Sept. 17, 2014, 7 p.m.
To Save a Life: Chapter 7
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Song used: Not Alone by Darren Criss
HA JUST KIDDING WHOA DONT LEAVE ME
Actual song used: Your Song by Elton John
Week 5 Day 3
The week was extremely uneventful for Kurt. He wanted to see Blaine so badly, but didnt feel like he should argue with Burt, who insisted he needed to wait out his grounding to its full extent. It was more of a recuperation than a grounding because the doctors insisted he get some rest during the week for both psychological and physical issues. But Kurt just saw this as time he couldnt see Blaine.
So, the week consisted of baking with Carole, watching movies with Finn and Burt, and spending time with Aunt Annie. Whenever the rest of his family went out to the beach or the boardwalk, he would practice singing while she played the piano for him.
He needed to practice because he would be starting at the New York Academy of the Dramatic Arts, along with Rachel, in just a few months. He and Rachel had both made it into NYADA, and they were going to share an apartment together. It was something that he was so proud of, that even though everyone at his school had put him down, he finally achieved something he had worked so hard for.
In the end, the majority of that weeks time had been spent texting Blaine, or thinking about Blaine in anticipation of their upcoming date. Every afternoon when Blaine would go down to the lifeguard stand Kurt would give him a large wave from his bedroom window, and then he would vaguely see Blaine wave back.
He hadnt yet told anyone in the family, except Aunt Annie, that he and Blaine were more than friends. He didnt know how they would react, and he had never even seen how his father would have reacted to the knowledge he had a boyfriend, because he never had one before.
Kurt didnt know when the next time he would get near the ocean would be. He had been having the same recurring dream of drowning every night, which made it hard for him to even think about the ocean. Whenever he would go outside, the smell of the sea air would make him sick to his stomach, and whenever it stormed he would put the covers over his head and cry. He couldnt help it, and he wished it all would just go away.
It was finally Monday morning and Kurt was laying on his bed anxiously waiting for Blaine to text him with the details of their date. He didnt know where they were going because Blaine said he wanted it to be a surprise.
As Kurt lay on top of his bed staring at the ceiling, someone knocked at his bedroom door. "Come in," he said sitting up.
"Kurt?" Burt said as he opened the door. "Is it okay if we talk?" He asked waling inside the room.
"Sure, what do you want to talk about? Is everything okay?" Kurt asked sitting up against his headboard.
Burt sat down at the edge of the bed and looked at Kurt, "I just wanted to say that Im proud of you for staying in this week without giving a hard time. I really felt like you needed some time to slow down this summer. Youve hardly ever been home, always out and running around." He paused for a moment and sighed, "I feel like last weekend was just a result of that, never taking the time to think or plan things through."
"I know, Dad, and Im so sorry for putting you and Carole though all that. I think I needed some time to get my head together." It was true. After thinking about everything that had happened already this summer, he needed some time to clear his head. Especially after almost losing his life.
Burt looked at him carefully, "So, are you doing okay after, you know, everything that happened last weekend?"
"Yeah dad, Im doing much better, especially since you guys have been so supportive of me."
Burt smiled at him, "Okay kiddo, try not to get yourself into too much trouble since your officially allowed out of the house today. Do you have any plans?"
"Umm…Well, Blaine and I are going somewhere today. I dont really know where though…"
"Just as long as its not near the water you can go wherever you want. And your new curfew is at ten. Hopefully that will keep you from falling asleep again…while you guys were doing nothing…" Kurt could see that Burt was suspicious.
"Nothing at all," Kurt repeated quickly.
"Well, have fun," Burt said as got up. He started walking to the door before turning around and asking, "Are you boys doing anything that I should be, you know, aware of?"
Kurt blushed and bit his lip. Should he tell his dad? He knew he couldnt keep him and Blaine a secret for long. "Well…me and Blaine…its complicated." Is all he could get out.
"Is he gay?" Kurt paused before nodding. "Do you guys like each other?" Kurt nodded shyly again.
"Were kind of…well I dont really know what we are yet." And it was true, he didnt know if he and Blaine were together or just happened to be friends that had very strong feelings for each other. He was hoping this date would help them figure things out.
"Well Im happy for you Kurt," Burt said honestly, "I mean, Ive havent had to deal with you and the whole dating thing yet. But Im glad youve found someone, and if you ever need to talk Im here, or you can talk to Carole. I wouldnt really go Finn for advice though, I mean hes pretty clueless about that stuff and-"
"I got it dad," Kurt quickly interjected.
"Okay, well text me whenever you get to where youre going so I know youre okay."
"Will do dad."
"Have a good time kiddo," Burt said before walking out the door. Kurt sighed in relief before he reappeared at the door, "And youre not just going out with this guy because he saved your life, right?"
