Feb. 29, 2016, 6 p.m.
Getting To Happily Ever After: Chapter 13: Closure?
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Third chapter for the day. I wanted to get out Blaines perspective along with Kurts after the first meeting.
Let me know what you think.
Blaine lays into the punching bag in front of him and lets all his frustration out. Wes looks at him knowingly. After all these years, Blaine still uses boxing as an outlet for his frustrations. Wes waited for a way to segue into conversation.
"So is that bag supposed to represent Kurt?" Wes says as he sits on a bench next to Blaine.
Just hearing Kurts name makes Blaine speed up his pace. Blaine finally stops and starts to untie his gloves. He is dripping with sweat and knows hes going to pay later with soreness from going so hard, at least he got to relieve some of the stress hes been shouldering since last night.
"I just cant believe him. This is just classic Kurt Hummel. He is so self-involved. He doesnt speak to me for five months. Five months Wes, he doesnt say a word to me and then he just shows and says he wants to get back together."
Wes couldnt help laugh a little. It was classic Kurt to be oblivious to how selfish last nights act was. He knows Kurt is wrong for not reaching out to Blaine and for ultimately hurting Blaine the way he did, but he knew, like anyone who knew Kurt and Blaine that they really were meant to be with each other and that Kurt really was not as selfish as it may seem, at least not where Blaine was concerned.
"There is no doubt Kurt is wrong in this scenario. What nerve he has showing up the way he did, but how do you feel about the whole thing?"
"How do I feel?! I am angry! I am I really supposed to take him seriously?! He had his chance and he made a decision months ago. Its over, I moved on, I have a new boyfriend and I am moving on with my life and I wont let him waltz back into my life that easily."
"Well, you know I support you in any decision you make. I know you are angry and believe me, I think you have every reason to be, but I also think that before Kurt disappears again, you need to deal with the things that you two left unresolved. I think you and I both know that Kurt is not just a guy in your life you can write off as a mistake and just move on from. What you two had was deep. You were engaged for god sakes, you planned to spend the rest of your lives with each other. Maybe you two need to talk."
"If he wanted to talk he could have called me for months."
"Well, so could have you Blaine. Yes, how things were left, it probably should have been Kurt that made the move to reach out, but you also could have called. Things were not right with the two for while before you broke up."
Blaine exhales deeply and sit downs. He closes his eyes puts his head in his hands. Feeling a bit defeated, he knows that Wess words ring truth. Kurt had been an asshole, but he was an adult, and if he wanted closure, he should have faced things and just called Kurt and asked the million questions he had. He also knew that even though Kurt really hurt him, there were things that had been building for months that he neglected to pay attention to and that he probably had some amends to make as well."
"I just couldnt bear getting hurt anymore Wes. Its taken me nearly all this time to pick myself up back again."
"Thats totally understandable Blaine. I am just saying that this may be an opportunity to find out why things went the way it did and to figure out what you want, once you hear him out. Are you really done with Kurt?"
Blaine felt his anger rising again, all this just felt so unfair.
"The break up was not my idea. I did not have a choice. He practically said he did not love me and he certainly did not want to marry me. What was I supposed to do?"
Wes shakes his head. "Listen, I wont even try to figure out why Kurt did and said what he did. It doesnt make any sense. What I do know is that there is no way Kurt did not love you. You know that and from what he said last night, he wants you back. Would you want to give him a chance?"
Blaine uses his anger to push away some feeling of doubts and feeling of longing for Kurt that was starting to surface.
"I have a boyfriend. Joshua is a good guy. I just feel like I have finally moved on, I just dont want to go backwards."
"How do you feel about Joshua?" says hoping to get his friend to look at the situation from all sides.
Blaine feels a little uncomfortable talking about Joshua. He really did not like having to examine their relationship too closely.
"I like him a lot. He is kind and thoughtful and most of all he helps me not to think of Kurt. Weve been dating a couple of months now and I enjoy spending time with him. Intimately, we kind of been taking things slow, I mean weve done things, but we have not....you know, we are just not there yet. He knows I been through a bad break up and he is not pushing for anything to move fast in any part of the relationship. What more could I ask for?"
"To be in love. I mean he sounds like a great guy, but you hardly sound over the moon for him. He kind of sounds convenient" Wes says sincerely.
"I dont know if I would ever be over the moon for someone again, at least not for a long time. I was and I put myself on the line and I almost did not survive it." Blaine says honestly. This was his reality whether he liked it or not.
"Well, I do hope you can feel that way again, what I just want to make sure is that you are giving up on your relationship with Kurt because it is really over between you two".
Over, Blaine just believed it was over. He just had to make himself accept it despite his conflicting feelings.
"I just dont see how it can be anything but over" Blaine said wearily.
"Well, I think maybe you should just think about things a bit. If it is over, maybe you can get some closure while Kurt is here and really move on."
"Yeah", Blaine thought. Maybe he should get closure and finally let Kurt Hummel out of his heart and his life.