Sept. 11, 2013, 10:06 a.m.
Cradle to Grave: Chapter 23
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“Please don’t go.” Kurt said quietly. Blaine nodded and lay back down beside Kurt on the bed, wrapping his arms around his boyfriend when Kurt snuggled against his chest.
“I won’t go anywhere my love, I promise. I’ll be right here and taking care of you.” One of Blaine’s arms held Kurt close and the other stroked his boyfriend’s soft hair. “I love you so much and I am so sorry that I couldn’t get in-“
“Stop, please I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Okay, we won’t. We will stay here and snuggle until you want to talk or do something.” Blaine had no idea what to say to Kurt, he didn’t know how he was feeling especially when it happened. He could guess but he’d never truly know.
Night came and Blaine had fallen asleep, leaving Kurt wide awake and not being able to sleep. He knew that the minute – no the second he shut his eyes, he’d have nightmares. He didn’t want to relive that all over again. Having Karofsky pin him down and move his hands down to his pants, undoing them and pulling him and his boxers down. The feeling of having a man’s hands that aren’t Blaine’s on him made him feel sick, especially Karofsky touching his manhood and thrusting against his ass, leaving his mark there. Kurt was just getting ready to let Blaine do more to him but now he was more reserved than ever. He could stand Blaine touching him but only cuddling, it was also only Blaine and his father that was allowed. He didn’t know how he’d feel about someone else doing it; it’d probably freak him out. He wondered what people were going to say at school, people saw through the window and heard what happened. He was going to be gossip at the school, what Karofsky did and then the football guys would realise that Kurt didn’t try it on with Karofsky like they thought. He didn’t know how he could face the people at school again, they would all know what happened and they would look at him with pity and/or disgust.
Blaine woke up the next morning and saw Kurt lying with his eyes open, he was pale and looked exhausted. He really didn’t look like he had slept at all and Blaine didn’t blame him but he would’ve liked Kurt to sleep. If it was nightmares that Kurt was worried about then they could give him sleeping pills or something to help. He pulled Kurt close to him and held him close.
“You don’t look like you’ve slept at all.” Blaine said in Kurt’s ear. “I’m sorry; i should’ve stayed awake and held you.”
“You were tired, you couldn’t help it.”
“I know but i just wish i could help you. Your dad just tells me to be there for you and I am, but i just want to take the pain away. I hate seeing you suffering and knowing that there’s nothing that I can do. I just want the pain to stop and to see you smile again. What can i do? I will do anything to make you better. Knowing you’re in pain, it hurts my heart.” Blaine told Kurt.
“There’s nothing you can do, god i wish there was something but there isn’t. I just need you to hold me and love me, even though i’m disgusting.” Kurt began crying as he spoke.
“You are not disgusting!” Blaine looked at Kurt with a very serious face. “You are definitely not disgusting. What he did was disgusting but that doesn’t make you that, you are brave and you fought. He was stronger and more powerful though, he left stuff on you but that doesn’t mean he’s marked his territory. Do you know how i know that? Because you are your own person Kurt Hummel, you are your own person and you are my loving and beautiful boyfriend. Me leaving a love bite is marking what’s mine because you are my amazing boyfriend who deserves all the love in the world. You deserve the best and i want to give that to you and one day, what he did will be just a memory and one that you won’t have to think about. We will have new memories and those will be of one day, us making love to one another, getting out of Ohio and going somewhere else, getting into amazing colleges, having our own place to live and us getting married. Those are the good memories that’ll push that one far back in your mind. Good memories should outway the bad.”
Kurt cried harder at Blaine’s speech and snuggled closer, face in his chest as he clung to him. “I love you so much Blaine Anderson. I don’t know what I did to deserve you, I really don’t.”
“How is he now?” Dianna Anderson asked as she sat down on the Hummel’s couch.
“I don’t know, he went upstairs straight away. Blaine’s been with him the whole time, but I just don’t know what to say to him. What do I do? What do I say? My son was practically raped by another boy, what do i do? I can’t look at him without feeling sick and thinking about what happened. I love my boy more than anything in this world and I can’t look at him, what kind of father am i?” Burt burst into tears, making Dianna pull him into a hug.
“You are a father that has had a huge shock and something big has happened. You know what happened to him and what he did, so you can’t help but think about it. You still love him and you still care about him, it’ll just take time for things to be right again.”
Comments
Blaine's speech was touching. Love the chapter
This chapter was really good. Blaine is really amazing and I love that he is doing everything he can to help Kurt. My favorite part of the chapter was when Blaine was telling Kurt about all the great memories they will make together. I can't wait to see what happens next and to see if the boys realize Burt and Dianna are together.
Nice chapter. Blaine's so sweet.