Cradle to Grave
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Cradle to Grave: Chapter 64


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Story: Closed - Chapters: 67/? - Created: Aug 20, 2012 - Updated: Sep 11, 2013
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Blaine knew that walking out of Kurt's life for good was probably for the best but he refused to do that. He knew that Kurt would never stop loving him and needing him and Blaine felt the same. He could never stop loving Kurt and he would never stop needing him. Blaine was a screw up, he knew that, but he needed his Kurt back. If he could never have his dream, he would be happy as long as he had Kurt in his life. He wanted to shout at Rachel badly. But he just felt sick with guilt. He needed to talk to Kurt, tell him that James meant nothing to him. It was a stupid crush that lasted five minutes and what Kurt thought was sex, wasn't actually sex.
"Please Rachel, let me see him. This isn't anything to do with you, it's between Kurt and I. We just need to talk and if he wants me to leave after hearing me out then i will. I just need to talk to him." Blaine begged her.
~Fine." Rachel told him what number to look for and Blaine shot off trying to find the door. When he got there, he banged on the door. Not saying anything so that Kurt would answer. He knocked again and waited. The door opened and there was Kurt. He looked like Kurt, but a more tired and miserable Kurt. He looked surprised to see Blaine. But what Blaine didn't expect to see was a guy standing in the middle of the room.
"Who is it babe?" The guy called to Kurt.
"It's... no one." Kurt said and closed the door.
Blaine stood there, trying to work out what was going on. Kurt had a new boyfriend? But Kurt was supposed to be struggling to get over Blaine, why was he there with someone else? Unless he was sleeping with other guys to try and get over Blaine. Blaine felt like crap, his heart hurt and he felt jealous. Really jealous. Another guy would touch Kurt, get to kiss him, hug him, see him naked, Blaine's teeth ground together and his fists clenched at the thought. And Kurt called him "no one" which really hurt. It wasn't like Blaine didn't deserve it because he did. Blaine turned and walked away, he would try and talk to Kurt when that guy wasn't there. When Blaine sat outside, all he could think about was Kurt with another guy and how much Blaine hated it and how much he wanted to go and punch the guy. Kurt was his and they both knew it. He watched the place and saw the guy leave, so he took his chance and he ran back to Kurt's place. When the door opened, he didn't give Kurt a chance to slam the door in his face, he slid past and walked into the apartment.
"Blaine! Do you mind?" Kurt snapped. "Please leave."
"I'm not leaving until we talk." Blaine told him, making himself comfortable. "Nice place."
"What do you want?"
"To talk." Blaine said.
"About what?" Kurt stood there with his arms folded and looking annoyed. He looked really adorable when he was angry, Blaine didn't know why.
"What happened, you and me, James, that guy."
"What guy?"
"That guy who was just here, you know, the one that called you "babe"." Blaine said. "Your boyfriend."
"I don't have a boyfriend, not that it's any of your business." Kurt replied.
"So what was he doing here? Was he... were you two...? He called you babe." Blaine was confused.
"Were we what?" Kurt asked. "Wait, are you asking if i slept with him?"
Blaine said nothing. He didn't know but now, from the look on Kurt's face and the way he spoke. He knew that Kurt didn't sleep with anyone, he really was the heartbroken Kurt that he was told about.
"How dare you! I haven't had sex with anyone, not since you. I haven't kissed anyone either. Rachel set me up on a date a little while ago and i didn't even try to talk to the guy. The one you saw here, he was a friend of Rachel's. He was one of the first people she met here. His name is Joey. She was worried about me so she asked him to come and watch me while she went out. He called me "babe" because that's what he calls everyone. I didn't need to explain that to you but i did, so now you can leave." Kurt told Blaine.
"I'm sorry." Blaine said. "Look, i want us to talk and fix things."
"Fix things? Are you joking? You took my heart and you smashed to pieces. You waited until i glued my heart back together after you cheated on me, then you took it again and you smashed it. You broke me. I know that you lost your memory and i do blame you for that. You were stupid enough to get into that car drunk! You crashed because you were drunk. You rejected my love and friendship and you pushed me away. Then you flirted with the nurse right in front of me, you kissed him in front of me and then you had sex in the next room! You don't love me, you didn't even want to be my friend. If you cared about me at all, you wouldn't have done all that stuff to me. You don't care about me at all." Kurt cried.
"I didn't have sex with James." Blaine said.
"I heard you." Kurt replied.
"You heard moaning, which was me trying to get him off of me. I told him not to do it because of you, because i wasn't sure if my memories would ever come back. I know how you feel about me and i didn't want to hurt you anymore than i have. Seeing you so hurt breaks my heart and knowing i did it just makes it worse. I knew that if you walked in while i was doing something with another guy, it would destroy you and i couldn't do that to you. I told him that i couldn't get into a relationship because i wouldn't know if my memory would ever come back and if it did, whether my feelings would return too. I didn't want to have to choose and i told him that if they did return, i wouldn't choose him. He tried to get me naked and have sex with me but i refused because of you." Blaine told Kurt.
"But if you don't love me, why didn't you just have sex with him?"
"I care about you, i always have and i always will. And i do love you. The day of Graduation i got my first memory back and since then more and more have come back. So have my feelings and i know that i love you with all my heart. I went to tell you about the memory but by the time i got home, you had already gone and it hurt that you left like that. I tried to call you but you didn't answer, i kept texting you but you didn't reply. I'm now guessing that you just deleted the texts without reading them. But Kurt, i really do love you. You're the love of my life and i regret everything that happened, with James and everything with me." Blaine got up and walked over to Kurt, his hands cupping Kurt's face.
"But what James said to me..."
"What did he say?"
"That you two slept together, that you two did a lot of stuff. That you said we were over for good, you don't care about me and whether or not i heard you two. That i should get used to seeing you with other guys and that i won't ever get a boyfriend or have sex again, so you suggested that i invest in a dildo because that's the only way i'll get screwed." A tear slid down Kurt's cheek. Blaine's thumb caught it and brushed it away.
"I never said that. He was upset because i rejected him so he thought he could hurt you in return. We aren't over for good, i don't want us to be. I really care about you and i don't want to be with another guy who isn't you. I want you to have sex, i do, with me and if you want a dildo then you can have one. Just let me show you how to use it sometime. I love you, i really do." Blaine smiled at Kurt before leaning in and pressing their lips together.

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