The next few weeks passed quickly. After that uncomfortable dinner night, Blaine and Kurt developed a routine of keeping in touch.  Kurt would sometimes stop by the music store and they would go walking in the park or out for coffee.  At first, it was a little awkward, but they fell into a pattern like what they were accustom to when they were friends.  Thats the thing with kindred spirits, it doesnt take long for them to connect again, no matter how long they are apart.  They never spoke about the break up or their relationships.  They even kept away from conversation about their personal lives during the months that they were apart.  They spoke about random things.  They also texted throughout the day and spoke on the phone at least once.  They would tell each other about their day. Blaine would talk about work at the music store, Scandals, and his headaches with his parents. Kurt would talk about work at the shop, wedding planning with Brittany and his troubles of making sure his dad ate well.  It was all so familiar and much like the communication they lost the months that preceded their break up.  Sometimes both of them would leave a conversation sad, both wanting more.  When together, both of them had to stop themselves when they would inadvertently touch.  The hardest was the few movie nights they had where Blaine would come over.  Kurt would find he would have to sit on another couch or have Rachel sit in between them to prevent himself from cuddling up next to Blaine.

Talk of Joshua was inevitable and it always stung, but Kurt took it as punishment for letting Blaine go in the first place.  Kurt continued to talk to Elliot as well.  Nothing particularly romantic, though they always had a little bit of a flirty banter.  Kurt was candid about his interactions with Blaine.  Other than Rachel, Elliot was his confidante and despite their open-ended relationship Kurt continued to share his life with Elliot.  He hoped he was not just stringing Elliot along, but he was still too selfish to just let him go despite the fact he knew Elliot had feelings for him.

Saturday came along and tonight Kurt, Blaine, Brittany, Santana and Rachel were going to a club out in Columbus.  Joshua was working that night, which Kurt was glad for.  Kurt wore a black motor jacket, white color shirt with faint looking light stripes, a black skinny tie and black pants.  It was a more relaxed look, but he looked and felt good.  Blaine met the rest of them at Rachels house which had become the common meet up place when the five of them would meet.

Rachel lets Blaine in.  He wore a midnight blue shirt, pants a matching jacket with a black bowtie and his signature pink neon glasses.  The outfit is fitted and the pants fit just a bit short to show off his ankles.  Kurt and Blaine spot each other out right away and look at each other like there was no one else in the room.

Kurt spoke first "Well, its been a long time since Ive seen a glimmer of the old Blaine Anderson.  I almost thought he disappeared.  He says as he fixes Blaines bow tie.

"Well, Im been feeling more like myself lately," he says in an achingly sexy voice.

Blaine smiles at Kurt filled with adoration and excitement.  "You look good."

Kurt gives him a small smile hiding his own excitement "Thank you, you look good too."

"No, I mean really good," Blaine says eyes looking at him a bit hungrily. 

Kurt smiles at Blaine and walks away a little seductively.  Tonight would be a good night.

The club was alive with music.  Brittany leads Santana to the dance floor and Rachel joins them.  Kurt and Blaine go to the bar to get a drink.

Someone nudges Kurt.  He turns to give them a bitch glare when he see its none other than Dave Karofsky. 

"David, is that you?" Kurt give him a hug as Dave engulf him in bear hug.

"Kurt, its been forever, I see you and Blaine are still together," Dave says as Blaine comes up behind them.

"No, actually we are not, but still friends," Kurt says lightly with a smile.

"Oh, ok," Dave says a little surprised.  "Listen, Im here with a few friends.  Ill catch up with you a bit later." Dave leans in and says "You look great by the way."

"Thanks Dave," Kurt says a little embarrassed.  Blaine pretends to be ordering drinks, but hears the whole exchange.  He didnt care what amends Dave made with Kurt and what realization he got back in high school, he would never trust Dave Karofsky and he hated seeing his paws on Kurt.

"Isnt that crazy seeing Dave," Kurt said loudly to be heard over the music.

"Yeah sure, you want a shot," Blaine says as he orders four shots.

"Yes, please," Kurt said.  He did not care, tonight he would have fun and just let loose.

