If I Could Use Your Love
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If I Could Use Your Love: Chapter 20


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Story: Complete - Chapters: 36/? - Created: Jun 23, 2014 - Updated: Jun 23, 2014
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Author's Notes:

So there were no songs "performed" in this chapter, but there was a song mentioned:

Falling in Love (With My Best Friend) - Matt White

 

Also, I know a few people were really interested in what Kurt said during that interview in the previous chapter, and while I didnt explicitly plan to have it included in the story, I might be posting a side-canon drabble type thing on my tumblr sometime this weekend, if I can get around to it. If not, then probably sometime within the next week. You can find it under the "iicuyl" tag :)

 

Thanks so much for reading!

-Rae (tumblr)

 

Been&Done: EMMYS ALERT!! Best and worst dressed? Most surprising wins? Not surprising at all? Whats the latest scoop from the red carpet?? Find it all here!

Been&Done: [VIDEO & PHOTOS] Get the gossip from Kurt Hummel! See our interview here! Far From the End star talks costar Russell Bourdans nomination, show spoilers, and musician boyfriend, Blaine Anderson! Red carpet photos of the pair can be found on our Emmys Red Carpet page. We all know they both looked AMAZING in their classic Hollywood look, but how is it possible for one couple to look so hot?


Blaine hesitated as his middle finger hovered over the enter button on the keyboard. He wasnt sure why he was so nervous about it but for some reason Kayleighs previous warnings about fan sites had scared him a bit. Biting his lip, he pressed the enter button and was quickly transferred to the front page of the gossip site Kayleigh had taken him to before. He was curious to see if there was anything about him or Kurt from the Emmys.

He scrolled through for a few minutes, ignoring all of the gossip that didnt pertain to what he was looking for. When he finally reached all of the news about the Emmys, his phone rang and Kayleighs name lit up the screen.

"Hey, Kayleigh." Blaine answered.

"Hey, Boo, whatcha doin?" Blaine rolled his eyes at the nickname but couldnt help his grin.

"Im currently exploring the magic of a lovely website called Been&Done," Blaine said as he scrolled. He pulled his phone away from his ear as Kayleigh gasped dramatically. "What?" He said before she could speak, "Im curious."

"Well there is an article about you on there, kind of. Something about ‘Kurt Hummels fabulous arm candy, or something like that." Kayleigh teased.

"Please tell me thats not what the article is called."

"No, its not. Its really a little blurb, but there are a few links to different videos from interviews and a link to a song from one of your shows from about two weeks ago. I think its Falling in Love With my Best Friend, but I could be wrong." Kayleigh paused for a moment, pondering. "Yeah, Im pretty sure its that one. Youll see it."

"Why didnt you tell me about this?" Blaine asked, not in an accusatory way at all; he was just used to Kayleigh gossiping about him all the time.

"I was preoccupied with my interview. Ill make it up to you though. Give me ten minutes and Ill be at your place? We can explore the wonders of your adoring fans together." She offered.

"Sure, Ill see you then." Blaine hung up and abandoned his laptop on the couch, going to the kitchen to get a drink and something to snack on for the two of them once Kayleigh arrived.

She ran in moments later, not even bothering to knock as she pushed her sunglasses up to rest in her hair.

"Hey, B!" She called as she settled on the couch; Blaine came back into the room with two glasses of lemonade and a bowl of pretzels while she scrolled through his laptop.

"Hey," He greeted, settling next to her. "Are you ready to show me how to work the gossip system?"

"You bet!" She exclaimed, clearly more excited about this than Blaine. "Just do me a favor, dont take anything you read on here personally. Like I said before, it can get pretty intense."

"What do you mean by intense?" Blaine questioned as he took a sip of his lemonade.

"Youll see." She navigated the website easily, quickly finding the little snippets about him on the red carpet with Kurt. Kayleigh clicked on all the links next to the little blurb and opened them in new pages while Blaine scanned the article. Most of it was very neutral, commenting on the fact that Kurt had apparently been dating Blaine since early this summer, and talking about his regular shows at Giovannis.

