A couple of weeks had gone past since Kurt left and Blaine felt nothing but sick. He was so guilty and he missed Kurt. He missed his best friend. He had tried calling Kurt but there was no answer, not that he expected one. He broke Kurt's heart really badly and what made it worse was that he kept doing it and he didn't get to make up for it. Kurt had gone and it was all his fault. Blaine's memory was slowly starting to come back, he went to visit his doctor and he told him that it would. He had known that he either might not get it back, he might get bits and pieces or he might get it all back. But right now, he really wished that he got none back. Every memory that was coming back was painful. He could really see that he loved Kurt and it just made his guilt all that much worse. Blaine could barely look at himself in the mirror without hating himself. He went into his room and looked at his bed and a memory came back.
Later that day there was a knock on Blaine’s door and he ran to answer it, smiling when he opened it at Sebastian.
“Hi there sexy.” Sebastian grinned and entered the Anderson home.
“Lets go upstairs.”
Blaine led Sebastian to his bedroom and closed the door behind them. He watched as Sebastian shrugged off his jacket and sat down on the bed. Blaine followed and sat down beside him, as soon as he sat down Sebastian’s lips were on his making Blaine moan. The kissing was passionate and had lot of tongue; there was hair and shirt tugging from both of them. Blaine pushed Sebastian back on the bed and pulled both of their shirts off, lying on top of Sebastian and continued the kissing.
“Glad you’re getting what i wouldn’t give you. I hope you know that this means we’re over.” Kurt shouted, tears running down his cheeks before he turned and fled the house.

Blaine was shocked to see Kurt in the doorway and it hurt to see him so upset. There was a pain in his chest; it hurt more when Kurt declared them over. He realised that he didn’t want this, he didn’t want Sebastian. He wanted Kurt and he knew that they were supposed to be forever. Sebastian was kissing his neck but Blaine pushed him away and got up. He grabbed his clothes and got dressed. He needed to find Kurt and talk to him, beg for his forgiveness.
“Get out. This was a mistake.” Blaine told Sebastian and ran from the room, down the stairs and to Kurt’s house. He banged on the door but Kurt didn’t answer.
“Kurt! Please open up!” He shouted. “I need to talk to you!”

Blaine found himself crying as he remembered what he had done to Kurt, what happened when he cheated. He couldn't believe he was so stupid to do that. He invited some guy into his home, his bedroom just so they could sleep together and then Kurt walked in. All because Blaine was too selfish to wait. Blaine's chest felt tight as he kept replaying the memory over and over. Why the hell did Kurt take him back? Blaine just needed to talk to Kurt, he needed to understand everything about their relationship and beg for him to let them try and be what they were. No. Better than what they were. He got out his phone and tried calling Kurt but once again there was no answer. Kurt really hated him. Blaine was so angry at himself that he dragged his hands across his desk, knocking everything to the ground and things smashed and broke. He shouted and cried.
"Blaine?!" His mother's arms were around him. He didn't hear her come in. "What happened? What's wrong?"
"I've ruined everything. Kurt and I were in love and i ruined it. I cheated, i broke his heart time and time again and i can't stop hurting him. I hate myself so much and it really hurts me, mum. The pain is so bad and I need to speak to him. We need to talk and i need to make this right. He's my best friend and i know that we can be in love again. I miss him and i just need him back here." Blaine cried.

Later that evening, Blaine went to go and talk to Burt and ask for his advice on what to do. He stopped on the stairs when he heard Burt talking to someone. Blaine's mother was upstairs with Aria so he must've been on the phone.
"Of course i miss you too buddy, it's not been the same without you." Burt said down the phone. Blaine instantly knew he was talking to Kurt.
"Blaine's okay. He misses you." Burt paused. Kurt was obviously answering. "I know son. I know its hard and it will be every single day. Even coming back here..." Another pause. "What?" Pause. "You're not coming back?"
Blaine's heart sank and he felt even worse, if that was possible and he got to the bottom of the stairs and entered the living room, where Burt was. He walked over to Burt and took the phone from his hands.
"Hey! Blaine! Give that back!"
"Kurt, don't do this. You can't not come back, you have family and friends here. Your dad needs you, i need you. Come back. Please." But Blaine found out that he was talking to himself. As soon as Blaine had taken the phone from Burt, Kurt had hung up. Blaine threw the phone down and ran a hand through his hair.
"Dammit!" Blaine shouted.
"What were you doing?" Burt shouted at Blaine.
"I needed to talk to him. He's not answering any calls from me and hearing that he's not coming back because of me... I can't have that."
"Well he would have been coming back if it wasn't for you! You have ruined him. He's in pieces because of you! For years your mother and I have wanted you two to get together and marry but now... I hope he meets someone in New York. Any one would be a better boyfriend to him than what you have been." Burt left the room, going to find his wife and baby.
Blaine knew that Burt was right. This was his fault and everyone was mad at him. They were right to be. Burt was right, anyone would be a better boyfriend to Kurt than what Blaine was to him. Kurt deserved the best and as much as Blaine wanted to be the best, he wasn't. Blaine imagined someone else holding Kurt's hand, hugging him, kissing him, touching him and being with him in all ways and he felt sick. His chest tightened and he wanted to cry. Blaine wasn't sure if he loved Kurt but he knew that he definitely didn't want Kurt to be with another guy. He needed to be better, he needed to show Kurt that he can be the guy for him and then they can work on falling in love again.