the first time since Blaine gave him the news that morning, Kurt was finally alone. He shut the door to his bedroom, locking it as he slid down it slowly, his vision blurring. He sniffed, tears streaming down his face as he cried silently. Why Blaine? He thought repeatedly, mumbling nonsense to himself. Why Blaine? Why not Kurt? Why did it have to be cancer? Why Leukemia, of all cancers? Why couldn't it be as easy as taking him to surgery, taking out a tumour and giving him a few rounds of chemo and radiation to be sure that the cancer was gone? Why couldn't life be simple? Why can't they be teenagers? Why can't Blaine catch a break?!

Kurt let out a frustrated sob before dragging himself to his bed and crying into his pillow. It felt like only a second when Kurt heard his phone ringing from where it was in his pants pocket. He sniffled, cleaned his eyes on his uniform shirt sleeve. He hadn't changed when he and Blaine had come home after rehearsal. He pulled his phone out and cleared his throat when Blaine's picture smiled back at him.

"Blaine, hey." Kurt winced as he spoke. His voice was hoarse and you could definitely tell he had been crying.

"Kurt? Are you okay? Are you crying?" Blaine asked, concerned. His smile dropping into a worried frown, hands stilling where he had been making tea.

"I'm fine, don't worry about me, Blaine." Kurt assured him, sitting up against his headboard, getting comfortable. "Did you get home safe?" He asked his boyfriend with a small smile.

"Yeah, I'm just making some tea to settle my stomach and then we can Skype, alright?" Blaine said, putting the mug full of water in the microwave to heat. "I just couldn't wait to hear your voice." Blaine's stomach fluttered as he spoke. Their relationship was still new, only having gotten together two weeks ago, he always got nervous when he said little things like that.

On the other side of the line, Kurt's breath caught. He was always thrown when Blaine said things like that, things that reminded him, 'Hey, Blaine's your boyfriend now. He can say things like that'. It never failed to make him flush a deep shade of red and giggle nervously. "God you have to stop saying things like that, B. You're gonna make my heart stop one day from beating too fast." He breathed out in a joking tone. Blaine chuckled lightly before speaking.

"I won't. I can't stop, Kurt. You're my boyfriend. You deserve all the flattery in the world. And it's my job to do it. Plus, you're beautiful when you blush." Blaine told him seriously as he threw away the bag of his tea.

"I hate you right now." Kurt mumbled as he blushed harder. Blaine laughed, moving towards his bedroom.

"Oh, that's not the message I got Thursday after rehearsal in the senior commons when you were under me on the couch." Blaine said. Kurt blanched. Oh my God, how could Blaine just bring that up?

"B-Blaine!" Kurt exclaimed, Blaine started laughing at his boyfriend's reaction, "You can't just say stuff like that!" He hissed through the phone. Now he kept thinking back to Thursday, the two of them had stayed in the common room after rehearsal to talk a bit before Blaine had to leave to catch his flight back home. They had started off cuddling on the couch and just chatting with little kisses in between words and giggles. Kurt had gotten a bit bold and deepened one of the kisses, which led to some shifting on the couch, Blaine ending up on top of him and before he knew it, they were making out.

"Oh come on, you can't tell me that you haven't thought about it since." Blaine said, turning on his laptop. "I know I have. And I'd love to do it again." Kurt groaned, hiding his face in his pillow as he blushed even though Blaine couldn't see him.

"Of course I've thought about it, Blaine." Kurt hissed, "But why do you have to bring it up right now? Why do we have to talk about it at all? We both liked it, there was evidence enough of that on Thursday, that's all we need to know. We want to do it again? Great, we will. Just... No talking about it over the phone." Blaine sighed as Kurt spoke.

"Fine, whatever you say, Kurt." He said, sipping his tea and Skype loaded on his computer. "I'm gonna hang up now and we can continue this on the computer." Kurt sighed, saying goodbye before running over to turn on his laptop, bringing it over to his bed before settling under his covers.

After a few minutes, Kurt's Skype was ringing, alerting him that Blaine was calling him. He smiled, clicking the accept button. "Hey, long time no see." He teased. Blaine stuck his tongue out at his boyfriend before drinking some more tea.

"Shut it, Hummel. You should feel blessed I'm even talking to you." He joked, sticking his nose in the air. Kurt laughed, shaking his head at his boyfriend's antics.

"You're insane, Blaine Anderson." He sighed fondly. Blaine just grinned at him through the screen. Kurt couldn't help but feel like this was a glimpse into their future when he would be in New York while Blaine finished high school at Dalton. They would talk over Skype, joking together and Kurt would make Blaine laugh and smile. But that might not happen, he was reminded when Blaine started having a coughing fit part way through their conversation. Blaine might not make it that far, and Kurt felt his heart break a bit at that realization. It was still so early in their relationship and yet he already couldn't imagine his life without Blaine. Even before they became boyfriends, Blaine was always in his future. Blaine was always there.