"Basically all the juicy stuff about you is in the comments on these links." Kayleigh pointed to the right of the screen. "Thats where the videos of Kurts interviews are and all of the comments that follow. Most of the main articles on this site try to stay neutral, with a little teasing here and there, and what not." Kayleigh commented, nodding towards the end of the article where Blaine had read something about taking a poll to decide which one of them was the one everyone should be more jealous of. He blushed slightly at that comment but turned to Kayleigh with a raised eyebrow.

"I feel like Im taking a class. Gossip 101 taught by Miss Kayleigh Rooney."

"You are. Pay close attention." She grabbed his chin and turned his head back to the screen. "Are you ready to be hit with fangirl reactions?"

"As Ill ever be." Blaine pushed her hand away but watched as she switched tabs to one of Kurts interviews from the red carpet at the Emmys. The interview consisted mostly of Kurt talking about Far From the End, Russells nomination, and general happenings on the carpet and at the Emmys. When asked about his date he mentioned that he was, in fact, dating Blaine and they have been together since the summer. Most of the videos were pretty much repeats of the first, except for one where the interviewer was particularly curious about Blaine, asking where they met, and all of the juicy gossip they could get.

Blaine didnt know what to expect when he started to read the comments, but one thing for sure, Kayleigh was absolutely right about some people having... strange opinions. He scrolled through for a few minutes, trying so hard to ignore all of the comments about the "fabulous sex they must be having," but it was proving to be very hard when Kayleigh was sitting right there and staring at him, trying to gauge his reaction.

"God, theyre worse than you!" Blaine turned to her, figuring the best way to deal with it was to brush it off and laugh. "And they dont even know either of us!" He continued scrolling as Kayleigh laughed next to him.

"Yeah... I told you it gets intense. Soon enough youll be drawn in cartoon porn!" Kayleigh bit back a laugh as Blaine choked on the sip of lemonade he had been trying to swallow.

"WHAT?" Blaine coughed out, trying to breathe.

"Oh, yeah. I told you, people have weird kinks. Soon enough theyre going to be exploiting you guys in fanfictions and drawing really creepy pictures of you in all kinds of kinky positions. Perks of being famous." Kayleigh said nonchalantly as Blaine got his breathing under control.

"You are terrible." Blaine said, coughing once more and trying to glare at her.

"Hey, its the truth," Kayleigh shrugged. "Its a mad, mad world in the land of fangirling." She said over dramatically. Blaine snorted and turned back to the page.

"Ill just do my best to ignore all that, I suppose..." He resigned, scrolling through the comments once more.

"Thats the spirit!" He rolled his eyes and continued to read the comments on each video, relishing in the compliments he received directly, especially those with links to more videos telling others to check out his music. At first, he was really glad that some people were so excited for Kurt and happy that he found a boyfriend, someone he could be happy with, but that was immediately followed by a slight pang of guilt. Blaine still felt like he was taking that away from him. That guilt only increased further when he saw the comments about how Blaine was using Kurt just to get famous.

"Dont pay attention to those comments, okay?" Kayleigh must have noticed his twisted expression and the pained look in his eyes. She took the laptop from him and pulled up more videos from Gios. He didnt know who was taking them, but he didnt particularly care. Hey, it was a way to spread the word about his music.

"Trust me, B, theyre all just jealous, okay?" She soothed. "I know you love Kurt, even if you wont admit it yet. And I know both you and Kurt know that, so what does it matter what the rest of the world thinks? Dont worry about stupid people who hate on you when they dont even know you. Look at these comments instead," She pushed the computer to his lap, scrolling down on the YouTube comments to his videos. The majority of them were positive, and mostly about him and not his relationship with Kurt.

"Thanks, Kay. Youre the best, you know that?" Blaine leaned his head on her shoulder, taking a deep breath.