Kurt let out a small laugh, "No dad, I genuinely really, really like him."
"Okay, and make sure you thank him for that, from me and all."
"I will be sure to do that for you."
Burt nodded awkwardly and left the room yet again. That hadnt been as painful as Kurt thought it would be. His dad was happy for him, and Kurt wanted no more than to be happy with Blaine the rest of the summer.
Blaine (10:57)
Ill be over in two hours. I just have to make sure Jessica is taking over for me today.
Kurt (11:05)
Are you sure you can take off work? I really dont want to get you in trouble…
Blaine (11:07)
Its fine. Jessica is really nice about taking over for me. Oh, and make sure you wear boots and long pants. Were going to be outdoors :)
Kurt (11:09)
So, I get another hint. So far all I know is that its private, far away, and outdoors. I think you can tell me where were going now.
Blaine (11:10)
I told you, its going to be a surprise.
Kurt (11:12)
You really like surprises, dont you?
Blaine (11:14)
I love them ;) Anticipate many more to come.
Kurt smiled at Blaines last text. He was hoping for many more dates with him, and maybe he would learn to love surprises as well.
Kurt (11:17)
See you soon ;)
With Kurts last text he started getting ready for their date. He wanted to look good, but he was also going outdoors. So he decided to forget about comfort and wore the skinny jeans that he knew accentuated just the right places. He wore a loose, long-sleeved shirt and his lace up boots that came mid-calf. He almost spent an hour on his hair trying to get it just right, starting over at least twice.
Before he knew it Blaine was ringing the doorbell. He quickly ran down the stairs and grabbed his bag. Blaine was right on time, as usual. He was never late, ever.
Kurt opened to door to be greeted by Blaines smiling face. The same one he had missed so dearly that week. He was wearing dark jeans, a black v-neck, and black hiking boots. Kurt really hoped they werent going hiking.
"Are you ready?" Was the first thing Blaine asked, looking at Kurts wardrobe.
"Is there something wrong with what Im wearing?" Kurt questioned defensibly.
Blaine gulped and rubbed the back of his neck, "Of course not—I mean—You look great. But, are you sure youre going to be okay…in that?"
"Im perfectly fine. Now lets get going. We dont want to get there and then turn right back around."
They walked down to Blaines car, which was an old, black Escalade. Once they were seated inside Blaine reached behind him and tried to get something out from the backseat.
"These are for you," he said pulling out a bouquet of red and yellow roses.
"Blaine, theyre beautiful," Kurt said breathlessly while taking the flowers. "Im sorry I didnt get anything for you—"
"Dont say anything Kurt. This is our first date, and I really wanted to make it special for you." Kurt couldnt help but smile at Blaine, who immediately smiled back.
"Thank you," was all Kurt could say as he tipped his head down to smell the roses he was holding.
Blaine started the car and they drove off. During the car ride they talked about what Kurt had done during the week and how he was feeling. Kurt was still trying to get Blaine to tell him where they were going, but he wouldnt budge.
"How much longer do you think we have?" Kurt asked after about an hour of driving.
"A few more minutes," Blaine replied simply. They turned down a dirt road and all Kurt could see were trees and flowers out the window.
After about five minutes they pulled into a small parking lot that only inhabited a few other cars. "Were here," Blaine said as he pulled into a space and cut the engine. "I would now like to welcome you to Jakes Branch Park. When I was little, my family would come here all the time whenever we visited my grandmother. And dont worry, there wont be very much walking."
Kurt smiled at Blaine in relief as they got out of the car. Blaine led him to the back of the car and he opened up the lift gate of the van. He handed him a checkered blanket and pillows. "Interesting supplies," Kurt mused.
"Well we need to be comfortable for our picnic dont we?" Blaine countered as he pulled out a large, wicker picnic basket. "I mean we can sit on the dirt if you want…"
"No, no," Kurt chuckled. "Its perfectly fine. I just didnt know a picnic was my surprise."
"Well, its not all of your surprise," Blaine said while pulling out a guitar case.
"So were going to have entertainment at our picnic?" Kurt said calmly, trying to hide his excitement.
"As long as you were hoping for the musical stylings of Blaine Anderson," he said closing the lid.
Kurt couldnt think of anything he wanted more than to hear Blaine sing again.
Their walk through the forest wasnt that tiresome, even though it didnt help that Kurts boots hardly gave him any support. There was already a hiking trail lined out, along with cute little bridges and signs telling you about the different vegetation. About a mile through their walk, Blaine led them off the trail and into the woods.
"Its not that far," Blaine said as they turned off the hiking trail. Kurt followed about a foot behind him as Blaine cut through some branches. After about ten minutes they reached a small open area that was surrounded by trees and flowers.