"Kurt? Kurt, are you okay? Why are you crying?" Blaine asked worriedly. Kurt brought a hand up to his face, wiping under his eyes, and surely enough there was moisture there. He sniffed, wiping away the tears.

"I'm fine, B. Don't worry about me. Just tell me about when your treatment starts, I wanna be there at least the first time you go in." Kurt said, shooting Blaine a smile he tried hard to keep on his face. Blaine paused, giving his boyfriend an uncertain look, obviously seeing past his facade before he sighed.

"I'll be at school for first and second period on Thursday, but then I'm leaving and getting a bone marrow transplant. Luckily, when someone gets cancer the first time around and needs a transplant of any kind, they keep them on the database and update their matches in case they relapse, One of my matches is from Toledo, they're coming down Wednesday and I go in Thursday at 2, but I need to be in prep before then. I start chemo Friday, I'll be out of school for a week." Blaine told Kurt, his face going serious from his normally smiley face. Kurt nodded, adverting his eyes away from the camera and the screen, avoiding Blaine's emotion-filled eyes.

"Kurt," Blaine said softly after a moment, his voice made Kurt wince. He sounded so young, so... So vulnerable, sick. "Kurt, please look at me." Blaine pleaded. Kurt sighed softly, looking up and locking eyes with his boyfriend. "You have to tell me if you get uncomfortable or overly emotional and want to stop talking about this. I know how overwhelming it can get." Kurt took a deep breath, a single tear falling from his eyes.

"I promise I will, if it comes to that. I just want to be involved in this whole process." Kurt told him truthfully. "I want to know what's going on with you and your life. I need to know what's happening with you and how treatment is going and if you're feeling off. I want to be the person you tell when your hair first starts falling out, the person who holds your hand while you're getting your treatment, the person who you don't have to pretend around. I don't want you to feel like you have to hide your feelings about being sick around me, your feelings about anything, alright? This trust thing goes two ways." Blaine licked his lips and nodded.

"I know, and I promise that you're going to be that person I go to when things get difficult, but only if you can handle it." Both boys know had tears in their eyes, hazel on ice blue through the computer screen. "I've seen far too many people drown in their feelings because a loved one is in my position and they literally do everything for that person. You know what happens to those people, Kurt? They break. They break so badly and they break into a million little pieces. They bury their feelings deep down and put their loved one before themselves, they get sick and depressed and if that person they're close with dies they fall apart. I can't have that happen to you, Kurt. You're too important to me." Kurt let out a deep breath, trying to steady the tears that began to fall.

"You have to stop being so selfless, Blaine." Kurt mumbled, wiping his eyes free of tears. Blaine gave him an incredulous look. Kurt felt like his entire body was on fire, everything heightened as Blaine spoke as if he were going to die. That wasn't going to happen, Kurt wouldn't let that happen. Not to his Blaine. "You're going to be sick before you get better and I'm going to be there to bring you soup after my classes are done for the day. I'm going to be there to rub your back when you're having an off day. I swear to you Blaine, I'm going to do everything to make this as easy on you as possible." Blaine chuckled lightly with a fond smile

"I should let you go, you're probably really tired." Kurt told him when the chuckle turned into a cough. Blaine looked up after taking a sip of his tea, his eyes looked slightly pained, not wanting to stop talking to Kurt. "Blaine, just go to bed, alright? I'll see you tomorrow at school, be there at our usual time, I'll bring the coffee." Blaine smiled at him, suddenly looking extremely tired. Kurt frowned, realizing that Blaine had probably been tired this entire time, keeping up an act so Kurt wouldn't worry about him.

"Make that a candy-cane white hot chocolate and I will give you the biggest kiss ever when I see you tomorrow." He said tiredly, smiling lazily like a little child. Kurt chuckled, nodding.

"Candy-cane white hot chocolate, will do. I'll even get Carole to make you one of those homemade breakfast sandwiches you seem to like so much." Blaine smiled widely at him.

"God Kurt, you're the best boyfriend ever." He said happily before yawning. "Okay, I think it's definitely time for bed. I'll see you tomorrow at seven in our usual spot. Bye."

"See you tomorrow." Kurt returned with a small smile. "Sweet dreams."

"Sleep well, Kurtie." Blaine answered sleepily. Kurt rolled his eyes and waved a goodbye before closing the computer. He carefully placed the laptop on his desk before returning to his bed, pulling the blankets to his chin, and for the first time that day, Kurt felt himself relax, thinking of Blaine's smiling face and adorable laugh as he fell asleep with a smile on his face.