Author's Notes: When Blaine's date ended and Kurt had slammed the door in his face, he unlocked the door and went inside. He tried to get Kurt to talk to him through his bedroom door but there was no answer. He was definitely being ignored and he knew exactly how he'd made Kurt feel. He decided to leave him to it for the night and then see him in the morning. It would be their Graduation so they couldn't exactly avoid each other.

Kurt couldn't believe it when he saw Blaine kissing his nurse. It completely broke his heart. He didn't expect Blaine to be with another guy so fast and he didn't want Blaine to be with another guy. Thankfully he'd be in New York soon and he wouldn't have to come back very much. He felt so alone and unloved. Seeing the guy you're so crazy in love with kissing another guy was the most painful thing ever. When Blaine cheated on him with Sebastian, Blaine kept trying to prove that Kurt should take him back. But this time was different, Blaine had lost his memory of their relationship and would never try and fight for him or his love. Kurt had the memories of what they had but it wasn't enough for him. He wanted Blaine back. He just knew that he'd lost Blaine forever.

Blaine got to the school and began trying to find Kurt, this was the day that they'd been looking forward to for years. They were finally leaving school. When Blaine couldn't find Kurt, he met up with the other Glee kids.
"Anyone seen Kurt?" Blaine asked.
"No one's seen much of him since you broke up with him." Tina said. "When we do see him, he barely speaks and he looks so sad all the time."
"Santana said she saw you with another guy last night." Quinn told Blaine. "You've moved on that quick?"
"I just don't remember loving him," Blaine shrugged. "What were we like together?"
"You loved each other so much, it was obvious before you two even got together."
Then something popped into his head. He hadn't thought about it and he stood there, wide eyed.
“Blaine! You can’t sleep in my bed. It’s my bed!” Kurt giggled as Blaine tried to fight him for the bed. Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt and picked him up, putting him gently on the floor before jumping into Kurt’s bed. He looked down at Kurt with a grin to see Kurt with a pout on his kissable lips. He thought it was so adorable. He pulled back the covers and Kurt quickly jumped in beside him.
Kurt snuggled down against the pillow and smiled up at Blaine. “Thank you for letting me back in my bed. I suppose because you were kind, I should let you stay here with me.”
“Yay!” Blaine cheered, snuggling down too.
“Goodnight Blaine.”Kurt’s eyes closed and within minutes he fell asleep.
“Goodnight Kurt. I love you.” Blaine whispered the last three words but knew that Kurt didn’t hear him because he was asleep. He leaned forward and kissed Kurt’s lips softly. Times like this would be the only times when he could kiss Kurt. He would never be able to kiss him while awake. Kurt was the first person and boy that he had ever kissed.


Blaine excused himself and walked off on his own. He thought about that memory and then closed his eyes for a second while he thought, it felt so real to him. It felt like he had lips on his. He really needed to talk to Kurt now, talk to him about this and see if it was just a dream or it really was real. He knew as a child that he felt something for Kurt but he assumed that it was something he got out of, moved on from. He kept thinking about that dream or memory and he could see how much he loved Kurt. It didn't seem that long ago, a year, at the most, ago maybe? But whatever that was, stirred something in him to find out more about their relationship. If it was like people keep telling him, then it might not be so bad to get back. Kurt was the best person he knew and he hated hurting him. He hunted high and low and he just couldn't find Kurt. He couldn't find Rachel either so they were probably together. Their Graduation was about to begin so he had to stop looking for Kurt to go and line up. It was then that he saw Kurt, he looked so sad but he was forcing a smile at Rachel and others who talked to him. He was just looking at Kurt when he began thinking about them again.
“I really would do anything for you, you have no idea. I’m just an idiot for taking so long to be with you. I have always loved you and I regret being such an ass about everything. If I could erase the whole Mandy thing, god I would. She kept sticking her tongue down my throat and trying to have sex with me, it was disgusting.” Blaine shuddered at the memory.
“Which bit? The tongue in your throat or wanting to have sex with you?”
“Just the her bit!”
“So you’d stick your tongue down my throat and have sex with me?” Kurt grinned, shuffling closer to Blaine.
“Well one has already been done because I’ve stuck my tongue down your throat several times.” Blaine laughed, wrapping his arms around Kurt’s waist. “And as for the sex part, yes I want to have sex with you when we’re ready.”
“I want all my firsts with you. You’ve taken my first real kiss, you’re my first boyfriend, first friend and best friend and I want to have everything with you. I want to lose my virginity to you, try everything I can with you and one day, I want to marry you. I know it’s a bit fast since we haven’t been dating long, but i’ve known you my whole life and there is nothing that i’m more certain about.” Kurt smiled, sitting completely in Blaine’s lap. Blaine couldn’t help but grin smittenly and cover Kurt’s lips with his own, taking him into a passionate kiss.

The kid behind Blaine nudged him, telling him that his name had been called more than once and he needed to move it before he was shoved harder. He walked out onto the stage and smiled at everyone, finding his mother and Burt. When his turn was done, he stepped to the side to let the pushy kid on the stage. After a while, it was Kurt's turn. Blaine watched as he came on to the stage, kicking his leg up high and smiling at everyone. Blaine admired how he pulled himself together and came out on stage with a smile. He knew that Kurt would be absolutely amazing on the stage, he always knew that.

When Graduation was over, he and the other glee kids had some drinks together but Kurt and Rachel weren't there. Neither was Finn actually, which was strange. Blaine didn't stay at the part for too long, he wanted to go and talk to Kurt. He got home and went straight to Kurt's room but what was strange was that the door was open and it looked emptier.
"Mum!" Blaine went down the stairs to find his mother, who was in the kitchen. "Where's Kurt?"
"There's something i need to tell you."
"Where is he? Is he okay?" Blaine was nervous now, usually when someone had something to tell him it was bad news.
"He's okay, he's Kurt." Dianna said.
"Then where is he?"
"On his way to New York. He and Rachel just left, Finn was going too but he broke up with Rachel. Burt and I went to say goodbye to him, we did ask if you could be there but he didn't think you'd want to. So he decided not to bother you. He said to say goodbye though. I don't know when he'll be back but it won't be for a few months, probably Christmas."
"He's gone?!" Blaine couldn't believe it. "He's actually gone to New York without saying goodbye?! I thought he wasn't leaving yet?"
"He couldn't stay."
"Because of me." Blaine sighed.
"I'm sorry sweetie."
"I had memories earlier. Of me and Kurt."
"You did? That's amazing!" Dianna smiled.
"The memories i had were so happy, we were so happy. I could clearly see how much we loved each other and it made me think that maybe we could get that back. I was open to falling in love with him again and now he's gone. He left thinking that i didn't care about him, he left heartbroken and after i told him that we couldn't be friends anymore. He saw me kissing another guy and the look on his face! Oh god, mum! I keep hurting him! Maybe he is better off without me."
Blaine got up and went back upstairs, he stood outside Kurt's room and looked around it. It smelled of Kurt and he realised how much he was going to miss Kurt. How much he already missed Kurt.