Kurt and Blaine joined the girls on the dance floor and danced without inhibition.  It was great, just like old times.  Kurt and Blaine danced with each other.  A few times grinding a little on each other and not giving a damn.  It just all felt good and god did they both miss touching each other.  Kurt and Santana started to dance and Blaine went to get them another drink, when he turned around he saw Dave dancing behind Kurt, grinding on him.  Blaine was not sure if it was the alcohol or the fact that he just was letting all his guards down for the night, but he just went with his feelings and made his way to where Kurt was dancing in seconds.  Before Kurt could realize it, Blaine pushed Dave to the ground.

"Get your filthy hands off him," Blaine yelled at Dave.

"Blaine, what the hell are you doing!?" Kurt said angrily as he helped Dave up.

The club kept pumping and very few people noticed their interaction, but Blaine felt claustrophobic at the moment.  He turns and races out the club.

Kurt follows him out a minute later, mad as hell.

"What the hell is wrong with you Blaine?!"

"Wrong with me, what the hell is wrong with you?!  What, did you like him all over you?!"

"First of all, he was hardly all over me, and second, Dave is harmless."

Blaine sits on the curb of the parking lot and puts his head in his hands.  He finally looks up after a long minute.

"What the hell are we doing Kurt?  This is all crazy."

"What are you talking about Blaine, Im just trying to figure out why you pushed Dave to the ground," Kurt says aspirated.

"Im talking about all the time we are spending with each other, all of it.  What are we doing?  We broke up."

"I know, I thought we were being friends," Kurt said, hurt that Blaine seem to be demeaning their time together.

"Friends Kurt, friends!  We were engaged Kurt!  We lived together!  I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and you threw it all away.  You broke my heart! I had to leave my home, my school, everything just because it hurt so bad to be around you.  Do you have any idea how hard it was for me?  All that pain and you couldnt even pick up the phone.  Not once did you call me Kurt.  After all we been through together, one night, and it was over and I was nobody to you, but now you want to be friends? I dont want to be your fucking friend Kurt!"

Blaines words were like daggers to Kurts heart.  He had told himself he would be ready if Blaine ever confronted him with what happen, but hearing Blaine in pain and hearing him reject him was too much.

Tears ran down Kurts face like a river. "I am so sorry Blaine.  I wanted to call you so bad.  I knew I was wrong.  I just couldnt.  When I realized how wrong I was I just thought maybe you were just better off without me.  But I could not move on Blaine.  I just couldnt live without you," Kurt said sobbingly.

"You couldnt live without me?" Blaine said to Kurt with a look of distain.  "You just have no idea. There were moments were I didnt know if I wanted to live.  I could not stand myself for thinking of it Kurt.  I would just lie in bed and think about how much I wanted to be with you and all our plans.  I just could not think of a good enough reason to get up and live.  My whole life was crumbling and all I could think of is how I loved you and that you didnt even give a shit enough to call me after everything.  I was just noting to you.  I may not have wanted to kill myself, but I didnt know if I wanted to live."

Kurt could hardly stand, each word that Blaine said was like a blow.  He finally sat down on the curb across from Blaine and just cried.

"I know what you felt Blaine, I was not far from those thoughts, you just have been more honest about your feelings than me.  I hid from my feelings and push them aside.  I pushed you away because I was afraid of losing you.  I lost Finn, I felt like I could lose my father at any moment and marrying you when the odds seemed against us seemed like a way I could lose you too.  I just let all my fears and frustrations build until I was just so cold and angry all the time.  In the end, at least pushing you away felt like I was in control of the situation, rather than losing you beyond my power.  I know it doesnt make sense, but thats how it felt.  The day I lost you, when you left, life became empty.  I literally felt like there was no more color in the world.  You brought color into my life Blaine, you made it so life was beautiful.  Losing you made me lose myself and though things got better, I just been living half a life without you."

Blaine was crying as well now. Kurts words were melting his resolve.  It made sense.  His heart ached for Kurt, but it did not take away the hurt he had endured for so long.  Blaine also knew what Kurt meant about living half a life.  Hes been doing that too, at least until Kurt came back into his life a few weeks ago. It all made sense.  All of it, but how was he supposed to forgive him, how did they go back after so much trust has been shattered?