"I know; what would you do without me?" Kayleigh huffed fondly. "Seriously though, youre happy, dont let anyone else dictate that." She kissed his cheek and got up off the couch, grabbing the bowl of pretzels. "You brought out pretzels and no hummus? Do you even know me at all?" Blaine grinned and took comfort in the familiarity of Kayleighs tone. Some things never change.


"God, Blaine will you just hold still while I tie this? Youre being incorrigible!" Kayleigh huffed as she straightened Blaines bowtie. Kurt was failing miserably at his attempt to hold in his laughter and Blaine shot him a look that said, ‘dont you even dare.

"I know how to tie a damn bowtie, Kayleigh. Youre just being fussy." Blaine shot back, but lifted his chin and allowed her to fix the non-existent problem. He knew she was just nervous and wanted everything to be perfect. Her future may depend on this photo shoot right now, after all.

"Okay, youre good." She nodded as she smoothed the lapels of his jacket. "Now dont touch it! Go..." She looked at their surroundings, deciding where she wanted him next. They were behind the main area of a park where an old, now unused, set of train tracks ran. An abandoned set of cars stood on one of the tracks, now rusty and covered in graffiti. Blaine didnt question her choice in location; he actually thought it was pretty creative.

"Go stand on the end of that cart there and hold onto the edge of the bar." She pointed to a large cart at the end that looked more rusted than vandalized, and Blaine climbed up as he was told. He held onto the bar behind his head and hung forward a bit.

"Like this?" He asked anxiously. He was definitely not a model, and he had no idea what to do.

"Um..." She peered through her camera and angled herself from the ground. "Spread your hands a bit and dont lean so far forward... Yeah, good. Now just relax and try to keep a straight face without looking like youre mad." Blaine did his best and he heard the camera click a few times. "Look off to the side a bit, dont look right at me," she instructed as snapped more photos. Blaine concentrated as best he could, trying his best to please her. He really wanted to help, but he didnt know how difficult posing actually could be. How Kurt did this all the time was beyond him.

"Damn it, Blaine, you look like you want to murder someone!" Kayleigh pulled her camera away from her face and looked back through the pictures she just took. "Its either that or a forced smile. Just relax." Blaine sighed and hopped off the edge of the cart.

"I dont know how to! I cant... I dont know how to make a straight face on cue; I feel like it just looks blank!"

"Blaine, look at me." Kurt instructed from behind Kayleigh. He sighed again and met Kurts eyes. "Close your eyes and think about something that makes you extremely happy." Blaine did as he was told, like he had all day. He couldnt pinpoint exactly what was running through his mind. At one point he was at Giovannis playing piano, and then he was laying on his living room floor watching Casey paint, and next he was in Central Park, staring across a small pond with Kurts head on his shoulder—

"Open your eyes and look at me." Kurts voice interrupted his thoughts and he opened his eyes once more, meeting Kurts crystal blue ones with a small smile on his face, just the up curve of the corner of his lips. "There. Thats your expression." Blaine raised his eyebrows in surprise and Kayleigh cursed out loud.

"Damn, I think I missed it!" She looked back through the photos and squealed. "Nope! I got it! Look at you two; youre the cutest." She showed them the picture she took, right before Blaine had raised his eyebrows, both of them calm and staring intently at each other. "Dont worry, I wont use this for the portfolio. Kurt, youre a genius. Blaine, get back up there." Blaines cheeks flared as he stalked back over to the cart and hoisted himself up once more. When Kayleigh was satisfied, she had him move on to another one of the carts where he was told to lean against the edge. He lost the bowtie and pulled on a looser cardigan over his shirt instead.

"No, Blaine, pick your foot up a bit—no, not like that! Dont kick it out; you look stupid; bend your knee. No! Dumbass, you look like a cancan dancer. Just—will you stop messing with me?! Ugh, rest your foot on the—BLAINE ANDERSON I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DO THAT ONE MORE TIME I WILL KICK YOU SO HARD—"

"Kayleigh! Just tell me straightforward what you want! I cant keep guessing!" Blaine hollered over her. Kurt chuckled and came over to where Blaine was standing.