It was a small circular area right in the middle of the woods that made Kurt question how Blaine could have ever found it. They put down their supplies right in the middle of the field and Kurt stood and looked around for a moment.
There were different colors of tulips planted everywhere around the meadow, with trees that just allowed a little of the sunlight to peek through, creating little patterns on the grass. The sounds of the birds and the wind in the trees made the place feel calm and peaceful. "Wow," was all Kurt could say as he continued to look around.
"Yeah. When my family and I came here one summer I got lost in the woods and found this place. It wasnt as nice as it is now though…"
"How did you remember where it was?" Kurt asked now looking at Blaine.
"Well, I really dont know. When I came to live with my grandmother and she finally let me out of the house, I came to this park, and stumbled across it again. I just sat in the grass, hoping all my troubles would just go away. I started coming here almost every week. I planted all the flowers, and tried to make the place look nice. It helped me take my mind off of things."
Kurt smiled softly at Blaine, "It really is beautiful."
Blaine gave a small in return and then snapped back to what they were doing, "You must be hungry by now," he said laying out the blanket.
Kurt paused for a moment before realizing why they were really there. "Yeah, right," Kurt said helping set out the pillows.
They sat down against the pillows, shoulder to shoulder, and Blaine opened up the basket. Kurt tried to look and see what was in the basket before Blaine quickly shut it. "Okay, so I got us Subways, I know its not the most romantic meal in the world but I knew your order since we got it before and—if you dont want it I understand—" He said, obviously concerned that Kurt wouldnt be approving of what he put together.
"Blaine, its perfect. You really made everything incredibly special. Dont worry so much," Kurt said, resting his hand on top of Blaines.
Blaine sighed. "Its just…Ive never dated a guy before, and I really dont want to screw this up."
"Its my first date with a guy too. And I promise, we could have had a date in your car and I would have found it perfect." They smiled at each other for a few moments. Kurt really didnt care where the date was, he just wanted to be with Blaine.
"Wait, youve never…dated anyone before?"
Kurt then realized he had neglected to tell Blaine pretty much anything that had to do with him being gay. Like that he was the only openly gay kid at school, or that he was even bullied in the first place. Kurt couldnt believe that he had never told him that, but it had just never came up.
As they got out the lunch Blaine had prepared for them, Kurt explained how his life at McKinley had been pretty much torture. He told him about how badly he was bullied and how some days he just wished he didnt have to go at all. As they started eating Kurt explained how Blaine had been the first real person he had ever identified with.
"Wow. And I thought I had problems," Blaine commented when he finished.
"Yeah. I guess we both have some serious issues…" Kurt sighed. "But, at least we have each other now, right?"
"At least we have each other," Blaine repeated.
Their meal continued in virtual silence. They didnt mind though. They enjoyed the peacefulness of the scenery and the songs the birds were singing. Kurt and Blaine would make quick glances at each other only to realize the other was already staring. It would end in both of them blushing every time.
When they were finally finished with everything Blaine had brought, they packed up the basket and laid on the blanket staring at the clouds they could see through the trees.
"I think that one looks like a dolphin," Kurt said pointing at a cloud.
Blaine chuckled and replied, "It actually really does. But I like that one over there." He pointed at a different cloud, "It looks like a heart. Maybe its the gods sending us good luck on our date."
Kurt turned onto his side to look at Blaine. "Blaine?" He asked shyly.
"Yes?" Blaine said turning onto his side to meet Kurts eyes.
"Are we…like…do you see us as...would you be my boyfriend?" He finally got out. It had been a question that had been on his mind the whole date.
Blaine paused for a moment. His face was ridiculously close to Kurt, and Kurt could smell the light scent of the cologne he was wearing. It seemed to be the longest seconds of Kurts life.
"Yes," Blaine whispered, with an emotion in his eyes that Kurt couldnt quite make out. Kurts heart almost skipped a beat when Blaine slowly closed the gap between them and pressed their lips together softly. Kurt eyes fluttered closed as he put one hand on Blaines shoulder and the other on his cheek.
They didnt move from that spot as they kissed. Kurt moved so he was lying on his back and Blaine was hovering over him, supporting himself with his arms. It wasnt needy or forced, just slow and soft, like they had all the time in the world. Finally Blaine broke away and whispered, "Can I sing you something?"
Kurt nodded and sat up slowly as Blaine moved over and pulled his guitar out of the case. He moved so that he was sitting in front of Kurt and put the strap around his shoulders. Both boys must have noticed each others lips were swollen because they both blushed and turned away their eyes.
Kurt sat in front of Blaine with his legs crossed and Blaine strummed a few chords. He couldnt believe that someone was actually singing a song just for him. He couldnt believe how special Blaine was.