He looks up, his face red and tear streaked. "So now what Kurt?" he says defeated.

"Be with me Blaine, let me love you again.  I promise I will never take you for granted again. I would work on things, on myself, nothing is worth losing you again." Kurt said desperately like he was begging for his life.

Blaine looked up at him with lifeless eyes.

"I dont think I can Kurt.  Moving on was the hardest thing I ever had to do.  I honestly dont know how to be with you again.  Its just been too much.  I dont think I can go back."

Kurt wiped his eyes, though there were no more tears for the moment.  He never seen Blaine hurt so much in all the time he has known him and all that pain was because of him.  He thinks about how loving Joshua was to him and started to let himself believe that maybe he was wrong to have come back to Blaine and take away the peace he has found without him.  The last thing he wanted again was to have Blaine suffer from his selfish behavior.

Kurt felt like the life left his body.  It was over. This game, this battle he been playing was over.  He knew Blaine loved him as much as he loved Blaine, but too much had happened and trying to be with Blaine, even as friends, was just hurting them both.

"I dont want to hurt you anymore Blaine.  Ill stay away if thats what you want."

Blaine looks up and knows that when they next part, this would be it.  He couldnt let go just yet.

"I know this has to be over, but can we just have tonight. I just need you tonight."

Kurt recognizes the pleading tone in Blaines voice.  It was one that each of them would take turns giving when the other one wanted to be taken care of.  It was the one that meant I need you to take me and make it all better.

Kurt takes his hand. "Lets go."

Kurt and Blaine end up in a nearby hotel.   Not exactly to Kurts standards, but right now, there was no better place.  Soon as they entered the room they both looked at each other for a second and closed the gap between them.  Their kiss felt like white hot heat.  It was hot and desperate. They were both acting on instinct, giving into their primal nature and kissing and rubbing on each other like their life depended on it.

Blaine let his head fall back against the door when he felt Kurt hard against him.  His desires was getting too much and the sign of Kurts need for him was almost too unbearable.

"I need you," Blaine whispers out.  Kurt licks the side column of his neck and pulls at his ear with his teeth.

"What do you need baby?" Kurt says the term of endearment he knew that would drive Blaine crazy.

Blaine whimpers as Kurt moves his hand down to his ass and grips and massages hard as he continue to grind his cock to Blaines.

 "Say it baby, tell me what you want," Kurt whispers as he continues his assault.

"I need you inside of me, I need you to fuck me," he says like a confession he has been keeping for months.

Kurt bites Blaines neck hard has he hears his words.  He takes each side of Blaines now untied bow tie and kisses him passionately as he walks backwards towards the bed.  They start to desperately remove each others clothes until they are both in their underwear panting with desperation.

Kurt lays back on the bed and watches Blaine look down on him like hes an ice cream sundae on a hot day.  Blaines hazel eyes turn a dark brown when he is turned on, which Kurt found seductively evil.  Kurt is surprised that he does not feel self-conscious, but he was no fool, he wanted everything Blaine wanted to do give him so he let his insecurities melt away with Blaines heated look.

Blaine crawls up over him and hooks his finger under Kurts waistband and slowly brings it down as he kisses down his chest.  Kurt quickly kicks the underwear off and sits up a little and takes Blaines underwear off as they continue to kiss passionately like they were each others source of oxygen.  Blaine gently pushes Kurt back down and kisses him way down to Kurts perfect v that pointed to perfection.  He nuzzles his nose in between Kurts thigh and breathes him in.  Kurt feels like he is going to die from anticipation.

Blaine knows the power he has over Kurt right now and relishes it.  He slowly licks the underside of Kurts cock and takes in the tip slowly.  Kurt grabs Blaines hair overwhelmed by all the sensation and that is all Blaine needs to take him in completely to begin a maddening pace.

Though he wants to close his eyes and enjoy, Kurt wont allow himself to take his eyes off his dark angel and looks at him as he drags him stroke by stroke to heaven or hell, which ever he deserved more.