"Goodness, you two bicker like siblings." He said, leaning back with his foot resting behind him slightly so his knee was crooked just a bit. "Like that." He told him calmly.

"SEE?! Kurt knows what I mean!" Kayleigh shot at him.

"Why dont you just shoot him then!" Blaine called exasperatedly, then realized what he said and glanced at Kurt, who simply shrugged and looked at Kayleigh.

"Do you want to?" He offered. "No offense to Blaine, but I bet it would go a lot faster." Kayleigh looked shocked and stumbled over incoherent words before she was able to form complete sentences.

"Oh, I—I couldnt. You do—do professional shoots and Im not—I dont want you to—I shouldnt—"

"If I couldnt do it, I wouldnt offer," Kurt shrugged with a smile. "You can use the both of us for some variety." He bumped Blaines hip, effectively making him lose his balance and fall out of the way. "Scoot, short stuff. Ill take this one." He said as he relaxed back into the pose he just showed Blaine. Kayleighs eyes went so wide Blaine feared they would fall out of their sockets, but she shook her head and went back to where she was standing before, snapping pictures of Kurt from every angle while he stood there with such a calm and graceful posture and expression.

"Perfect! Oh, you are a godsend!" Kayleigh beamed at Kurt and then looked around. "All right, say no if you dont want to, but can I take some with both of you?" She bit her lip and looked hopefully up at the two of them, her short blonde hair swaying in her face a little with the wind. Blaine looked over at Kurt, a silent, ‘up to you in his eyes. Kurt smiled and nodded slightly.

"Where do you want us?" He asked her. She jumped up and down for a second before nodding towards the second set of tracks. "Kurt you sit on the edge of the tracks and Blaine you stand on the bar on the other side. But stand like youre walking on it, towards me." She backed up a little to test out the angles as Kurt and Blaine made their way down the tracks.

"Thank god you came," Blaine muttered. "She would have tied me to the tracks and left me by now."

"Nah, she loves you too much." Kurt grinned. "But Im glad I came too, this is fun."

"Your idea of fun clearly does not match mine." Blaine deadpanned.

"Its fun being behind the camera for once, just watching. Dont get me wrong; Im happy to help, but its fun to watch you two at each others throats and to see Kayleighs style. It makes more sense, all the strange things photographers make you do, when youre seeing it from their angle instead of the strange neck-breaking angle youre at yourself."

"More things to keep in mind for the future?" Blaine questioned, watching Kurt settle against the tracks.

"Oh, how the list keeps growing," He laughed and turned towards Kayleigh. "Is this good?" He called to her, leaning with one knee crossed over the other. Kayleigh sent them a thumbs-up as Blaine balanced himself on the edge, hands in his pockets as if he were taking a leisurely stroll.

"See? Youre getting the hang of it. Youll be professional-ready in no time at all!" Kurt turned back towards Kayleigh with the smallest smile on his face, completely relaxed and in his element. Blaine was amazed at the transition.

Kayleigh beckoned them back after a few minutes of having them change positions and adjust angles. Kurt helped Blaine up from where he was sitting on the tracks, a smile gracing his face once more.

"I think I might have enough for the portfolio. Thank you!" She hugged them both enthusiastically. "I owe you guys; youre the best!"

"Apart from my lack of knowledge in the photo world, it was no problem, Kay. Seriously." Blaine said, squeezing her arm.

"Okay, Im going to go mess with these, Ill show you the prints when theyre done!" Kayleigh leaned up and kissed both of their cheeks and grabbed her bag in a hurry. "See you later, guys!"

"She really is a great photographer," Kurt commented as they gathered Blaines bag full of outfit changes and followed Kayleighs path at a much more leisurely pace towards the parking lot of the park. "Im curious to see how they look when shes done, she had some good ideas."

"She definitely has a knack for it," Blaine nodded. "I hope she gets the job; she deserves it." Kurt hummed in agreement and they walked in silence for a few minutes, hands clasped and swinging easily between them without either of them realizing it, before Blaine spoke up again.