"Umm…Ive actually wanted to sing this to you for a while now. But, after what happened last week, I just think I need to tell you how much you mean to me before its too late." He paused and looked into Kurts eyes before continuing, "I dont know what I would have done if I had lost you. You make me want to be here, living everyday through all of this, so much more. I dont care if weve known each other for only a few weeks, I feel like Ive been missing something, and Ive finally found you."
Kurt smiled and nodded in agreement. He couldnt really think of what life was like before he knew Blaine. Right now, in this field, he felt like they were the only two people on earth.
Blaine smiled and began strumming his guitar. Kurt recognized the song and grinned widely. When Blaine started singing, he was the only thing that mattered in the world. It was even more pure than when he sang with Aunt Annie, and he felt like he could listen to his voice forever.
Whenever Blaine would sing a lyric that he meant personally he would give Kurt this smile that would make his whole heart melt. Kurt knew he meant every word of what he was singing:
Its a little bit funny, this feeling inside...
By the end of the song Kurt was close to tears, stunned by how much emotion was in Blaines voice. Blaine just looked at him with wondering eyes. "Did you like it?" He asked as he took off the guitar and laid it back in its case.
"Blaine…I cant…" He couldnt even speak before there were tears streaming down his face. After all the bullying at his school, to almost completely closing himself off senior year, a boy had just sang to him about how wonderful he made his life. It was like it was all a dream, or something he had made up in his head.
"Kurt, dont cry." He said inching toward him on his knees. "Im not really good at this romantic stuff and—Im sorry—You want to go home? I mean—God, Im sorry, it was stupid I—"
"Blaine," Kurt said cutting him off. "You really have to learn when you just need to shut up and kiss me." Before Blaine could even react Kurt had pressed their lips together. It took Blaine a moment to get over the initial surprise before he started kissing back.
This kiss was different than any they had shared before. It was like Kurt needed to be closer and closer to Blaine. When Blaine opened his mouth to take in a breath of air, Kurt took the opportunity to slip his tongue inside. He slowly pushed Blaine down on the pillows and lay half on top of him, supporting himself with the arm that wasnt tangled in Blaines hair.
He started moving his kisses down Blaines jaw, and then to his neck, and then his collarbone, whispering, "thank you" between each one. He finally swung his leg over so that he was straddling Blaines hips. He ducked his head down and started sucking on Blaines neck, not even caring about the red spots he was leaving behind.
Blaine moved his hand to rest on the small of Kurts back, slowly moving it down until he was squeezing Kurts ass. Both boys moaned at the intensity of it all, which was new to both of them. Kurt instinctively rolled his hips down, and could feel Blaine already hard through his jeans.
"Kurt—stop," Blaine couldnt quite get out before Kurt rolled his hips down again. "Kurt." Kurt noticed Blaines resistance and started pulling away.
"Whats wrong?" Kurt said sitting up on Blaines lap, lips swollen and hair a complete mess.
"I think we might need to, you know, cool down? I mean we are kind of in the middle of a forest and all…" He said breathing heavily.
They were both breathing heavily and as soon as Kurt realized what Blaine meant he blushed deeply and rolled off of Blaine, and pulled his knees to his chest. "Sorry," he muttered softly, pushing his head against his legs so he wouldnt have to look at Blaine.
"Hey, no," he said putting his hand on Kurts back. "We have all summer to do…that. And its only our first date…"
"So you want to do, you know, that?" Kurt asked self consciously, finally looking up to meet Blaines eyes.
"You dont know how many times Ive thought about doing that since I saw you in those jeans," Blaine said, trying to help him feel less embarrassed. "And I didnt know that all I had to do was sing, and you would do it for me."
Kurt groaned and fell back onto the pillows. Blaine wanted to do that eventually, but he also wanted to wait. Understandable. And it wasnt like Kurt didnt completely try to eat his face off.
Blaine laid down next to Kurt, supporting himself with his arm on his side. "So you really liked the song?" Blaine asked smiling.
"I really, really liked the song," Kurt answered back, trying to keep a grin from spreading across his face. It was a few more seconds before Kurt sighed and turned onto his side to face Blaine. "It was really beautiful."
"Well I think youre beautiful," Blaine said lifting his hand to caress Kurts cheek. Kurt hummed and closed his eyes into the touch. "Especially your eyes, they were the first thing I noticed about you. Yours are the sweetest eyes Ive ever seen." He said in a sing-song voice.
"You took that line from Elton John," Kurt mumbled in return, still enjoying the touch of Blaines hand on his face.
"And I meant every word of it."
For the rest of their date, Kurt and Blaine rested on the blanket looking at the sky and stealing glances at the other. It seemed like this summer could be so easy, just being with each other was all they really needed. They had the whole summer to learn new things about each other, and they had the whole summer to fall in love.