As his toes begin to curl he pushes Blaine a little to get his attention.  "Thats enough baby, its my turn to take care of you, and I believe you had a special request."

Blaine kisses Kurt with lust and need.

Kurt almost forgets what he wanted to do, but regains himself fast and reaches over to the nightstand for the lube (thank you 24 hour hotel gift shops).

Blaine rolls on his stomach and holds his breath as he feels Kurts moisten finger tease his hole.  He exhales deeply as Kurt opens him up and pushes in one finger and then a next, and then a next until is he is writhing back aching for more.  God its been to long Blaine thought.  How did he ever survive without this?

"Kurt, please, I need to feel you" Blaine says frantically.  Kurt is sweating from his own desire.  He flips Blaine over and grabs a pillow to put under him.  He reaches for a condom but Blaine grabs his hand.

"I just want to feel you, I know you Kurt, have you been tested recently?" Blaine says with needy eyes.  Kurt looks deep in his eyes "No, theres no need.  Its only been you."  Blaine couldnt feel more close to Kurt as he did right then.

"What about you, have you been tested since Joshua?"  Kurt says as he kisses Blaines neck. 

"We havent, I couldnt yet...Its just been you."

 Kurt looks down on Blaine with awe.  He is determined to worship Blaines body like he has never before. He spreads Blaines legs wide and lines himself up.  As he pushes in, both men close their eyes from how overwhelmingly good and perfect it feels to be one again. 

 As Kurt bottoms out he pauses and catches his breath.  Blaine reaches above him and grabs one of the metal poles of the bedhead and pushes on Kurt desperate for movement.

"Please Kurt, I cant take it, just fuck me"

Kurt respond automatically like he was programmed to obey Blaines command.  He starts off slow, savoring every push and grind until Blaine digs his fingernails in to his back and pushes up back faster.

Kurt cant hold back anymore and even though he wants the moment to last forever he knew it was time for both of them to find their release soon before they explode.

Kurt lifts Blaines legs over his shoulders and starts a relentless pace.  Kurt moans at the incredible feeling and Blaine cant help but growl almost primitively as he becomes undone by the sound and feel of Kurt.

Kurt moves his hand down towards Blaine cock as he feels himself getting close, but Blaine bats his hand away.  "Just you inside me.  Its enough, Im close."

Kurt moves his hand up and grips the hand that Blaine has on the bead post.  They move their hands down together on the bed and hold on to each other for support as they reach the moment of pure ecstasy.

Both Kurt and Blaine could not hold back their tears as they both reach their release one after the other.  The moment was too perfect and bittersweet at the same time.

There are no more words.  Kurt pulls out and drops to Blaines side.  Blaine nuzzles close to him and puts his head on his chest. They lie there in silence for a while, Kurt listening to Blaine breath and Blaine listening to Kurts heartbeat.

They fall asleep for a brief period and then Blaine wakes to find Kurt dressed and moving to grab his phone off the table.  Blaine sits up and Kurt looks away as he grabs his jacket.

"I am truly sorry Blaine.  I didnt come back here to hurt you.  I love you.  I always have loved you and I always will love you, but I wont hurt you anymore. Though it hurts to think about us not even being friends, I think we know that we could never be just friends, not after the love we shared.  Ill stay away."

Kurt braves himself to look at Blaine, needing to see his response.  Blaine looks at him and then looks down and nods his head.  Kurt walks out and Blaine lets the weight of night put him in a dead sleep.

Early that morning, Blaine is awaken by the buzzing of his phone.

"What the hell Hobbit, where have you been? I been calling you for hours!"

Blaine felt empty and drained "Its finally over Tana."

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Later that morning Kurt woke up in his bed with a huge headache.  He got up, washed his face and took two aspirins.  He steeled himself with determination.  Things had to be over now between him and Blaine.  They both had to move on.  Whether they liked it or not, it was over.

Kurt felt he needed to seal his fate in some way. He needed to make things final.  He picked up the phone and dialed.

"Hey, its me.  Its over between me and Blaine.  Im ready to move on.  Howd you like to be my date for a wedding?"