"So, I got my schedule yesterday. My boss and I met with my new agent, Maya, and we finalized everything..." He started nervously.

"For your shows? When are they?" Kurt perked up excitedly. It sent a thrill through Blaine that he cared so much.

"Its going to be a show almost every night for a little over three weeks. I start in a week and a half about an hour or so outside the city." Blaine told him. "I can give you a copy of the schedule if youd like. I dont—you dont have to come to any of them if you dont want to, or if you have work or anything—"

"Of course I want to go!" Kurt interrupted. "I cant miss it! Id feel like..." He stopped and pondered for a moment. "Right now I honestly feel like a proud parent. I want to be there to see your first little mini-tour!"

"Its not a mini-tour, its really just me playing at a bunch of dinner venues that Ive never been to for three weeks." Blaine shrugged, ignoring some of the stares that were starting to accumulate in their direction.

"Stop degrading yourself; this is just the start. Youll be selling out Madison Square Garden before you know it." Blaine hummed in response, but then squeezed Kurts hand to get his attention and nodded towards the gathering crowd discretely.

"Should we be worried?" Blaine asked, keeping his expression pretty neutral behind his sunglasses.

"Nah, theyll probably take a few pictures which will be all over the internet by dinner and then TMZ will have them by tomorrow." Kurt gave a slight wave toward the crowd as they continued walking towards the parking lot, never letting go of each others hands the entire way.

"Exactly how often does this happen that you know this?" Blaine questioned.

"Not too terribly often. Ive been keeping up more with trashy tabloids since we started dating so I could keep an eye on you." Kurt shrugged. "Ive got to make sure everyone agrees with me that youre amazing."

"Well, shucks," Blaine blushed a little bit, but mostly he was milking it as he flipped his wrist down playfully.

"See now youre just asking for attention." Kurt smirked as they reached the parking lot and got into the car, tossing Blaines bag in the back. They were silent for a few minutes as Blaine began driving back towards Kurts house from the park.

Finally, Kurt spoke up. "Are you playing at Gios anytime in the next week and a half? I have a crazy schedule for the next few weeks so Ill have to make some time at some point to see you play."

"I think Im playing Wednesday night, and then again on Friday. Then I start up on this so called ‘mini-tour next week so I wont be at Gios for another four weeks because we were both booked up until then."

"What is Gio going to do without you?" Kurt asked in a false dramatic voice.

"Hell find someone better. Or hell find another depressing college student that a hot-shot actor will pretend to date so he or she can get famous." Blaine stuck his tongue out at Kurt and laughed.

"Be careful what you wish for," was all Kurt responded, along with a wink. Before Blaine could react, Kurt continued, "Just make sure you get me a copy of your schedule for the next few weeks because I really do want to see you. I dont think I can make it to Gios this week." Kurt pouted.

"Im sure youll be able to make it to another show soon. Its not like theyre going to sell out or anything."

"Maybe Ill tweet about it to make sure they do." Kurt suggested.

"Are you going to tweet at me so I get more followers?" Blaine teased. While he did have a twitter, hed never really had much use for it, so he rarely went on. He supposed it would be more fun to use once he actually gained some followers anyway.

"I should actually do that... Maybe youll even get the verified check mark!" Kurt exclaimed, feigning excitement. "Then Kayleigh can brag to everyone she knows."

"She already does that." Blaine sighed. "And now shes going to go even crazier with those pictures she took of us." He tried not to think about it. She wouldnt do anything without his permission, but he wasnt sure he really cared, anyway.

"Good, more publicity without even trying!" The two of them laughed as Blaine pulled into Kurts driveway to drop him off. "Youll make sure to get me your schedule, right?"

"I will," Blaine confirmed.

"Thanks. Ill try my best to make it to as many shows as I can!" Kurt promised.

"I hope to see you there," Blaine said as Kurt pressed a quick kiss to his cheek before exiting the car. Kurt waved as he pulled out of the driveway, leaving Blaine sincerely hoping that he really would be there.


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